<font size="2">It was only when he felt the trickle of blood on his neck that he realised he had cut himself. He had been so lost in his thoughts that he didn't even feel the sharp scratch as the razor cut him. He sighed, what was she doing to him. Or more to the point what was he doing to himself.</font>
<font size="2">He knew this pain must be self-inflicted, she had never really given him any hope, yet he still dared to hope. Surely it had not been his imagination, that shy smile of hers... the way he felt her breathe quicken whenever he came close to her. She had not shied away from his touch, even when Ruhi was asleep, she would sleep with her hand tightly holding his.</font>
<font size="2">Raman thought that he had experienced love before. He knew it all, after all he was divorced and had two children. At least he thought he had known and experienced it all before.</font>
Though somehow he could not reconcile his feelings for Ishita with those that he had experienced before. Previously he had been selfless in love and naive and that had cost him dear. Since the breakdown of his marriage, he had showed such disdain when it came to relationships, marriage and love. He believed everyone was fickle and no one worthy of his trust. He had been burnt. Burnt so bad that he had promised himself that he would never allow himself to feel or want again.
<font size="2">Oh how wrong he had been. Where she came from he didn't know- it all felt like a blur now. All he knew is that she somehow resuscitated him, rescuing him from a lifeless existence. He looked up and realised that he was smiling, "my jhansi ki raani you have shone light into my life when all i have known for so long is darkness" he uttered. There he had said it out loud, it was now real. He could not take it back now. He didn't want to take it back.</font>
<font size="2">Whether she felt for him or not as he did, it would not stop him from recognising and acknowledging her importance to him. He wished that one day he might be able to convey to her exactly what she meant to him. He wanted to show her who he really was, and let her know the man he could be with her by his side.</font>
<font size="2">He applied some aftershave to the cut, and winced as it stung. He had been trying to wrestle with his inner demons for so long and been numb for so long, it almost felt good to feel something, anything again.</font>
<font size="2">Index</font>
<font size="2">(2)Ishita's first mirror/mirror scene-</font>http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=4022444&TPN=2&#p106618004
<font size="2">(3)Raman's 2nd mirror/mirro reflection</font>-http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=4022444&TPN=3&#p107523011
(4) Raman and Ishita's joint reflection-http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=4022444&TPN=5&#p108036856
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Indian Mythology
