Aitbaar(Trust)(AK FF)Pt-29-31, Pg-74, 05-14-2014 - Page 23

Part -08

A: Kripa, kab se phone try kar raha hun, utha kyun nahi rahi thi………?

Kripa looked away blinking her tears……

K: Woh off tha……dhyan nahi raha……she whishpered……Angad stilled and looked at her and knew in a moment that she was lying….….Suddenly her lie made him angry………

A: Jhoot kyun bol rahi ho Kripa…….Ye kyun nahi kehti, ki tum mujh se baat nahi karna chahti…….!!

Kripa turned around a little guiltily…..

K: Aisi koi baat nahi hai Angad………Bas thak gayi thi to ankh lag gayi……she said…….she tried to blabber and then bit her lips for changing her own words…….She had never lied, but suddenly she couldn't tell the truth either, that she was hurt as well as unsure about everything and was feeling as if they were so apart from eachother…….! But she couldn't……How could she……..? What would he think, if he comes to know what she was thinking……He would think as if she lost her brains………

Angad just stared at her for a long time, while Kripa looked out nervously…….

K: Kuch chahiye tha tumhe……..She asked blabbering, nervously without thinking…….

A: Nahi……bas dekhne aya tha ki tum thik ho ki nahi………

K: Mein thik hun……..Angad just looked at her for couple of more seconds and walked off without turning or talking any thing any more……….

Kripa who was unaware of his departure stood there for a long time and then turned around nervously, knowing she needed to face him……….but Angad wasn't there……..She frowned and looked around, but he wasn't there at all………Fresh tears gathered in her eyes and she slowly went and closed the door, biting her lips which trembled a little and slipped in her sheets………

She kept thinking about them for a long time and did not know when she fell asleep, but it was morning, by the time her eyes opened……..She got up looking around a little confused and then remembered yesterdays party…….She looked at the other bed and found Kanan sleeping and got up silently……….She quickly got ready and left for breakfast, as she had a morning class today……..She tried to focus her attention to the lectures and diverted herself in the library for the full day, though her thoughts kept going back to Angad and she felt totally tired by the end of the day……..She walked back dejectedly to her room in the evening.……..

Back to Angad, he was sleepless as well as deep in his own thoughts all night through himself, not knowing how this all got so messed up………..He knew that she was hurt, but her silence and tears made him a little unsure……….Suddenly, he started questioning about their decision……..He had never thought about all these circumstances and he did not know if this was fate or badluck that they came face to face this way………He knew she must have felt bad seeing him with Mishti and he knew she had right to be hurt……….But she also should have confronted him, or trusted him and asked him about the same, instead of being silent……….But somehow, her silence was not surprising as well, because he knew her……….But still he too was angry, that inspite of them spending so much time together since last 1 month, still she did not feel that she had right to question him………! Ask him and share her feelings……….He knew his anger was unreasonable, but still he couldn't help it, but he tried to cool himself down, getting busy in his work……….

Back to Kripa, she went to her room, and found the room empty……She freshened up and quickly made herself some dinner and cleaned up after herself and then fell asleep……..Next day, she met Josh in the campus and they went for lunch together in cafeteria and Kripa relaxed a little, but was quite………Josh tried to cheer her up, telling her stories about their childhood, his adventures, etc, which reminded her of Angad more than before, as even Angad was interested in challenging sports and tried out most of them.…..2 more days passed by and finally it was Saturday………Angad had not called Kripa and neither had Kripa called him……But she felt the strain taking its toll on her………She was missing his phone calls, missing talking to him……..And she was almost on the verge of tears………She did not know why she was so upset…….Because she was hurt seeing him with some one, or because she could see how different they were from eachother……But whatever the reason, it still hurt..…..Kripa wasn't sure if he was going to come on Saturday, but she got ready any way and finally at 10, she got a message on her phone from Angad, to come down and he was waiting near the parking lot…..Kanan was in the bathroom, taking bath and Kripa told her that she was going and almost sighed in relief and wiped her tears and quickly took her purse and closed the door behind her, running down…….

She walked down and found Angad tapping on the steering wheel, listening to the music………She silently, opened the door and sat besides him nervously, while Angad without a word, zoomed off………There was still the same tension around the air, and no one spoke for a while…..Angad stopped the car near the beach and got down leaving Kripa to follow, if she wanted……….Kripa looked at him and slowly followed him, knowing he was angry, but not knowing why he was angry……If truth be said she should be angry, but for some reason, rather than anger, it was fear that was stopping her from talking.….She just sat there silently next to him, when Angad frowned and turned to her……….

A: Damit Kripa……..Say something…..!! Agar ghussa ho mujh par to keh do na……..Shout or throw something……..anything……Why are you giving this silent treatment…….Agar kuch kehna hai to keh do……..!! What is all this with your great silence and all……..!! He burst out angrily, seeing her sitting there without a word…….He wasn't angry because she was upset, but angry because she was silent and did not even complain or get angry on him or share her feelings or anything…….She just kept quite like always, which is what was making him more angry every minute……..He was almost on the verge of loosing his patience, because as much as he had tried to ease her up, she never opened up to him properly, unless he coaxed her to………And he did not like it………He thought slowly she would be comfortable with him and share her feelings, but no……..!

K: Angad, aisi koi baat nahi hai………Mein to bas……..

A: Kuch kehne ke liye bacha hi nahi na aab…….Right………He asked with disbelief………..Bas itna hi vishwas hai mujh par……..You can't even openly express your feelings to me Kripa……!! What is the point…….? Yeah I went with Mishti to the party……..!! Can't you just ask me and be done with it……….Uss din itne phone kiye mein ne tumhe, tumhare piche chala aya……..Tum ek baar apna muh kholkar mujh se shikayat bhi nahi kar saki……..Ek baar pucha bhi nahi ki woh ladki kaun thi…….kya rishta tha mera ussase………You can't even express to me that you are hurt….!...Kripa looked at the passer by who were staring at them, as Angad talked angrily and looked away…..

K: Mujhe pata hai, woh tumhari dost thi……..she whispered……….

A: Aur kya kya pata hai Kripa……..batao mujhe…….!! He asked sarcastically………

K: Angad tum khama kha baat bigad rahe ho………Mein ne to kuch bhi nahi kaha…….She said looking at him trying to make him calm as she did not want to anger him more.………

A: Kyun ki tumhe kehne ki jaroorat hai hi nahi…….Tumhari ankhon se jo ansu nikal rahe hain na, woh saab kuch bata rahe hain……….He said angrily…...Kripa immediately touched her cheeks and truly enough, her cheeks were wet with her tears…….She quikly wiped them and straightened………

K: Angad woh……….

A: Bas Kripa……..agar tumhe mujh par vishwas hi nahi hai, to iss tarah to hum kabhi nahi reh payenge……..Issase acha hai ki hum flat le aur sath rahe…….!! He said angrily………Mein ne faisla kar liya hai…….Aabhi hum flats dekhne jayenge……….Aur sath shift ho jayenge aur saab ko apni shadi ke bare mein bata denge……..Shayad yahi thik hai………!! I think my decision was the wrong one……..I never thought about all this before, but now that I thought, I think it will be much easier, if everyone knows about our marriage………Chalo………He said getting up……Kripa stilled and looked at the sand……….Angad took almost couple of steps behind, but then when he saw that she was still sitting there, he started saying something, when he heard Kripa talk……..

K: Nahi Angad, mein college campus mein hi rahungi…….Mujhe kahin shift nahi hona..…..Kripa whispered, making her self strong at that particular moment.…….She needed time…….She did not want to jump in any relationship, without giving it a proper thought……Atleast after the insecurity, about her relationship with Angad crept in her mind……..She did not want to shift or have relationship with him without they having any feelings for eachother…….Because if they did and then feel that they are incompatable to eachother, then their relationship will worsen……..Atleast if they be friends and stay apart, she will not loose his friendship and the only family she has……They could part without any bad feelings, knowing they were miles apart…….she did not want them to get stressed and do something they might regret…….She knew that they were poles apart from eachother, and may be their marriage might……..She stopped her thoughts there and looked away, blinking her tears….…..Angad stopped in his tracks and then slowly turned around……….Looking at her with disbelief……….

A: Kyun Kripa? He asked frowning……!!Trying to see through her and know what was going on in her mind……

K: Shayad humare liye filhal yahi thik hai……….Ek dusare ko jane ke liye, samajhne ke liye hume time chahiye……….Aisa nahi hai ki mein tum par bharosa nahi karti………I do……. She said looking down as a tear slipped from her eye…….It's just……..I don't know……It is just……..She couldn't say anything, and slowly swallowed her tears and wiped her eyes………Angad just starred at her for a long time and his anger melted away.…….He went to her and slowly took her in his arms and hugged her, closing his eyes………Angry at himself for hurting her…….She was still young and innocent and he had hurt her, by yelling at her……….Even though he knew how calm and silent she was…….But all he wanted was her to open up to him and consider him as her own, with whom she could share her feelings……..But may be she needed more time to bond and he had lost his cool, which was wrong……..He was expecting too much from her too soon.…….Kripa was a little taken aback, but then after a while slowly raised her hand and hugged him back closing her eyes and sobbed…….Angad calmed her down slowly and wiped her cheeks………

A: I am sorry for yelling at you Kripa……..Pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya tha…….Ek pal ke liye mano laga ki tumhe mujh par yakeen nahi hai aur……….Aur ek karan aur bhi hai Kripa………He said sighing…….I wanted you to open up to me, tell me about your feelings, get angry, consider me as your closest friend and share your feelings with me………May be I was expecting a lot and I know you need some time, but……..He sighed kissing her forehead….….Kripa, Mishti meri bahot purani friend hai, agar tumhe pata ho to, hum ek saath music academy mein the…….Yaad hai mein kabhi kabhi uske bare mein baat karta tha, mom se? We were good friends, still are…….Aur iske alawa, humara koi rishta nahi hai………We went to many parties together and so on, but nothing more than that……….Aur usse to flirt karne ki adat hai…….Mere sath hi nahi, mere doston ke sath bhi flirt karti thi wahan..…….But she is a nice girl and we both enjoy dancing and that's it………..!! He said caressing her hairs………..Humare bich aisa kuch nahi hai……..he said trying to make her understand……Last month, achanak se hum ek bar mein mile and we are just catching up on our old memories……….He said rubbing his hands on her arms……….He then slowly looked down at Kripa and kept a hand on her cheeks and made her look at him……He knew he was wrong to get angry on her……..She was still young and if he would have been in her place, he would have been angry too to see her with someone else……..The only difference was he would shout and Kripa just stayed quite, not able to speak……..It was the way she was, and he should have taken up the matter slowly, without yelling………He kissed her nose affectionately and looked at her…….Kripa mein tumse phir kehta hun, aisa nahi hai ki mein ne iss rishte ko sirf mama papa ke liye haan kaha hai…….I have really accepted you as my wife and life partner and I promise, this is our reality……..!! No matter what, I will always be with you…….!! Do you trust me? He asked looking in her eyes and Kripa nodded with tears……

K: I am sorry……..She whispered……..Aisa nahi hai, ki mujhe tum par shak tha Angad……….She said slowly……..Woh bas……She looked down bitting her lips, not knowing what to say……..

A: You were hurt to see me with someone……..Angad replied for her with a teasing smile, and Kripa looked away, knowing he was teasing…….You know what, tum ne kuch na kehkar bhi saab kuch keh diya aaj………He said chuckling and Kripa looked up at him………Hey, I know you were jelous……...And I loved to see that you are so possessive about me……….Kripa blushed looking away knowing somewhere in her heart that he was right, though she did not think about it from that point, but somewhere she did not like it or feel good as well………. she was not able to say anything and Angad chuckled and wiped her tears and slowly kissed her forehead………..I promise, I will never betray you ever……….!! Aab to tumhari shikayat dur ho gayi na……….Aab to muskura do……..He said smiling and Kripa smiled through tears……..That's better, but still not good……..!! Kripa chuckled wiping her tears and sitting straight and Angad grinned……….

K: I am sorry Angad, tumhara phone iss tarah kaat diya aur……..Kripa whispered slowly after couple of minutes once again……….

A: Ek shart par maaf karunga………..

K: Kya?

A: Agli baar agar kabhi mujh par ghussa aya na to dantna, marna, kuch bhi kar lena, par yun chup chap mat baithi rehna……..He said rolling his eyes…….Kripa looked at him shyly and nodded……….Angad chuckled and pulled her cheeks……..Pagal ho ek dum tum……..Pata hai tumhe……..Aur mujhe bhi pagal kar diya………..Pata hai do din se ek bhi lecture thik se nahi baith paya mein……….Bas tumhara hi khayal aa raha tha aur ek baar to ghussa bhi aya tha, jo mein ne mere piano par uttara aur class ke sare students meri aur dekh rahe the…………Kripa looked at him wide eyed and then slowly started chuckling and then laughed out loudly……….Tumhe hansi aa rahi hai……….abhi dikhata hun tumhe mein…….he said starting to tickle her and Kripa started laughing even more, rolling on the sand……….She requested him to stop for a long time and then Angad stopped and pulled her up with a grin……….Kripa tried to get her breathe back, leaning on to him, when she felt his breathe near her ear……….She looked up at him and found him staring at her lips……….She looked down shyly and then up again and found his lips moving closer to hers…….She closed her eyes and waited for him to touch his lips to hers, as it was long since they had been so close and then he kissed her very lightly and looked at her……..

A: Kripa…….He whishpered slowly touching her soft skin……..

Kripa opened her eyes and looked at him, waiting for him to speak………

A: I really think that we should move together and……….Kripa blushed and pushed him back, biting her lips as she suddenly realized what they just did and that too in public………She shyly started walking towards the water, thanking God that no one was watching…….Hey, ruko…….He said running behind her with a grin and keeping a hand on her shoulder……..Kahan bhag rahi ho……..Tumhare sare kadam, mud kar meri aur hi ane wale hai………pata hain na tumhe…….

Kripa smiled shyly not looking at him and nodded………They almost walked far away, where they found themselves all alone……..All of a sudden Angad pulled Kripa to him and Kripa shyly hugged him putting her head on his chest, seeing no one around………..Angad was on the seventh heaven, seeing Kripa coming in his arms willingly and kissed her forehead and looked at the ocean happily………After few minutes he looked down………Sorry, tumhe ek baat kehna to bhul hi gaya……..Agle hafte mere college mein humara program hai………..Saturday sham ko……….Would you like to come and see? Kripa nodded enthusiastically……….Thik hai, subah to sath nahi reh payenge, par panch baje ready rehna, aur mein tumhe humare auditorium le jaunga……….But sorry uske baad, tumhe akele baithna hoga, atleast 2 hours ke liye………Phir sath dinner chalte hain……..Ok……..Kripa nodded……Hey aur ek baat, uss program mein mere teen ladkiyon ke sath dances hai………Ghusse mein wahan se chali mat jana………He said rolling his eyes……..Kripa chuckled and shook her head……….

K: Nahi jaungi………Promise………

A: That's like a good girl……..Aab chalo……bahot bhuk lagi hai…….Italian pasand hai…….? Kripa nodded and they went to the restaurant……..

A: Kripa ek baat kehna chahta hun…….Hum aab US mein hain, India mein nahi……….yahan friends ke sath, college mein parties mein ana jana hoga, yahan saab apne sath date late hain……….And everyone expects it……..Iska matlab ye nahi ki unke bich mein kuch rishta hai……..Kal jaise tum party mein ayi……..May be some one will ask you to be your escort………As long as you know what you are doing and have self confidence and be friendly, and think that it is just for fun, it doesn't matter……….No one can cross their limits, unless you want to and if they do, you have full right to make them straight, about what you feel……..Do you get it.……?…..Just be clear about your thoughts and everything will be fine……The only thing that matters is how much we trust eachother……….Do you understand………Please, agar kabhi aisi situation aa jaye na, don't take it in a wrong way…….People don't know we are married and naturally if we show them that we are friends, then ofcourse they will expect us to talk as friends do, even if we came to the party with some other person……..Samjhi ki nahi……….Kripa nodded……..

K: Mein aise parties mein kabhi nahi jati…….Woh to Kanan ne jabardasti ki, issiliye aa gayi…….

A: Acha kiya………You know everything is not that bad as you think……….Jaise mein parties mein jata hun, and I know drinking is not good………So, I never take more than a sip or so……Tumhe ek secret bataun…….? I take a can of beer, just take a sip and keep holding it until atlast it is time to go and then just throw it off………He said chuckling and Kripa smiled looking at him…….It is just matter of what we think and what we do and how we hold it all together, not loosing our self……..Bas hume humari sima me rahena chahiye……….Apni maryada ka dhyan dena chahiye aur kuch nahi……..samjhi….?...Aur please Mishti ko lekar serious mat ho jana……Woh meri bahot achi dost hai and we both enjoy dancing……..There is nothing to it, I really hope you understand this…….…He said with a smile and Kripa nodded shyly and started eating……….

They had their lunch and then went around the city………It was late by the time they reached Kripa's campus and Angad switched off the car and got down……..He always parked couple of blocks away from the campus…..Kripa too took the groceries they bought and slowly walked towards the building entrance…….

A: To, next Saturday at 5……..? Kripa nodded…..

K: Bye…….

A: Hey, how about a good bye kiss……..He said grinning…….Abb pati hone ke nate itna to hak hai na……..he said winking and Kripa bit her lips, looking around……..Koi nahi hai, yahan……..Even all the windows are closed………Aur yahan jhadiyon mein dikhai bhi nahi dega kisiko……..He said mischiviously, pinning her to the car………Kripa closed her eyes, as Angad slowly bent near her and Kripa could feel his breathe on her cheeks and she shivered……..Then she felt his lips touch her cheeks, close to her lips and then nothing………When she opened her eyes, she found Angad going towards the driver seat and he waved at her with a grin……..Kripa chuckled blushing and waved back and ran towards her apartment and went up to the room happily………

Next week passed by and finally Saturday arrived………..Angad was on time as he said he would and they reached the auditorium in 20 minutes………Angad let her in and asked her to sit and then said bye and went to the back stage……….Kripa sat there silently, while people started coming and slowly the auditorium was full with the parents as well as relatives and other people of the performers………Kripa sat there waiting for the show to begin and then the curtain opened and she saw the group of full archestra ready with their instruments……She looked at Angad with his electric guitar and smiled with appreciation…..He looked wonderful with white shirt and black pant and tie……..His hairs were set and he had ear peace as well as a mike near his ear…….

Kripa sat there blown away with the beautiful music flowing through the auditorium and students one after another showing their skills with their partners……….Kripa's breathe caught when Angad came in with a beautiful girl and danced on the slow number lifting her lightly and then taking his guitar and slowly singing around her……….They just looked wonderful…….At last after an hour or so, the program was over and audience cheered and clapped loudly……..Kripa sat there dazed……..She did not know Angad was so talented……He could play almost any instrument……….She loved his voice too……..She wished she could dance like him………Give him company in the parties, he so much enjoyed…….!! But she was just zero in dance…….Never took a step forward……..She sighed and waited impatiently for him and atlast he was before her with a grin after 15-20 minutes………

A: So? He asked with eyebrows up……..

K: Khud ki tareef sunana chahte ho? She asked chuckling…….

A: Iska matlab mein tareefe kabil hun? He asked with a grin and Kripa chuckled……..

K: Bahot acha tha…….You were superb………She said chuckling and got up………..Angad grinned happily, seeing how Kripa openly appreciated him……..

A: Dekha, you got married to a genius…….!! Kripa just chuckled as he kept praising himself as they walked out…….

They went to the parking lot and sat in the car and went to the near by restaurant……….They had their dinner, talking about Angad's performance and Kripa's college etc………then called India together and talked to everyone and finally bid bye and went to their own campus……….