Greetings to all my fangirls and fanboys. Especially to the silent ones. Being a reticent and retiring type myself, I understand your hesitancy in speaking out in public about the atrocities meted out to me by one and all. I’m automatically assumed to be an atyachari just because I’m a mard (and a prime specimen of one at that). I take succour from the positive missives I get from millions of you. The last few years have been so emotionally taxing and it is only your love that has given me the strength to carry on. I thank you from the bottom of my vast and loving heart.
As you all know, it’s not in my nature to complain about the hand life has dealt me with. All my life I’ve risen above circumstances to toil away much like kolu ka bel. I’ve only known how to give give give. Be it at home or in the workplace. Kavya being a case in point. For 8 long years I gave her emotional and physical comfort. Uncomplainingly and unflinchingly. And look how she repays me. But, complain I must not. Yet another gham I swallow silently.
I’ve never asked anything of anyone, let alone demanded. I may have pointed out a couple of things to my ex wife on the odd day or two, but I don’t recall having done that in anything but a polite manner. That too for her betterment. To encourage her to unfurl her wings and fly. The fact that she now flaps around spouting homilies to one and all is not my fault. Pandora’s boxes are kept shut for a reason. Well, I tried.
My Baa and my Bapuji, who are my Bhagwan, have instilled in me the best of sanskars. Particularly when it comes to treating orats, as you have all seen. In the face of the most trying of circumstances, from the ex wife to the current one, from the current daughter in law to the to-be daughter in law, I’ve been tolerant and fair at all times. And the good Lord knows how trying they have been. I’ve even welcomed the Naagin, Raakhi Davey, in my house. If that doesn’t convince the naysayers of my saintly persona, I don’t know what will. Btw, I’ve adopted this monicker only because my sainted Baa chose it. Warna, I wouldn't dream of being disrespectful to my beloved son's penthouse owning maa in law. You know I wouldn't!
I’ve been told I have the most disarming of smiles. I can’t even begin to tell you of the number of messages I receive telling me how you’ll love the way my eyes crinkle when I smile. Even as shy feelings come, my generous nature forces me to bestow my smile on all and sundry. I understand my moustache has a separate fan base altogether! As for the compliments I get about my 6 foot in prime condition physique, kya bolun ab. I remain humbled. I recall one particular note going on about loving how my vest peeks out of my unbuttoned shirt. Aap bhi na. But, now that I’m back being the super achieving business tycoon that I am, ties are a must. Waise bhi, I know yougaiz love how I shrug into my coat and straighten my lapels in that awesome way that I do. As I said, I only know how to give give give.
I’m so glad I’m finally in a position to realise my full potential. Malvika coming into my life was a sign from Kanhaji. She understands me like no other. Not even Baa. I can unburden my soul to her at any time of day or night. She always has a willing ear and an empathetic heart. Our souls are on the same wavelength. The pain we have endured in our lives is the same. Our goals in life are the same. Our jawlines are the same. We even share the same kajal brand. If that isn’t a sign she is my soulmate, I don’t know what is.
I just wish I can finally fly with my own heart orchestrating the fluttering strings rather than be burdened by the decisions of others. Fly in tandem with Mukku. Innocent, loving, giving, Mukku. Just like me. She is the only one who understands the Raj in me. The Raj who will soon stride the world like the lion that I am. With a polite glint in my eye that says, Raj… naam toh suna hoga.
Yours always,
V
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After reading Sudhanshu's interview today, and seeing Vanraj's shenanigans on screen I thought I’d lend a hand to the CVs in their marathon whitewashing of Vanraj Shah 😇
Or not 😈😎
~ Ruchi
PS - I'll send out PMs rather than tag. This way you can run a mile without having to be polite 😉
Part 2 l Page 7 l Some more musings of the victimised Vanraj Shah
Part 3 l Page 10 l Yet more musings of the victimised Vanraj Shah
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