J has lived life of continuos mudslinging where no effort ever gave her and her mother a respite. Raising voice as well as keeping quite, both were punished. There is no place in her life for dreaming. It is about thinking how to avoid the next blame coming her way. Hence, most of J's action are very short sighted, almost dumb. She is just sick and tired of the insults thrown at her. Hence, instead of ignoring current insults for future bigger goals, she focuses on reacting with anger, tears to current ones. Her life has made her belive that she is born for a life of misery, hence she is quick to lose hope in case she ever feels hopeful. J is a very straight thinking person and thinks that she should succeed in life with honesty. World does not work that way. Even though you need not bluff the world, you should have enough smartness to not get bluffed.Ani knows this and hence, wants to protect J.
The struggles that J might have while openly accepting her relationship with Ani is:(a) Her mother's societal image. She just like her mother is perceived as men influencer. Even if her love for Ani is pure, accepting it will mean vindicating what society thinks about her and her mother (b) J always was clear that she does not want to be third angle between Ani and Arshi. Hence, how much ever she loves Ani, she will put all her might pushing Ani away (c) For J, it is about choosing between Ani and self- respect. If she stays in Bose house, for sake of Ani, will mean that accepting life of servility. One day when her love for Ani will give her the strangth to negate the insults coming her way, she will accept the relationship.
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