ICE- An Aarya OS

"I can't describe my life, no one could. It's merely impossible." All I have to say to this is: what a joke.

My life story could be easily told by one word, 'ICE.' Not only mine, but this word could describe many stories, but most importantly, it could describe his heart.

Ice cannot be made without water. Just like this, I could not be me without him. But he forgot that I couldn't be made without the cold either. What am I saying? He didn't forget. His heart was enough for the cold. He made me complete, what am I saying he was me! He was everything I wanted for myself, he was the missing part to make me…..he was the only part to make me.

A cold yet devious laugh was heard, all it portrayed was pain, suffering….revenge.

How stupid was I? How idiotic was I to believe that he was the part that made me complete? I forgot…I forgot that just as he could make me….he could make me melt, disappear….kill the fact of my existence. Holding an ice block under the slow flow of water lets you felt the coldness on your hand…but most importantly it lets you see the water from the melted ice pass through the crevices that go unnoticed in your hand.

Just like that in order to break me…just like he made me….I was put under trial by him. It made me melt…slowly, with my love for him. The loss of my love for him went unnoticed. Who am I kidding? I lost myself. As I was losing, I could feel under the trial by him, the heart he claimed to give to me, was cold. Cold as stone. I was losing myself, in the palm of his hand, by him, made by him, broken by him.

The crevices in his hand which let me flow…and lose myself, were just like the holes in his heart…which let me suffer. Left me to DIE…

I hate him..I hate the sight of him, I hate the very thought of him but….

…..the touch of his cold lips trying to reconcile on mine, makes me lose myself again

……the feeling I have in his strong arms is too much to bear

……the thought of being complete again ruins everything.

Confusing feelings, aren't they? No, they aren't.

It's just that Aarti is completed yet broken day by day by…him.

OMG such a small girl with such deep thoughts, using such strong words to describe such deep pain, anguish, desire, love all in this small part of a OS. 👏

You've left me speechless dear 👏 👏

Thnx...i better get a nice gift from yuh eh...i waiting.😛😆