(12 Dec ep.) Seeds of Desire

Interesting...very interesting...This episode might have looked like a filler but this is where the first seeds were planted in Prashant's mind...that he can have again what he had once...that he can be what he was...that she is now as she was then, which means he can be how he was too...that it is right to desire what seems out of reach...that she still needs him.

This is what I wrote yesterday in response to the episode and the promo:

An advice to Aarti: The future is a mere reflection, if you are still letting in the past and letting it reside in you...You have to be true to your present otherwise the past will turn around and break the mirror reflecting your future.


I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.

Prashant has not crossed over...not yet. However, his desires toward regaining his lost world are being tingled. Unfortunately, it is only Aarti who is encouraging him by her ambiguous behavior...by not being able to carry through with actions what her words say to him. His imagination is being fed at the moment by Aarti's naivety and her giving of that all-important inch. He desperately seeks the Aarti he knew, and she is giving him that by just being who she is. Prashant left behind a broken woman...and now he wants to mend that broken woman...himself...so he is looking for chinks in her supposedly happy married life. Problem is, from his narrow viewfinder he is finding plenty of evidence that suggests that Aarti is living under duress...that all that really matters to her is her security in a family...that she is compromising herself for the need to belong in the family. Aarti constantly lets him in on her fears...Her intent is to keep him away from her family, so she tries to appeal to his conscience and gives him the reality check regarding their personal equation...but he chooses to think that Aarti needs him to provide that security cover against the Scindias. The man dismisses the fact that he came uninvited, but retains the moments when Aarti needed him.

Aarti is stoking the embers of his desire and has no clue she is doing it. Her goodness is turning out to be her bane. Ever since he came back, Prashant had been witness to a very strong Aarti, a very defiant Aarti, a very angry Aarti, an Aarti who stood up to him...For the first time since Lalitpur, he finds a vulnerable Aarti and inadvertently he falls back to being the Prashant of yore...the Prashant who knew and wed a child-woman who didn't know what was good for her and needed constant looking after..."Aha, I knew it...she is still the same. More than herself she cares about others...what will they think if they knew...whether they will understand. She still has the same fears. She still cannot take care of herself...She knows one shouldn't take medicines on empty stomach, but look...she still behaves as stubbornly as she used to and refuses to listen to me. She is just the same as she was when she was carrying Ansh. Just like then, even now I have to forcefully feed her...make her see sense. Yes...she is still the same Aarti."

Prashant is confusing Aarti's compartmentalized psyche...by traveling to and fro between the past and the present...by coming between her need to hate him and not being able to do so...by being at the right time at the right place twice now and helping her when she was physically in need of care and when none of her family were around. She wants to drive him away, but how can she do that? The man is sick, needs her help in getting him through the treatment, and, moreover, has helped her in need. Prashant is making inroads in her life in a very unassuming manner and Aarti is helpless to control the situations that are arising out of his persistence to pursue her family...as she presumes and as what he makes her presume. "I know how I feel...you know what you feel...we both know that we have no feelings for each other, but how am I going to make my family understand this when they come to know who you really are?" By projecting her extreme fear she gives him the opening he needed to...that there's a chance the Scindias may go against her...that what his gut instincts tell him they will evict her on knowing the truth is true...that his very presence is lethal to all these new relationships that she has. At the moment, Prashant may feel sympathetic, even co-conspirational, in her need to protect his identity as the fatal desire to get Aarti/Ansh back has still not arisen, but these are the useful information his mind is subconsciously storing...

There's no doubt Prashant helped her in need and was there when she needed caring...yet at the same time it was apparent that he liked playing the role of the man on whom she can rely on. In a small way, he was doing what he had omitted to do all those years back...fix her...after he broke her. His presence brought on that stress attack that caused her to rely on him. She hated the position she was in but was totally defenceless because of her sick condition. She didn't like being tended to by him...but he didn't know it. Aarti is hanging by the end of the rope at the moment...and the only thing that hasn't let her fall yet is Yash's love. She'll never recover if Yash turns his back on her...and that fear stresses her out more than anything else...Till Aarti tells Yash about her past, she will have to suffer this tug-of-war between what she wants and what she has to do!!!

Till Aarti tells Prashant in not-so-uncertain terms that she loved Yash and that she fears losing his and the family's love if they come to know of Prashant being her ex husband, Prashant will keep thinking that her reasons for being in this family are because circumstances pushed her to...that given a choice she'd still want her old life...the one she had with him and his parents...back. The pictures in the room gave him a huge reality check today...that what was once his belonged to the other now. The more he gets closer to them, the more his desires are awakening to have what he once had. Prashant's changeover from the darkest tint of gray to black just needs a trigger now!!!



That's it friends...The way CVs are tackling this issue, I have a feeling now that the family will be the hardest to convince about the truth, given Prashant's upcoming stance. An ex husband having a life of his own is easier to digest than the one who is single and forever hovering around their bahu/bhabhi. Yash is needed to be the mediator...He will be needed to defend her character when bua and the circumstantial evidences go against her. However, for that Aarti needs to clear away the haze that she herself helped create...she needs to come clean with him.

Have a nice day.😊

Excellent post Di👏👏... You have just reflected my thoughts. I was so very disappointed with Aarti. Her actions were not supporting her words. Her words tend to be spitting out the very reality in a very strict manner to Prashant but her actions were very calm. Aarti did not understand his intentions even when he grabbed her hand that he was trying to bring in their old relation. Instead she just opened up her worst fear in front of him, showing him how helpless she would be once the truth comes out. There she just confirms his very doubt about the Sindhiyas and Yash's behaviour when the truth is revealed. Her helplessness in time and again falling ill with no one by her side to take care and that Prashant had to be that care taker was just eating her up. Its high time she needs to tell the truth. She has lost all her defences with the Sindhiya parivar seeing her with him and will surely raise questions later. Her opening up to Prashant about her fears is his trump card which he will use it later. Unknowingly, unintentionally she is provoking Prashant in all possible ways.

great analysis..really enjoy reading it..you really put thing into their perspective👏..

Brilliant Post! Beautifully written! 👏👏👏 Hoping All Is Well!

Excellent post, dear Indu. Every sentence flows with truth and wisdom. You have said everything so succintly. Thank you.

Originally posted by: ashGC_arja

Excellent post Di👏👏... You have just reflected my thoughts. I was so very disappointed with Aarti. Her actions were not supporting her words. Her words tend to be spitting out the very reality in a very strict manner to Prashant but her actions were very calm. Aarti did not understand his intentions even when he grabbed her hand that he was trying to bring in their old relation. Instead she just opened up her worst fear in front of him, showing him how helpless she would be once the truth comes out. There she just confirms his very doubt about the Sindhiyas and Yash's behaviour when the truth is revealed. Her helplessness in time and again falling ill with no one by her side to take care and that Prashant had to be that care taker was just eating her up. Its high time she needs to tell the truth. She has lost all her defences with the Sindhiya parivar seeing her with him and will surely raise questions later. Her opening up to Prashant about her fears is his trump card which he will use it later. Unknowingly, unintentionally she is provoking Prashant in all possible ways.

@Ash: Thanks...and nod, nod to all that you say. Tide and circumstances don't wait for anyone...not even the right time...they turn when they have to...Aarti is learning this the hard way. It's only when she faces the loss will she realize how wrong she was regarding the timing. The more she mellows toward Prashant, the more he gets into a comfort zone with her. Poor Aarti is clueless as to what harm her goodness and her inability to forcefully block Prashant from her will cause her. It's Catch 22 for her. She can't help being her good self...and he can't help misconstruing her goodness to his liking.

Originally posted by: Zetter

Magnificent analysis, Pal 👏 👏 👏 👏...Aarti is sure in one big mess, this is a case when her goodness is gonna turn on her ...the poor woman just wanna enjoy her life with her husband and the rest of her family but she can't do that because the past has come back to bite her in the tushie and until she doesn't tell Yash the truth she won't find peace 😭 😭

As for P that man only sees what he want to see and him just going by Aarti's fears is gonna be his downfall cause he underestimates Yash's love for Aarti...I love that he got his reality check today in the form of the pictures 😃 😛 😃

I love the idea of Yash being the mediator but the hurt gonna be there, I can totally see him confronting her in the room if he comes to know the truth through a third party.

@Zet: Thank you. 😊

Oh...Yash will be hurt...very very very hurt...that goes without saying. And even Aarti is mentally prepared for his disappointment...What she fears is his turning away from her...him being indifferent to her...exactly the same fears Yash has of her, Remember his "Aartiji, be angry with me, shout at me, complain to me...but don't ignore me, don't be indifferent to me...I won't be able to stand it"? If she has erred, he has to find it in himself to bypass all her mistakes and forgive her, stand by her...just as she did when he went against her, when because of him she was almost thrown out and he didn't stop the injustice. This will be the time to act on his resolution, "Ab meri baari hai (now it's my turn...to return in kind what she has done for me)."

@Srirad, noraniri, gafulu, Isya, aimf, rani: Thank you.😊