Did I cross a line?

Strange, it is. I don't have to be told twice what to do...or what not to.

I am not perfect- but I do know my responsibilities and my limitations (though I do agree -sometimes I overlook them when my enthusiasm takes over). And I try to do things as best as I can, keeping my family as my focus.

When it comes to strangers, I am usually the one to draw the line.

So then...Did I cross a line?

I must have...in hindsight...

But then...did I deserve this? How can a man bulldoze a woman like this? How is it acceptable! I certainly don't want to remember it. He cornered me...and those awful words...How can he talk to me like this? So blunt...so point blank...ek shauhar aur biwi ke beech mein...what was he trying to tell me...!!!

I don't get the point. He is not my shauhar and I am not his biwi...and nothing of that sort exists between us. So then, was he purely trying to intimidate me? If so, he succeeded...I cannot stop cringing every time I remember it...neither can I stop remembering it...

This is so awful! I look up to this guy. How could he behave so inappropriately with me...so crude...so bold...I...How dare he suggest it to me, even if it was to get rid of me!

...Get rid of me...Oh yes, he wants just that...I am least concerned about that.

All I know is, this man has a heart of gold. He kept me safe...made sure my Ammi was fine. He even understood my pain in the hospital. And just now, with Ashrafi...he confirmed my analysis of him.

The man comes across as an angel hiding in the devil's disguise...'why' is not for me to find out..

He also punishes himself mercilessly and seeks refuge in solitude...That matters to me. Because I can see he is in pain...and he is resisting...rebelling...

If anyone of my family or friends went through this, I would go after them...shake them out of despondency...

He is not family- Alvira Aunty is...and she wants someone to take care of him..I promised her I would...at least until Joe is back...

Nor is he a friend...I guess he is way above my league for that...but there is something...some moments we have shared together...that makes him something to me...

It is beyond fascination...I have seen a side few others have seen...I must have seen that for a purpose??? I am the only one who saw the scars...

...I cannot see someone suffering like this...

But where do I draw the line? How can he shout at me one moment and shield me from injury the next? How can he insult me and then defend me when someone does the same to me?

There is a lot I don't understand...

Right now, I think I will go with my gut feeling.

Perhaps, someday I will understand what my gut is feeling!

Originally posted by: Sagi.

Wow di.
Perfect analysis. Also don't forget the fact that he didn't hesitate to state that she was in his room.

Whatever Kurti Aapa was accusing her to be, he was equally in to it.

Originally posted by: ecrivain

Ah chick Souo ji ...hello to u n how are u ??

Hmm very well written analysis ..btw are u planing on making THESE posts a series ..first Alvira now ARZOO next what ??KA😉

Well I am all for it n do make an index too ..😛

Now wht u have written is pretty self explanatory ...and I agree we all make mistakes ..don't we ..some are just impulsive , some are deliberate n some are unknown ...

ARZOO did tht and so did sahir, while the people who were the "observers " would like to take their own sides abt the fiasco ...as they aptly say ...the glass can be half empty or half full whichever way u want to see it 😆

And as much as I am non supporter of ARZOO tiny mistakes ..I whole heartedly agree tht NO ONE has any right to critize her or any other woman the way KA did 😡..u see at the end of the day it's one ' s PERSONAL choice of wht they want to do with their live n their body 😆..and I say the latter cos there also the people involved are master of their lives n DESERVE respect n nothing else ...

Btw the TRPs is pretty bad ah ...sigh ...

Originally posted by: chicksoup

Hum theek hai..😳 Aap theek hai?😉

No never...not on negative characters...😆...Actually KA is idiotic..not so much negative..I think she just blindly worships Zeenat...I don't have time for Zeenat worshippers.😆

I completely get Gul's silly heroines...😆...not because I am one...I find them very entertaining...they are written with a good sense of humour...😆 What I find PERFECT about them is that they don't have a halo- they are human enough to make mistakes...and girl enough to be silly...😳