AarYa OS: The Aftermath.

i am very busy nowadays still i did this. I couldnt stop myself. Actually i planned to give something like this on the OS compitition but the theme didnt match and i couldnt get chance to work on it. Then few months back me and rosey di had a conversation, she wanted me to write something after Lalitpur track. i also was quite excited about it. I wanted to write something on this track. But couldnt make it anytime. And finally i get chance, better to say the exact thing come to my mind without my knowledge. So here it is. It is my imagination, what i wanted to happen after that track. I dont know if it is proper or not but i was not getting peace till i dont post it. Hope you will enjoy.

I was stunned, shocked, surprised when some woman in my birthday party said that my wife is pregnant.. Really? Everyone was happy. i saw my wife infront of me, but she is avoiding eye contact with me. "Is that true Aarti ji?, Then why you didnt say me this much big matter?" I asked. As the thing hurt me. I didnt know i was angry or happy. why should i be happy when i consider that night as sin and this is the result of that night so why i would be happy?

But something inside wanted to cheerish that moment but the thing hurt me was i come to know about my wife's pregnancy from a outsider? Why? Don't i deserve to know this news before any stranger.

but before i get any answer

Suddenly she was vanished. I called for her, but she was no where. Where she could go and why? And then the words of my family members, my friends bring the sense in me that was she has gone.

Damn, how can she leave like this? Is that joke? She went away with Ansh too? So the morning packing was for this? So she planned it from before? To leave me like this suddenly? No she can't do this. I drove the car like crazy. I have to stop her. I have to say many things to her. I will not allow her to leave me.

i went to the busstop, ask every possible person showing their picture but in vain. I didn't get her.

And then Lalitpure. I missed Ansh, badly. Did i miss her? Yes i did. I was missing her from last few days, from the day when she started ignoring me. It hurts then. But i couldnt ask her the reason. Or i can say i didnt dare. When again we got locked in the bathroom, i saw her restlessness when i was not at all in hurry to open the door but she was. It hurted me then also.

Yes she was wearing the taabiz sent by maa. I asked her reason. so It was the reason. I asked her if she was pregnant after that night but still she didnt say me. Why? Did i scared her this much that she finally decided to leave me?

Every minute was a punishment for me when i was searching them. If wouldnt get them what i'll answer my daughters? To my family? Mostly what i'll answer to myself? Will i able to forgive myself?

She said she loves me. She did. Still she went awy from me. Why?

i did every possible things to find them, FIR, message on television, still i didnt get them. Finally the moment when Ansh tapped my hand at temple, When i saw him the immense happiness covered me. I couldnt believe at first. I hugged him, kissed him. And then i saw her. He showed me. I felt i won. Finally i won. I have found her. She can't go away from me again. I wont allow her. i was tired in the hide and seek game with her.

And then i was startled when she said, "Lets go Ansh", She still wanted to go? She didn't even say a single word with me and want to leave again? I held her hand to stop her. She stopped looked at me but still was avoiding me, i could sense that. "You cant seperate me from my children Aarti ji.." i said. I thougt it was enough to stop her.

But she shocked me again saying, "Ok then. Ansh will be with you. I am going alone."

is that she said? How could she say that? I didnt want my children only, i wanted her too but i couldn't say that. I held her hand again immediately, "I said you cant separate me from my children, and still you are doing the same." I said it, making sure that she could get my answer that i have accepted our baby. Deffinitely i did. But i knew she take this big step thinking only i'll not accept the baby.

She was there facing her back towards me, i didnt know what my words kept affect on her. She turned after a silent moment, her eyes were teary. I didnt accept the fact before that her tears all torn up my heart. And then she said,"I have equal right on my children because i am their mother. You have right on Ansh, i know that, and i will not question about in, But this baby is mine, only mine. Because you consider our moments as ..." she didn't complete the words and i knew what she wanted to say. i saw her broke with tears, but i couldnt reply. I didnt know what to say.

She didnt bother to say anything else, she just started to leave. Ansh looked at me. He was clueless, he had a hope that his Papa can stop his mumma. She was on the stairs of the temple. I rushed after her, "Aarti ji, you can't separate my daughters from their mother again". And she stopped. Yes it worked. I rushed in front of her, she was still in her tears, "Aarti ji, they will not able to bear to loose their mother again. please dont make them motherless again", I couldnt say that you cant separateme from my wife also.

i knew this thing can force her to change her decission. She started to weep, "How i become so much selfish, i didnt even think about my children," i couldnt understand how to console her, i just placed my hand on her shoulder to pacify her. She immidiately jerked my hand away, "Dont touch me"

I never imagined that she can say me this. It was like a stab on my heart.

Her expressions change. I understood something was wrong. She was so weak i could feel that. And soon she wasnt able to stand. I held her as she fainted, "Aarti ji, what happened? Open your eyes please"

I was helpless. So much. Was so scared. My mind was not working what to do.

After about 2 hours she opened her eyes. The two hours were like a decade. i didnt leave her hand for a moment also. I didnt feel this since so long. It was not only worry but something else too, which i couldnt understand before.

"How are you feeling now Aarti ji?", I asked seeing her opening eyes.

"I want to go to my daughters, my children", She withdraw her hand from my hand moving her gaze to another side.

why she is ignoring me like this? It gives pain more than anything else. I didnt want to give her stress again. So i kept quite,

After discharging from hospital we returned back. We didnt exchange single words in way, it was Ansh who kept talking and i kept giving the answers of his answers. She didnt even sit in the front place beside me, it was Ansh there. She refused to sit beside me. She knew very well how to hurt me in every step.

Babuji was upset with me. But he didnt say anything as he and the family knew about her condition. And then we witness the joyfull and emotional reunion of my small family, reuninon of my children with their mother. She was very emotional. The kids take promise from her so that that she can't go away from them again and no doubt that relaxed me.

"You should take rest now Aarti ji" I knew the mental taurema she was facing since last 24 hours.

As the family agreed we proceed to our room. Once we were there i said, "Dont stress much, it is not good for you."

"I can take care of myself, you dont need to worry"

well i could understand she is taking revenge from me step by step. And i had to bear that because i knew that i was in fault. I kept quite as i didnt her to faint again like happened in the temple.

After dinner when i returned to my room i saw her placing the pillow on the couch."What are you doing Aarti ji? Please use the bed, you will not be comfortable"

"I said, no need to worry about me, i can take care of myself." she said again firm

"Please Aarti ji, if you want then i can sleep here, you can use the bed"

"I am only mother of your children Yash ji. Like a nanny. So i definitely can't sleep in your bed." Her reply stunned me. How could she say that? But its true, i always said that to her that she is only mother of my children and today when she is saying this why its hurting me? But she didn't bother about that like i didnt bother some days back before saying her anything.

I could understand very well that she returned with me just for the children. I was not a matter to her. She stays happy with the family members, with the children but not then when i am around. She play with them but immidiately leave if i went there. If i take food for her she dont even touch that, she take care of my important things, but when i want to do anything for her she dont allow me. Slowly i started to feel irritated with her behavior. The distance she created between us that increased.

And then one day when i recieved the report of her. I was shocked, stunned, when I learned about the thing which she never cared to inform me. A furios me went to confort her. She was doing her work in our room. "Aarti ji we need to talk", as i said she looked at me, i dont know what she thought but said, "I dont want to..." She tried to walk past me but i grieped her hand, "Aarti ji please..."

Again she removed my hand from her at once, "I said before also stay away from me."

Her eyes were red. Sometime i got scared to see her. I paniced that it will make her sick again, "But we need to talk, its about you, about the baby." I said hoping she will be agree. I saw her looking at me strangely then held her hand, i knew she was feeling dizzy. I always was afraid about it. Whenever i tried to talk to her the stress made her ill.

Making her sit on the bed and gave her a glass of water but she refused to take that also. My patience was reaching in its limit, "What do you think Aarti ji? After coming from Lalitpur you always wear a cold behaviour with me, whenever i tried to talk with you never allowed me, i know i was in fault but we need to talk." I said furiously.

She stood up from her position, "Everytime your wish, your feelings are important and you want to talk with me for that only, not for any other reason. I can take care of myself very well, so better you dont bother"

Yes her words hurt me from the day we return but today i was angry at her for whatever she is doing, "Thats great, you always take care of everything, my important things, needs and when i go to do the same, you become mad at me. Why like that? You say you are mother of my children, so being their father i have right to take care of their mother and you can't stop me from doing that" My voice rage was high and she was quite this time, she didnt reply, may be what i said forced her to think. And her silence gave me chance to speak more, "You didn't even bother to inform me, us about the complications you are facing in your pregnancy? Do you know how much risky this is for the unborn baby also?"

She looked at me with pain, "Yes, thats the truth. You buy the every right. Today you are trying to take care of me just because of the baby. I am carrying the flesh blood of the family, thats why. Only thats why. Yash ji i know my importance, my position in your life, what need to remind me again? I started to feel that your feelings towards me really was changing. But i was wrong. All you want this baby."

I wondered what i actually said and what she take the words. I was about to hold her again but i knew she will widraw me again, i just moved a step closer to her, "You are taking me wrong Aarti ji, i was talking that you should take the proper treatment, and i talked to the doctor and she said you should go for the abortion. And i think she is right."

She moved a step back from me, i understood that the distance she will keep like this, she was not even allowing me to come a little closer to her, "What do you mean? Do you know what is the mean of abortion? Kill the life which is growing inside me. For you its easy to talk but for me its impossible to think. And how can you take decission about it? You are noone to take any decission about me or my baby." She cried, i saw. but i am noone? How could she even think that? It just made me mad, "How can you say that i am no one? For God sake Aarti, i am the father of the child and this is the truth. you agree with it or not but you are my wife and i have every right to take any decission about your life."

I knew i was becoming rough but i need to do that, i need to say the thing which is important. I clam down just after the confession i made, i heard her sobbing, it broke my heart knowing that every time i am becoming reason of her every tears, "Now you are saying you are the father of this child but How suddenly that thing come to your mind When you considered that night as sin, so this is the result of the sin. Suddenly you realise i am your wife, where was your realisation when you accused me that i planned everything on that night? Where were your this realisation when you blamed me for everything? Is this a husband do with his wife? You clearly declred that night as act of Sin, did you ever think what that could effect on me? And suddenly today you remembered that i am your wife."

I stood there silently bowing my head down as i didnt have anything to answer. I knew i was wrong. And i didnt have any satisfactory reason.

She continued saying, "You have right to take every decission. We vowed as husband and wife but in our relation it was only you. I never tried to take Arpita ji's place but you blamed me for that, i tried to make my own place in your life. I started loving you but that was wrong, i accepted. You decided to change Ansh's school, ok you did that for Ansh's wellbeing but did you bother to discuss with his mother? You decided you will save Ansh from kidnappers, you did. Do you know what happened with me next? Did you bother to know what kind of treatment i got from your family. You decided to compete in boxing compitition, You know you could have die, did you think what could happen with me with your children after that? No, you didnt because for you your feelings, your ego and your decission is important. And see today also you are talking with me because your are feeling guilty, not because i was hurt. Did you try to know in which circumstances i decided to leave? No you didnt. And suddenly today you remembered that i am your wife and you have right to take decission for me."

She stopped saying in one go. I was not able to look at her. Because everything she said was right. I never tried to know her emotions. Today i was feeling that i deseved more punishment, may be more of her silence. But it was killing me. Again me come in my thought not she, her situations. Today she felt insecure because of me.

It was quite. Like the clam after a strom. I decided to look at her slowly, as i had to face her. Her painful face was in front of me. I saw she was trying to balance herself to stand. At first i was clueless then held her immidiately prevent from falling. This time she clutched my arm for the support, may be she also become weak after the out brust. Her head fall on my shoulder. She was awake just her eyes were closed, i held her securely, "Yash ji, please dont ask me to abort the baby." She murmered. My eyes welled up in her statement.

I placed my both hands on her back, puliing her closer and giving some rest, "I am sorry Aarti", i whishperd, not knowing she will accept this or not "Will You give me a chance to shower you with my true love and care? Will you give me a chance to be your husband from father of your children?", i know she will give me but still i was scared of her denial, when i felt her nodding on my shoulder keeping her hand on my chest.

"Thank you", I said with the beeming joy inside me and dream of a beautiful future with my love.

Thank you for reading. 😊