PART 43
Raman cried reading ishita's letter and look at his mother.
Raman-padha aapne ,maa.padha aapne,he asked while tears made way down his cheek.
Toshiji nodded in yes and said-mujhse galti ho gayi ,bahut badi galti ho gayi mujhse.she said crying feeling guilty.
Raman-kitni badi galti ho gayi aapse,maa.aur ishita ne itna bada kadam utha liya .agar usse kuch ho gaya toh,maa.he said scared when toshiji hugged him tightly and said-kuch nahi hoga usse,puttar .warna main apni galti ki maafi kaise mangungi.
Mr bhalla-kya hai letter mein??he asked and Raman gave him the letter.he start reading while Raman waited impatiently to get some good news.
After waiting for half an hour,doctor came out and all went to him.
Raman-hows she??
Doc-khoon bahut beh gaya tha,but we could save her.she is out of danger .he said making them sigh in relief.
Raman-thank u doctor,can we meet her??
Doc-aap Raman hai??he asked to which he nodded.
Doc-she is asking for u.aap jaa kar mil lijiye aur please jyada bheed mat lagaiyega.she needs rest.he said to which bhallas nodded.
Toshiji-tu jaa kar mil,aur meri taraf se usse sorry bol dena.meri toh himmat nahi usse nazarein milane ki.uski gunaahgaar ban gayi hoon pata nahi woh kabhi mujhe maaf karegi bhi yaa nahi .
Mr bhalla-jarur karegi,haan galti hui tumse but tumne jaan bujhkar kuch nahi kiya .I think woh tumhe samjhegi.raman ,tu jaa kar usse mil.he said and Raman went inside.
Raman look at her and sighed in relief while ishita raised her head feeling his gaze.she can see anger and hurt on his face .
Ishita look down and said-i know aap mujhse bahut naraaz hai but main sach keh rahi hoon,she was saying when he sat next to her.he cupped her face softly and kissed her temple .she closed her eyes feeling his touch and he hugged her tight.he caressed her hair softly and said-thank god u r safe,itna koi darata hai apne Raman ko.he said and kissed her hair again while she snuggled into him more and start crying.
He didn't stop her just hugged her more tightly giving her his warmth.she cried feeling his soothing touches and slowly became silent.
After her all silent,he finally said-aisa kyun kiya,bharosha nahi tha mujh par.he asked breaking the hug.
Ishita look down and he asked again-bolo naa ishita,bharosha nahi tha apne pyaar par.
Ishita look down and said-aisi bast nahi hai.i love u and trust u too but jab mummy ji ne kaha chali jao aur aap khamosh rahe.main darr gayi ,darr gayi ki aap hume ghar nikaal denge.main apne liye nahi darti hoon,Raman.mujhe thokar khaane ki aadat hai but meri bachchi.main uske liye darr gayi,woh nahi reh paayegi aapke bina .toh Maine socha ,main problem ki jadh hoon,main chali jaati hoon toh aap meri bachchi ko rakh lenge shayad.she said while tears made way down her cheek.
Raman-achcha,matlab tum ruhi ko mere paas chod kar mar jaane ko ready thi ,taaki usse apne papa ka pyaar mile .aur mera pyaar,mujhe mera pyaar kaise milta ,agar tum chali jaati.mujhe mere hisse ka pyaar nahi milna chahiye kya.meri kya galti hai,ishita .joh tum mujhse mera pyaar chin rahi thi.
Ishita-i told u naa,aap dobara shaadi kar sakte the.
Raman-wow,amazing ishita.pehle ruhi ke naam par mere upar bahut saare restrictions thop diye.u have to marry me,u have to love ruhi and all that.aur jab Maine tumse shaadi kar li,mujhe tumse pyaar ho gaya,u gave me freedom to marry someone else.agar pyaar karke bhool jaana itna asaan hota mere liye,toh ruhi ke liye tumse shaadi nahi karta.uske liye apna pyaar bhool kar aage badh jaata.jab main apni bachchi ke liye apna pyaar nahi bhoola paaya,toh tumhe kaise bhool sakta hoon.ek baar nahi socha naa mere baare mein ,ki Raman ko kitni takleef hogi agar mujhe kuch ho gaya.ek baar bhi nahi naa,pyaar nahi karti naa mujhse tabhi itni asaani se mujhe chod kar chale jaane ke baare mein soch paayi .he said looking at her with hurtful eyes when she cried and said-aisa nahi hai,Raman.
Raman-aise hi hai,ishita.u never loved me.warna yeh joh baatein tumne letter mein likhi,mujhse kahi hoti.apna dard baantta hota mere saath.royi hoti mujhse apni takleef share karke.mujhe apni takleef kam karne di hoti ,but tumne aisa nahi kiya. Tumne mujhse apni takleef chupayi,apna dard chupaya.marriage is not about sharing their body but their soul too.tumne meri saari takleef toh le li but mujhe apne dard nahi diye.kyunki tumne mujhe kabhi apna maana hi nahi .he said and she hugged him tight crying.
Ishita-aisa mat kahiye,main batana chahti thi .
Raman-toh phir bataya kyun nahi??
Ishita-darti thi,aap pata nahi kaise react karenge.
Raman-kaise react karunga??kaise react karna chahiye mujhe.meri biwi agar pain mein hai toh kaise react karna chahiye mujhe .I would have consoled u ,sooth ur pain.tumhari takleef khatam nahi kar paata toh atleast share toh karta.
Ishita cried hearing him when he said-will u share ur grief with me??he asked to which she nodded.
He sat next to her and she said-woh bahut bura tha ,raman.maine usse pyaar kiya,uske liye sab kuch kiya but usne mujhe maar daalne ki koshish ki.shayad main uss din bhi struggle nahi karti,uski di hui maut ko bhi uski mohabbat samajh kar jhel jaati but apne bachche ki liye,mujhe marna manzur nahi tha.i struggled hard aur joh mujhe mila,I attacked him by that only .I was angry really angry on him for trying to kill my baby aur uss gusse mein mujhe ehsaas bhi nahi hua,kab woh mar gaya.main maarna nahi chahti thi usse,but uski maut ka koi gham bhi nahi hua.he deserved to be die,for thinking to kill my baby.main apne liye shayad kabhi nahi ladhti,Raman,but apne bachche ke liye mujhe karna pada.she was saying slowly sobbing in between while he was sitting next to her wrapping her in his arms.
Raman kissed her temple and said-usne tumhare saath itna bura kiya,phir bhi tum itna pyaar karti thi usse.
Ishita-pata nahi pyaar karti thi yaa uske saath rehne ko apni majburi samajhti thi.main bachpan se akeli rahi thi ,Raman.bahut saalon baad koi mila tha jisse apna keh sakun.usse khona nahi chahti thi,issliye uska har torture sehti rahi.but uske jaane ke baad ehsaas hua ki akele rehna uske saath rehne se jyada easy hai and I was foolish who want to be with him.
Raman -tum jail mein kaise rahi akele,kaise kaata tumne woh waqt ??
Ishita-sach kahun toh jail mein rehna uske saath ghar mein rehne se jyada easy tha,wahan koi mujhe maarta nahi tha,torture nahi karta tha.infact everyone was sympathic towards me.
Raman-suicide attempt karne se pehle ,ek baar bhi mere baare mein nahi socha??
Ishita-sirf aapke baare mein soch rahi thi.ruhi ki koi fikar nahi thi kyunki mujhe pata tha aap hamesha usse pyaar karenge ,protect karenge .dukh tha toh apni badkismati par,ki jis pyaar ke liye zindagi bhar bhatki rahi ,jab woh mujhe mila mujhe usse dur hona pad raha tha.i was sad ,very sad taking that decision but still took it for my ruhi.she said when something click her mind.
She look at him and said-aap yahan aaye hai,mummy ji gussa hongi naa.aapne jhagda toh nahi kiya naa unse,please mere liye mummy ji ko kuch mat kahiyega.aise parent bahut mushkil se milte hai.bahut kismat se milte hai.
Raman-maine unse kuch nahi kaha,infact she is herself guilty for her behaviour towards u baahar khadi hai,ander aane ko bhi ready nahi .
Ishita-mummy ji baahar hai,mujhse milne kyun nahi aayi??
Raman-coz she is feeling guilty.
Ishita-kyun,bulaiye naa unko.she said and Raman nodded.he went out to call his parent while ishita was just looking at the direction waiting for them.
That's all for now,enjoy.