Hello, everyone 😊 A quick welcome to this monster-post, lol! 😆
First and foremost: This post is not about justifying Rudra's actions nor glorify them, neither is it to break loose debates about how stupid or wrong or whatever he is. I am just trying to shed some light on the workings of his mind and his reasons as I understand them because it seems that a lack of understanding makes it very easy to bash (not criticize, which is never a problem) him left, right and center. And the comparison to SSO is seriously annoying the hell out of me 😆 I will only focus on Rudra's point of view as I perceive it - that's all this post is about, so, keep that in mind, please 😉
Let's start with the last RuMya confrontation before she left the mansion. The situation: We all know about the chaos that wreaked havoc in OM. When Soumya approached Rudra, he was already frustrated because he couldn't reach Omkara.
Some of the things Rudra said/asked were reasonable - if we go back a few months, initially it had been Rudra who had been a bit more inclined toward the marriage and Soumya the one more reluctant to accept it, especially since she was with Reyhaan and wedding plans were being made. Eventually, both of them decided to drop the matter, neither wanted the marriage. But when Shivaay asked them, if we ignore the way Rudra tried to handle the conversation: Soumya was hesitant to admit that she did not accept the marriage, either. She maybe did, slowly, now, who knows? But it made it look like Rudra was the only one against it - despite both of them having had decided it, before.
The blaming was wrong. Accusing Soumya to be the root of all the problems was wrong and unfair and immature.
Though, we always complained about how Rudra's never much affected by the on-goings in his family. How it was weird that he could brush away everything so effortlessly and be all smiles. I have always been of the opinion that Rudra is affected a lot but instead of dealing with the pain, he stores it away inside of him because he wants to remain the happy goofball within the family, for his brothers, doesn't want to add to the stress and problems - it's not healthy. Such emotions, if not dealt with, eat away at you. At some point, all it needs is a little trigger and they burst out.
A huge fight had broken out within the family. ShivIka were blamed. Jhanvi tried to commit suicide by burning herself (pretty traumatic for a kid to witness this). The divorce thing came out. Om transformed to OSO. And went missing. What was the trigger that had all these things unfold? The video leak of the RuMya marriage.
Yes, Tej gave Jhanvi the divorce papers before that happened (although, he had been prompted to do it then because Jhanvi had wanted to stop her son from doing any mistake instead of listening to Tej). But how many people will think rationally in such a moment? In Rudra's mind, it all happened because of that video leak. What if he hadn't agreed to marry Chadda's daughter? What if no one had known about his marriage? What if the video had not leaked? What if he had been in his senses and hadn't married Soumya? To us who are looking at the situation from an objective point of view, it seems nonsensical to blame the marriage. But to someone who is emotionally involved in such a stressing situation, at the very center of it- who saw his mother burning herself, who saw his brother change within heartbeats, who was panicking because he thought said brother was gone- rationality won't come.
He had been high on frustration, Soumya approached him, and everything broke out. Personally, I believe that Rudra's blaming himself the most for everything. The marriage, to him, was a mistake, and said mistake escalated chaos in his home - Soumya reminds him of the marriage, obviously, and things he now associates with it, and he lashes out.
When Soumya left the mansion, it's up to our guesses how exactly he felt, lol. Hurt because subconsciously, there are these feelings he has for her? A little betrayed that she just left like this? Only guesses.
During the hijacking, when Soumya stepped in front of him, Rudra was concerned for her. But the moment she mentioned that he was her pati, he shut down. A trigger? Looks like it if I consider my thoughts on how Soumya reminds him of the marriage and the marriage of that video leak and what transpired shortly after that. Even after he had harshly told her to stay away from him and his family, for a split moment, he had looked conflicted - to me, at least.
Keeping Rudra's solo promo for DBO in mind (where he says that he has fallen in the trap of love and to find out how, watch DBO) - I'll add to everything that he is highly conflicted with his feelings for Soumya. He used to be a playboy (yes, used, lol), never considered falling for someone like Soumya and she had been a friend, only, initially. Of course, developing feelings for her will be a life changing fact for him, something that people don't cope with just like that. Plus, the real issues in his own life, his family and what the marriage reminds him of- he's struggling internally, and lashing out at Soumya immaturely. But that's not unexpected or surprising. How can we think that the boy who had never needed to quite grow up and deal with things on his own, would take everything that has transpired in the past days in stride and cope exceptionally well with it? He is on the path toward maturing - has not reached the end, not by far. He will, eventually.
That he's struggling to accept his feelings was emphasized by that destiny scene. It had a melancholic touch, that whole scene. Serenely sad. He doesn't want to accept, it's easier to turn away than embrace change. But this might be needed for both of them. The distance. Being away from each other so that they can breathe and process everything and try to deal with it. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, as they say, lol 😉
On that final note: Rudra's by far nothing like Shivaay. Just because he refuses to accept the marriage doesn't make him like his brother. One of the crucial differences is that Rudra didn't choose the marriage, himself, for whichever reason. Plus his immaturity and unhealthy coping mechanism (or the lack of these) don't help much. He is not justified in how he treated Soumya in these two occasions (before she left and during the hijacking) - but it's not completely baseless, either, if we look at it through his eyes. Not easily grasped, I admit!
All of that said: I pray that they don't stretch this behavior for too long. Despite everything, Rudra's a person who doesn't hold grudges (for long) and who easily softens up especially toward people he cares for. Keeping up this attitude of his would be senseless. And who knows, next time we see Soumya, we'll see her as a Kapoor - and get the real story rolling. She's free to hurt him as much as she please... just saying! 😛
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