FF Beintehaa Ishq [Zaya story with a twist]last chapter -pg106 - Page 42

Originally posted by: Zloca

The past few chapters reminds me of this lyrics:

Pyaar hai ya sazaa, hai mere dil bataa

Toot ta kyun nahi dard ka silsila.

I don't know why. Somehow it returned me to BI days. The pain that Zain and Aaliya carry and feel isn't easy to submit even to us, readers. Their needs are strong but they don't fall in that trap. I'm glad they don't allow themselves to be captured by the lust.

15. chapter, honestly, gave me hope that Aaliya will forgive him. Especially when he said that he would leave only when she forgive him. Oh wait, from her room or her life?

Then I was afraid that she'll forgive him. What if she forgive him and he then leave? What then? How will they live without each other?

At the same time I want and I don't want her to forgive him. If she forgive him, he may leave. If not, he will stay there but will be hurt all over again. They deserve to be free of that pain. Both have suffered enough because of mistakes and greed of others.

I can't wait for next chapter. Little afraid of what will happen but more impatient.

Amazing chapters, really.

Lots of love, Sim 😃

Originally posted by: zayacrazy

Khushi ka niqaab jo pehna hein hamne

Isse zara utha ke toh dekh...

Gham ke aansun jo chipaye hein hamne...

Inhe zara mitta ke toh dekh...

Na ji payenge iss nafrat ki aag mein

Hamein iss mein jala ke Na dekh...

This chapter at the end bought me at the verge of crying...today he begged, not to Allah but to Her! For not her love but acceptance of his love! Zain has always taken my heart away...He makes me feel fimiliar to all he goes through...what he did today has shown thats his insides are yet cracking and falling apart, today he clearly wants to show Aaliya...that if she dosent accept him soon she'll have to face times where he will not be with her even if she wants him...

Zain. Is a mirror, a mirror for suffering and pain in love...he reflects each part of it! But I proudly say he!s the reflection of 'Love' and 'Hatred' as a whole...he loves whole heartedly he hates whole heartedly!

But Aaliya...her terror and anger and unsecured feeling is well understood but what he's doing, and what she's getting him to do is 'Harsh!' It's unbelievable to see how heartless she can show herself to be...being well aware how soft she is on the inside this mask of being heartless will not only get her to end up loosing Zain, but frankly she'll loose herself!

Sim...your turn...i have no words to compliment this writing these emotions this story! Your way to express and convey jist makes me want to scream out my emotions...but im still in the shakles of my unsecure bubble...someday I might release my soul and let it out but again it'll take time...

This story is a mirrior to ME! It shows me what has happened to me...what I could have done what I still can...but yes!

THANK YOU! FOR THIS REFLECTION!

Originally posted by: Maneesha_Shanak

Awesome update

Originally posted by: manny136

Great update so aliya decides to go to the movie but in a burkha lol but zain got his revenge. The way you showed the angst btwn them was great, they both have so much pent up emotions hopefully it will sooner or later get out. Maybe next chapter?? lol can't wait for the next one.

Originally posted by: LuvPreetikaRao

Hmmm very interesting precap wonder why they are mad at each other update soon 😊

Well a weird update ..its like up and down ..i know you will not like this ...but maybe you will see why Aaliya is like this ..and why Zain is doing what he is doing

Dedication: Crazy4Harshika ala ..Jaya ...a very avid reader and one of those few ones I am always scared to get a feed back from. Her love for Zaya is indescribable ...and thats why everytime Zain is in pain she cries, I am sorry dear I make you all bear so much...just with a hope that you will still be there as we move towards the end...Will never forget ur tweet though, still brings a smile on my face. Ur love is seen not only for the FF but for me too..makes me realize how lucky I am to have u all around.

loads of love to you

Sim

Dont enjoy ...just glide through

Chapter 16

Roothi Raat..

The movie ended as Aaliya moved a bit to wake him...he woke up to realize the three hours of fun were over ...his sleep was so deep that he had a dream too...the heat of touching her body ..had penetrated his senses ...remembering their last night ....

As the credits rolled he looked at her ...her gaze was down that's what he felt as the light from the reel zonked off and bright lights came back ...she got up ...as she struggled out of his clutches ...

He knew he had sparked her anger ...but he wanted a respite...the feelings of being trapped were too much and he just wanted her ...aware that the consequences of this night would be very heavy ...

She walked past him ...and he followed her yawning ...wish it was a 6 hour movie...

As they jostled in the crowd ...he saw her being bumped by people ...pushing her ...he took her hand and put his arms around to protect her ...and moved towards the car ...

The moment she reached the car ...she asked for the keys ...he knew the anger had peaked ...

He placed them on her extended palm ...the gloves had been taken off ..., he quickly sat besides her before she can leave him stranded ... moving her nakab ... she sat down in a jiff

As they drove in silence ...he mustered up the timid voice to speak ...

Da...mujhe maloom hai bahut ghusse mai ho...mujhe zaroorat thi tumhari ...

Kal school subha 6:30 baje hai ...

Haa toh ...abhi raat koh hi drop kar rahi ho kya waha mujhe ...he was smiling ..that irked her a lot ...

She looked at him ...

She turned the car ..towards an unpaved road ...he held the side of the door as the speed of the car fastened...

Da..yeh kaha jaa rah hai hum ...

She put the car in the 4^th gear and Zains face tensed ...Da...dheere chalao...accident ho jayega ...her silence was scary ...

He looked around as thick vegetation passed by ...he could sense it was a pretty secluded off road ..the humming sounds of wildness increased ...as the car screeched towards a clear opening ...and abruptly stopped...

Da..yaha kya hai ...

Utro neeche ...

Da...raat ke nau baje hai ...yeh jagah safe nahi hai ...chalo ghar ...

Zain neeche utro...

Da..please ghar chalete hai na ...

She bent over on his side and opened the door ...

He loosened the seat belt and got out ...closing the door, he came on the other side to talk to her ...she looked at him finally ...

Da...mujhe pata nahi ghar yaha se kitni door hai ...mai nahi chalkar aa paunga ...please wapas chalo ..

Tumhe ghar aane ki zarrorat bhi nahi hai ..

Kya matlab ...

Aaj raat yehi raho ..bahut shaukh hai na logon ka fayda uthane ka...exploit karne ka ...maine tum par taras kha kar ...haa kaha tha ...par nahi...tum aa hi gaye apni asli niyat par ...

Mujh se mat karvao yeh gunaah ...pakkejgi nahi rahi humare rishte mai ...tumne khud mitaya hai ...aur baar baar bas apni hasraton ki hisaab se mujhe dhaalte rehte ho...

Accha nahi lagta tumhare saath aisa karna ...ek waqt tum mere shahuar the ...sab kuch the ...ab kuch bhi nahi ho...na dost ...na cousin ...bas ek ajnabee ...

Aaj joh tumne kiya ...mai chahti toh tumhe ek tamaccha markar ...nikal sakti ...par tum iske bhi layak nahi ho...

Mere mazhab ka ...mere marzi kuch mayne nahi rakhti tumhare zidd ke samne ...bas chahiye ...toh kisi bhi had tak jaa sakte ho ..hai na

Da..mai jaanta hu tum naraaz ho ...mujhe ek mauka chaiye tha ...naa uss rat mujhe diya ...na uske baad meri baat suni tumne ...

Aur ya kya jyadti hai ...kyu paak nahi hai humara rishta ...kisi se sache dil se pyaar karna gunaah nahi ho sakta ...maine tumhara kabhi jaan buzkar dil nahi dukhaya ...jabse aaya hu ...bas dooriya mitane ki kosish mai lag ahu ...

Mai jaanta hu ...samajh sakta u tumhari narazgi ..tumhara nazariya ...par tumne who doosra pehlu nahi dekha ...bina usse dekhe ..aise mat pesh aao mere saath,

She looked at him Toh narm dil se pesh aati hu ...aur phir uthana mera fayda ...khelna mere saath ..theek hai ..

He looked at her angry now...

Aaliya ...bas ...ek aur lafz aage nahi ...nahi bardasht karunga apne pyaar ke khilaf aise batein ...

He broke the conversation and called Rehman ...and spoke something ...

Again he starred back at her ...Yehi chahti ho na ...ki mai yehi rahu ...

He moved back ...chali jao ...yehi katunga raat ...aur ghabrao mat chachu se kaha hai dost ke ghar par hu ..agar aa sako to aa jaana kal subhah ...varna school pahuch jaunga ...

Jao ...aur haa ...aaj ki raat ki neend waise bhi maine le li thi...ab ghar par jagu ..ya is jungle mai koi farak nahi padta ...jaiye madam ...gadi sambhalkar chalana ...mar jaunga tumhare bina ...

He walked away ...not looking back...as Aaliya sat stunned...she just couldn't control her anger ..his face made her recollect he was no one...the pain and hurt haunted her ...she saw Rheas image in the mirror ...she was crying ...Aaliya closed her eyes as tears filled it ...

She felt tired ...too tired and bogged down with heaviness ...a bit dizzy ..she wanted to call him ..but he had walked away ...and in the darkness she couldn't imagine where he went ...

The car turned back as Zain sat on a open patchy grassy area ...the darkness was several shades denser ..clogging his sight ...he just closed his eyes ...the palm covering his face ...every step ...was painful ...and the hurt just increased ...she was distancing herself ...and he was unable to hold her ...

Only if she would have spoken to him ...he remembered her words in her diary ...one page that he would never forget ...one page that showed how her world was thanks to his mistake...he reminisced the words the hurt the curses ...

October 12

Aaj bhi wahi yaad aaya ..raat ka sapna tha shayad ...mujhe lagta hai mai jaanti hu usse..par najane kyu who ajnabee ki tarah dekhta hai ...mai shayad gid gida rah thi uske saamne ...kya keh rahi thi who toh theek se sun nahi paayi , par dil jaise ahe bhar raha tha , dard tha ...matam tha ...kisike marne ka matam ...shayad chot pahuchi hogi ...mujhe ya us ladki koh ...

Aaj phir who farista aaya tha ...mere haath par sar fera ...bole ...mai humesha saath hu tumhare...galat tha who ...aur ek din aayega tere paas...mere rooh ab tak kapti hai ...aaj bhi chain nahi hai mere mare hua jism koh ...sab uski wajah se ...mere saamne sab kiya aur mai bas soya tha...dekhta raha ...maafi nahi milegi usse ...

Shayad kuch dekha tha unhone...who bhi har raat aate hai ...kehte hai ...tumhara khayal rakhunga ...nahi aane dunga mere paas ...bhaut galat hua tumhare saath mai hota toh har who saksh koh ghar se nikal deta ...tumhe kabhi aise besahara nahi chodta ...maine khuda se bheek mangi tumhare jaan ke liye ...tab navaaza hai usne tumhe ...meri hisse ki adhoori zindagi...

Kashmakash hai ...ek tarf who kehte hai ...sab theek ho jayega ...aur doosri taraf who dhundla saksh sirf nafrat deta hai ...kosta hai ...jillat ...bas yehi mehssos karata hai ...mai in dono koh nahi jaanti ...aur na hi chaht hu ki yeh yaadein rahe ...

Koi nahi batata mujhe ...heena khalla bhi nahi ...sab bas taras khate hai ...jaise bheek de rahe ho ..kaun hu mai...aur kyu hu yaha ...kisine mujhe aise choda ...agar uss raat mar jaati toh behtar hota ...yaha in bcahon koh dekhti hut oh lagat hai ...galat sochti hu ...par phir khayal aata hai ...shayad uparwala mujhe sazaa de raha hai...noch raha hai meri bikhri rooh koh...bahut dard ho raha hai ...

Koi nahi hai yaha ...bas ek ghutan hai ...

Aaj Aarif aaya ...bimaar hai ..didi bulaya mujhe ...mere pehla rishta ...najane mere baki rishte kaha hai ...hai bhi ya nahi ...har baar ki tarah sar chakrata hai ...yeh roz ki davai ...aur usme yeh saare injections ..ab toh haat mai nas bhi band ho jaati hai ...khana bhi nahi khaa paati ...bas ek takleef mai hu ...kaun hai ..darr hai kahi pagal na ho jao ...ho bhi gayi toh kise pata chalega ...meri kimat hi nahi hai ...jiyu mau ya kisi kone mai padi rahu ...

Aaj bas itna hi ..likh paungi ...scan ke liye jaana hai ...ab toh un machine ke andar hi poori zindagi kaatene ka ehsaas hota hai ...bas ek baar who mile toh poochungi ...kyu kiya ...mujhe yaha aise maut se battar zindagi guzarne chod di ...kabhi maaf nahi kar paungi ...kabhi nahi ...

Anamika ..mere naam ...sab yehi pukarte hai mujhe ...jiska na naam na pata ho na raasta ...

Anamika

Zain ...closed hie eyes ...those words haunted him ...spending a night here will never take that pain away ...never ...he smiled as he took out her snap ...Da.. I love you ...

Aaj sukun mila tha kuch palon ke liye...aur ab ...he looked around ...to a point he was less scared of being harmed then being alone...he knew she would end up doing something nasty and in a way he was prepared for the back lash ...he knew even if he did anything to please her ...nothing would wipe the pain away ...but that dosent mean he wont try ...he will till he hears the final verdict ...when he will decide what to do next ...when he will take his final blow...he was preparing himself...

As the days had gone by...her hurt was surfacing up more and more...she had started hurting him more...pushing him more and he was confidant that one day ...there wont be any pain left ...she will be free and so will be he ...he will wait ...just like he had waited for her memory to come back ...he would wait ....

As Zain closed his eyes again ...and the eerie sounds around him increased their intensity ...he hugged himself ...imagining it were her arms around him ...

Takte hai har waqt teri aur ...ki tu shayad kisi din bulayega mujhe ...

Yehi ummed mai jeete hai ...ki Meri tadap bhi kisi din tadpayegi tujhe ...

Pre-cap: how did Aaliya feel...what happened next ...