His life was never dull, he realised pouring himself a glass of brandy. He sat back lazily and watched the yellow colour liquid before draining the content down his throat. He was really tired of all the drama this time, it wasn't his fault that he was a public figure. Damn! If only you understood Prachi, Milind Mishra thought not for the first time in his love life. It was all a part of his life, a part that he thought she understood; he's an actor for heaven's sake but no she didn't understand anything. Looking at the clock he realised he has been brooding over her for almost two hours. Heck! I am just wasting my time Prachi you'll never act maturely in our relationship of almost four years ever, he thought with frustration.
He climbed stairs and was about to rip off his clothes when he saw her picture on his dressing table and his frustration leaped. To hell with you Prachi! If I cant stay in peace, I wont even allow you that satisfaction. He at once rummaged the keys in his pocket and finding them there he went for her flat, lest she know he isn't always a charming Mishra.
Prachi wiped her tears as she was cleaning her room, he is not worth it Prachi she consoled herself. God! After four years still they fight as much as they did in the starting, how could he not know it kills me to see him with someone else. Their worlds and they are really poles apart, they have no future she thought silently as again a tear cascaded down her cheek. Oh she loved him so much! But it was futile knowing they will never reach towards an understanding but then their relationship was never a gentle one on the contrary it had always been quite an explosive one.
Hearing her door-bell she was quite sure it wasn't him, because actors don't come and go anywhere freely she thought drily. Wiping her cheeks she opened the door wide without looking into peep-hole only to be shocked down her roots. She was staring him with open-mouth that had he not pushed her inside to come into her flat she was so sure she would have made a world-record for standing as a statue ever by a human.
She shut her mouth and closed the door, as she turned to face him she saw him looking around and then she grimaced he had never come to her place, it was always her going to his for privacy purpose. His eyes scanned the room and then turned towards him, he looked down at her. . .she was wearing a long pink shirt and black slacks, with her hair in a pony and pink cheeks, his first thought was she was sexy but what made her sexy was her innocence never knowing how beautiful she was. At that point he was ready to shoot himself he was here not for ogling over her but for making her understand.
Prachi broke his chain of thoughts and said 'I am glad you came, I-I wanted to talk to you about us' if with her first sentence Milind thought he was going to hear an apology then he was in love with a really wrong girl 'I don't think our relationship have any future or it ever had.'
Milind narrowed his eyes and clenched his fist, he wanted to throttle her. He came here to make her see that their relationship demanded understanding on her part and here she was so casually talking about breaking it off. Prachi gulped as she saw his eyes darkening, she vowed silently she wouldn't be scared of him.
Milind whispered dangerously 'so are you suggesting we stop seeing each other for sometime?'
Prachi don't loose courage she reprimanded herself, she licked her lips while shivering seeing the wrath in his eyes knowing his eyes had followed the movement of her tongue, she said 'no, I think we should en-end i-it, our relationship will never be good enough for both of us. . .you'll be again be with a girl on your arm and it will be the same again. I cant see you everyday modelling around with different girls in such a in-i-intimate way.'
Milind spoke harshly 'It comes in my resume, those skinny bones don't mean a single thing to me. Had I wanted one of those' he replied looking directly into her eyes 'I would have been with different models everyday to warm my bed and you know it' he saw her getting pale and said tersely 'By God! I have had offers Prachi, but instead I was with you on phone every night and living a life of saint. If I wanted I would been getting laid every night and you'd have never suspected a thing and believe me when I felt so much sexual frustration that only a man can endure but NO I loved you too much to do that and after doing everything for you, you just throw it back at my face.'
Prachi went white as sheet and spoke slowly 'That was a very crude thing to say Milind.'
Milind laughed humourlessly and grabbed her arms so tightly that she was sure it would leave marks 'Damn you! Prachi we are not college going people atleast I am not, I cant survive on the crumbs you feed me. I want much more than that. I asked you to come along with me for events, award functions but no you didn't, it was not me but YOU Prachi who was afraid to keep her relationship in open as if I was your dirty secret. Tell me Prachi am I your little dirty secret?'
Prachi struggled to free herself and said 'kya ho kya gaya hai aap ko?yeh kaisi baatein kar rahe hai. .aapne pee rakhi hai aapko toh hosh bhi nahi hai aap kya keh rahe hai.'
Milind brought her closer till their lips were just an inch apart and said 'haan pee rakhi hai kyunki har baar jab main humare rishte ko pehchaan dena chahta hun tu apne kadam peeche le leti hai, main kya karun tu bata mere sath tu bahar kahin jana nahi pasand karti ghar pe bhi aane se tu darti, din ho jate hai tujhe dekhe huye aur tu-'
Prachi whispered looking into his eyes 'aapko sab jante hai hum kaise ja sakte hai bahar. . .log kya kahenge ki pata nahi itne bade actor ne is ladki mein kya dekha aur rahi baat ghar pe aane ki' she averted her eyes and her cheeks turned pink 'aap khud par control nahi rakhte hai,bahut baa-'
Milind spoke huskily ' What?that we came so close to making love? Is that what scare you? Its only because I love you too much to hold back, I don't see you for days, you never let me feel like I am an important part of your life so I want to possess you and believe me when I say you're the most beautiful woman for me and I am so proud about the fact that you are mine.'
Prachi said softly'how can you say that? I love you more than a person can love anybody, I am scared of your world Milind, its so far out of my reach, I am afraid of letting you down don't you see?and you don't need to possess me I have always been yours in everyway a woman can belong to a man.'
Milind lovingly ' I admit we have our differences but it will be alright, don't you see that we cant live without another. . .just don't think about ending our relationship' he rested his chin on her forehead as he pulled her in an embrace 'you are my woman you understand?'
Prachi nodded against his chest and said 'Milind we should talk to our parents about us.'
Milind smiled 'so at last you are going to make an honest man out of me.'
Prachi hit his chest and muttered 'I cant wait anymore to be yours.' She hid her face in his chest and heard his heart pounding, his voice shook as he spoke 'you know what you're saying Prachi?' her nod prompted him to add 'Baby it's a great step think again, this time I wont stop at kissing.'
Prachi pulled herself out of his embrace and turned her face upwards towards him to show her assent when he cupped her cheeks and whispered 'God!you don't have to sacrifice for me Prachi, I was angry when I told you about offers and my frustration, angry when I love you so much how could you even think about our break-up.Dont do this Prachi.'
Prachi opened her misty eyes,tears rolling down 'I have really been selfish, I never thought about you, i-i-w- want to give you something special and I don't have anything else except me. I trust you Milind, I am yours you can do whatever you want and this time I wont stop you.'
Milind smiled 'you sound like a lamb going for a sacrifice.Prachi I know you're not comfortable with physical side of our relationship and believe me I respect that. For now I can settle down for a kiss.'
She stood on her tip-toe and pulled his head down thinking how could she even have the thought of leaving him and then her lips met his, playing-duelling with each other,unleashing each other's passion, when suddenly he pulled apart and said 'I think we talk to our parents soon.'
Epilogue
Prachi brushed her hair watching her husband pulling out his tie and throwing himself on the bed, she stood and went to tower over him. His face showed fatigue and she worried as like always. Settling on the bed beside him she waved her fingers his curls and suddenly gave a shriek when she he kept his head on her lap and muttered 'Heaven!'
She said in her timid voice 'why do you work so much?i really worry about your health.'
Milind smiled with his eyes closed 'Prachi getting tired is the part of my job, shoots and pack-ups are really stressful.'
She bent to kiss her forehead when suddenly he turned her flat on her back and smiled evilly getting on top of her 'but I am not that tired that I cant entertain my wife'
Prachi swallowed whatever she was about to say when he bit her neck and went forward to kiss the swells over her nightgown. He muttered throwing his clothes away 'even after marriage and two kids you still have the power to bewitch me with the passion in your innocent eyes.'
Prachi muttered 'Milind bachch-e?' He began undressing her and kissing her globes taking each of them in his hands 'they are asleep' he put his palm on her flat stomach and heard her taking deep breathe ' did I ever tell you what a wonderful wife and a mother you are.' Prachi just nodded in assent when he licked her navel and said 'I love the way you love our sons especially, don't you ever wonder about the miracle we created together.'
He pushed himself to get the protection from the side drawer when he said 'what the hell!i love getting you pregnant and big with my child' and parting her thighs he thrust into her,taking both of them to peak.
Prachi shivered and spoke as Milind pulled the sheets above them 'I am not on pills Milind.'
Milind spooned her and rubbing his hand over her abdomen said ' I know I want a daughter this time Prachi.'
Prachi giggled and said 'as if its in my hands and imagine what would the press say "Milind Mishra married for three years already with two kids is now AGAIN thinking of extending his family" .'
Milind nuzzled her neck with his lips 'I don't care I love making you pregnant. Remember when you were pregnant for the first time with Arjun I was so freaked out.'
Prachi smiled 'yes,Arjun was a surprise. .I still remember how you protected him from the press when we were discharged.'
Milind gently ' be it Arjun or Arth my world seems to move around them.'
Prachi pouted 'that's a very bad thing to say if don't want to sleep on couch.'
Milind laughed with mirth and said 'Talk about a bossy woman. But nonetheless this is my woman'
Prachi smiled contentedly 'and to think we almost had a break-up'
Milind yawned 'no,we didn't it was just you being silly' and curling her into him they slept.
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