Today, I am lonely. - Page 3

Originally posted by: chicksoup

Today, I am lonely.

I sit here all alone...trying to draw comfort from the aura she has filled this space with.

This is her favourite spot.

Happy or sad...Elated or dejected...this is her sanctuary. This is the little comfort zone she has forged within my home...

She lies devastated..but I can feel her warmth all around me...like a small campfire she has lit for the two of us...that will keep burning...no matter what...

It is a different thing altogether if she will ever be able to forgive me...

I do not deserve forgiveness...I have strayed from the path for too long...

Shame- I seem to have long lost...

Remorse- It gnaws at my flesh..

Damnation- I am sure to be condemned to...

Let it be her...who judges me...denounces me without a trial...

My crimes against her are inexpiable.

And I hurt..along with her...

She protests..objects...how I wish I had the luxury!

I don't know me anymore...

I cannot let her near...or let her go...

Fear of rejection...and of losing...

Admonitions from the past and present...Hopes for a future...

If time would stop still...

I could have her forever in my arms...

Alas! We float!

...In the sea of uncertainties...

I walk up to my room with a burdened heart...

I want to be awake with the pain...

The sweetest of dreams tend to my heart...

Borrowed moments from our reality...

...Of her in my arms...

Her head resting on me...

I am the Rock...

...She chooses to lean on...

...I feel contented with the thought...

...I have to check on her...

She sleeps like an angel...

Invoking the demon in me...

Jealousy...Passion...

I cannot let her go...

She belongs to me...

ONLY ME...

Is it love?

...Or loathsome obsession?

Can an angel be touched...

...With grubby fingers???

I know I am wrong...

I will not rationalise...

But I know what is perfection...

It is her in my arms...

...That would make us both...

Complete each other...

PS:

One of the haunting memories for me from Friday's episode is of Sahir sitting alone on the stairs. I felt sad seeing him all alone...it is their meeting place...the space that has witnessed their most cherished moments. He looked lost...and the thought that occurred to me right then was of a man who has lost his humsafar...there was so much of pain and loneliness in that one scene alone..so I wanted to pay a tribute to that one shot...

Want to share some thoughts on the show as a whole...

This was never projected to be a sweet love story...A married hero is any day more unacceptable than a pregnant, abandoned wife falling for her ex- husband's Brother- In -Law (Geet- which I never watched)...so the point is to show how love conquers all prejudices...

Unfortunately, such a concept can only connect with a smaller audience...and until little Chakor stops appealing to people, there is no point dreaming for miracles in the trp Department...Mahesh Bhatt will pull all the cards to make sure his show stays a winner...and there is no way a dark romantic tale or even a sweet one can beat a child centered drama with a strong social message(Phew...a 30 minute documentary would have sufficed for me..still..I guess there is a crowd for this too.. 😉)

Let us just hope Sony realises they have nothing better to offer in this slot and let HS run its course...

In the meantime, I would like to request all fans to be mature while tweeting Sony...No one appreciates rudeness...Requests are more appealing than demands..

TC...😊

Originally posted by: -Sush-

Chick...you write beautifully! Lovely post!

I have been thinking about what bothers me about Sahir being married...after all this is not the first time I have seen a second chance story...many of which I have enjoyed...

It is the morality of the situation ...when the ex has abandoned someone...is out of the persons life...it is easier to accept...the person moving on...But when the ex is sick or injured...and is dependent on someone...as a caretaker...it becomes morally challenging to accept...it appears that the person moving on is doing the abandonment...

Originally posted by: premeeristry

that was some amazing lines you wrote in the beginning

Sahir's every emotion has such detail ...none can help but end up feeling for that...

pain,betrayal,remorse,love,hatred...everything has to be deep...n every emotion is justified by the actor...

so was this scene of Friday...

Originally posted by: THEfanOFheartz

Hey!!!🤗
This is superb!!!❤️
Nicely written!👏
This shows his feelings for her in his current situation...
what he wants... how he is{what he claims to be but isn't😭}...
The words you have used are so powerful n fit well ⭐️
Great description of his POV!! Loved it!❤️
N yes i agree with the last part,seeing Sahir alone was upsetting!😭