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This is my first attempt to writing my heart out.. please excuse the errors and leave a much appreciated feedback
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Part 1.
Its that time in the the story where everybody has got together in RK's farmhouse after the leap. Nishi is not keeping well. Ragini is now engaged to Dr Aman and Nachiket is a lonely man feeling jelous, sad, defeated and lost in life. They are having endless fights, arguing fiercely on every topic possible, whenever they come face to face. Ragini has finally succeeded in hiding her love for him and enough dust has settled on her feelings for him that it does not show itself any more. This makes him even more sad and rejected. His purpose of being alive is lost. He can never get his Ragini back. :( :(
In all these days at the farm house, Ragini, in her usual nature has been helping out everyone around the house, spending time with everyone, be it going shopping with Agam and Suhani or taking care of Nishi as she was not well, making forceful coffee trips with Dr Aman and the like. Nachiket, who is ignored by Ragini and expects her attention has often said to himself, "sabke liye time hai iske paas mere liye hee nahi hai, per kya phyda, hum baat karenge to zhagda hoga, chodo na, mein expect hee kyon karta hoon".
Nachiket announces to everybody that they are leaving to Mumbai in 2 days and he will be taking the flight next day to US. The news disturbs Ragini..she is starting to feel bad.. she cant easily accept the idea of Nachiket not being around her, her heart aches. She sits there.. thinking..lets out a sigh.. then thinks to herself, "Uska chale jana hee theek hoga" and consoles herself with "mujhe aur hurt tho nahi karega. meri feelings yeah kabhi nahi samjhega". She remembers all those fights between them, the harsh words Nachiket said to her in the last few days... Nachiket had been rude and hurt Ragini many times during their altercations, only to let out his own frustration of seeing Ragini and Dr Aman together and trying to cope with the fact that Ragini will not be his any more.
For some time now, Nachiket had been thinking about making a request and had been unable to say it. He thinks today is the day to say it. For a moment he thinks "theek lagega ya nahi usko... wo kya sochegi mere bare mein.. I dont want to fall weak in front of her.." and the like, but then gets up and says to himself "baat karta hoon..". He tells to himself to wait for the right moment.
Pam: badi soch mein ho, kya soch rahe ho.. jana nahi chate?
N: Kuch nahi Pam.. jana to hai.. I am ready.. start packing.
Ragini in the background over hears, feels a sharp pain in her heart listening to his words.. she just cant help it... and utters.. "doosron ki fikar hee nahi hai isko.". sigh.. lowers her head.. and walks away.
In the evening, everyone is sitting in the living room - Pam, Dimpy, RK, Karan, Ragini, all the kids and Dr Aman chattering, laughing, playing stupid games having a good time. He watches all of them for a while from the door, staring mostly at Ragini, enjoying her cute smiles that appeared and disappeared on her face. Her hair falling on her cheeks and she tucking them away. Finally, he musters up the courage.. "Kehee deta hoon.." he says to himself and walks towards them.
Agam: Dad, Ayiye na.. kitna maza aaraha hai, join keejiyena.
N: Nahi beta abhi nahi.
Then turning to Ragini, with a very serious tone, looking straight into her eyes and in a very casual manner : "Ragini mujhe tumse kuch baat karni hai. Akele mein".
Ragini with a concerned look: "Abhi?"
N: "Haan.." and gestures her to come with him.
Ragini: "Theek hai" (In the same tone, that she had said when he wanted to meet her after breaking his engagement with Nivedita..)
She gets up and walks with Nachiket to the small hallway adjacent to the living room. Everyone can see them but cant hear.
Agam thinks "ek aur jhagda". Dr Aman, thinks it must be something serious, I hope everything is ok with everyone. Pam and dimpy have a "this is odd.. god knows what" look.
Pam: "chalo chalo continue karo, pareshani ki koi baat nahi, apne aap solve karlenge. bachche nahi hai.
Dr Aman's eyes were fixed on them, to make sure Ragini would not be hurt again..But all he could see was Ragini standing still like a statue..
N-R convo:
Ragini: "Kya baat hai, is tarah achanak mujhko bulaya"
N: "Haan.. Ek request karni thi. kuch mangna tha"
R: "Mujhse? with a fake smile, main kya de sakti hoom tumhe?"
N: Yaadein
R (with a confused look): Yaadein??
N (with his heads down, not wanting his eyes to meet hers and also hiding his tears that were about to come on to his eyes): "Haan Yaadein...(a short pause) Hum pehle 8 saal saath the, fir 15 saal alg rahe. Maine in 8 saalo mein itni yaadein jootaliya tha ke vo mujhe 15 saal goozarnekeliye kaafi the. 15 saal maine jia inhi yaadoke sahare. yeah yaadein nahi hoti to pata nahi mai kya ban jata. 15 saal baad hum phir mile, phir saat aaye 5 din ke liye hi sahi, par saath to aaye aur kuch bohot special moments betaye. yeah 5 din ki yaadein, pechle 8 mahino ke liye kaafi the. yeah yaadein jaise mere life support hai, inke bina mai nahi reh sakta. Toh ab jab mai vapis ja raha hoon, I want some moments that I can cherish, that I can take back with me and spend the rest of my life with. I dont know how important these memories are for you, but they are my lifeline.
Toh iske liye maine kuch socha hai. Mai aaj ki raat tumhare saath bitana chahata hoon. Sirf tum aur main..Apne saare difference bhulakar pehle ki tarha. Just spend a night together, may be watch a movie or just talk for some time.. Main is ek raat main, poori zindagi ke liye memories joota loonga.
Ragini just stood there listening to his emotions, each word out of his mouth showed how much he had missed her all this time, and how desperate he was for her attention. In an instant, all the love in her heart for him, came rushing back. She said to herself, "Nachiket, ek raat toh kya, poori zindagi mai tumhare saath rehne ko jee karta hai". She was lost in his voice, his rythemic hand movements has he spoke, and his urge to make her understand what he was trying to convey.
I want to spend this night with you.. Nachiket continued with his heads down.. in that same room. Ragini immediately understood which room he was referring to.
There was one room on the terrace of the farmhouse where they had celebrated their first night and every anniversary night. That room was kept locked and no one had been in there, except for them on those special days. It signified their love, their union and their desires. It was a very special room for them. Ragini's body trembled with the mention of that room. A new set of feelings, emotions and memories engulfed her.
Nachiket: "Mujhe pata nahi tum kya sochogi, par..main MERI Ragini ka intezar karoonga...". He said that and walked away- outside the farmhouse. He knew she would come and it would make it the most memorable night. Ragini just stood there for a few seconds, thinking of all that he had said, when she heard someone call "mom..", still lost.. she turned and walked back to her seat. She sat still, his words resounding in her ears. Thinking,how hurt he is..how she wanted to console him, hug him when that drop of tear dropped from his eye. She was a changed woman after that conversation, unable to supress her feelings for him anymore, unable to decieve his innocence. She didnt speak to anyone.. got up and went back to her room. She replayed all that he had said in her head again and again. Somehow she was unable to get out of the spell that his honest voice and one on one conversation (after many months) had created.
TO BE CONTINUED...
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