Originally posted by: deeps07
U r lucky in that case prema.❤️..my post delivery time was hell....I was stupid to go back to India for delivery..all my family were abroad..dad..brother..husband..my aunt who wanted to help me out since its my first pregnancy asked me to come to India..and since I was not sure abt myself I thought it would be best to stay with an experienced person..but living in another families home is never easy...they had plans for themselves..especially when we r not even sane ourselves..it was not my aunts fault.. but circumstances made me feel it best to leave from there. .I shifted back to my parents home..all alone with my weeks old baby and an old maid who had health issues and couldn't help with baby care..she was there with me for company...hired another maid..who was horrible and as clueless as me regarding baby care..
I still feel guilty abt thinking how ignorant and ammetuar I was when I took care of my girl..she deserved so much and all I did was just manage and make ends meet..
I dnt even remember a single night I had slept without crying out of guilt...if anything I felt my baby was so adjusting even in that time..even now.. I feel she is doing more for me adjusting with whatever she gets frm me than I should be giving her..
Now this guilt has become a part of me..it has affected my approach towards life..
PS.. sorry for blabbering abt my personal life..I can't control speaking when I remember this .