Okay! I can understand you anger & hatred towards Madhu & few of you even suggested me to pair up Rk & Nisha but sorry, I won't do that. I m a sucker for happy ending. I want my leads to have a happily ever after. So it will be only Rishbala's story! Sorry!
See, we all do mistake, so does Madhu, she has her own reason, of course she is immature & stupid but she do care for her friend. She finds it hard to accept her close friend as her husband, she doesn't ant to take long time & spoil his life too. She wanted him to be happy. Well, I m not justifying what she did is right. She failed to see her friend's love & pain. She will realize what she has lost & will repent. I can make her redemption phase hard but sorry, I can't pair Rk with nisha or anyone.
Dedicating this part to -..BlackSwan.. , Anish , karamjeet & as-Sweet
Here starts the story after intermission...
Part 9 - Missing You!
(Madhu's POV)
"Rishu... please let me sleep" I mumble sleepily.
"Baby, wake up... you will get late to college" Rk shakes my shoulder gently.
"Rishu... 2 more minutes... please" I say & hide my face on my pillow.
"How many 2 more minutes you will take madhu? Your alarm is singing for every 10 minutes for the past one hour but still you have put it in snooze again. Come on get up & get ready, you sleepy head" he says again.
"No. I don't want to go to college." I say sleepily.
"What? You won't go to college? Why madhu?" I hear some voice deep in my sleep.
"I want to sleep, Rishu..."
"Madhuuu" I come awake, rudely shaken up by my mom.
"Rishu... Mom" I sit up & look around my room.
"Still you didn't get used to the fact that you are in your house & Rishu is not with you to wake you up?." My mom asks me. Yeah its been a month since Rishu left to Singapore but daily morning I dream of Rishu waking me up.
"Here, Your coffee" Mom hands me my coffee.
"Rishu makes the best coffee. He knows exactly how I like my coffee." I mutter to my mom. I like my coffee strong but my mom adds too much of milk & sugar & makes it yuck!
"He even knows you well more than you know yourself" My mom says.
"Right mom" I agree.
"Unlike you" she adds.
"What? I know my friend so well too." "Oh really. Then you are fooling yourself. If you know him well then you wouldn't have given him a divorce" she says angrily turning her face away from me.
"Mom, what's wrong with you & dad? Why you both are so cross on me since the day we got Divorce. No one in this world understands me better than my Rishu" I crib, placing the coffee mug on my side table & climb out of my bed & head straight to my bathroom grabbing my towel on my way.
I sit at the rear seat of the car & look outside through the window. I didn't actually see the moving images but I m thinking about my Rishu. A smile creeps on my face remembering the first day, he took me in his car to drop me in my college.
"Madhu, are you excited to start your college life?" he asks me while his eyes are focusing on the road. Mumbai traffic sucks!
"Yeah, Rishu. I m thrilled" I say smiling.
"You are not nervous right?" he asks.
"No, I m not. I m not 3 yrs old little kid joining first day school. I m a grown up girl" I tell him. He worries a lot.
"I worry u will start crying like how you cried when you went to school for the first time. You gave a hard time to your parents on that day. You were the only kid who cried so much & created a racket. Finally I was able to stop your water works by giving my dairy milk chocolate. You owe me a dairy milk, you know" he says.
"I will get you one dairy milk today, Rishu" I say giggling & he smiles. Yeah, I vaguely remember my admission day in my school. Even Rishu had come along with us. Wherever they go they take me with them & wherever we go we take Rishu with us. Rishu & I had spent most of our childhood together.
"Daily morning I will drop you on my way to office & at evening I will send the driver to pick you up, okay?"
"Okay" I agree.
"Rishu, stop here. I will walk from here to college" I ask him to stop at a distance from my college gate.
"Why? I will drop you there." He insists.
"No, I don't want anyone seeing me with you. Then they might come to know I have a boy friend or I m married" I tell him the reason. He frowns.
"Let them think whatever they wish. What bothers you? If you don't want your college mates to know you are married then let them assume I m your boyfriend"
"You are my friend, Rishu. Not boyfriend" I remind him. He sighs. Then pulls me in his arms & whispers "Good luck. Have a great first day in college. See you at home in the evening"
"Bye" I smile at him & he nods.
"Madamji, We are here" My driver pulls me out of my reverie saying we reached college. I nod & climb out of the car & walk to my class like a robot. Every f**king thing reminds me of Rishu. I miss him. It's been a month since I talked to him, we talked lastly on the airport. Neither him nor I called to talk with each other after that day. I want Rishu to move on in his life, forget me & be happy. I didn't want him to remember me by calling him & talking to him but today I badly want to hear his voice. To make sure he is fine. To make sure we are okay. To make sure I didn't lose my friend. To make sure I didn't hurt him with my decision. To make sure he is happy in his new life.
(Singapore)
Rk POV
"You are such a cheap date. You ordered me only a burger & french fries?" I shake my head disapprovingly at Nisha seeing the order placed in front of me by the waiter.
"But see what all you have ordered for yourself? You are a model, you should not eat so much of fatty food stuffs." I chide her gently. Yeah, I m here in a restaurant to meet Nisha. This girl was behind my back asking me we will meet someday since I came back to Singapore. I was so busy with my work so couldn't find time & finally after a month, today I could meet her as she threatened to kill me if I try to ignore my friend anymore.
"Doh! Every time we go out on date, you order burger & french fries so I ordered the same this time too" yeah that's right. I want to end the date quick so I order something quick then I give some lame excuse to go back home. May be I was not comfortable with the whole idea of dating then. May be I had some feelings for madhu then itself or may be not.
"So? How are you feeling?" Nisha asks me
"As you would be knowing, after all you have crossed the phase" I grin at her. She laughs.
"Yes, I have. Though it was easy for me to forget my love as it didn't go deep down my heart."
"Oh you wound me Nisha baby by saying you easily got over me. That's bad hun!" I teased her faking as if I m wounded. "I thought my Nisha will be still waiting for me with open arms to take me back & I can mingle with her & erase my single status but see, she too is not in love with me. There is no girl written on my fate I guess" I sigh.
"Aww... my poor boy" Nisha giggles.
"Well?" I ask her now serious.
"I just started to fall for you but you saved me from facing excruciating pain of love failure by making it clear that we don't have any future. Thanks to you for that, Rk & now we are friends & I respect our friendship & I can never see my friend as my lover again..." And that catches me.
"well, your case is different, you both were together for one long year, you know her right from the day she was born, you both shared a strong bond, your love is so deep for her, so it must be hard for you to forget her right?"
"I never wanted to forget my madhu... yeah, it's hard to cope up with the pain, but I m distracting myself by keeping myself busy with work, 20000 peoples depends on me, I should think about them & focus on my business." I tell her drily.
"Rk only work is not life. It will never heal your pain. It will just mask your pain" Nisha tells me.
"I know" I agree. But I don't know any other way to cope up with this heart break.
"Did you talk with madhu? After coming here?" Nisha asks me.
"No. I didn't. I didn't have the courage to talk with her like her old friend. I need some time to control my emotions & that's why I came here to put some distance between us. She will be fine, I know" I tell & take a bite of my burger. "I can't believe she didn't love you even after spending one long year with you. She must be mad"
"See, just now you said 'you cant see your friend as your lover" same way madhu couldn't see her best friend as her husband. I took so long to understand her feelings & when finally she spell it out loud to me that we won't work & asked me for divorce, then only realization dawned to me..."
"Don't you think you should have convinced her & tried to work out your marriage" Nisha asks cutting me off.
"Do you think I didn't convince her? But How long Nisha I will hold her in my grip? I was ready to give as much as time to her, even my entire life time but she was not ready to try. She was so stubborn to end the relationship. Our marriage didn't mean anything to her. Tell me how I will make someone stay with me when they don't love me?"
"But you love her nah? Rk?" Nisha asks. Suddenly my phone buzzes inside my jacket pocket so I hold my index finger asking her to give me a moment, then I fish out my phone to see Madhu calling.
"Hello Madhu, you okay?" I ask her worried. She must be in college lunch break but why she is calling me now?
"I'm good Rishu. Thought to talk with you..." I hear her voice waving.
"Yeah tell me?"
"Are you on your own? Are you busy with work?" she asks.
"Um... I m with Nisha" I tell her.
"Oh" I hear disappointment in her voice. "Okay, you carry on your lunch date with your girlfriend, I will call you later" she says & hangs up before letting me speak. f**k! What am I going to do with this stupid girl? I just told I m with nisha & she herself assumed I m dating her again.
"So?" nisha asks after I put my phone back to my pocket.
"Madhu... she just called me to talk with me. Nothing important" I answer nisha.
"You still love her" nisha says smiling with confidence.
"How do you know?" I asks her in surprise.
"the way your eyes lit up when you saw the name of the caller on your mobile screen"
"You are unbelievable woman. You notice every minute details I do, you know" I chuckle. She laughs.
"Yes, I loved her & I still love her... I don't know when I will fall out of love with her if there is something called falling out of love. I feel love is a one way path, no looking back, if you love someone truly you will love them till your last breathe & my love is true."
"I guess you could have put a little more fight to her? You could have made her realize your love for her?" Nisha tries again to convince me that I shouldn't have given divorce to madhu.
"I didn't have any other choice Nisha other than letting her go... one of the meaning for love is freedom. She wanted freedom from our marriage so I gave her that freedom because I love her"
"Don't love her this much Rk" Nisha warn me.
"Are you jealous that your boyfriend is not loving you this much?" I joke.
"No Rk, you said 'love means freedom', but I would say 'love means pain'. You know I care for you, I don't want to see you in pain so try to move on" Nisha says softly & holds my hand & I squeeze her hand back.
"I will try" I smile at her though I know its next to impossible.
"So how is your new boyfriend Micheal?" I ask Nisha. Enough of talking my love life.
"He is good but not as good as my old boy friend. We are getting to know each other, he is a cool guy, caring too. I like him" she says shyly.
"Good. I m happy for you, Nisha"
(Mumbai)
Madhu's POV
"Trish, What's wrong with you? Why are you avoiding me? Since the party night you are not talking properly with me" I ask trishna, who is sitting alone in canteen & having her lunch. Usually we both eat together but nowadays she is avoiding me to the maximum.
"Nothing madhu" she says drily.
"Trish, please talk to me?"
"I worry one day you will throw me out of your life like you threw Rishab out of your life so it's better I learn to live my life without my best friend" she says sadly.
"Trish, what are you talking? I didn't threw Rishu out of my life. He... he... he is everything to me, trish..."
"Oh. When he is your everything then being your husband also comes under everything right?" I stare at her not getting what she means.
"No madhu, you just say in words, that I can't live without my friend, but you do live happily without your Rishab then one day you will live happily without me too."
"No, Trish... he is my friend, I want him to be happy & that's why..." before I say further she cuts me off saying "You really want him to be happy? You really do know what is his happiness? You really do know where is his happiness? You don't know because you think only about your happiness. You want your freedom so asked him to give divorce & he wants your happiness so he gave the damn thing u asked."
I don't know what to tell or how to tell her & make her understand that Rishu & I shared a strong bond since our childhood & suddenly seeing him as my husband?
"You know what? You are Selfish with capital S" Trishna spits her words at me. I stare her back with teary eyes. "Yes, you are selfish, you made him a fool, when your dad was so sick & to save him he agreed to marry you & when your dad got hail & hearty you threw him out of your life like a waste piece of shit" her words hit me like a thunder bolt.
"He confessed his love to you but you were jumping in joy to receive the divorce, don't you feel for you friend? Did you listen to the song lyrics he sung on your anniversary party? Did you hear the pain in his voice or see the pain in his eyes? I guess except you everyone would have noted that." She goes on & on in a row.
"He always loves me & that I know... & I love him too as a friend. You are getting all this wrong Trish. I cant be the one for Rishu & I don't want to tie him up with me & make his life miserable. I was helpless when my dad made our marriage as his wish before going to his surgery & I'm grateful to Rishu for marrying me & making my dad happy but I need to think about Rishu's happiness too, I can't give him the happiness so I thought to let him go. I did that for my Rishu's happiness. I know a bright future is awaiting for him. Even just now I called him & he was with Nisha, he dated her before our marriage, she is a nice girl, I have seen her before, even you in the mall, she will be perfect partner for Rishu, she will make him happy & that's what I want." I tell trish to see my side of reason.
"Madhu, don't be a stupid. you need to grow up & smell the f**king coffee. Rishu loves you & not this Nisha whom you tried to hook up long back with your husband. Any wife in this world would do that? Matching her husband with some other girl? This is not your immaturity, its your foolishness. I pity Rishab, poor guy's life got spoiled by marrying you. You gave him a lifetime scar. I don't know when you will realize what you have lost" she says angrily & walks away from me, leaving me in daze. Am I wrong in my judgement? Did I fail to see my Rishu's pain? Did I put him out of the misery or put him into the misery? Oh God! What I have done to my Rishu? I miss my Rishu. I need him to tell me everything is fine. I need him to hug me & console me. I need him. I miss him.
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P.S - Guys, thanks for liking my new os & appreciating me. u all didn't see that womb painting scene from 'Painting of love' os before in any book or movie & that's because that was purely my own imagination not plagiarized.😆😆
I actually wanted to write like this... like showing their suhaag raat scene & after making love, Rk would have drawn what they did (love) on her bare back & on her front he would draw a baby how it will be on her womb telling her that's the result of their deed, he would have used her red lips stick to draw this & show his handy work to her in the morning. But I realized his lip stick sketch must have got erased when she turns over & sleep besides... I was so shy to right such erotic scenes.😳😆
So I changed a little but glad you all liked the OS a lot saying it was my best pieces. Uff... I took 18 stories to give one best piece. LOL 😆😆
Link of the OS: Painting of Love
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