I just had to open this topic after the "my husband found out" topic. I am a married lady with kids and somehow have become an obsessed Maan fan. Don't get me wrong, I love the MaanEet pair and have no fantasies of "i wish i was Geet with Maan" - honest to God. I seem to have slipped into the phase where I am lost in thinking of Maan all the time. I never even want to meet GC but keep thinking about Maan all the time and I mean ALL THE TIME.
I stick to my computer like it was a body part. I do the neccessary chores at home but even then I am only thinking about Maan with a silly grin on my face and only wanting to hurriedly get back to my laptop so I can see Maan again. I hear all of Maan music in my head - be it his entry music, his Maahiii music and all the other music and vm's i have seen anywhere of Maan. I think about his expressions at any and every time and I am worried that I am becoming obsessed with Maan like I have never been with anyone before.
I even felt ashamed that I should not be obsessing about a character - a Fictional one at that so much but it seems to be beyond my control. I try to watch other programs but it is always in the back of my mind to get back to watching Maan.
My husband is a good guy and I worry about hurting him. He knows that I am watching the episodes on the computer, staying up late and my behaviour may have changed. I am worried that it might affect my personal relationship with my hubby and was actually in tears thinking what is happening. Don't get me wrong - I never even think that I wished my hubby was like Maan because he(my hubby is great as he is).
I even thought of never visiting IF and FB again but that leaves me feeling desolate. I wanted to find out if anyone else felt like this at all.
I have laid it out in the open because I want some help. I know, I know - that this is an Entertainment forum and not a Psychiatrist's couch but only someone who has either passed through what I am going through can help.
Penning this down makes me feel ilke a besotted teenager rather than a mature adult as it is, so
please leave your comments if you can help, if not please do not be crude and make fun as I am already going through a harrowing time and don't need any more barbs.
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