punished for love but what sin have i committed?

Bejan dil ko

This lifeless heart,

Bejan dil ko , bejan dil ko , tere ishq ne zinda kiya

This lifeless heart , this lifeless heart , your love had brought it alive

Asad Ahmed khan was a man who never believed in love. His young fragile heart broke the day his father left his family taking with him the young brother he had come to love more than anything else. His emotions died that day and the heart that beat in his chest actually became a lifeless one, till one fine day he saw a grief stricken girl at a dharga, crying and praying... His emotionless heart started to beat with a new rhythm the moment he saw that girl.. His heart felt her pain and he prayed for her.

Then taqdeer brought the girl to his house and to his life and eventually his lifeless heart was brought alive by her love. he himself did not realize when his lifeless heart started beating for her but today he knows very well that she is his life.. his reason for living.. his everything.

Phir tere ishq ne hee is dil ko tabha kiya

And then it was your love, that made it distraught

Tadap tadap ke is dil se Aah nikalti rahi

pining, pining, From the tortured heart came deep sighs

Mujko saza di pyaar ki , aisa kya gunha kiya ?

I have received punishment for love, but what sin have I committed?

To lut gayeee, haan , lut gaye, To lut gaye hum teri mohabbat mein

That,I have lost everything ( been looted) ,yes , lost everything for my love for you.

But then today that same love for that girl has made him distraught.. he is broken.. he is like a man whose most valuable possession is being looted. Losing the girl's love makes him feels like he has lost everything in this world...he is pining for her... he is desperate to get his love back... he breaths and his heart beats..his body functions but his soul is not living.

He has been punished in love.. but what was his sin to get such a punishment?

He trusted his best friend.. but he does not even know that he is being deceived by her and it is because of her that he is being punished in love.

tera chehar nazar aye

your face appears everywhere

tera chehar nazar aye , din ke ujale me teri yaden tadapaye

your face appears everywhere,in the light of day your memories(thoughts) haunt me

teri yaden tadpayen raton ke andhera me , tera chehara nazar aye

your memories in the darkness of night too , your face I see(appears everywhere)

machal machal ke is dil se aah niqalti rahi,

rippling rippling from this tortured heart comes tormented sighs

Mujko saza di pyaar ki , aisa kya gunha kiya ?

I am punished for falling in love ,but what sin have i committed?

To lut gayeee, haan ,lut gaye, lut gaye hum teri mohabbat mein) x3

That,I have lost everything ( been looted) ,yes , lost everything for my love for you

Agar mile khuda to , puchunga 'khudayaaa,

If I meet God , I will ask him, oh 'God

jism mujhe de ke mitti ka , shishe sa dil kyun banaya ?

having giving me a body of earth ( clay) why did you make my heart of glass ?

aur us pe diya fitrat ke wo karta hai mohabbat !, wah re wah teri kudrat !

and on top of that you gave it the Tendency to fall in Love,

(made its habit, so that it falls in love)!oh how remarkable are you nature!

wah re wah teri kudrat ! us pe de diya kismat ,kabhi hai milan , kabhi furqat,

how glorious your handiwork, oh nature! and on top of that you gave fate , sometimes

meeting(encounters), sometimes separations ,

kabhi hai milan kabhi furqat hai yehi kya wo mohabbat ?, wah re wah teri kudrat !'

sometimes meeting, sometimes separations is this what is to 'love'? how remarkable/glorious are you nature!'

sisak sisak ke is dil se aah nikalti rahi, mujko saza di pyaar ki

whimpering whimpering(with quiet sobs), from this heart come sighs,I have been punished for falling in love,

aisa kya gunha kiya

what sin have I committed?,

To lut gayeee, haan ,lut gaye, lut gaye hum teri mohabbat mein

That,I have lost everything ( been looted) ,yes , lost everything for my love for you

This song isn't one of my favourite songs, but the way it aptly describes the story of Asad touched my heart.

Today's episode again started with the prayer at the Dharga and just like a man told asad yesterday that he will get what he want from here, today a lady wished Zoya with the same.. Asad and Zoya both did not come to Ajmer looking for the other. They did not even expect to meet there.. they were just trying to find some peace to the havoc but still walking through a crowded fort, they felt the presence of each other.. destiny brought them together and Asad finally saw Zoya.

She did not even meet him or give him a chance to say anything when he found her at the Madrasa .. And today when he saw her his desperate run in search of her depicted his fear of losing her once again before he could not even talk to her. He feared she might disappear again and he may never find her.

And then when he finally caught up with her, he confessed what he should have said ages ago.. today he did not hesitate. He did not stutter with a Wo actually.. he is a man whose entire life depended on that moment and what he was about to say... And it was the simplest thing but the entire truth of his life - that he loved her. And will always love her..

I am really glad that Asad confessed his love to Zoya this way.. confessing to one's love when you know that the other person would reciprocate it is the easiest thing.. But confessing to it when you knew that the other person would most probably reject it is the hardest.

Today Asad does not know where he stands with Zoya.. he does not even know whether he is innocent and worthy of Zoya's love... but still he confessed it because that is the absolute one truth of his life with which he would live the rest of his life and he felt that he should at least tell Zoya about that regardless of what happens with them in future and what zoya decides... he wanted Zoya to know that he did and still does indeed love her.. he was ready to accept what ever Zoya decides after that.. but that does not mean he did not hope for her to forgive him and to come back to him.. hence his Please when Zoya started to walk away.

But Zoya did not stop. And his last small hope died with her receding foot steps.. tadap tadap ke his heart sighed and cried.. what sin has he committed to receive this punishment?

Lyrics credit: hindilyrics.net

Originally posted by: tvbug2011

Lovely post, Kaussar. The song was so apt, and KSG and Surbhi were so so believable! It was a very moving episode, beautifully picturised. Minor irritation was the chitrahaar type epi, with three songs back-to-back. But well hell, at least we got AsYa throughout, so... 😃.

Originally posted by: s120

Such a lovely post! 😃

Though I also am not too fond of this song but yes it was apt for Asad's situation and you've explained that beautifully. And I loved his confession. It was simply beautiful. He had been wanting to and trying to confess to Zoe so many times before but couldn't go beyond wo actually but today when he did, it was simple and straight from the heart. No more beating around the bush. And that please he uttered was so heartbreaking.

I am so glad about the precap. Finally bond Zoe is in action. She will connect the dots and will expose Billi hopefully.

Originally posted by: kaussar

thanks Shreya.

Yea the confession and their emotions were so raw and straight from the heart .. and i actually enjoyed the fact that the whole epi revolved around Asad's confession and his breakdown after Zo went away saying its too late.

Zo 's dimaag finally started to work.. It's like Asad's confession has actually brought her out of depression even though she has walked away from him today.. she finally remembered him trying to say to her that night that he did not remember anything... billi will surely get exposed after she pushes Zo from cliff isn't it?.😃

Originally posted by: EternalFrission

a bang on post...

today's episode was really good, kabhi were outstanding as always.

it was painful to see asad so torn apart, he probably took lots of courage to admit his feelings only to be rejected, really felt him sorry when he uttered the words 'please'😭.

yeh i agree the song was appropriate for the situation, zoya's run from him was so cute, loved surbhi's and karan's expressions in the song sequence.

precap looks good cant wait to see how zoya finds out billi's truth.

thanks for the pm😳