Mirror/Mirror#5 Raman (pg7) - Page 6

Originally posted by: always_a_TV_fan

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I would have said, do write more, but I know you need your rest. Please continue writing once you are at your 100%.

Originally posted by: happenstance

Mirror Mirror # 5 Raman

" what we do in life echoes in eternity..." (Gladiator)

He is sat on the bathroom floor, head in his hands. He is unsure as to how long he has been sat there either. He attempts to pick himself up.

He looks up at the mirror. Puffy red swollen eyes. Anyone would think that he's not slept in days. He can't even recall the last time he shaved. He starts splashing cold water over his face- he can barely recognise his own reflection.

The last few hours have reduced him to such depths. So confused, so torn. Just a week ago they had promised. He had promised that his kids were their kids. So why was it that he was now standing at crosswords. Child on one side and wife on another.

Was he so unrecognisable to her now- that she can't see the truth in his eyes. His truth. Where words have failed him he had hoped against hope that she would find what she was seeking in his eyes.

She is questioning him about her. What does she have to do with this. She is irrelevant to this. This is about us. I asked her to trust me but she is unable to.

I have wronged her, but not in the way I see that pain within her eyes. She lost control today, for a moment the serene presence in my life lost her way. Lost her way because of me.

I need her to understand, to believe to trust. She has always been so good in hiding her sorrows but today that pain doesn't subside. It doesn't settle.

I feel like I am losing my way again. I need her pull, I need her to be my anchor once more. I want to be her constant. Why won't she tell me the meaning behind these tears. Those words said in anger, yes they hurt me but they hurt her more. That I know.

I feel like the abyss is calling again, but this time it not only seeks me, it seeks us both out.