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PART 2
A storm was recurring in Ram's heart... All the lovely antics of his dear brother flashed in front of His eyes
"Lakshman eat your food" mata Sumitra scolded 5 year old Lakshman when he was continuously watching at Ram and His plate.
"No mata" lakhan said still looking at his bhaiya.
"Mata it seems he wants to eat from My plate only" Ram gave a broad smile and called His little naive boy next to Him.
How happy that young fellow was that day... Thinking of that spark in his eyes, a wet smile came on Lord's face!
"I will not let you and Bhabhi go alone Bhaiya..."
Though newly wed, he was ready to leave his wife just to serve Me and Site. Ram remembered His soul's stubborn decision...
Even when I tried to convince him..
"But Lakshman, you can't leave Urmila---"
Ram opened His eyes,
"URMILA" he uttered.
Again you left Urmila, Lakshman & again I am responsible.
Shri Ram collected some courage and headed towards her room...
" I will have to notify her, myself. "
Lord wiped all His tears and like a strong elder brother went inside to support His sister. But all He saw again melted Him.
Urmila was sitting in front of Lakshman's painting, she was angry, but in a moment smiled with helpless eyes.
"Your eyes swami! They don't even let me cry either. How easily you went by saying that Death completes our life. See now neither life is being completed nor lived by.
Why this Destiny is playing so harshly Swami.
You know, when you went in exile. Though I was shattered yet, I at least had some satisfaction, after 14 years we would be together, You were on your duty, Didi and Ram Bhaiya will take care of you too...
But this time, you are alone, all alone... How will you have your meal... I just pray to God, to give you enough strength to survive without your Bhaiya.
Stay strong Swami, I will try to be alive without you, but I know it's going to be very hard for Ram bhaiya too..." Urmila bowed her head and cried her heart out.
Ram was standing half lying on the door, sobbing severely.
He took some steps further, tried to caress Mila but found no energy to do so.
He saw a garland nearby, and placed it on the portrait.
Urmila rose her head listening to some crying voices, she saw her Ram bhaiya completely broken. As soon as she held Him her eyes ran on the portrait...
She lost all her senses.
"Urmila, I know my dear, how unjustified it is. I am responsible for this. Curse me... but please don't stay quiet."
"Swami... SWAMI!!" she shouted.
"Bhaiya, my nightmare, my nightmare--"
Ram held her, ruffling her hair He said, "I know that feeling, I have gone through it too".
Somehow Ram managed to make her sit on the bed, brought some water for her.
He sat besides her, in His calm voice He tried to ask for forgiveness from the most sacrificing lady of their house.
"Urmi you know, during our exile many a times Lakshman used to badmouth himself, for not being able to be your worthy husband.
He used to confide in me how he was unable to return love for your sacrifices.
I consoled him many times, and said don't ruin Urmila's great love by regretting. Treat her as your biggest strength.
But somewhere I found myself to be behind your sorrow."
"No Bhaiya, I promised Swami that I wud never be a barrier between you two. Ain't I aware that he was your soul, and you were his life." Urmila said getting lost somewhere.
"You asked me to forgive him... but I, being the most unfortunate brother could not even do so." cried Ram.
Urmila could not see Him in such a way. For all of them, He was the most Idealistic man of the world.
But the way He cried today, was far from His Godly attitude.
"You know Urmi when he was leaving, the last time, I could not even call out his name but he understood my heart's state. He came back and hugged me. I wished to thank him for being in my life... but couldn't. and all he said was,
"Bhaiya, even today I am leaving Mila in an unconscious state... please take care of her, try to keep her happy... tell the same to Angad and Chandraketu. And as far is the question of me, for me bhaiya life without you is nothing."
Urmila's cheek again went wet, where the tears had just dried.
She kept her head in Ram's lap, the way Lakshman used to sleep.
Ram smiled, patted Urmila's head and said to himself while he looked at Lakshman's painting, without you it's impossible for us too Lakshman.
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Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
