Today, I am lonely.

Today, I am lonely.

I sit here all alone...trying to draw comfort from the aura she has filled this space with.

This is her favourite spot.

Happy or sad...Elated or dejected...this is her sanctuary. This is the little comfort zone she has forged within my home...

She lies devastated..but I can feel her warmth all around me...like a small campfire she has lit for the two of us...that will keep burning...no matter what...

It is a different thing altogether if she will ever be able to forgive me...

I do not deserve forgiveness...I have strayed from the path for too long...

Shame- I seem to have long lost...

Remorse- It gnaws at my flesh..

Damnation- I am sure to be condemned to...

Let it be her...who judges me...denounces me without a trial...

My crimes against her are inexpiable.

And I hurt..along with her...

She protests..objects...how I wish I had the luxury!

I don't know me anymore...

I cannot let her near...or let her go...

Fear of rejection...and of losing...

Admonitions from the past and present...Hopes for a future...

If time would stop still...

I could have her forever in my arms...

Alas! We float!

...In the sea of uncertainties...

I walk up to my room with a burdened heart...

I want to be awake with the pain...

The sweetest of dreams tend to my heart...

Borrowed moments from our reality...

...Of her in my arms...

Her head resting on me...

I am the Rock...

...She chooses to lean on...

...I feel contented with the thought...

...I have to check on her...

She sleeps like an angel...

Invoking the demon in me...

Jealousy...Passion...

I cannot let her go...

She belongs to me...

ONLY ME...

Is it love?

...Or loathsome obsession?

Can an angel be touched...

...With grubby fingers???

I know I am wrong...

I will not rationalise...

But I know what is perfection...

It is her in my arms...

...That would make us both...

Complete each other...

PS:

One of the haunting memories for me from Friday's episode is of Sahir sitting alone on the stairs. I felt sad seeing him all alone...it is their meeting place...the space that has witnessed their most cherished moments. He looked lost...and the thought that occurred to me right then was of a man who has lost his humsafar...there was so much of pain and loneliness in that one scene alone..so I wanted to pay a tribute to that one shot...

Want to share some thoughts on the show as a whole...

This was never projected to be a sweet love story...A married hero is any day more unacceptable than a pregnant, abandoned wife falling for her ex- husband's Brother- In -Law (Geet- which I never watched)...so the point is to show how love conquers all prejudices...

Unfortunately, such a concept can only connect with a smaller audience...and until little Chakor stops appealing to people, there is no point dreaming for miracles in the trp Department...Mahesh Bhatt will pull all the cards to make sure his show stays a winner...and there is no way a dark romantic tale or even a sweet one can beat a child centered drama with a strong social message(Phew...a 30 minute documentary would have sufficed for me..still..I guess there is a crowd for this too.. 😉)

Let us just hope Sony realises they have nothing better to offer in this slot and let HS run its course...

In the meantime, I would like to request all fans to be mature while tweeting Sony...No one appreciates rudeness...Requests are more appealing than demands..

TC...😊

HS Index

What is it that I want.

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/humsafars/4251962/what-is-it-that-i-want

The Boy I knew.

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/humsafars/4232998/the-boy-i-knew

Did I cross a line?

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/humsafars/4237179/did-i-cross-a-line

Ek Khoobsoorat Jhooth..fitting the pieces.

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/humsafars/4197723/ek-khoobsoorat-jhooth-fitting-the-pieces

Take 2: Decoding SAC.

Originally posted by: pearly14

Beautifully written ! Depicts Sahir's current mindset clearly !

Originally posted by: harshu.sundas

Sahir's that lone moment, does strike a certain chord in your heart.. I think the damaged feeling comes off so easily, him being damaged and extremely bruised at his heart .. and he considers himself un-worthy of love or forgiveness, makes it much more brutal.. I agree with you that, this was never meant to be sweet love story, and especially when the love story is being told from the male's POV, it is always a dark one.. So , if its Sahir's battle between love and betrayal and how he overcomes the biggest and darkest phase of his life, then am sure we have an exciting journey ahead...

Originally posted by: chicksoup

😉 There is always light at the end of the tunnel..poor guy does not know how long the tunnel is..😆

😳 People say Gul tells her tale mostly from the male protagonist's POV...am not sure because I enjoy seeing both POVs...but so far, I find Seher in QH to be the only FL who has diverged from the formula heroine...😊 ..which also makes her the Queen of controversies...

Arzoo's characterisation is strong as of now...but she still wears his bracelet..😊

Originally posted by: harshu.sundas

If U R going to love and marry a man who is perfect..it is not love...it is convenience...

U cannot call it love unless it has passed the test of fire with flying colours..

Sahir will have to learn to conquer his apprehensions...and learn to love Arzoo for her choices...he is reaching there now and then, esp when he prays that she be the one to judge him..he knows hehas wronged her consistently...when he stops manipulating her...I guess that is when he would have truly known what love is...that could take more time.

As for Arzoo...she can read him to an extent...now she needs to read between the lies...and probably give herself up to embrace him as who he is...what he is...

"Fall in love with who they are instead of who they aren't."
Dominic Riccitello

"If I become the man you want, I wouldn't be the man I am."
Michael Robotham, Suspect

Let them both grow in self discovery...know how much they can heal...themselves and each other...😳