Unspoken Feelings:A SwaRon OS

Unspoken feelings.

Sharon's behavior towards was indifferent from when she had returned back from Delhi...This made Swayam to wonder...that is he so easy to forget...he was completely broken down...But then he realized he cannot give up so easily...after all she is Sharon...!! If he has struggled for so long...overcome so many insecurities, so many hurdles...then why lose now...he decided to tie up all loose ends'confront Sharon...ask her.

Today she told her that he needs a break...but still we would find it all. He set out from his house...it was late evening...with lot of questions in his mind..he had determined to get answers this time.

He entered through the window as usual...he quickly and carefully jumped in...and to his surprise he didn't find Sharon there... he found lights and fan on...and he found room in a mess too..

He went towards the bed, he found some papers...later he realized those were letters...

There were so many letters...he later came to know that those were letters for him'which Sharon used to write daily... he was completely shocked... speechless would be underestimation of his still state...

He picked up as much he could gather...he touched them...felt them..tears were flowing from his eyes..he was astonished...he found his name in the letters and he moved his fingers over it...later he moved his fingers through Sharon's name too. He took few of them and arranged them according to date...

He began reading them...

(SwaRon sharing the stage for first time, Sharon slapping Swayam.)

Swayam,

I know, that it is too early and quick to make some opinion about someone, but I don't know why I felt like writing this to you.

The way you always look at me...makes me a victim of your innocence, I might have seen you once or twice may be, but still you had effect on me.. I will never accept this though.

Many guys like Sharon Raiprakash, the diva, the dancing diva...but you.. you liked THE SHARON...

Firstly, I am surprised, how come you recognized that inner Sharon inside me..? No one as yet was able to do...

You came in my life...and suddenly I started feeling vulnerable...Am I that crystal clear to everyone'or that clarity is due to purity of ur heart...is the question running in my mind..

But I guess, second one is correct.. only you are the one who can understand me...

I really m scared with the thought..Swayam..dont try to know me...I am one complicated species'and you are an angel...You and me should stay away from each other...

And I took first step in keeping you away..I slapped you! I hope this works..

I know this is too too early to say all this,.. and I am thinking of far ahead future. Ab tak toh hamare beech thik se baat bhi nahi hui..

.But as you can love me, know me, understand the innocent Sharon better than aggressive Sharon.. then even I can recognize you...I am good at face reading and usually correct! I have come to know that you are a different guy...not like the other ones who love me or pretend to love me for what I have..

But you love me for what I am..!

Wont say Love u..but would say..thank you.

Thank you swayam.

Love' umm no..

Regards,

Sharon.

He was stunned...he couldn't believe his eyes..his emotions started taking form of tears...he took the next one...

(Burning the gifts.)

Dear Swayam,

Got to see ur new side today...I had come with the fake reason of returning back ur gifts...but the real reason was to show u, that how special they are to me...all were my priced possession. I do not know...where my ego is taking me...but one thing is for sure that it is destroying me...I am killing myself...

But the real thing is you have hurt me swayam today...I really really thought that those gifts meant a lot to u...

And I also know that I was correct in thinking so..they mean a lot to u...and a lot se bhi jyada to me...

But u burnt them...I am so so so very sorry...I can understand the pain you must have gone through while doing it... and I am the sole culprit for that pain in ur eyes... how u must be feeling while destroying that dress,,,.. which wasn't just made of fabric...it was made with ur pure emotions, it was made with ur true love..for me...it was made with that care and affection...which u always have for me...

How stupid and weird I behave... I myself came with my fake ego... which forced you to burn those gifts...but that caused a cribbing pain in my heart...as if a fire is raging in my heart... I myself compel you to hate me...but I am terrified with the thought of u detesting me.

I couldn't speak up to you..voice my heart in front of u...but at least here..I am able to do that..!!

I couldn't see my priceless gifts flaming...so I tried to take them back..but unfortunately could collect only few.. U left me there.. But if for a second u would have waited I would break down..

I really really love you Swayam...I don't know what is it..that has kept me holded ...and I have hidden this from u..but I am in more pain than you are..

I wish to stay...with you forever...wake up each morning to the rhythm of your heartbeat..and I know...u too feel the same.

Love, and lots of love,

Yours and only yours

Sharon.

Now, he couldn't control himself...he was happy ...and taken aback...with this new side of Sharon...he quickly jumped to the next one..

(Shivam fiasco.)

Dearest Swayam,

A day with hectic and heavy events. I was there in the party with Shivam..I could clearly see that his intensions are not proper..but still I allowed him to come close to me'I gave him the right to hurt me...as well as hurt you..

Nicole kissed you with concern and she liked ur sense of integrity and commitment towards me...but to me it seemed some thing else.. and I took it as ego...and therefore, I was with Shivam to show you..that even I have someone.

The time, when shivam came forward instead of u..I thought you would wipe away that food remnants...but Shivam did it...and I could see the hurt in your eyes.

Later..Shivam misused my trust...he tried to impose himself on me...but at that moment, I remembered you...all the moments spent with you...a fear took away my senses.. fear of losing you when you come to know about this..

And this thought terrified me'so I backed away' I returned back home crying'because my heart and conscience pricked me'it was like I betrayed you'and I hurt myself in the process'

But the main thing, which is above all these things...is that I am happy.

Happy because the work, I couldn't complete...was completed by my actions. I was never able to mouth my feelings for u...but my actions did that..! I am happy actually. I never told you how important you are to me...but my deeds did that magic. Let me tell you how.!

I was friendly with Shivam...but the reason- to show YOU..that if u can be friendly with some other girl..than I can also do the same.

I talked to him, praised him ... to show YOU that he has some standard,... and Sharon Raiprakash has good choice.

I was with Shivam in the party reason- to make YOU understand, that I am not happy with the fact that you came with Nicole..

Thus, even if I deny your importance in my life.. my every action screams and yells only one thing- THAT YOU ARE DAMN IMPORTANT, I WANT YOU WITH me.

Knowingly or unknowingly all my actions and reactions have YOU in it..that's why I am happy. Atleast, if not me, my heart and soul has accepted YOU...

I never understand how can you love me..and why you love me..but yet regardless I love you the most.

Yours and truly yours

Sharon.

He then hurriedly took the next'

(Another showdown: Where Swayam calls Sharon a easy girl)

Dear Swayam,

And yet another slap today... It felt like life slapped me...my fate slapped me hard... so hard that it left marks on my heart..

So finally an outbreak... Thank god... You showed ur emotions..you finally expressed something..u were behaving so cold..after Shivam's party..I always feared the inner turmoil that u must be going through..

Though, the outburst was sudden and way of expressing was wrong...

The way you said about my character in front of everyone really hurt me.. u called me an easy girl'just because I had given myself up to u.. I wish that moment was completed...

But nevertheless, m happy that you came up with ur feeling.. ur pain took form of anger..and u let it out..thus ur heart must have become lighter. From so many days..that fire was burning inside you...I was scared'that this fire may end by eating u up..but thank god, it erupted today...at least u spoke up... From past few days..we hadn't talked.

The pain in ur heart must finally be reduced now...m happy that you let out all your filthy thoughts.

I don't really care about my pain'because I know I am solely responsible for it..I hope we sort out our differences soon,,,, and have a stable relationship status.

I love You swayam.

Love,

Sharon.

He couldn't control his tears... He then moved little further on the bed..and found a letter'it was looking fresh.. On having a look he realized that it is wet too..with the tears...it was incomplete letter...and tear- stained...

It read...

(Back to square one incident..!)

Dearest Swayam,

So, finally I saw you today..I returned back from delhi..and you gave me surprise, you won the basketball match..wohoo.. So my Swayam excels in sports too.. hmm interesting...

It took much pain today to face you, not because I had to avoid you or something like that'. But because, seeing you after time, my heart, it started doing sommmersaults..It was pulling me towards you, It wished to take you into bone ... crushing hug.. I so so wanted to be there today..in your arms.

But I don't know why...life always plays with me... At first, when everything was fine..I missed the chance of being with you, when I was with you finally, ..again life has provided me the reasons to stay from you...

But from all the words I said today...I did not miss you...I guess this hit you the most..but only that was true.. but we only miss the one's who are'nt with us..and u never left me..u were always with me'in my heart. Never there was a moment when u were not with me.. u were always there in my thoughts , my dreams , my aspirations!!!

And it was incomplete further...and all wet with tears..

Swayam was amazed..completely confused...he was smiling and crying at the same time..completely shattered as well as elated at the moment.

Swayam speaks to himself...Sharon..U love me...U love me Sharon.., he got up and stood near the window...he said crying' So today onc agin I realized that I was right' you aren't THE SHARON RAIPRAKASH'.as others call you... U are my little angel Sharon.Siren Sharon too wouldn't today work..I mean Sharon.. how can you hide this from me..oh... What should I say..Ohh God.. this girl is so Crazy.. he said as his salty tears were making way to his mouth..

He was speaking as well as wiping away his tears...Suddenly he heard the door sound.. and Sharon entered...with washed face and glass of water ... She kept the glass on the table.. and turned..to find Swayam there... She moved towards him..She asked him..u here..at this time she questioned...

He said.. I was here to talk to you..But I spoke and heard everything from your letters...

Letters? She said puzzled.. oMG letters.. she rushed towards her bed.. How dare You swayam to read my letters without my permission...

Ur letters.. they weren't your Sharon...They are mine..Haq hai mera... he came towards and said, tears continuously flowling.. You kept me away from this Sharon.. AWAY from this.. I couldn't believe it' You deprived me of my rights..

There Sharon, too broke down..tears made its way to her cheeks...she came closer to Swayam'and said, No Swayam..these letters are bitter truth of my life..

Whatever it was was.. Sharon..They may be bitter to you..but for me..They were the sweetest words I have ever heard..He said cupping her face..wiping away her tears with his thumb..I may even get diabetes.. he completed.. chuckling along tears..

Crazy ho tum Swayam'She said smiling...

Tum se jyada nahi'he completed..grinning.

I am Sorry Swayam..Sharon said by lowering her eyes..

No, I am sorry sSharon..I always boasted that I knew Sharon..in and out..but I was wrong..I said so much to you..I burnt those gifts..I called you an easy girl..

Shh..Swayam..You did all that because of me..I was responsible for it...I am sorry..

No Sharon, I am sorry..

I am sorry Swayam..

I AM SORRY SHARON.. He said a little louder.. both are holding each others hand..

No, Swayam.. I am sorry...She said sobbing..

Both looked at each other for a second..and realized their foolishness...They both smiled widely.

Sharon..tum hamesha Siren hi rahogi..He said grinning.

He hit him playfully and lightly on his chest..And hugged him..

He too caught her..They stayed like that for some time...experiencing ecstacy..And then Sharon kept her palm on Swayam's face and said..I love You Swayam.. I love you a lot..

Swaym, kept his hand above her hand...and said I love You..and will love you forever..till my last heart beat..

Sharon glared at him for saying that...He cupped her face and leaned a bit forward...She immediately..closed her eyes..waiting for his soft touch..

He slowly leaned a little more forward..She could feel his hot breath..He slowly kissed on her forehead..

Sharon smiled..still closing his eyes..He was very slowly moving back..sharon put her hand his hairs, stopped him lightly, moved forward a bit..And immediately pecked him..and left of within a millisecond, smiling and shying.. she moved a lil backward, but swayam pulled her from her waist, she forcefully bumped on to his chest..he taking advantage of the situation..crashed his lips upon hers...he nibbled her lower lip and thus gained entry to her mouth.tears of joy started flowing from Sharon's eyes..He felt a sense of completeness, whereas she sensed feeling of belongingness...

- Ria

He picked up as much he could gather...he touched them...felt them..tears were flowing from his eyes..he was astonished...he found his name in the letters and he moved his fingers over it...later he moved his fingers through Sharon's name too. He took few of them and arranged them according to date...

I really m scared with the thought..Swayam..dont try to know me...I am one complicated species'and you are an angel...You and me should stay away from each other...

And I took first step in keeping you away..I slapped you! I hope this works..

Love' umm no..

Regards,

Sharon.

I loved the way u took care of minute details...love..umm no..regards...typical confused apprehensive SRP...

Her pain..her confusions..her reasons..beautifully written

I couldn't speak up to you..voice my heart in front of u...but at least here..I am able to do that..!!

I couldn't see my priceless gifts flaming...so I tried to take them back..but unfortunately could collect only few.. U left me there.. But if for a second u would have waited I would break down..

I really really love you Swayam...I don't know what is it..that has kept me holded ...and I have hidden this from u..but I am in more pain than you are..

Knowingly or unknowingly all my actions and reactions have YOU in it..that's why I am happy. Atleast, if not me, my heart and soul has accepted YOU...

I never understand how can you love me..and why you love me..but yet regardless I love you the most.

Jelpusy led to immense pain for both of them...one heart wrenching sequence...beautifully emoted ..LOVED IT..

The next one was a shoker for me...i was waiting to see ur POV on this one...as it was one intense moment in Swaron saga..swayam the every clam person lost his patient ...loved the way SHE is concern about his pain...his wounds..not herself..thats LOVE...

But nevertheless, m happy that you came up with ur feeling.. ur pain took form of anger..and u let it out..thus ur heart must have become lighter. From so many days..that fire was burning inside you...I was scared'that this fire may end by eating u up..but thank god, it erupted today...at least u spoke up... From past few days..we hadn't talked.

The pain in ur heart must finally be reduced now...m happy that you let out all your filthy thoughts.

The back to square one moment..when she finally wanted to accept her love...fate played its cruel game...I LOVED THE WAY U SHOWED SWARON REACTION...her letter getting wet due to tears...his smile though his tears...couldn't get a better moment..a MOMENT OF LOVE..

But from all the words I said today...I did not miss you...I guess this hit you the most..but only that was true.. but we only miss the one's who are'nt with us..and u never left me..u were always with me'in my heart. Never there was a moment when u were not with me.. u were always there in my thoughts , my dreams , my aspirations!!!

And it was incomplete further...and all wet with tears..

Swayam was amazed..completely confused...he was smiling and crying at the same time..completely shattered as well as elated at the moment.

The beautiful confession...was amazingly written...

Sharon smiled..still closing his eyes..He was very slowly moving back..sharon put her hand his hairs, stopped him lightly, moved forward a bit..And immediately pecked him..and left of within a millisecond, smiling and shying.. she moved a lil backward, but swayam pulled her from her waist, she forcefully bumped on to his chest..he taking advantage of the situation..crashed his lips upon hers...he nibbled her lower lip and thus gained entry to her mouth.tears of joy started flowing from Sharon's eyes..He felt a sense of completeness, whereas she sensed feeling of belongingness...

This is my favorite work from YOU on Swaron...AMAZINGLY WRITTEN

Luv

Ur Di