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She ran from to hall , her heart was shattered this time . She didn't wanted to face anyone , not because she was falling weak each and every day but because everyone betrayed her. She wanted to tell everyone that she was at no fault , she wanted to tell Shivaaye that his mom was planning some ridiculous things against her , she was being treated like shit. But how could she tell him ? She knew he loved his mom the most , what will be his suitation when he gets to know this ? That is why she nullified her self respect by remaining silent. She reached her room , entering the room she wondered is this room even belonged to her ? Is this still only his room and she is staying here because it's his duty because he married her. She started doubting everything. His words , his actions , her place in this house and most importantly her place in his heart.
I was so bored this morning , so wrote this and I typed this from my phone. Sorry if its not worth your reading. Thank you.
Still sobbing and breathless she jumped on the couch. She couldn't stop her tears , she just couldn't move from there. Her so called mother in law hates her to the core , her best friend just betrayed her and what was breaking her the most that her husband with whom she made a little world of her own didn't trusted her.
"How could you do this Shivaaye ? How could you just think like that ? How could you even think for a second that I could hurt your family ? Didn't I trusted you every time and on everything and assured you every time that I will never harm your family ? I accepted your apologies even when you didn't apologize. I accepted you as my husband even after when you forced me to marry you , I was humiliated in this house. Still I stayed , your mother didn't left any chance to taunt me , still I respected her because I understand what a family is , I understand the need of a family because I don't have one but what I realized today is that the place where I found my love and happiness , the people I thought are my family too just betrayed me. " She whispered this to her while still sobbing.
She suddenly stood up , wiped her tears and started removing her jewelry like everything was normal. While looking in the mirror she could only think of Shivaaye. The way he made her noticed how she blushed when he was near , how he helped her to wear her mangalsutra . She then turned around and noticed the whole room , she remember the moments they spent there. From fighting with each other to understanding and talking to each other. From saying hurtful words to each other to loving each other.
"Everything was going fine , we were fine , everything in the family was going good , I was happy but then why my happiness takes everything away from me. Why can't I stay happy for long ? I've started to fear happiness because every time I'm happy the world just going to come crashing down , Why Shivaaye why couldn't you just trust me ? I was looking at you , looking at your eyes with hope that you will understand but no you proved me wrong like always ". She couldn't help but cry while saying all this.
Shivaaye on the other hand was baffled , hurt , anxiety was taking over him. Guilt was overpowering him , he threw Ranveer out of the house . But he could only think how he was being punished for his own deeds. He knows brothers and sisters can be weaknesses. He just used that weakness to force Annika to marry him. How could he just do this to her and even after this he shouted at her today. " He was there to save his sister from this evil man but no one was there to save Annika from the evil me " he thought.
All he could do was go in the room and apologize but the question was how will he even face her. He went to the room walking in a slow pace.
When he went to the room he saw Annika crying while sitting on the floor . Kajal smuged , the stains of old tears were even visible. He couldn't just help and go to her , he was going to hug her and take away all her worries but she stopped him. Shivaaye was shocked and somewhere ready for it.
"Listen to me Annika , I'm sorry " This was all he could say.
"Do you even know what does sorry means , Shivaaye " She said strongly yet in a breaking voice.
To be continued.
- Jas.
I was so bored this morning , so wrote this and I typed this from my phone. Sorry if its not worth your reading. Thank you.
Anupamaa
