Her Last Breath - (Chapter 81/Epilogue on page 17)

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Randhir had to deal with himself. He had to deal with this burden of guilt, this pain, this heartache, this insanity that he was feeling. He had no choice. He loved her. For her sake, he had to conquer himself.

"We took a deeper look into it, and while the tumour is a smaller one than the last one... it's actually deeper within. There is a risk associated with this surgery," the doctor said, coming out of the operation theatre, and explaining to Randhir. "Either way, we have no choice but to do the surgery, although it's quite risky to perform surgery that deep into her uterus."

"Just help her doctor," Randhir said, tears filling his eyes. "Do what will save her."

"Should we go ahead with the operation then?" the doctor asked, and he nodded.

"Yes, please do it," Randhir begged. "Anything for her."

The doctor then went back in the operation theatre to finish the surgery. Once the operation was finished, she came out of the theatre again and placed a hand on Randhir's shoulder reassuringly.

"We can't say anything right now. The tumour is removed and she's drifting in and out of sleep, but only time can tell if she will be okay," the doctor explained. "We have to keep her under observation for a few days."

"Thank you doctor... can I meet her?" he then asked, and the doctor nodded.

As Randhir went inside the room, he saw that Sanyukta's eyes were open, though slightly. She looked feeble and pale.

"Randhir," she whispered.

One glance at her and he knew that separation was written in his destiny. She was going to leave him... they tried to battle destiny, but destiny always had its way.

So what if a tumour was removed?

Destiny would still snatch away the one who belonged to them.

Randhir fell on the bed next to her and caressed her hair.

"How could you do this to me?" he whispered to her. "Why are you drifting away? You will be okay right?"

Somewhere, he was already feeling a loss.

"I don't feel like I will be okay," she whispered in response. "I feel like I can sleep at any point now... maybe even sleep forever."

"Don't say that," he told her and leaned forward to kiss her forehead. "I know you've done everything for me... I know the truth now Sanyukta. I know how much you loved me, and even if I can love you half a percent as much as you loved me, I will be happy."

Sanyukta smiled sadly at him.

"Randhir don't waste your life over me," she murmured. "I don't know if I can make it. I need to sleep..."

"Don't - don't sleep," he whispered fearfully. "If you sleep I'm afraid you won't wake up."

"Randhir know one thing," she told him, and then went on to tell him the prologue of her life.

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"Your name will be on my dying lips," she whispered as she lay in the hospital bed, her lips chapped, her face pale. "All I will chant is your name. You are who I have lived for, and I will die remembering you too."

"Please don't do this to me," he told her hoarsely, his voice cracked, for he knew that time was short. "If you go, what will I do here?"

"Randhir, Randhir, Randhir," she whispered, and closed her eyes as her feeble body fell into a deep slumber.

"Sanyukta," he said hoarsely, "Please wake up."

She was slipping away from him, her breaths were getting slower. His time with her was limited, although eternity was what he wanted.

"Sanyukta," he called out hopelessly, a longing ache in his chest.

She had already dedicated her last breath to him, but he vowed that he would write off all the breaths he had left in her name. He had already hurt her too much in this lifetime.

He took her hand in his gently, rubbing small circles with his thumb on her soft skin.

"From this moment, this Randhir Singh Shekhawat promises you Sanyukta Agarwal, that I will die to love you," he told her, feeling his eyes get wet. "Even if I am in a living hell, I will make sure I love you the right way. Everything I have belongs to you now... my mind, my body, my soul. It is all yours."

As the first tears fell from the corners of his eyes, he noticed her lips curve upwards ever so slightly. It was almost as if she heard him.

They never took marriage vows, but for some reason these dying vows felt more real than it could get.

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It was just past sunrise, when Vidhushi got to the hospital. When she went into the room, she saw that Randhir was next to a sleeping Sanyukta, with her hand clasped in between his own.

Vidhushi approached him slowly, trying to walk normally so he wouldn't suspect anything.

"How is she?" Vidhushi asked, and sat next to him on a chair.

"She went through a surgery to remove the tumour," Randhir explained. "But since it was so deep in her uterus there are complications... we don't know yet if she's okay or not... but judging by how she looks right now, she - she won't -"

He couldn't even bring himself to say it because tears filled his eyes again. He felt Vidhushi's arm wrap around him, rubbing his back soothingly.

"She will be okay," Vidhushi told him confidently. "Have faith."

"I wish I could give my own life to save her," he told her.

"You want to put her in a living hell?" Vidhushi asked him. "She won't be able to live without you... the purpose of her whole life has been you and only you."

"I guess we should die together then," Randhir responded sadly. "If I can't live in a world without her, and she can't live in a world without me, it's better to just die together."

"Or live together," Vidhushi pointed out. "Why do the greatest lovers always have to die? Can't they live?"

"But look at her Vidhushi. Tell me, how is she going to survive?" he urged, and then started to sob. "How?"

"There's something called a miracle Randhir," Vidhushi told him.

"There's no miracles Vidhushi," Randhir told her. "It's written in our destiny to be apart... it's written in her fate that she will have to die."

"Karma can get transferred Randhir," Vidhushi told him softly. "It won't disappear, but it can go somewhere else."

Suddenly, Randhir remembered the Shaikh's words.

"Remember one thing... wishes cannot be reversed, only reapplied," the Shaikh had said. "Only love can move destiny's heart... but remember, karma will not vanish. It will go somewhere else."

Randhir turned to Vidhushi suddenly, his heart beating faster.

"Did you go to meet the Shaikh?" Randhir asked her and she nodded, tears in her eyes.

"She will be okay Randhir... destiny cannot change, but karma can be transferred to someone else, if somebody else is receptive to it," she told him.

"I want the karma," he then said urgently. "I want all her bad karma."

"Shut up Randhir," Vidhushi replied, "It doesn't work like that! You can't just wish it upon yourself and then expect it to fall on you... it's only with the will of destiny that you can take the burden."

Randhir looked down. Why was he even getting into all of this? He had to face reality, not wishful thinking. Here Sanyukta was dying. That was the reality.

Sanyukta's eyes opened slowly and she saw Vidhushi.

"Vidhushi," she murmured, sounding weak. "Are you okay?"

Vidhushi nodded and Sanyukta tried to sit up, but Randhir held her arm to stop her.

"I feel better Randhir," Sanyukta replied, her voice getting stronger. "I don't know how... but something is changing."

"Sanyukta, you will be okay," Vidhushi told her best friend firmly. "You definitely will."

"So much confidence," Sanyukta said with a light giggle. "You've always been a great friend Vidhushi. I love you very much."

Vidhushi's voice cracked.

"I - I love you too Sanyukta," she replied, and then leaned forward to embrace her best friend in a tight hug - perhaps even their last one.

"I'll go and call the doctor," Randhir said, "They told me to inform them when you woke up."

Sanyukta nodded, and Randhir left, leaving the two girls to spend perhaps their last moments together, forming some final memories.

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"Vidhushi I don't know what is going to happen, and I know that it's not right for me to ask you of this, but please take care of Randhir for me if I go," Sanyukta told her softly. "I know you love him, so nobody will understand the concern that my heart has for him better than you. Once upon a time even he loved you... and maybe you can revive that love."

Vidhushi looked at Sanyukta with tears in her eyes. It was true that Vidhushi craved to be loved by Randhir again, but what was more true was that she craved to see his face light up everytime he saw his love... whether that love was her, or someone else.

She would never be happy by tying Randhir to her when he loved someone else. She could never ever give him second best. He deserved Sanyukta and only Sanyukta.

"Don't talk like that," Vidhushi told her best friend, holding her more tightly, "Just - just hug me."

Sanyukta knew that Vidhushi was sad, upset that so much was happening, yet it felt like there was so little time.

"You won't cry over me will you?" Sanyukta asked softly.

"Hey, if I died, would you cry over me?" Vidhushi replied, tears threatening to spill from her eyes.

"Of course not," Sanyukta said. "Because I won't be here to see you die."

"One person's destiny can change even in a - a single moment," Vidhushi said, her voice cracking.

"That's not true. Destiny can never change," Sanyukta argued.

"You're right. You have one thing written in your destiny. That is to be with Randhir," Vidhushi said, and then broke the embrace. "Now stop fighting it and just accept it... you feel better don't you?"

Sanyukta nodded and smiled. For some reason, she felt really good in just a few hours... it was almost like her body had healed quickly.

"Sanyukta, take care of yourself, I - I have to go," Vidhushi said, her voice cracking. "M - my home is calling me. B - but I - I -"

She couldn't finish. She burst out crying, because she could feel that this was the last time she was able to talk to Sanyukta like this.

Sanyukta leaned forward and kissed Vidhushi's forehead lovingly.

"Go home," Sanyukta told her best friend softly. "I will be fine... you go home."

"P - promise me Sanyukta that you will fight until the very last breath to have many more," Vidhushi whispered.

"I promise," Sanyukta replied and smiled.

Then Vidhushi forced herself to get up with a sickening feeling in her stomach. She forced herself to put one foot in front of the other and begin walking away from her, because she knew that this was not where she was supposed to be at this moment.

The Shaikh had said tomorrow all accounts would be settled. She had the whole day today, but somehow she already knew that her accounts with Sanyukta were settled... somehow she already knew, that it was time for her to walk away.

As she was walking out, she bumped into Randhir who was bringing a doctor in.

"You're going?" he asked her.

She tried to hold back her tears as she nodded.

"I have to go," she whispered.

"Okay," he told her, for some reason there was a strange feeling inside his chest.

She started to walk away, trying her level best to not turn around and look at Randhir, but he was the one who called her.

"Hey Vidhushi," he called out, causing her to stop in her tracks.

"Yeah?" she asked, turning around to look at him.

"Can I come see you tomorrow?" he asked her. "I mean I want to take you shopping with me... for Sanyukta I mean. I want to get her something nice."

Vidhushi forced herself to smile.

"Yes, sure," she replied.

She had one final account with Randhir to settle, and that would be settled tomorrow.

Randhir then followed the doctor into Sanyukta's room, and after checking Sanyukta's vitals, the doctor looked confused.

"That's the fastest recovery after an operation we've seen," the doctor said, genuinely sounding very confused. "It's a miracle."

Randhir's eyes widened and Sanyukta smiled.

"Is there any chance she won't be okay?" Randhir asked the doctor.

"There is a chance," the doctor said, "So we have to keep her here for the next few days, but for now she's out of danger."

Randhir fell on the bed next to her and engulfed Sanyukta in a tight hug. She buried her face in his chest, happy to finally be able to hold Randhir without fearing that she was getting too close to him.

"Can I stay here with her today?" Randhir asked. "Please?"

"Yes you may, but make sure to go home and take some rest too... you've been here all night," the doctor informed.

"I can't rest more than this," he told the doctor, as he caressed his Sanyukta's cheek, and looked into her eyes. "By being with her, I am taking the most rest possible."

"Very well then, let us know if you see any sudden changes in her health," the doctor said, and then walked out of the room, leaving Randhir and Sanyukta alone.

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awsme update loved it rd so guilty still trying to be strong he cnt be weak for sanyu sanyu condition critical rd so broken he thinks she will die omg vids is such a nice friend she took sanyu karma on herself now she will die on sanyu she was really guilty for her deeds so to pay for her deeds she's doing all this sanvid part was very emtnl u nailed it rd so happy with sanyu recovery excited for next

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Originally posted by: newmoon18
awsme update loved it rd so guilty still trying to be strong he cnt be weak for sanyu sanyu condition critical rd so broken he thinks she will die omg vids is such a nice friend she took sanyu karma on herself now she will die on sanyu she was really guilty for her deeds so to pay for her deeds she's doing all this sanvid part was very emtnl u nailed it rd so happy with sanyu recovery excited for next

Thank you! Yes he's so guilty, but he is fighting with himself so he does the right thing now and stays by her. Yes she is a nice friend. 😳

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Randhir didn't leave Sanyukta for a moment that day. He kept her in his arms protectively, refusing to let her go... even if God came up to him today and asked him to let go, he wouldn't let her go, because his definition of God was her and only her. His love for her took some time for even he to understand, but now that he knew the extent of how much he loved her, he was never going to let her go, and this time he meant it.

She just rested with her head on his chest as they spoke to each other, laughed with each other, and for the first time ever, there were no secrets between them, no untold truths, no lies... everything was in the open, and they were completely free.

"I love you so much," he was murmuring in her ear, holding her tightly against him, as they were both sitting on her hospital bed. "I can't believe I took so long to understand this."

"You knew you loved me months ago," she told him with a smile. "You're just beginning to realize that your love comes before your assumptions, your thoughts, your ego."

"How do you understand me so well?" he asked her, rubbing her arm.

"Perhaps because I also love you," she told him and then glanced up at him with tears in her eyes. "Only a lover can understand the depth of another's love."

Randhir kissed her forehead and yawned.

"Sleep," she whispered to him.

"No, I don't want to," he responded stubbornly.

"We'll both sleep together," she told him lovingly. "Lie down on the bed, and I'll sleep on top of you. We'll fit."

Randhir nodded and laid down on the bed as Sanyukta climbed on top of him, snuggling into him.

"You know Sanyukta, I just can't believe that this is happening right now... over the last twenty four hours, I've gone through so many different emotions - conflicting ones... it's unbelievable that so much happened," he murmured. "When they say that the world can change even in a single moment, I'm starting to believe them."

"Not just yours Randhir, but so many worlds can change in a single moment," she whispered with a happy sigh. "I... I'm just feeling bad thinking about Vidhushi."

"Why?" he asked her, rubbing her back soothingly.

"She loves you Randhir, but she didn't realize it when you loved her... only when you moved on did she understand how deeply she felt about you," Sanyukta explained. "It's sad actually... imagine, she could have had a nice life with you."

"She doesn't love me," Randhir denied flatly, "I don't know where you're getting that idea from."

"Trust me Randhir, she does. Look into her eyes, even you'll see how much she loves you," Sanyukta murmured.

"I don't want to," he responded. "I moved on from her long ago, now you're the only one who exists in my heart."

"Come on Randhir," Sanyukta urged. "I'm not saying it like that. I just mean that she perhaps even loves you as much as I do. So please be nice to her... that's all."

"Impossible," he huffed. "She can't love me as much as you do... nobody can love me as much as you. You almost died for me Sanyukta. You stayed away from me for my sake... it must have been painful for you, but you even lost our child for my sake. How much deeper can love go?"

Sanyukta just kissed his chest and smiled softly.

"I don't know Randhir, but it isn't right to judge someone's love like that without knowing to what extent it goes right? Even you judged my love," she explained. "It's okay... I'm sure everyone gets their test of love... she will get her test too."

"Yeah, for someone else," Randhir replied, still in denial.

"Okay forget all that and kiss me," she said, glancing up at him.

Randhir smiled as she pushed her body up his. He tucked her hair behind her ear, as he lifted his head off the bed to capture her lips in a meaningful kiss. Sanyukta kissed him back just as meaningfully, just as passionately, with the same amount of love between them.

For the first time, there were no insecurities between their lips... for the first time ever, Sanyukta felt in his kiss, that he put her first above everything else in this world... above his thoughts, above his doubts, above himself.

And for the first time, Randhir felt truly content... and he knew that this one moment of bliss that he felt with Sanyukta was enough to last him his whole lifetime. He didn't know what tomorrow held, but this one smile that she brought to his lips was worth more than any amount of tears that the universe could conspire to bring to his eyes.

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The next day, Vidhushi woke up with an empty feeling in her chest. Today was the day. She didn't know what her destiny had in store for her, but the lost feeling that she had felt with Sanyukta last night was sticking with her.

Randhir called her in the morning, saying that he was going to pick her up from her house to go shopping for Sanyukta. It was around ten in the morning when he arrived at her house. Holding back tears, Vidhushi opened the door, somehow feeling like today was the last day she would be able to go shopping with him like this.

"Hey, let's go," he said right away and then saw that she was in tears. "Are you okay?"

She shook her head, and without thinking for a moment, she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him so tightly that she was scared to let go. Confused, Randhir hugged her back.

"Please, please consider this my final wish and just hug me tight," Vidhushi whispered.

Randhir rubbed her back soothingly. He didn't know what she was going through, but he didn't like to see her sad. It was true that he had moved on from the feelings that he once had for her, but that didn't mean he wanted to see her cry.

"What happened?" he murmured, still hugging her.

"I don't know what happened," she whispered. "But I am so sorry Randhir. So sorry for all the trouble, all the pain, all of the heartache I have put you through... no matter what happens, I deserve the most painful death for that."

"What are you saying?" Randhir asked, sounding shocked.

He pulled her off him and looked into her puffy eyes.

"I don't know what I'm saying," she mumbled.

"I've forgotten about what happened between us," he told her softly. "I don't blame you anymore... in fact, I am grateful you did that, because it is because of you I could find my true love."

He cupped her cheeks softly and wiped her tears away.

"I'm so happy for you and Sanyukta," she whispered, more tears falling as he wiped her tears away. "Finding love is the most beautiful feeling - whether you get that love or not."

Why was Vidhushi speaking so strangely? It was almost like she was speaking in code.

"Please tell me what happened," he told her out of concern, "Did someone say something to you?"

"No," she whispered. "I... I don't know how to tell you this Randhir, because I have no right to. But, I feel like it is something I need to do."

"What?" he asked her, worried.

"I want to thank you because... because I... I love you Randhir," she whispered painfully, yet beautifully - it was almost like those words were a poem coming out of her lips. "I realized long after we broke up... I realized after you got together with Sanyukta, but it hit me so hard, because this love taught me so much."

Randhir looked at her with shock, but she kept on speaking.

"I am so thankful to have experienced this. It may seem like I have a sad fate to love and not be loved in return, but I consider my destiny the best. I get a chance to make a sacrifice. Not everyone gets this choice. I have this option... perhaps destiny pitied me, but I accept this pity. It is destiny who made me love you, it is destiny who made you love someone else, and it is destiny who gave me the chance to surrender. I will bow my head with the sword that destiny is giving me and if I have to cut off my own head with this sword, then I will do so gladly," she said, while Randhir stood there, staring at her with shock.

He still didn't say a word, and she went on.

"The moth even burns itself in the love it has for the flame. The moth even annihilates itself in love... then why are humans different?" she whispered. "The flame is also burning itself, perhaps more than the moth, but nobody talks about the love the flame has... it burns every moment of everyday, but it never complains. In the end, we all have to find our flame Randhir, and it looks like I have found mine."

She then pressed her hands together and bowed in front of Randhir, leaving him in tears.

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Okay, this story is almost over. It's ending on Chapter 81, which will be an epilogue. 😳

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