After today's episode, I just have to write about Sonakshi. It's sooo heartwarming to see her genuinely bonding with Ayush. So far, she has had an emotional storm brewing inside her. For her, soha has been her life for eight years and more. And we have to remember the context in which this relationship was born...when Sona's life and love was shattered. Actually this relationship is not quite different from that of Dev and Ishwari after all, both emerging amidst extraordinary conditions. Both holding on to each other for their lives. So it is nothing to be surprised if Sona is the most scared of loosing Soha, or if she pays most attention to how her daughter is feeling.
Added to this, there is the guilt. Guilt because the society around her - morcha led by Ishwari of course - is questionning her as a mother. How could she not recognise her child? How can she not feel that instant love and bond with her biological child? Why is it so difficult to keep Soha aside? Why is this taking so much time? All this bound to make her feel like she is not enough, like she is failing at being a mother to both her children. There is the guily of abandoning her daughter along with the guilt of being able to take her son in her arms.
I feel that this issue has been beautifully beautifully shown in the show. It's a very mature idea to play with the different understandings and meanings of motherhood. Small things like how Ishwari's way of showing her love is loud and doing everything for her son. In contrast like we saw today, Sona asked if ayush likes pizzas, then asks for his help, and then teaches him to cook alongside her. I loved how they brought this out.
Lastly, probably looking Asha is another complexity for Sona because she doesn't have her own mother to guide her through this phase of motherhood. And this time, she doesn't have dev by her side. They seem like running in parallel lines which walk side by side but don't meet. So her turmoil and vulnerability is not fully expressed or even if it is it doesn't quite reach Dev's heart. It would be very interesting to see how her character develops this season.
Do let me know your thoughts ☺️