O tere sang yaara (PART 5 FINAL) UPDATED PAGE 13)

Avni caressed the baby in her hands gently, he was bundled up in baby blue blankets and had dishevelled hair. He looked up at his mother with a frown and wide imploring eyes,watching his mother sob but being unable to do anything about it, he took his tiny stubbly fingers and reached up toward her, clenching his fingers as if trying to hold her helplessly, his miniature fingers grasped hers, and held tight.Avni weeped badly, her hair strewn everywhere and her eyes bloodshot and baggy. She looked down at her son with teary eyes and slowly stroked his face with shaky fingers.

She was lost in his brown eyes, that had the ability to make anybody fall in love with him with its depth and intensity... just like his father's did. She cried bitterly tracing her fingers over the cd she held with her other hand. The pain pierced her lungs and felt as if her insides had been torn out of her, as if- almost as if no physical pain could compare to it...

If she squeezed her eyes tight enough she could almost feel him there with her, placing a gentle kiss in her hair as his eyes share her pain, her back leaning against his chest and him wrapping his arm around her middle and interlinking the fingers of his other hand with her hand that held her son, smiling down at his son and admiring him like she does. But she opened her eyes and she was alone again, in a room of bitter cold air, bereft of his comforting scent.

She put the cd in to the laptop and pressed play with tremoring hands, her eyes closed as she couldn't bring herself to face him. The baby looked at the picture of Neil appearing on the screen intently and he immediately made a smilely gurgle as he reached toward it with fists stroking the screen, he laughed, as only a baby can laugh a sweet sound unblemished by the hurts of life.

The Neil on screen cleared his throat and Avni forcefully peeled her eyes open to watch him, tears running down her face.

Neil- Hello wifey, kaisi hai aap madam? Tu abhi bhi lady hitler ki tara sab ko torture kar raha hai na? (He grinned childishly raising his eyebrows at her in question, running his hand through his hair boyishly. Avni smiled slightly through her tears noticing little things that he always used to do but it just caused her more pain. Neil's face faltered slightly but he immediately covered it up.)

If dd has given this cd to you it means that... well... it means that I have been killed... by dayawanti mehta. (she spotted, through her cries, his lips shiver... but he stopped it as soon as it happened.) Infact its so funny na? I have faced so many dangerous criminals in my career and in the end who defeated me? A grandma. (He laughed but it sounded forced.) Come on avni... laugh with me, thoda sa mere liye. (She tried to force herself to laugh, painfully dragging the noise out her throat but it sounded pathetically fake. On screen he sighed shakily with a wavering smile, closing his eyes.) aah... tera muskaan, duniya ki sabse khubsurat baat tha...

Par abhi ek baath kabhi mat boolna avni... whatever has happened to me its not your fault...

I know. You wanted to do this revenge yourself but then... (his eyes watered but lighted up with this invaluable golden happiness.) But then we found out that you are pregnant (he laughed through his cries, stinging her.) Tere pet mein ek chota bacche thi... hamare bacche. Mera ek prince ya princess (He scrubbed at the tears that ran down his face.) Ab tum bolo... mein kaise tujhe is haal mein us dayawanti ki saat ladnee deh do? Mein kaisi mera bacche aur meri biwi ko katre mein daal saktha tha? (He couldnt help but break down in to unmanly sobs staring down at his hands. Avni saw that was gripping on to two pictures, a picture of her and him in each others arms lost in the eyes of one another the day of her birthday. And the other, a sonogram... of their baby. She could literally feel the agony as her soul shattered.)

(He laughed sadly.) I dont know whats happened to me yaar... mein kiti katarnak missons par gaya hai aur mujhe kabhi bhi maut khi daar nahi tha. Par aaj? Aaj mujhe bohot dhar lag raha hai avni... aaj Im scared of dying. Haan. Mujhe nahi mar na, mujhe tumhe chood kar nahi jaana chata hu, mujhe- mujhe humare bacche ko dekhna chati hu. Mein tumhe meri bahoon mein chaata hu avni, meri saath. I love you Avni. (His terrified sobbing eyes broke her heart, she was desperate to wipe away his tears and hold him to her chest as she sings him to a sleep warded from fears. She held her now crying son closer to her and rocked him gently, but couldnt seize his crying as he cried because he could hear the cries of his father.)

(Neil shut his eyes, gathering courage and forcing a smile on to his face.) Nahi, yeh sab zaarori hai avni. Agar mein... agar mein chood ke gaya, bus yaad rakna ki yeh sab mein tum aur humare bacche ki suraksha ke liye kiya hai. Mein us dayawanti mehta ko tum dono ko nuksaan paunchane nahi doonga, chaiye kuch bhi ho. Aur whatever, mein hamare bacche ko waha se dekh sakte ho na, vahan upar se... aur anyway mein already jhaanti hu humara bacche mera jaise handsome hoga... ya tumhare jaise... lady hitler! (Avni gasped playfully automatically, somehow so immersed into his words she forget that he wasnt really there.) Teek hai teek hai, mein mazak kar rahi hu... humari ek princess hogaya to wo tumare jaisi hogi, sabse khubsurat... those spellbinding eyes and that drop dead gorgeous smile...(He shut his eyes painfully.) Khash mein wo saab ek baar aur dekh sakthe.

(He sniffled back his tears again, and she could see him trying so hard to be brave and so she tried too.) Mujhe maaf kardo Avni... Mein itni buree hu? Tujhe itni badi news mil gayi, tujhe mein chood kar gayi, tu thoot chukha hua, tu akele maisoos kar rahi honga... aur mein itni selfishly mera baare mein baat kar rahi hu.

Mein nahi jhaanta ki mein kya khe sakthi hu. But, i want you to promise something. If memories of me are too painful... forget me. Forget i ever existed. Erase my name from your heart and your mind. Vaha se mein wo dekh liya tho thoda painful hoga but its a small sacrifice. I dont want to be the reason of your pain baby. Bhool jao mujhe. And find somebody that will look after you and our baby... please...

Aur papa ki pyaara baccha, agar tu sun raha hai, mera bhaat dhyaan se suno. Tera mumma ko bohot khyal rakho (he choked a sob.) kabhi usko mera kami ko nahi maisoon karne do. Aur khaas kar usko thang karna mat teek hai... I-I-I love you beta (his son reached out to touch the screen wistfully, crying. Avni had to place a hand over her wailing mouth and looked away, unable to bear the words that stabbed her with the harsh reality of Neil's death.)

Okay. Mein bohot bak bak kar chuka hu ab. Okay. (He took a deep shaky breath, but she couldnt stop crying, spilling fragments of her heart with her tears.) I know songs hold huge places in your heart, like the lullaby you used to sing to your mother? (She looked down at her son, now being a mother herself. And now she couldnt even remember the pain of losing her mother as the pain of losing her Neil overwhelmed her.) So i wanted to give you a song... unfortunatley im not very creative or a good singer so ive had to pick a movie song, kya karu? Thoda accha hai na wifey? Mera jaisa ek na layak bevakoof tera zindagi se gaya hai na? (he laughed bitterly at his cruel joke.) Okay, bus hogaya ab, mein gaa thi hu. Sorry to your ears meri pyaari wifey...

(He began singing in his beautiful perfect husky voice that she knew like the back of her hand, rough and textured but as smooth as silk. She closed her eyes and tears left her eyes as this feeling of warmth filled her from head to toe. The baby shut his eyes too, being slowly lulled in to sleep. Avni frowned in longing as she couldn't help the flood of painfully perfect memories that washed over her.)

A romantic song played in the background but Neil didnt know which because he couldnt hear it over the blare of rage ringing in his ears. He glared at them angrily, fire burning in the orbs of his eyes. His fists curled, and teeth gritted.

Ali had spun a suprised Avni into his arms and danced with her, grabbing to her waist tightly with a smug smile, under the excuse of a birthday dance. Avni smiled but it was slightly awkward and she tried to subtly edge away from him but Neil's skeptical possesive eyes saw Ali's hands slowly reaching up and down and near places that made him have to controll himself not to strangle Ali. He turned furiously on his foot and went to the bar.

Avni turned around and saw Neil gone from his place, speeding her heart a bit. Ali seethed seeing that her attention wasnt with him.

Neil looked down at the glass of beer, and brought it to his lips to down it- but then slammed the glass back on to the table. He peered at Ali and Avni who both still swayed together, Ali's grip too tight for avni to politely leave from. He decided he couldnt even stomach alcohol. He got up with restless eyes and then stormed off.

He ran up the stairs, frowning and growling under his breath. Avni looked up at him in concern, she slowly pryed herself away from an angry ali.

Avni- Sorry Ali, thanks aane ke liye... par mujhe Neil ko dekhne ke liye jaana hai. Bye.

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Neil stood facing the wall, shutting his eyes to block out the images racing through his mind. Avni walked in to the room, looking at him warily and being unable to predict his state. She wondered what the hell she had done now.

She went up behind him slowly with a tentative smile on her face. Suddenly she decided to wrap her arms around him from behind, making him jump. She rested her soft cheek against his back and he shut his eyes at her touch.

Avni- Hey Mr gussa ki volcano, ab kya hua? Mu banake kyu hamare kamre mein band kar betee hu? Neeche sab tumare intezaar kar raha hai... Abhi sab log jaa raha hai, bye kehna hai na?

Neil spun around angrily, abruptly grabbing avni by her arms causing her to jerk as she fell in to his chest. Her eyes were wide but his were narrow, filled with possesiveness.

Neil- (He bellowed furiously, shocking her out of her skin) Kyu!? Kyu neeche jaau main? So that your Ali can rub it in my face with that smug smile of his?

Avni- Neil... (she tried to calm him with her quiet and gentle voice.)

Neil- Nahi! Mujhe kuch nahi sun na hai! Kyu jaau mein neeche and see that man touch up My wife!? Fine, go do whatever you want. But dont ask me to watch it?! Argh! If only i could slap that smile off his face! (He yells it all looking off to the side in rage.)

Avni is still for a second subdued in shock, but then a smile appears on her face. She wraps her arms around his neck with a seductive smile, making him face her, utterly confused.

Avni- Oho... jalan aa raha hai tujhe

Neil frowned immediately but failed to hid the blush creeping his cheeks.

Neil- Bilkhul nahi.

Avni slowly dragged a finger up from his waistband and slowly up his chest, making his throat parched in desire. He stayed absolutely silent as he watched her in shock as she traced random patterns on his chest with a sweet smile.

Avni- Sure? (He nodded speechlessly, feeling a repeated thud through his body as he began to lose controll.)

Avni grabbed him roughly and playfully by the collar, pulling him closer with a teasing smile, centimetres from her lips. She leaned to his ear and her lips sensuously rubbed against his earlobe.

Avnii- jhoot bolna paap hota hai mr super cop... (And that was it, her soft panting whisper tickling against his skin, and the way that each and every part of her perfect body could be felt against his, he was intoxicated. She doesnt understand the cord she's hit.)

He has no controll over himself as he pushes her up against the wall, trapping her with his hands, staring at her with a smirk that started up sparks of electricity in her skin. His musky scent flooded her body like a drug, turning her a slave to her desire. He leaned in more, running a hand through her hair and stroked her cheekbone with his thumb, drowning in the thought of her.

Neil- (his voice was dry and deep with craving, frowning in jealously.) kyu jalu mein huh? Tum meri ho, Samji?! (Avni clawed at his back as she shut her eyes in thrill, she nodded speechlessly.) Aur tum us ali ko bolonga - chale jao hamesha hamesha ke liye. kyunki tum meri ho, aur kabhi uske nahi honga! (They shared an eyelock that burned with passion.)

Avni- Mein tumare ho Neil, mein humashe ke liye tumare ho (She whispered this softly cupping his face in her hands, and finally a contented smile graced his face.)

Without warning, Neil grabbed her face in his hands and kisses her. Their kiss held a raw intensity as their lips danced like it was carved in to their dna. For a second it felt like Avni was paralyased, her body unable to process the bliss of his body against her. But then lost in the moment, she struggles yet throws off his shirt. She runs her fingers across the carved lines of his toned torso. Every time they touched their skin tingled in a frenzy of static yet in between their kisses they were in bouts of laughter... because the burden on their hearts and had been freed and they were just enjoying the feeling of each other. With a laugh, he lifted Avni right off her feet, carrying her with ease toward the bed while she smiled up at him biting her lips. He lets her fall on to the matress with a small bounce, and hovers over her. He plants a kiss on her forehead, her cheeks and then her nose adorably. Avni runs her hands through his hair and holds him by his hair affectionately.

Neil- Mujhe yeh sab karne- Are you okay for me to do this avni? (His voice weakened and his eyes searched her's for permission.)

Avni- Mein tere jaisa ek gentleman ko kaise manna kar sakthe ho yaar (she smiled up at him in awe, and Neil slowly traces her features with his finger.)

Neil- Imagine Ali's face if i tell him about all this...(he joked as he winked at her sexily, and avni hit him on his bare chest playfully with a gasp.)

He pulled the blanket over them, and we can all assume the events that followed next.

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Avni sat on the closed toilet seat rattling in sobs, she looked down at her hands fearfully. She held a positive pregnancy test, her worst fears had come true. She had been showing symptoms but she had prayed that this wouldnt happen. She slowly placed a hand on her stomach weeping. 'How could i do this to Neil? What if he doesnt want a baby? First i married him forcefully and how I'm burdening him with a child. He says he loves me but I know his sacrificing nature. I can't do this to him. I need to leave.' She sits there and cries until her eyes are rubbed raw and she feels sick.

Neil searches the house for avni, he sees shweta sitting on the sofa flicking through a magazine. He frowns in concern.

Neil- Maa avni {the family know everything} kidhere hai? (Shweta shook her head not knowing where she was.)

Shweta- par wo kuch dher pehele bathroom mein chala gaya tha..

Neil runs up the stairs his face warped in worry. He calls out for avni repeatedly, his voice breaking in apprehension.

Avni heard him yelling out but was too embarassed to respond. He hears her cries, and worriedly rushes behind the noise. He reaches outside the bathroom door, he shakes in fear.

Neil- Avni? Kya hua? Darwaza kholo... mein yaha hu, kyu roh rahi hu? Tum ko mujhe bata sakthi hu avni... (his voice was pleading in concern, Avni still cried sorely, trying to crush the test in her fist in frustration.) Avni tu khol do ya mein darwaza thodunga aur aandar awunga... avni...

She still refused to move, biting her lip so hard in anger at herself that it stared bleeding and streaking blood over her face. Neil became impaitent in panic, he took a few steps back. He then charged at the door, slamming in to it and breaking it open.

He is aghast at her state, her feet folded to her chest and head hidden in her hands and breaking out in cries. He rushed to her side, and lifted her face to look at him.

Neil- Avni? Aisa kyu roh rahi hu? (His own eyes tear up seeing her this way.) Kisi ne kuch kaha? Dayawanti ne kuch- (he started fueling up in anger thinking someone hurt his avni. Avni shook her head suprising him a little.) Phir kya hua?

Shakily, she held out her hand that had the the test in it, looking away in guilty shame.

Avni- Im so sorry Neil... (Neil slowly took it out of her hands in shock. He looked down at it in puzzlement.)

Neil- (his eyes light up.) Iska matlab...

Avni- Haan Neil im sorry...

Neil- Iska matlab tum maa ban ne wale ho!? (His voice is filled with glee as he looks up at her with adorably big eyes. She nods, confused and dumb folded.)

Sorry!? Why the hell are you saying sorry!?

He stands up and suddenly lifts Avni by her waist, spinning her round repeatedly, laughing giddily, Avni is still taken aback. He carries her out of the bathroom and out of their room, down their stairs and in to the living room, all while yelling out names of their family members.

In the living room Bebe, prakash and Shweta all sat around the coffee table, looking at their compromising position, laughing but also utterly lost. Neil snaps out of it a second but doesn't lose his excitement. He puts her on the ground, but cant stop smiling goofily in elation.

Neil- Maa! Bebe! Papa! (He yelled out bubbling with happiness.)

Shweta- chills tillu

Bebe- Kya hua beta?

Neil- Bebe! (He just continued to yell out their names, unable to comprehend his ecstacy. Avni goes back a little nervously and shamefully, confused by his behaviour and fiddling with her now messed up saree.)

Bebe- Haan tillu hum sun rahe hai, hum 10 minutes se sun rahe, kuch bolenga?

Neil- (He squealed like an 11 year old girl in euphoria) Bebe Avni pregnant hai! Papa! Mein papa hone jaa raha hai! World ki best papa, oh obviously after you.(Avni was completely red in shyness but the sparkle hadn't left Neil's eyes. He ran over to avni and then pulled her in to a bone crushing hug. He held her for ages, too happy too move.)

The family gasp in surprise and absolute joy. Bebe clears her throat making them part, and then they all run to Avni and fuss about her. Bebe tucked her hair out her face and pinched her cheeks and shweta side hugged her, while prakash sat her down on the sofa. He rang up a doctor with a smile he couldn't take off his face. Avni smiled a little, proud and happy that she could make the family that had done so much for her so happy.

Bebe- Wow beta, tu aur avni moved fast huh? (Avni blushed so hard she went purple.) I thought i had seen too much love between you both...

Neil- Bebe...- (He blushed rosy as well.)

Bebe- haan okay we are going, you both talk... we have a lot of people to tell this news. Avni beta chinta mat karo hum Neela ko bata loonga... (Avni nodded meekly.) Beta! You made us so happy! Mein ab badi dadi banunga!

They left the room leaving Neil and Avni alone.Neil had an irreplacable smile on his face while Avni's tears reappeared, she was still guilty. He frowned in concerned confusion at seeing her cry again, he went to her, kneeled in front of her and wiped at her tears.

Neil- Itni khush baat hai... kyu roh rahi hu avni?

Avni- (Her small voice broke his heart) tujhe sacch me is bacche ko chaata hai? (He furrowed his eyebrows at her in question.) Humare shaadi ek dhoka tha Neil... tumhe meri aur iss bacche ke bojh ko utane ki zarowath nahi hai. Agar tum chaate ho, mein yaha se jaa sakte ho. Im sorry Neil.

Neil- (His eyes were hurt and angry) kya bakwas bol rahi ho Avni? Pagal hogaya kya? Mein tumse pyaar karti ho avni... aur is baccha- hamare baccha (he placed his hand on her stomach.) Ab mere sab kuch hai. Mein, tum aur hamare bacche, mere yeh chote se parivaar hai mere sabse keemte cheez. ( She smiled with tears of delight as he reaches up and planted a loving kiss on her stomach then in her hair.) I love you Avni, and i love our child. Aur mein vada karthi hu ki main hamare bachche ke lie duniya ka sabase acha papa hone ke lie apanee pooree koshish karoonga. But kabhi bhi jaane ke baare mein phir se bol na bhi mat. Promise?

Avni placed her hand over his that rested on her stomach, smiling at him in overwhelming happiness and admiration.

Avni- Promise.

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Tbc