thanks so much, horizon.
aw you liked the edits? possessed is right i think... sometimes this whole thing just foinishes me off... which is why wedding must be spaced out... i am thinking if watchingh is doing thsi to us, what acting this phase out must have done to the actors, also the creatives... who all work practically seven days a week, 12 hours or more...
i am glad you are finallly ready for this. i keep running away... even though it is impossible to forget "shadi karni hogi... mujhse... chhay mahine ke liye..." the low voice like a forest fire blowing through the night, her eyes aflame with emotions of a nature she perhaps had no idea she even had as she tried to make some sense of this chaos. a knowledge of the end of worlds in both their eyes. how could a scene that was just shown in bits and parts be so powerful that it gets lodged in you like this, maybe they intercut it with so much of other things just to help the viewer deal with the impact somehow. little doses... baby steps we took into hell and, no idea how this was ever ever going to get to a better place.
layers here that are too deep to fathom at times. intense pain yet a terrible thrill and a scaredness, elemental eternity. astonishing days. i am hoping to watch and think 190 today. i know it is not possible to ever understand this "forced wedding" in all its splendour, but i think i would like to write a bit about it.
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