Chapter 2 oh no
An unfamiliar headache woke her the next morning, her throat felt dry and itchy and a certain weight on her din't help with the pain her muscles were screaming , 'wait a certain weight????' she slowly opened her eyes facing the roof of a car? a car? She moved uncomfortably completely confused by her surrounding but froze as she was unable too , she looked down and found dark messed up hairs , a head , no way , a whole guy , sleeping on her , his face dug in her chest , she panicked pushing him away from her , he groaned painfully , lifting his head revealing his face to Chakor but not only that , as he unwrapped himself off , she could see her naked body ,she breathed heavily as realiziation rushed to her
He sat straight on the seat pushing his head in his hands ,where was he ?? what was he doing???, he turned his face only to find a shocked and panicking Chakor
"Nooo...noo.nnooo" She kept on saying like crazy looking around for her dress and found it down
"Will you Just stop mummuring , it's troubling me???" He whined trying to focus on the previous day
"Just shut up and turn your effing face!!" She yelled embarassed by herself , she was a responsible mature girl how on earth did she let this happen to her , lost her virtue , unmarried , to a guy , not any guy but Suraj ,in His Car's Backseat she grew redder and tears threatened to flow out of her eyes as she pulled her dress over her head
He turned but felt the uncontrollable urge to say he'd have had seen everything already but it wasn't the right moment
He pulled his jeans on , finally the previous night clicking to him , she knew!!!! She realized he liked Imli , and in trying to shut her up , he slept with her , he wanted to bang his head somewhere , it was an unpardonable error , even if the girl was Chakor , she was the last one he'd chose to have a drunk one night stand with
Their deed of last night flashed in her mind like a movie playing to her , she was disgusted by how easy she gave in , true she was drunk but she could have tried to push him away , she didn't , she din't try a single time to push him away
"Look..." He started but then the fear of last night rushed back to him , "You will not tell Imli right???" as he ended she slapped him hard which rang across the car
He lifted his head angrily to yell at her but shut it as he faced her teary face
"I Lost My Virtue to you...
a guy like you and the first thing you ask me is Not to tell Imli?? Well guess what Mr Suraj Rajvanshi , i aint telling her anything , okay??? " She turned to open the car but it din't
"Chakor i am so..r"
"Enough , open the car , i wanna go" She adamantly asked refusing to hear a word more from him
"Just open the car!!!!" realizing she'll not listen , he clicked on the unlock key and watched her leave the car , he sighed frustratedly , wishing not to see her again, it was a whole mistake and he was not ready to face it again, he was going to lock the last night in his 'to be forgotten' cage of his brain
She ignore the sore feeling between his thighs and hurriedly caught a cab to his hostel , running to her dorm , she rushed to her bathroom, grateful Bhagya wasn't there , it'd be damn hard to tell her , she has had spent a night banging her brother
She opened the tap allowing her tears to finally fall , she slid down breaking into sobs , she did dream about a perfect guy , having the perfect first time , she'd adjust if she had too but having a one night stand with a guy who liked his sister , she was drunk but she could reminsce his lovestruck expression while looking at Imli , she brushed her skin roughly as if trying to remove his every touch away but it din't go , she couldn't stop cursing herself for her grave mistake
But then she regained herself..why not???she worked damn hard for having reached the stage she was , she just couldn't give it all up now when she had only one a half month before her degree, she wiped her eyes with a determined thought
After a month , she was more quiet than ever , even towards Bhagya , who easily recognized her fake smile , she worked harder for her finals but as she reached closer to her goal , her health grew weaker
She woke up a morning rushing towards the sink emptying her last night meal in, she felt Bhagya's arm rubbing her back as she kept on puking , her stomach churned as she finished her head dizzy , she was directed towards the bed by Bhagya
"you're alright??" She asked
Unsure about her voice she simply nodded but she knew it wasn't the case , she hasn't been well since days now , but she called it stress of the finals
"No you're not Chakor , stop lying to me and yourself" She raised her voice angry at her bestfriend " I have been noticing you for days and it all began after that night at the club"
Bhagya knew she was on the right track when Chakor grew pale at her mention of that night
"Bhagya please"
"No please Chakor , you think i din't notice that huge hickey onyour neck??? i din't question you because i trust you , i thought you wanted space and you'd open up at the right time but i was wrong , the right time never came , and you turned into this Zombie Chakor i don't recognize anymore" she ranted
She broke into tears as the night's memories flashed back to her , she feared to open herself , feared to be misjudged , but she knew it was the right thing to do after her bestfriend rushed to her side , hugging her tight
And she started telling her about it all , her encounter with Suraj , she getting drunk , finding out about Suraj's liking for Imli and worst of all She slept with him , she was ashamed of herself when she ended , she hid her face in her bestfriend's shoulder wiping hard
Bhagya was shocked to no bounds , she felt angry at her brother for most part , she knew it took two to tango but it wouldn't have had happened if Suraj actually left Chakor alone and she also felt guilty since she was the one who pursuaded her to go to the club that night
"i am sorry Chakor" She whispered
She broke the hug confuse why would Bhagya apologize
"I was the one who convinced you to go there that night" She said guiltily
"It wasn't your fault Bhagya , you wanted me to enjoy , you had good intention , anyway leave it , i feel much better now having had told you all" She wiped her tears and pulled her lips in a smile while Bhagya looked at her with admiration , could this girl get anymore stronger? But then it hit her , she did notice Chakor ill for a few days
Looking at her friend lost in thought she click her fingers infront of her "Whats wrong????"
"i have a doubt, just wait i want to confirm it" Saying soo she left a confused Chakor behind and rush towards the exit
After a while she came back with a plastic bag with the pharmacy's logo stamped on it
"You din't have too get me medicines Bhagya , i said i was fine" she said going back to her business books
"It's no medicines actually" she said dragging Chakor's attention back at her , she lifted her eyebrows waiting for her to open the plastic bag , she did and removed three boxes , which shocked Chakor to no bounds , it was
"Pregnancy test??????" She asked fearing for the wildest outcome
"Chakor i am studying medicines , trust me , i can recognize a syntom even far away , i am not saying it's for sure that , but you need to be on the safe side away from doubts"
She felt her breath stuck in her lung , she din't remember if Suraj had had used any condom that night and true to Bhagya's words the possibility of her getting pregnant were high but she couldn't help but pray it was not the case, she looked at her flat stomach , to Bhagya's face and then to the tests
With a heavy heart , she took the tests and entered the bathroom
Every click of their dorm's clock caused their heartbeat to palpitate as they waited for the test's result
And when it finally did , she pushed the test toward Bhagya , afraid to see what it actually showed
"Nooo wayy" Her bestfriend's surprised yet shocked tone did conclude it wasn't something she'd be please with
She closed her eyes tight and asked , " What is it????"
Bhagya took a long breath before answering in a faint voice it was almost inaudible to Chakor , "Positive" she said in a breath
She all of sudden felt her breath being sucked out of her lungs , she opened her eyes only to let out a few tears out amd rushed to get the tests from Bhagya re-verifying those and she was right it had the plus sign one the double lines and the other changed color , it meant only one thing she was 'screwed'
Just 2 weeks away from her finals , she worked soo hard even if she'd manage to through the finals how was she supposed to start trainingship with a baby in her womb , it was impossible and it might be a factor which would actually denied her the trainingships she applied for , how could she be soo dumb?
Once again Bhagya wrapped her arms around her as she cried
"What am i going to do Bhagya??? I just can't do it on my own and on the other side i can't get do the sin of getting it rid off" She silently nulled the option of abortion heck she wouldn't consider it even if it was the last option , it was hers and Suraj's fault not the baby's
"And this is why you are going to have to let Suraj know , he can't be out clean handed out of it , it was all that idiot's fault" Bhagya said encouraging her
But she was right , She had to let Suraj know about it , she might hate him and wished to never see him again but right now her life was under scanner , she'd have to do it
"But first i am going to have a second opinion from a doctor , i am not relying on these tests Bhagya"
"Three tests Chakor? how many more proofs do you need????" She said pointing at the tests which laid on the floor
"Still i am going to book an appointment" If she had to do it then she had to be sure about it.
The next day she stood nervously infront of the gynecologist office, she nervously entered and the check up began , she was never the cry baby , never the one scared of doctors , medicines infact whenever she was ill she would stay firm with the doctor just to be better quicker but at that moment she wanted to cry like a baby and run out of the maternity unit only to be held by her Mother , damn her parents , mere the thought about facing her parents brought tears to her eyes
"You're 4 weeks pregnant" Those word sealed her future and confirmed every single doubt
"Where's your husband???" Was the next question the doctor asked which made her go more nervous
"He doesn't know i came to keep it a surprise" She lied wishing not to be judged
She left the doctor's office with a vitamin and other supplements prescription , she only had a thing to do now and she will do only the right one
She heavy heartedly dialed a number and waited till he answered "Hello" he answered grudgily
"H...hello Suraj, it's me Chakor we need to talk" She managed to pull out single breathly , she could hear a gulp coming from the other end of the phone and wish he would listsn not disconnect the phone or act like the jerk he always did and
"Okay meet you at the coffee shop in one hour???" He said surprising her , he din't taunt her neither refuse her , that only made her hopeful
Suraj has had negative feeling about her sudden phonecall but he needed a closure , he needed to put an end at all those guilty feeling he had been having past days , he couldn't get rid of Chakor's teary face that morning and for that he needed to face her again , he rushed for his leather jacket and ran to his bike , he'd never use his car ever since that night , he would feel suffocated and it was still filled with her fragnance something he found weirdly annoying , he'd have the thought to sell that car
Reaching the coffee shop , he found her sitting sulkily at a table in a corner , he was seeing her after a month or more , she seemed to have grown pale but meh , he would just listen to what she had to say , get rid of his guilt feeling and leave , soo easy
Chakor frowned at him pulling the chair causing it scringe loudly , she controlled herself knowing better than saying anything rude
"Hi" He said not knowing how to initiate a conversation with a girl for the first time
She pulled her chocolate milk to her lips taking a large sip out of it and all of a sudden said "i am pregnant" She whispered slowly keeping her eyes on her milk mug holding it tight to keep her hands from shivering
Did he get that right? he raised his eyebrows and straightened himselff on the chair "repeat that ...will ya?
She closed her eyes taking a deep breath , raise her head to finally meet his eyes and answered " i am pregnant"
"What??????" he yelled attracting the attention of the other people but he covered it by sending a fake lips smacked smile towards then ensuring everything is alright , but it was not , he was feeling hot in an air-conditioned room
"You heard it Suraj" she could see he was finding the news as unbelievable as she did
He sat thinking about the cons of the situation , he felt stupid and cursed himself harder , 'unprotected sex was the last he'd indulged in and with sister of his love? that was worst , he couldn't do it '
"I don't know Chakor , just ...you know...get ...rid of it " He said fearfully scare to lose his everything , if his father knew he'd knocked up a girl ,he'll be doomed
For once his reaction was not surprising to her , she'd expect him to say something like that but instead of getting angry she decided to handle it calmly , "Suraj , i know it's tough but see even i am doing it , we can raise it together , i alone will not be able too , and we will not even have to be together for it , there are single parents coping with each other for their child's upbringing we can be like that we mutual understanding" She pleaded to him pushing aside all the pride she had
But her words did nothing to him , he was thinking about all the cons this baby would cause , his chance with Imli , his chance with his father's company , heck even his reputation
"You don't get it do you???? Get rid of that...that thing!!! Or perhaps...You need money huh????" He frowned at her , he wasn't getting it why wouldn't she understand that child would ruin the both of them
'money?' How did he even think so low about her , she stood up feeling suffocated ,"Suraj i know this is tough for you to cope with , but that doesn't mean you say whatever shits come to you , if i had wanted money i'd go to your rich daddy and say hello your son knocked me up , but i din't, i am trying to help you think maturely , we can do it together if we act rightly , we can explain the others we were drunk but still responsible towards our acts" Again she took a dig at her ego
"i don't know" He answered sweating hard
"Then take your time and let me know i will wait for your decision" She said leaving the coffee shop not before taking a last glimpse at a dead worried Suraj , she could just wish he take the right decision
Three weeks later , she was done with her finals , she received no news call from Suraj but thought maybe he'd need more time to cope with the news , it was time for her to return home , to her village ...to her parents
The moment she dreaded the most had came , she had to face her parents and tell them she broke their trust
She stood infront of her house wishing the most to run away but could she really do that??? no...she atleast deserved to give an explanation to her parents and the sooner the better , she rang the doorbell and felt the floor slip down her feet as she saw the person who received her first
"Suraj????" She was confused , what was he doing at her house??? and looking at his face she could say he din't know about her arrival either
"Chakor " Her mother heard her and ran to hug her , she was seeing her daughter after more than a year , the last time
Her mother's arm wrapped around her drove her even more nostalgic all she wanted was to confess her mistake and lay her head in her mother's lap and perhaps luck was by her side , Suraj was there too
She sent a gentle smile towards him , she would not act pricey , but he remained emotionless if anything he was scare
She entered the hall and found her sister and few more people sitting , she could recognize one of them as Suraj's father , she read about him in newspaper , he was a famous textile businessman
"What's happening ma?" She asked after having had greeted all
"They are to ask for Imli's hand" her mother announced proudly
She smiled at them looking around for Vivaan , Her sister sat there blushing , she was 2 years younger to her...why getting married now?
"Kasturi You have beautiful daughters i am soo happy one of them is going to become my daughter in law" Suraj's mother happily announced
"Haan bhai , Suraj is a lucky man" His father joked while all laughed , all except her and Suraj , she looked at him wondering what was happening and confusedly asked
"Suraj???"
"Yes Chakor , There are here to ask for Imli's hands for suraj" And there she almost felt the room spinning around her , Suraj? Imli's hands? what the heck was happening , she was dating Vivaan!! How ???
"Ma i need to use the washroom" without waiting for her mother's permission she ran towards her room straight to the sink , puking her guts out , she was feeling weak and slid down sitting on the floor , she din't know for how much time she stayed
Her trance were broken by a click at her door , she raised her head to find Suraj standing looking more nervous than ever
"really?" she asked feeling numb, "i wasn't asking you to marry me , i was asking for a bit of support not for you to go marry my sister and rub it in my face" She nearly screamed as she spoke
He felt guilty needless to say but what could he do? He was finally getting all what he wished he could help but say "i am sorry Chakor this is why i asked you to get rid of it , please don't ruin it for me" He begged wishing she would understand
She looked at him in disbelief , he was asking her not to ruin it ????? "I am myself ruined Mr suraj Rajvanshi , how the heck am i suppose to ruin anything for you????" She felt like someone set her heart on fire not because she loved Suraj or anything , she din't but her hopes were reduced into ashes in mere a go , she had no other way , except , she walked besides him having made up her mind , the Rajvanshis had left exceptt for Suraj , she called for her parents desperately
He ran after her frightenedly wishing she would not take any rough decision , what if she told all about him ?
"Maaa baba" She screamed shivering , she held the mad urge to burst up into tears but it wasn't time to fall apart
"Chakor" Suraj tried to call her
"enough!!!!!" She screamed and faced her parents , her sister stood in a corner all confused
"I have to tell you something" She gulped ignoring her dizzy head , her parents concerned face made her more and more guilty
"What's wrong with you Chakor? why are crying???" Her father asked
She clenched her fist tight before letting out the news and Suraj thought it was over he had lost his everything
"I am ..pp...pregnant" She said lowering her head feeling ashame for having had to say it , she could feel her parents gasp , she refused to lift her head and face them , a slap on her cheeks echoed around the room , she din't even lift her head to see who did it
"How could you??????" Her mother asked feeling betrayed , Chakor was her responsible daughter
"We trusted you with everything Chakor and you rewarded us with this??????" Her father was shocked and disgusted , all the times he told his daughters their virtue was precious
"Who is he????" Her mother asked and for the first time she lifted her head , looking straight towards Suraj , he felt like he would stop breathing at any instant but then
"I don't know" As she ended another slap came in her way followed by her sister's sarcastic laughters
"And you always told me to be like Chakor didi , she doesn't even know who knocked her up , was there too many????" She asked fueling the house matter , she din't hate her sister but she had always disliked the fact everyone wanted her to be like the perfect Chakor and this was the main reason imli distant herself to chakor
Suraj was failing to believe his ears , she said she didn't know??? She was lying , why?
Inspite of her lies she was wishing deeply for Suraj to step in and save her from all the humiliation that would follow but he stayed like a statue there watching it all unfold like some cheap drama
"You can't stay here , i can't let you ruin Imli's life" Her father said while her mother cried
She accepted the ordeal without any word said , picked up her unpacked luggage and left the house , silently vowing not to cry anymore , she would be strong , she had no feeling about motherhood but she will abide her responsibilities
Another whole month was gone and Suraj din't hear of Chakor , the day after his meeting with Chakor , he would have had thought about supporting her but that was before Imli rushed to her crying her eyes out saying Vivaan dropped her , his doorbell rang and the person he least expected stood there
She looked soo different , her hairs were pulled in a side instead of her regular jeans and kurti she wore a classic suit ,and the look on her face were soo unfamiliar to him
"Can i come in?" She asked with confidence lacing in her voice
He moved off the entrance allowing her in , without saying anymore words , she digged her hand in her purse removing some clipped papers , 'Sign it" she said
He was puzzled but he chose not to say anything he took the papers and read it , it was legal papers stating that henceforth he denies to any right concerning Chakor's unborn child , he don't want the child and in future he'd never have the right to claim it
"what the hell is this??" He raised his eyebrows at her
"It's legal documents to make sure you never step your sorry ass back into mine and my child's life , now sign it" She was definitely different , the previous Chakor would fight with him but she would never talk with such hatred
"I will not do it" not that he would ever want to be part ofhers and that child's life but he wasn't sure of such contract
"fine then , watch me call your father and imli telling them about you being the father of my child" She pulled her mobile out of her bag only to have it pulled by Suraj
"What the hell?"
"Sign the God damn papers" She said again and this time her determined face worked , he placed the papers on a table and signed the documents still not sure if that was the right this to do and just like that she took her phone and the papers leaving his house , without even saying a word in addition
She was sure of her decision and this time nothing will stop her , she had her hands full , a flight ticket and the registered legal documents that Suraj signed in
"Chakor yaar don't go" Bhagya pleaded
"I have too Bhagya , it's a lifetime opportunity" and she was right , her hardwork paid off , her project assignment was liked by some indo-italian delegates and she would get to do her trainingship in a completely new country , it was as if luck were finally standing by her side and she'd not regret accepting it
"But you'll do return right????" she blinked her tears away
"I will And we have the internet we'll stay in contact" She said before the announcement call
She ran a hand on her still flat stomach , she had no clue what wil happen next and she knew it'll not be all roses but she'll stay positive and strong. A silent promise made to herself as she passed the check in point
Edited by Blushy_Auntacid - 8 years ago