Originally posted by: mineforever
I think its rather that she thinks that he doesnt see himself as worthy of her love(or anyone else) because he is too consumed by guilt of his brother's death. He wants to continue staying alone in that shell. He only said that he lost his heartbeat once and it will never beat again. He would rather be alone than go through the pain again.
She told Sid too that Karan's priorities are different,where her love has no place. This hurts her because she knows he loves her but doesnt want to allow himself to love her toh usne samjhauta kar liya but still she couldnt help herself from telling him that she always wanted him to hug her like this,she was wishing for a different time where she would have enjoyed his hug,not realising that Karan was hugging her as his everything.Something very previous to be cherished.
She also told Sid 'mujhe wait karne mein koi problem nahi hai, par usne bol diya ki yeh kabhi nahi ho sakta'
So that hurts her, that Karan will never ever, not even in future give her a chance.
Because if she is so sure that he will never give love (or anyone else) a chance, then her insecurity wrt his love/affections doesn't make sense.
'Tumhe kya pata tumne shayad kabhi kisi se pyaar kiya hi nahi'
Samjhauta toh Monu ne kar liya hai
'main uss par apna pyaar thopungi nahi', she has convinced herself to not hope, wish, expect anything from him
Like she wants to help him fight his turmoils, care, love, support him but she has pledged not to, to keep her distance & let him be, to not make him uncomfortable, to not invade his space at all.
But she can't stop longing for him too.