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Please listen to the song Manmohana... ds is d soul of this update
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Part 12: Tuhu Mamo Sham ( Thy are my Shri Krishna)
Some days later
It was late mid night. Whole world was sleeping in peace. Only one man was having his sleepless night. "No no don't look at me ' your eyes are killing me.. leave me.. forgive me Rajlakhsmi ' I was helpless ' I needed to save her'" some creepers from the deep sea entangled his legs' he tried to free himself from their clutch but their hold became stronger and stronger. He looked at them ' they looked like black hands coming from the hell. They dragged him inside the murky water' he found himself surrounded by some horrible looking men' are they human or some dead souls from hell. "Who are you leave me" he shouted. They didn't reply. Those dark creatures came nearer ' he felt suffocated'"from now you are one of us.. a sinner" they replied. "No I am not .. I am not a sinner.. I am not one of you'"' shouted Devdutt and woke up from his sleep. He keeps on rubbing his hands and blabbering restlessly in a trance, "leave me ' I am not one of you." He was panting heavily. After a certain moment he recovered his sense. He covered his face with his palm and wept bitterly. It has become a routine for him.. for a long time he peace of mind has left him' human emotions are hard to understand.. one emotion can bring someone close to God, the same one can throw another in the basso of distress forever.
Devdutt was a man of great wisdom and knowledge. Honest, uncompromising idealistic young man when he became the Priest of Madanmohan temple. Nobody in his age has adorned this prestigious post before. But Maharaja has faith on him. Priests of Gobardhan Temple thought it will be good for them as they will be able to control this young boy easily but they were wrong. They didn't know how strong this boy can be. He stood strong against all the corruption, uprooted all non-religious custom in the name of custom form this temple. He worshiped Chaitanyadev as his God. Followed his every word in his life. His principles, morals, ideals was everything to him' he would have given his life rather losing his values. But till then he didn't know that something could be more essential than life'that giving life is easier than win over one weakness. And the name of his biggest weakness was Geetasri.
When Geetasri first came in the temple she was hardly sixteen. Devdutt was seven eight years older than her. In that age they could develop a relation of brother-sister, or a friend or something more than friend but for Geetasri Devdutt was only her respected teacher. Devdutt has a special affection towards her. Geetasri bloomed into an extremely beautiful lady with time and Devdutt's affection gradually changed into love with time. He used to adore her from a distance while teaching him, while she used to song or dance in front of deity. He couldn't concentrate on his puja if Geetasri wasn't there, and if Geetasri was there he would loose his concentration looking at her. How stronger his passion was becoming, harder he was trying to dominate them inside. He had a certain fear that may be he will be caught by others; some one will recognize his emotions. The priest of Madonmohan temple is in love with a devdasi' it won't do any good to his image. Everytime he tried to impose an image of strict teacher and priest on himself before Geetasri and other and in that process he became only the great 'Mohantji' or 'DevduttJi' in her eyes ' Geet never felt his longing for her. He was happy to keep her in his capture' never let her expose to anyone. Geetasri could dance only before deity without any audience from outside, He always kept her in a distance from other Devdasis so that they don't affect Geetasri. He taught her but only that much he wanted. He was afraid if she explores every sides of life she may fall for someone else ' so every kind of literature which had a hint of sexuality was abandoned for her. He was responsible for her girl like immature brain. Even posing for a sculptor is forbidden for her. Geetasri posing in front of an unknown man.. the very thought made him angry.
Geetasri was becoming Devdutt's first priority. He didn't understand his love for her became the only weakness. He knew if priests of Gobardhan Temple come to know about Geetasri it could be fatal for her. So he was hiding her like a precious possession but this sort of news spreads in the air. It was a royal occasion when he met the priests of Gobardhan temple in King's palace. They greeted each other. The main priest of them, the oldest one without any foreword he said, " Kab tak hume wo budhi ghodi se bhulake rakkhoge? She has nothing left. We know you are hiding a gem in your place, we don't know her name but send her next time." Devdutt turned his face hearing the loathsome words from the mouth of an elderly man. Another priest of his age continued, "yes I have heard there is someone in Madanmohan temple who is even more beautiful than Apsaras of heaven .. nobody has seen her till now' let us enjoy that untouched beauty'" Devdutt gave him a glare, he paused for a minute then continued, "Oh I understand ' you want to keep her for yourself .. no problem' you can have her for whole year .. but share with us for one week. I heard she is a perfect voluptuous body.. let us suck her honey'" the man left his words incomplete and greened indicatively showing his ugly reddish teeth. Devdutt hold him by his throat and pinned him with wall, his anger had no bound. He would have protested if they have said it for anyone but knowing that they are talking about none but Geetasri he could even kill them. He controlled himself only because it was Maharaja's place whom he really respected. " You won't get any woman, any Devdasi from Madanmohan temple next year." Devdutt roared. "I couldn't save Mandodaiji from you but not any more. The custom of fifteen day trip will be canceled from this year. I won't let anyone to become a victim of your decomposed rapacity." Devdutt was leaving the hall when the oldest one spoke, " you can't change a ritual."
"Yes I can." Devdutt said confidently. "This ritual doesn't have any of our religious book' it's a man made ritual' so it can be ended."
"you really think I need a religious base for continuing this." He smirked. "Devdutt you are wise but not smart enough' still have to learn a lot' I will give an excuse of a dream' I will simply tell I had have a dream ' and Sri Krishna asked me to chose one girl from Madanmohan Temple for serving Gobardhan temple. I can sweep her off and bring her in my place'better you give her us for seven days else she will be our slave for her whole life. You know I can do it easily I have that much power Maharaja won't be able to stop me. Think Devdutt and think fast' you don't have much time. Next Raspurnima you select your new Devdasi and send her to us on time else we will be present at your place to you know what." He laughed and other priests joined him.
Devdutt felt miserable. He came back to Madanmohan temple. Locked himself in Garvagriha(the place where deity is kept). Previously he was determined that he won't allow that cruel custom to proceed any more. He was getting ready to stop it forever. He was preparing all his logics for a debate to prove that it's only a baseless ritual. He decided that once this ceremony is canceled he will declare Geetasri as the foremost devdasi but never thought this bunch of vulture is that mean' they are used to make and break and use religion for satisfy their hideous means. They have occupied such power that none can stop him. This uneducated society is afraid of them' this is the power of religion, it can give rise to new sun, it can also blind a whole society if it's gone in wrong hand. He spent the whole night in Garbhagriha but couldn't find out a way. At morning he opened the door and was going towards the river when he heard giggle of girls and sound of heir payel. The sight in front of him stopped him. Geetasri was teaching Rajlakshmi Katthak. In a moment an idea flashed in his mind. He decided to choose Rajlakshmi in Geetasri's place. He knew he is committing a sin, he is placing an innocent girl in front of some hungry wolves only think he didn't knew then how heavy the burden of guilt can be' once a sinner always a sinner' its easy to chose the way of transgression but impossible to come back.
He tried his best to wash it out from his mind but he could see the mirror in the eyes of every person he meet' 'everybody will come to know what I have done'.. he shivered, he tried to hide from everyone but his own reflection cursed him. There was some one else who understood everything.. Rajlakshmi. After she came back from her trip her eyes spoke that she understood everything. She was silent, but her every gesture said it loud and clear. Devdutt banged his hand on the wall. He abandoned his ideals, moralities for Geetasri, he lost everything he valued. He did it for his love he thought but it didn't reduce his guilt, he has to burn in the fire of remorse throughout his life. He was cursing himself when a sweet voice broke the chain of his thought. A melodious song soothes his burning soul.
[plz listen to d song ... this is the soul of ds update http://youtu.be/ZLoFoPPybXc]
Mann Mohana mann mohanaaa
Kanha sunona aaa
Tum bin paun kaise chain
Tarsu tumhi ko din rain
Chodke apne kashi mathura
Chodke apne kashi mathura
Aake basao more nain
Tum bin paun kaise chain
Kanhaaa
Tarsu tumhiko din rain
It was Geetasri who was singing a bhajan. Lying in the bed of arrow he found his solace, a smile found its way in the pain stricken face of Devdutt.
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Rajlakshmi get down in the river. Still there is no ray of light in the sky. Bramhani river looks as black as the sky is' both the sky and the river is a part of verse darkness. Rajlakshmi entered this darkness. She went deeper and deeper and drowned herself till her chest. She closed her eyes, tried to feel the ccool water on her skin tried to feel if it can wash away the gloom from her heart. She opened her eyes to see if there is a hint of light at the east sky. To her utter disappointment there it was still dark. "I won't be able to see the sun of this day then" she sighed and entered into the water. She keeps on losing her last breath, her life ached for oxygen but she was determined to end it for all. She has tried but not any more she can survive in this circle of death' which will come every year and kill her again and again. But her determination filed and she came out panting. She got frustrated with her failure, it cant be so difficult she thought. A faint' very faint melodious tune came in her ears. She wasn't able to hear the lyrics but it was known to her' Geet didi has sang it before' after a long time it was Geet didi for her not Geetasri.
Ek Pal Ujiraya AayeEk Pal Andhiyara ChayeMaan Kyun Na ghabrayeKaise Na ghabraye
Maan Jo Koi DorahaApni Rahon Mein Paaye
Kaun Disha Jaye Tum Bin Kaun Samjhaye
Rajlakshmi remembered the words. No she has no confusion ' koi doraha nahi hai' she thought. She thought she has lost her faith on her Shri Krishna long ago, Shri Krishna doen't come to save any Draupadi now she believed still at the last moment she tried to find that smiling face with flute in his hand, closing her eyes she started sinking inside the water. May be it was her hallucination but she could hear a sound of flute. A beautiful face flashed on her mind, two beautiful eyes' no its no t of Shri Krishna, it was of that man who said her, " I will be waiting for you"' it was Shantanu's... whenever she tried to see her Madanmohan's face Shantanu's face came in her vision. She came out of water, took a deep breath. No she wont die, she will live three sixty four nights for that one day to meet him. She looked at the east to discover the first ray of that day caressing the sky.
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Raas Rachiyan Brindavan KeGokul Ke Basi Radha Tumhri DaasiDarshan Ko Hai Pyaasi
Shaam Shalone Nand Lala Krishna Banwari
Tumri Chab Hai Nyari
Mein To Hoon Tan Man Hari
Mein To Hoon Tan Man Hari
Maan was listening to Geet from the Radha-Madhav temple. How beautifully and easily she was singing as if she is not singing for almighty God but for a closed one. As if Shri Krishna is her beloved one whom she can connect easily. In her voice their was an yearn' yarning that Radha had for her Krishna or may be it was the yearning that Geet has for her love and the same longing what Maan was having for Geet. It was almost fifteen days that he met Geet. In these days Maan discovered what Geet was to him. No beautiful imagination, no desirable object.. it was her simple presence which he wanted. He looked at the sculpture of Geet' it was not Geet.. though it had all the features of Geet, its only a stony doll nothing else like his muse is just a ethereal fantasy, they can't took the place of Geet. An artist's desire for her desired muse came out that day before he knew what is true love' love is about life, about real human not mere imagination, not even about art'love is all about whom you love' nothing more nothing less.
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Jeevan Ek Nadiya Hai
Lehron Lehron Behti Jaye
Ismein Man Ki Naiyaa
Doobe Kabhi Tar Jaye
Tum Na Khewaiya Ho To Koi Tat Kaise Paaye
Majdhaar Rehlaye
Tu Tumri Saran Aaye
Haan Tumri Saran Aaye
If life is a river, mind is like a boat and there is two bargemen who can guide it one is Love another is God' but sometime for some people they became one .. life become so easy for them, their whole world whole life complete in only one circle. Geet was one of them. Her love was her God and who doesn't know God is the biggest existence and God is the smallest existence in this world.
Mein Hoon Tumhari
Hai Tumhara Yeh Mere Jeevan
Tumko Hi Dekhon Mein
Dekhun Koi Darpan
Geet added those last lines from her heart'.She hold the small statuette of Shri Krishna what Maan has given it to her, she kissed it and sang the last lines of the song
Bansi Ban Jaungi
In Hooton Ki Ho Jangui
In Sapno Se Jalthal
Hai Mera Maan Agan
Hain Mera Hmmm Hmmm
It was not in the lyrics and there Maan first time understood what she said when she said, "Sri Krishna may have played different roles in Mahabharat but Radha's existence starts with Krishna and ends with him" Shri Krishna has many roles in Mahabharat a leader, a guide, a friend, but with Radha he was the symbol of love' together they completed each other' Radha-Krishna is synonymous to love. He wanted to immortalize Geet's beauty but now he only wanted to immortalize their love. He took the unfinished sculpture of Geet and stood at the bank of the river. This statue has no significance in his life now' it only symbolize his mad desire to capture her beauty but now he only want to have her love. He threw the statue in the river ' it drowned in the water of Bramhani river forever.
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Another fifteen days has passed. It was a beautiful morning. Geet was returning from the river after some necessary work of Temple with other girls. She was behind others. A familiar voice stopped her. Her legs got glued hearing Maan's voice.
"Can't you forgive me Geet"
"I wasn't angry with you Maan' never.. I wanted you to be clear to yourself ' I told you I will be waiting." Geet answered Maan without turning fer face to her.
"I have curved the deity of Radha Krishna ' don't you want to see it?"
"How can I Maan' Deity's face should be hidden till the Deity is not placed in the Garbhagriha"(the place where is deity is kept).
"But I have already seen it."
"you are the sculptor, you have the right only."
"I want to share my right with you Geet." Geet frowned not understanding what Maan want to say. "life partners shares the same right, a wife can share all the rights of a man' be my life partner Geet' mere ardhangini bano Geet' I want to share my life, my world, my happiness, my pain with you' come in my world and complete my incomplete world, cover all my inabilities with your love .. be a part of me and fulfill my life. Nourish whatever good in me, wash whatever bad in me, Geet see the world from my eyes and let me see from your eyes' half of my soul is still dead be my soul mate and make it alive. Will you Geet? Tell me na will you?"
Geet has already lost her voice, her tears knew no bound. She ran to him, kissed all over his face and hugged him tightly... loosing herself in his embrace. It is forbidden for a devdasi to get married to a mortal being but what mortal rule has to do with them when their love is immortal.
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Precap: Saptapadi
['Tuhu Mamo Sham' means thy(you) are my Shri Krishna... its written in Brajabuli or Maithili language]
now who dont know the meaning of Saptapadi wait till next update... I can promise u an
update full with MAANEET moments😉... but I have to imagine a looot for it😆.. so plz wait n till then...
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