I could see the truth in your eyes . You know your eyes always expresses whats going on your mind ? That day too was no exception . Along with the truth I saw something more . I saw love , pure love ...for me . Before you could speak out your eyes told me how much you love me . "Love" ! Only the word is enough to make a person weak , to make a person selfish . That day I too became selfish , I don't know why , but suddenly , inspite of my months long preparation , its hard , its very much hard to stay away from you , from your true love . Just for the last few days of my life I wanted to taste actually what love is ! Now I can realise how selfish I have been ! I should have rejected you that day , I should not have allowed you to get attached to me . But that time I could not , I really could not . Days passed by and I myself don't know when I got habituated with your company , secretly I started to relive , relish those moments I spent with you . I myself don't know when I too fell in love with you ! Everyday I could see your hesitations in your eyes , you wanted to tell me the truth so desperately , but everyday willingly , with full intention I used to distract you and you used to end up by telling nothing new . I was so much scared Abhay ! If somehow you manage to speak the truth , I would have lost the reason to be with you and it was just so hard for me to stay away from you . I know , I became so selfish , I only thought about my happiness , never thought with each passing day I am attaching you more and more with me ! You know Abhay , I used to think I am fully prepared to welcome my death , but I was so wrong ! On these last days everyday , everytime I used to pray like crazy to God to give me somedays more , so that I can spend them with you ! I secretly used to complain why ? Why this happened with me ? Why I can't be with you forever ? Why ? Damn it ! Why ? You know Abhay...these days lying on bed I really feel so bored . I desperately want to meet you , to see your face for one last time . But I know , I know I need to controll myself . Leaving you alone I am already pushing you to such a pain , showing myself in this condition I just can not increase the burdain more .
Gosh ! This letter is going on so long ! You must be feeling boring now ! But whenever I am realising this is my last messege to you , I am feeling to write more and more . Don't get scared . I am not going to bore you anymore . Just one thing , before leaving I want to say Thank You . Thank you so much for coming in my life , thank you so much for making my last few days so beautiful ! Thank you for everything you gave me & sorry for leaving you in this way . But I don't have any other option left ! Just a last wish Abhay , promise me you will not do anything stupid . You will find new reasons to be happy . Like they shows in films or novels , I will not say forget me , I know thats too much to ask for , but please , please promise me you will welcome all new happyness in your life with a big smile . I don't know where I am reaching to , to heaven or hell , but wherever I will be , I will always want to see you happy , to see you enjoying your life . Promise me , you will fulfill my every wish , promise me !
Wishing you a healthy , wealthy , prosperous and most important a joyous life ahead !
Yours , only yours ,
Piya .
(The end)
Edited by Saayaniz - 11 years ago
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