Mirror/Mirror#5 Raman (pg7) - Page 4

She positions herself in her seat. Oblivious to the looks her husband was giving her. If looks could Kill! She turns to find him looking at her, his eyes piercing through her. She meets his gaze, there's something different about the look in his eyes this evening. She wonders is he angry at her for taking too long in getting ready? But it was him who was locked up in their bathroom taking ages gelling his hair no doubt. Or were they in a fight and she had forgotten. She looks away, starts to play with the music system in an attempt to distract herself. She finally settles on a track 'Kabhi to nazar milao .

she dares to look at him and flashes him her sweetest smile. He doesn't reciprocate instead he just frowns murmuring at her 'kitne dheere lagiye dhi tumne aur ab bugs bunny ke jaise apne daant dekhari ho' Hmmm he is making his witty remarks so no doubt he is okay. She sighed. To think that ten minutes ago she was taking such care and attention in dressing herself for him and only him.Raman was obviously in the mood to play tonight but not the game she had in the mind. Or perhaps like always he needed some warming up first.

She pulls out her mirror to reapply her lipstick. Through the mirror she can see him glancing furtively in her direction. She takes her lipstick and begins to re apply it. Ishita wasn't the kind of girl who spent hours perfecting her make up let alone doing touch ups in the car. But she was annoyed at him now and wanted to rile him up. In a deliberate slow motion she starts to apply the fushia pink lip stick.

He is studying her very carefully trying not to draw attention to himself as he tries helplessly to navigate the car whilst his wife is teasing him. How he wishes he could caress her lips at the moment. She reaches out to get a tissue as he is about brake. Their fingers touch, there is nothing new in this but today he feels such a strong sensation burn through him. Desire. He wanted her. His thoughts linger for a moment longer than anticipated and she has moved her hand again.

She attempts to flutter her eyelashes. she is cringing she can't believe that she is stooping to such levels because she is craving his attention. "Raman how do I look?" She asks. He is gazing at her intently again, taking her in. She catches his gaze and braces herself...the flurry of butterflies, the tinge of desire when she is near him. Ishita don't give in she pleads with herself, do not look away. Not that she wanted to but she is beginning to feel that they have a reached plateau in their relationship.Something or someone must give.

He curses under his breathe and wills himself to look away, his wife is such a tease she is looking ravishing and she knows it.Why is she toying with him like this.

Raman kya hua ?' She asks startled by his sudden out burst. Does this woman have super hearing powers as well as the power to enchant him. Who is this woman.

"Kuch bhi nahi" he says and starts fiddling with the music player- he raises the volume.

They continue to drive in silence but there is a strange comfort in the silence. She knows he is no longer the man that begrudged her. She knew he had never wished ill on her before but by the same token her feelings had never meant anything to him either. Yes he can be hot headed and in the past his words had hurt her but she now knows that these words were a facade. A facade of a man that he portrayed so well to all those around him. So much so that she believed at times his own loved ones could no longer see him for the real gentleman that he was. He had built a wall around himself and incarcerated himself inside . She understood that it would take time for those bricks to come falling down and for him to come through. But she was ready to wait.

Kabhi To Nazar Milao
Kabhi To Kareeb Aao
Kabhi To Nazar Milao
Kabhi To Kareeb Aao
Jo Nahin Kaha Hai
Kabhi To Samajh Bhi Jao
Hum Bhi To Hain Tumhaaray
Deewane Ho Deewane...
Hum Bhi To Hain Tumhaaray
Deewane Ho Deewane..

He finds the music soothing, almost as soothing as her voice that is when she lowers her voice and isn't lecturing him. He steals a glance, she is looking out from her window. He sees that she is smiling through the reflection of the window. In that moment he is so glad to have her company.

Her hand falls by her side, he is intently studying the smooth untouched skin. How he wishes to take her hand in his. should he? Would she get mad he wonders. Shoulda woulda coulda are the lost words of a fool Raman, he tells himself. He needs to know that this is not just a figment of his imagination, that she feels something too. That this is not just the deluded thoughts of a once broken soul.

He wants to shower her with affection, he wants to make her smile. This is no longer about Ruhi. This was about the two damaged people who had found themselves entangled and now he wants to remain entangled with her for a lifetime. Unbeknown to him, she turns her head slightly to find a semblance of a smile on his face.

The shades of their relationship are always shifting and merging. They are beginning to find solace in the grey and she is beginning to dare to hope that they will find bliss too. She is learning to embrace the dark as much as the light. He is beginning to find light where he felt all there was dark.

They unexpectedly hit a red light, and he brakes hard. He immediately turns to his side, grasping her hand 'Tum teek ho?' He asks concerned. She smiles at him, he finds the answer to his question The light goes green, and they set off again. They continue in perfect silence, hands entwined.

Song credit**Kabhi to nazar milao- Adnan Sami and Asha Bosle..