Originally posted by: nikki.171
Oh My Gawd ! I really thought I was an emotional weirdo, which is why I never voiced out my thoughts! But now I am gaping at the screen BECAUSE you guys just described me !
Word - Monica, Mogo ( Gah, I feel left out. Both ur names start with M! ) The Bold is the story of my life and I was lyke I am a fool for thinking like that. Its like I tend to make up for my reality in the show ! *sigh* It feels good to know there are others out there !
You know its hard to think of you guys being bullied. From what I have gathered from your posts - you guys are beautiful people inside OUT . Yes Mogo quit telling yourself your not. I would have told you to smack your head if Monica hadnt already! You are perfect just the way you are, and we love you for that !
But yes I crave acceptance and love too for that matter. I feel crazy for feeling the way I do but sometimes, it gets overwhelming.
Still the romantic me refuses to die, no matter what I tell myself !
Hearts - the way Asad says, they're stubborn little creatures holding on to something that will perhaps never be ours !
Bless you Nikki, you're such a sweetheart! 🤗 Honestly I'm happy with WHO I am today. It's not so much what's lacking in me, it's more about what guys are looking for that baffles me. I mean they always keep to themselves and rarely say the same as what their actually thinking. It;s so confusing. And makes us girls overthink and over-analyse things too much.
Aww you're so sweet. Well for me the main reason was that I was a Indian. The only Indian, mind you, an American school, in a Latin American country. Not exactly easy to blend in 😆. Plus like you must have seen in an earlier post of mine, I had this one girl who was out to me my life hell. And the funny thing is that there would be times we would have normal, and even somewhat, plesant conversations when we were alone. But anyway, that was a major factor. But also, I was really sensitive back then. And I took some normal teasing (like about crushes and stuff) to heart. But then again there were some incidents that were just mean 😆
I'm over it. Uni has been the best, with it's own set of embarrassing moments. OMG I just thought of another story too 😆 So I'm in high school, senior year, a week from graduation. My crush had left the year before to do his senior year somewhere else. He came back to visit for our grad. Anyway, we were at a friend's house, near the pool, with tanning chairs, and a small look out (about 8 feet above the ground). We were drinking and I did not have the HIGHEST tolerance back then (so after about 3 drinks I was a goner, but still remembered my horrifying humiliation).
It was girls night, and him and his friend basically crash the party. I'm already tipsy by this point, and he comes near me. I start acting like a child. Literally. I start dancing (partly from the lightheadedness) and I start swinging back and forth from the railing (this was a ledge, overlooking a dock). And then I decide to climb onto the lookout. And start swinging forward and backward from the railing up there. And the worst part is, I refused to come down, until he had to come and physically drag me down. I think I might have also cried in front of him. Sigh. 😆
Aww nikki don't feel left out! You're an N! That's just after M 😆 so you're still included 🤗
And yes! Thank you for helping knock some sense in Mojo's little head. 😆
Shiv Shakti
Ye Hai Mohabbatein
CID
