I actually missed you - A Swaron OS

IN THE GIRLS LOCKER ROOM

"Wow... kitna stupid feel kar raha hun main, because I pictured this day a little differently. Main bhi soch raha tha ki itne dino baad milenge to kuch aisa karenge, kuch vaisa karenge, but no... Here we are back to square one."

"Phirse vohi cat and mouse game, phirse vohi, vohi... tumhara arrogant behaviour aur mera begging mode. No more Sharon... No more... Tumhe jaise rehna hai tum raho. Par agar maine tumhe commitment de diya hai to vo isliye kyonki... kyonki meri commitment is for life long... hamesha ke liye "

"Tumhe lagta hai ki ek din relationship aur doosre din kuch nahi then, then no Sharon... no more"

These words were constantly hitting her. He had the full right to say it, had the full right to be upset with her after the way she had behaved with him. But it was never her intention to hurt him. She herself was confused, not able to understand why she was losing her real self. Under the pressure of maintain her image as the diva of the college, she had been hurting him ever since they entered into a relationship, that too on a trial basis.

During the dance camp, when she recovered in the medical room, she saw Swayam. She also saw the love which he had for her and also how much he was worried for her. That was the time she went ahead one more step and confessed that she liked him... but the fact was that she actually LOVED him. Those two months when she was away from him was very torturous. But unfortunately, her reputation came in between and she lied to him that she had never missed him and that she wanted a break.

She walked towards her locker, opened it and took out a bag. It contained all the presents and letters she had received from him. She re-read those letters. She opened the box containing the pink dress. This made her recall the salsa dance she had performed with him the very first time. She looked at all the gifts once again. This made her so angry and upset that she started crying. She hugged the dress tightly and spoke to herself loudly.

Sharon: I am sorry Swayam... Mujhe pata nahi ki mujhe kya hogaya tha. Main itni confused pehle kabhi nahi thi jitni main us moment thi. Samajh nahi aaya ki main tumhe dekhkar khush hun ya phir nahi. Kaash... kaash main tumhe sach bata sakun ki maine tumhare bina ye do mahine kaise spend kiya.

She took the dress, went towards the rehearsal hall. She recalled all the moments she spent there, especially with him. She again spoke to herself

Sharon: Tumhare smile ke liye taras jaati thi.Tumhaari pyaar bhari baatein, tumhara mujhe tease karne aur tumhare saath rehna... bahut miss kiya hai.. The fact is I LOVE YOU TOO. Par ab main tumse sorry bhi nahi bol sakti hun, kyonki main jo tumse kaha aur jo kiya, use vaapis nahi le sakti aur apni mistake sudhaaar bhi nahi sakti. Phir bhi ho sake to muhe maaf kar dena... I am sorry Swayam, I am very sorry!!!(Looking at the dress) I LOVE YOU!!!

She fell down on her knees and started crying. That's when she heard a voice addressing her.

"I love you too Sharon".

She turned around and was shocked to see Swayam. She felt very guilty and did not have the courage to face him, so she lowered her head and started crying silently. He rushed towards her and cupped her face gently. He gently wiped away her tears and spoke to her.

Swayam: Tumhe guilty feel karne ki zarurat nahi hai. In fact tumhe nahi pata ki main kitna khush hun, ye sunkar ki tumne bhi mujhe miss kiya. You are my life, you are my everything. As I said, meri commitment life long hai, to chahe tum mujhse jitna bhi dur jao, tum hamesha mujhe apne saamne paogi.

She nodded and hugged him. Swayam also hugged her and lovingly stroked her hair. He pulled her back and looked at her.

Swayam: Bas ek request hai ki tum jaisi ho vaise hi raho. Tumhe mere liye apne aap ko kabhi mat badalna. Puri duniya ke liye tum Sharon "the diva" ho, par mere liye, tume meri pyaari si princess ho; jise main kabhi bhi upset nahi dekh sakta hun.

She smiled and hugged him. Finally she found peace and relief. Swayam kissed her on her hair and held her tight, promising that he will never let go off her.

So how was it guys... I know that it might sound stupid and repetitive... whatever the case may be, plz do comment as they are very valuable to me...