A member topic - a personal rant - Page 3

@ TM: blahhhhh

Oh dear, first of all sending you lots of love and healing vibes to crush this anxitey as it is no fun, I am familiar with it as well, infect very well.

Secondly this is no rant, you just need to be heard and we are all ears and more then happy to help you.

Third of all, personal experience, I would suggest you to not take any aelopath medicines for it, they do more harm and lesser good in the longer scheme of things, takes out even the feelings of pleasure alongwith anxitey so you feel numb most of the times and the horrific side effects on your physiology and organs are extra damage.

what I would strongly suggest you is, which worked like a miracle for me is :

1. Start taking a micro dosage of 200 MG of the Magic Mushrooms (psylocyibin) they permanently rewire the brain in just 3 months and takes out the anxitey, obsession and fear for ever, also rewrites the truama, improves the mood and even changes your perspective to a positive one, opening the knots in the mind and spirit, it is the only chemical that reaches to the spirit level and reset it, been used from thousand of. centuries specially in religious ceremonies and is a miracle for sure.

It is still illegal in most countries but do your research, it will be available somehow. It's available online here in Canada in dry mushrooms form and also in capsules form, do use it every other day else your system will be immune to it.

2. Do use ASHWAGANDHA here, easily available over the counter, can treat mild anxitey easily, effects can be seen within 8 weeks of usage.

3. Practice daily meditation of 25 minutes, start from 5 minutes.

4. Do practice breathing exercises kapal bhaati for 15. minutes and anelom velom for 15 minutes first thing in the morning after meditation.

5. Whenever you feel anxious do move your body, start doing something physical instead of keep sitting and keep thinking the anxious thoughts that will make these feelings stronger.

6. Do see a counselor regularly to address the root cause with the best therapy, CBT. (cognitive behavioral therapy), it helps a lot to decode your mental maps that are causing the issue from scratch.

Anxitey is a tough cookie, and we need multiple remedies of varied natire on consistent bases to address and crush it.

Keep smiling !!!

You guys I am a she😆

My earlier therapist did diagnose me with depression too,but my current therapist n psychiatrist say i only have anxiety...I will talk to them about a better medicinal regime.

I don't know how severe my anxiety is,I have got anxiety attacks thrice till now and once it was coz I had had coffee too.The other two times,perhaps its coz it is my last semester?

I was surprised about suffering from attacks,coz even if I was diagnosed with anxiety years back,attacks were never in my list of symptoms.Also coz overall my situation has improved,I see myself being able to do things I couldn't do earlier.Like my previous self wouldn't have gone to see the answer sheet coz I know how the head of the department is capable of behaving,I would have avoided having to deal with him.Today too I thought about it but ultimately I did go.I had severe phobia of dogs,so much so that I wouldn't get out of my house but now I roam around outside so much more freely.

I haven't had the chance to discuss with my therapist that i suffered from anxiety attacks twice in this semester,I will talk about this in the next session.

Originally posted by: Lostsoul11

You atleast have a brother for sharing things but I lack such person in my life🙂

I am sorry for that

Well to start with don’t take advise regarding medication from people on online forum without knowing their qualifications

Originally posted by: blahhhh

I am doing my masters in Hindi literature right now.The thing is I have been diagnosed with anxiety,and I take medicines and go for counselling too.

So my anxiety makes me procrastinate,my therapist also tells me I have expectations of perfectionism so that too adds to my anxiety.

With all this anxiety I have tried getting through my masters degree,I have fallen and tried to get up.I have got anxiety attacks on days of assignment submissions and exams,during my first semester I had even contemplated leaving it.

But with my family and specially my brother's support I have thankfully been able to persevere.

I won't score very high CGPA but I will get my degree ig(my fourth sem exams are done,but mark sheet isnt out yet)

But what bothers me most is that the department's head,my professor doesn't think all that well of me as a student.Because of my anxiety and resultant procrastination I don't study on time,I am also undisciplined.It is not all my anxiety.But for a mixture of these reasons many times I have only started studying 12-24 hours before the exam,and such time period is enough for a 20 mark internal,not 60 mark final exam.Thus I score above average or even good in internals but I don't score well in final exams and so my overall marks go down.

This department head only sees my overall score ig and so thinks I am a very lacking student.I don't say I am extremely bright in Hindi literature,I have shifted from commerce to languages and there is a long road to travel.But I also don't think I am as lacking as he thinks,proof my internal exams scores(I don't have any reason to believe that evaluation for internals is lenient than externals)

Many times I have felt like going to him and telling him that "look I scored such and such marks in internal exams,my overall score is down coz of my anxiety and procrastination and indiscipline and poor management which doesn't give me enough time to study properly for external exams,you are wrong about me"

Like my last paper too,I planned poorly during studying and could only attempt 40 mark paper and scored 32 marks,he probably thinks I attempted all 60 mark paper and scored 32.Perhaps it sounds childish,making such excuses that "oh I could only attempt 40 mark paper" it really sounds something that school children would say but genuinely,when I start studying I devote more than required time to initial topics coz I don't feel confident enough and so I am not left with enough time to complete whole syllabus.

He has taunted me multiple times about my academic performance,even unnecessarily and so many times I have wanted to tell him all that I wrote above.But I have never been able to,because anxiety also invades your ability to express yourself to other people.I overthink and get scared.I think and think before asking for something from my co-students too,so telling my teacher that he may possibly be wrong about me is something I can only think about I guess.

And I am not very open with other people in my life too,except for my brother but he gives me solutions more than honour my emotions when I would want to rant.😂 I am grateful about his solutions,and a more thoughtful,mature younger brother I could not have asked for.But sometimes you just want to express what you are feeling and so I am writing all of this here.

Thank you if you managed to read it,be nice while also being truthful😂

Originally posted by: blahhhh

I am sorry for that

No need to say sorry🙂. Hope to come out of this soon!

First of all......doing Masters in Hindi must be really tough.....I don't know which state you are from....but I am from UP....and Hindi used to be one of the toughest subjects.......I had Hindi only till 12th grade and it was so tough....I can't even imagine how tough PG must be.....so kudos to you..👏

I am glad you are seeking professional help and just not dismissing your anxiety??? Sometimes talking to a professional helps a lot....

Anyways hope everything goes well for you....and good luck for your future 🤗

Originally posted by: TheMinion

Let me share my experience, it may help you feel you are not alone.

I suffered from ADHD as a child (still have traces of it). I could never write any answer longer than a sentence (that'll also explain why I hate essays). My very supportive mum used to be in principal's office every Saturday. Teachers said the same thing every time, he is brilliant but lazy

I dreaded Hindi and always just about managed to clear the exam. To help with "my laziness", the teachers started giving me homework of writing 3-4 pages a day

It was my sister who realized something was wrong because she used to take my maths classes. I used to write the final answer directly skipping all the steps in between, as a result I never got full marks. One night, I told her I was going to run away the next day and showed her my packed suitcase 😆

She locked my room, and told my parents that we needed to seek help. We met counsellors, doctors and finally was diagnosed.

Expectations at school didn't change, they continued to call me lazy, irresponsible, naughty etc. What changed was how my family treated me. My mom stopped explaining to my teachers and just continued to work on me.

Don't get bothered by what they say... not everyone is understanding. You know your situation and are surrounded by loving people. Just believe that this too shall pass 🤗

OMG...this is why you don't like essays??😲 I am sorry for all the times I made fun of you for not liking essays....never going to happen again...😒....

Originally posted by: Supari_khala

Hain? Escitalopram comes in 5 mg, 10 mg and 20 mg. Not in point 5s.

Are you referring to benzos like alorazolam? Those come in point 5s. Escitalopram is an SSRI just like sertraline and fluoxetine

Originally posted by: blue-ice.1

First of all......doing Masters in Hindi must be really tough.....I don't know which state you are from....but I am from UP....and Hindi used to be one of the toughest subjects.......I had Hindi only till 12th grade and it was so tough....I can't even imagine how tough PG must be.....so kudos to you..👏

I am glad you are seeking professional help and just not dismissing your anxiety??? Sometimes talking to a professional helps a lot....

Anyways hope everything goes well for you....and good luck for your future 🤗

I agree about Hindi being tough .... But I just can't control myself for flaunting a bit... Hope u don't mind 😆

I was the Hindi topper in my college. 95% used to be a big number back then 😆