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PART-X

DEV'S POV

We were on the way as soon as i cutt the call after talking to gautam my driver suddenly stoppee the car and i shouted,

"Joe kya kar rahe ho tum....... "

"Sorry sir par agge ikk body padi hai........ "

"Body....... "

And i come out of the car and moved towards the body it was killed badly.........

Soon i turned the body and my heart stopped ..........

The world around black out and my eyes turned moist........

it was Krish.......

My best friend Krish........

"Krish uth... Uth.... Kya huya tujhe..... "

I took him in my lap his body was smelling bad the blood dried was now sticking to me i hugged him tight and shouted,

"Krish...... Tu nahi jaa sakta.... Hum hospital chalege......... "

I picked him up but joe and other team members came and said,

"Sir vo bhut pehle hi mar chuka hai......... Kuch faida nahi hai... "

I looked at him and joe told me to put him down.........

I put him down and hugged him again all the memories flashed in front of me.........

Last time we met was 3 weeks ago..........he told me to do not worry for raavi we will find her...........but now look he himself is not with me.............why.......why........... He was only one with whom i have cherished my childhood and lived my teens and he left me alone for my adulthood i was crying my..... My.......... Lil brother.... My friend..... I lost him...... I lost him today........

his stupid jokes used to irk me but today i want him here..... Again cracking those lame jokes........

Speak up damn it...... Speak up.......

And i kept my head on his chest and everyone said,

"Sir iski body degrade ho jayegi jaldi........ Lagta hain 2 se 3 din se aise hi yahan pada hain..........kafi jagahon par janwaron ne bhi khaya huya hai............ Toh hume antim sanskar karna hoga.........."

I moved my eyes to his face and his condition made my heart clench i closed my eyes and joe said,

"Let's dig the pit....... "

And i interrupted,

"Aise nahi......... Ikk police officer ko proper homage denge...... "

And we started with the rituals...... I removed my shirt and cleaned his body...... But those blood stains those marks were not erasing my heartbeat slows down seeing him but i have to pay him a perfect homage as he always wished to have his last rites royally....... He used to say to me,

"Ae dev.......... Jis din marunga na....... Teri yeh jo ankhein na naal ki tarah chalu ho jayengi......... Aur fir tujhe pata lagega ki tha koii pagal jo tera dil laga ke rakhta tha......... Aur haan agar tujhse pehle mara na toh jimmedari teri ki meri homage mein mujhe teri yeh shirt dena jise tu chune bhi nahi deta aur sare officers ko kehna ki 6 ki 6 goliyan fire kare mujhe dafan karne ke baad...... "

And i used to say him,

"Agar tu mar gaya na janwaron ko daal aaunga tujhe par apni uniform ki shirt nahi dunga....... "

I made him wear the shirt and whispered in his ear,

"Tune finally meri shirt utarva hi li......... "

And chuckled sadly and joined her heads i wanted to chest bump the way we used to meet but today his chest bones were poping out like the flesh is leaving his bones............

I want to pull the time back and live some more time with him.......

And we dig up the land i kept his body on that place and order to fire the guns together and we did and soon we started to put sand back but i kept on looking at his face soon sand was all over his body and his face disappears. The tears were shedding out like he used to say nal chalu ho jayega........

And i laid on my stomach on the same area where he is buried and kept my ear on the place where is face was trying to absorb him in me and tears wetting the land.. . .. . .

I want to hold his hand but instaed i could just hold the sand i made a fust full of the sand and whispered to the sand as if it can take all my voice to him.. . .. . ..

"Dekh mera wait krna.. . .. . Main bhi aaunga koii aur best friend mat bana lena vrna mere gusse ka pata hai tujhe.. . . . .. . Main vohi uss insan ko garh dunga........

Mere yaar mera bas chalta na tujhe seene se lagakar rakhta........ "

I cried and took my time and than joe said,

"Sir gautam sir is on line...... "

And i woke up and hold the walky talky and gautam said,

"Krish........ "

And i burst out crying again i could hear him also crying and i said,

"Tu sahi kehta tha hamare batch mein sabse tez yehi bhagta tha...... Aur dekh ajj hume chodkar aage nikal gaya........ "

He said,

"Main usse dekh bhi nahi paya........"

And we sat in the car i was still looking at the place where he was dug and talking to gautam...... He both were not able to take it..........

And today's hunt is just this much i need to get my mind sound first and joe made a camp a few distance away..............

And me and gaumbi made a fierce decision to search for the murderer and extract his life out of him and gautam is also going to accompany the squad soon........

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RAAVI POV:-

I immediately locked myself at my place....... Almost all lights were off in the town and i once looked outside my window and i saw shiva there he was looking at my house and soon our eyes met and he had tears....... Wait he was crying......... Why he was crying before i could figure our he moved to his place and disappeared from my sight.......

I sat down on the floor and closed my eyes today's events start flashing and with those events i remember shiva was beating him black and blue and rahim chacha was also not stopping him and he is a man of his words he will never let an innocent suffer....... May be krish have did something wrong.......

And now shiva's tears these all things are just making me confuse i think i have made my desicion soon on judging him..........

I connected dots and look out of the window here shiva's house door was open slightly i thought to cross over and had i look of him.....

I went to a little frightened but i need to see him is he fine or not.....

When i crossed his house door i heard whimpering and heavy breathing sounds........

I moved towards it and open the doir and saw shiva sitting on floor in a disheveled condition his eyes were red and swollen tears continuously flowing out and he was murmurring something inaudible........

I called him out,

"Shiva...... "

And he looked at me and started moving behind near the wall crouching and he said hiding his face and said,

"Main main unke jaisa nahi hoon........... Main unke jaisa nahi hoon...... "

I moved closer to him but he said,

"Nahi mere paas mat aa maine gusse mein tujhpar chilla diya..... Pata nahi main aur kya kya karunga...... Tu mere paas mat aa...."

Seeing him this vulneravle made my heart clench and i move closer and sat on his level still having distance just to make him adapt me in his vulnerable state and i said,

"Shiva..... App nahi ho unki tarah.. . ."

Though i didn't know about whom he was talking but i need to make him normal and he said shifting closer to me having an urge and child like questioning tone,

"Main nahi hoon na unki tarah...... "

I nodded and he holded my hand and said,

"Main nahi banna chahta unki tarah.. . .. . .. Maa ne mujhe kaha tha ki shiv kabhi bhi apne baap ki tarah mat ban jana.. . . . . . Main nahi hoon na.. . .. . . Main nahi bana na.. . . "

And i hold his hand with other and looked in his eyes and said,

"Nahi... . Nahi bane unki tarah.. . .. . "

And he broke the contact and left my hands in a jiffy and shifted back and said,

"Par maine tumpar chillaya........ Tumpar gussa kiya......tumhe rulaya......maa ne kaha tha ki vo bhi aisa hi karte the.........maa roti rehti thi...........par maine unki baat nahi suni aur vohi kiya jo vo karte the......"

I went near him but he didn't looked at me and i kept my hands on his shoulders and said,

"Nahi shiva..............."

And he looked at me and i nodded in a no wiping his tears but he instead move out of my hold and again sprawled on the floor crying saying,

" Main vada pura nahi kar paya......."

I shifted closer to him i hold him in my embrace and moved my hand in a to and fro on his back to calm him but he was moving out of my embrace crying and wailing and saying that he broke his mother's trust he was crying.........after several attempts he calmed a bit and kept his head on my chest his tears wetting my chest and he started breathing becoming normal i hold him closer i don't know why i just want to hold him together i want him stop crying.........we both were sitting on the floor i was holding him tight and our breathes in sink...........Him being so close to me didn't made me feel bad and i just want to absorb his pain....... And at that time bringing him closer to me felt right.........

And he spoke after a while tightening his hold on me and said,

"Main... . . Main 5 saal ka tha.. . .. . Pehli baar baba ko maa ko marte huye dekha.... . .. .uss din maa roo rahi thi.. . .. . Main unke paas gaya toh unhone ne kaha.. . .. . Shiv apne kamre mein jao.. . .. . . Main chup chap apne kamre mein chala gya.. . .. . .. . Maine chupke se dekha toh papa maa ke saath jabardasti kar rahe the cheekne ki awaaz aa rahi thi maa rok rahi thi par baba.. . .. . "

My tears flowed out as i know how it feels when someone imposes himself on you and that too a 5 year watching all this made my heart clench and i moved my hand through his hairs he continued,

"Mujhe pata bhi nahi tha kya ho raha hai.. .. .. . . Har roz chikhne chillane ki awaaz sunna......... Maa ko rote huye dekhna mujhe acha nahi lgta tha........... Ikk din maine mujhe maa app kyon chillati ho.....

Toh maa ne mujhe bola..... Shiva bado ki baat hain tum dhyaan mat do.................aur kaha Beta kabhi kisi par apni power ka istemal mat karna........ Agar tumhe pata hai ki vo insan majboor hain...... Toh uska fayda mat uthana..........."

"Maa ki batein mujhe samjh nahi aayi par yaad ho gayi thi........ Aise hi chalta raha aur main 11 saal ka ho gya ghar mein baba maa ko bhut bure tarike se rakhte the ikk din aisa hi huya......... Baba ne maa ke sar par kuch de mara main tab maine maa ke sar se khoon behta dekh ikk lamp pada tha vo uthakar baba ke sar par mara baba gusse mein aa gaye aur maa ne meri taraf dekha aur mujhe god mein uthaya aur kamre mein le gayi........ Aur kamra band kar diya..........bahar baba kamre ka darwaza khatkhate rahe..........maa ne mujhe kaha....... Shiva tu kabhi beta chup ja aur bahar mat aana........ Chahe mujhe jo bhi ho jaye yahan se chale jana........... Apne baba ke paas mat jana vo tujhe maar denge...... Aur unhone mujhe bed ke neeche chupa diya aur kaha........ Shiva beta tumahara gussa tumhare baba par gaya hai......... Har baat par haath utha dena beta kabhi bhi apni baap ki tarah mat ban jana...... Kio kii jis din tu apne baap ki tarah bana na main uss din samjh jaungi ki meti parwarish mein kami reh gayi.................. Maine vada kiya ki main kabhi bhi unke jaisa nahi banuga aur baba ne darwaza tod diya......... Maa upar uthi aur baba ne maa ko chaku se maar diya....... Maa ne meri taraf dekha aur kaha shiva bhaag jaa vapas mat aana....... Apne baba ke saye se dur rehna...... Bhaag jaa.......... "

He said last lines almost shouting and hiding his face more in my chest and fear was evident and he said,

"Main vahan se bhaga....... Ikk baar piche mudkar dekha toh maa ki ankhein khuli hi reh gayi aur unki sansein khatam ho gayi...............baba mere piche aaye par main bhaag gya unhone ne mete sir par kuch mara par main bhagta raha........ "

"Main unn jaisa nahi ban sakta...... "

And i spoke careesing his hair,

"Nahi bane app unn jaise nahi bane........ "

And shiva looked at my eyes and i blinked in assurance he again buried his head in my chest just like he want to hide from all the evils around and i just want to hold his tears and want to absorb all his pain and hide his vulnerable self from the cruelty pf world i hummed him to sleep soon he was asleep i closed my eyes and thought of how little shova must have gone through this much.. . . . . .. . ..

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Hey guys!!!!

Firstly i am sorry i am so late in posting updates......

And secondly i am really thankful to you all as you wait so patiently.....

And about tge update i think that whatever bad a person does he or she has a soft And clear side for someone just like dev have for krish here and whatever a person is now is cause of his past experience just like shiva has gone through a lot in his childhood....

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Is this really dev?? So he loves someone other than himself

Now we knw shiva's past

To yeh dev ke paas bhi dil hai... 😏

Shiva 😭💔

Why can't he just be happy

Originally posted by: Amy_march_02

To yeh dev ke paas bhi dil hai... 😏

Shiva 😭💔

Why can't he just be happy

And do catch up with the update.....

Originally posted by: Prizi

Is this really dev?? So he loves someone other than himself

Now we knw shiva's past

Hope you like it too.....

And thanks for reading my story.....

PART-XI

RAAVI'S POV:-

I was in a deep slumber when windchime made a jingling sound and i open my eyes slightly and

Morning rays shine through the slightly open tinted glass window spreading a colourful aurora of light.............. And i moved a little but felt weight on me and it was Shiva............ I looked at us We both were sleeping in sitting position crouching at corner of the room his arms wound around my back and his head on my chest...... He was holding me like he want to hide himself from everything around and i don't know i just moved my hand through his hairs and he snuggled more................ The jingle of wind chime further mixed with slight chirp of birds as if they are celebrating and relishing the newness in the air.......... Last night i witnessed a new shiva.......... Actually the old shiva which he has hid in deep confines of his hard self................ My judgement about him was so wrong............ I looked at him he was adorning a little pout his hairs messy and dried tears on his cheeks i cupped his face and traced the path of that dried tear.........i don't know why but these feelings are just making me confused........yesterday i was scared that what if he is like Dev but why i was fearing that......i don't know as Shiva is just a stranger............Right?? Why would him being like dev or being even good matters to me........... Yesterday seeing his tears.............I myself came to his place for checking out is he fine or not...........it all felt so right...........holding him closer to me and i wanting to absorb all his pain..............this new bond which we have is So pure and it so far from the feeling the world name....... It was just different........ And i don't know why i just feel connected to him........ Connected in a way that i want to be around him.......... But.... Isn't it wrong........ I am married........ All the thoughts were drowning me in a whirlpool in which i willing want to get stuck into not with him but essence of his being...........

But right now i have to move as he will be up anytime and i don't want him to get uncomfortable and that too after an emotionally draining night...... He needs time.........

I stood up not disturbing his sleep i took a mattress and placed it on the floor making a makeshift bed near him and i slightly pushed him over it and covered him with a duvet.......

I looked at his face ahhhh!!!! Those dried tears........ I wet one of

my dupatta end with water of earthern pot kept at one end of room and slightly cleaned his face........... And than cleaned his wounded hand which he has banged on the wall and i tear other dried end of my dupatta and bandaged it..............

And i left as i have to move out before anyone saw me at his place......... And i left quietly giving a last look at shiva..........

As i reached my place i sat on the window pane looking out of the window all that charismatic view of aurora of light both of us so close to each other brought a smile on my face.......... The chirping bird outside my window making me feel as if reciting my tale to the whole world........... And i don't know when i started blushing........I looked at my clothes having wrinkles and creases on it........... Suddenly i started to graze my fingers on the creases i don't know why i was adoring these folds........ These folds were making me feel his warmth.................Before these folds on my clothes always make me feel disgusted of myself but these which are now are making me blush i don't know why i am smiling like an maniac i just don't know.............. Maybe i have got that to know that shiva is nowhere Dev......... He has made me smiling........ He has made me have a feeling of holding someone close to me.......... He has made me feel myself.............. When his and mine breathe sinked yesternight i felt like stars aligning together........ His pain........ His past......... I feel so part of it........ I feel like i am a part of him.............

But before anything else i need to find out a lot of things today.........

As how shiva came here and why krish was killed and most important why i was here...........

All this can be answered by one person RAHIM CHACHA.......

And i stood up to freshen up and head towards rahim chacha's place and talk to him............

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SHIVA'S POV:-

The rays of sun shone bright breaking my sleep and i woke up a little grumpy feeling loss of warmth............ And i saw i was lying on a mattress covered with a duvet and i moved my hands in my hairs and i saw my hand bandaged with.........I brought it close to me .............. Yes i t was her........ It is raavi's dupatta........... Suddenly i got aware of my surroundings last night events flashed in front of my eyes and Raavi being so close to me make feel high i suddenly sat in the makeshift bed and took a deep breath and the air around me smells of her..............This aroma man...... And finally i brought my bandaged hand near my face and smelled it and only one word left my mouth,

"RAAVI...... "

and a smile appeared on my face and i remember the Yesternight conversation she was not angry from me anymore........... She was not afraid from me anymore............. And she came to check on me here by herself and i look at wind chime jingling around it was making a different sound today.............. Like telling me that she was here............. Making me aware of her presence......... Narrating my euphora of emotions to each and everything and living beings around...........

Her holding me close to her it was all done by herself it means she is not scared from me anymore infact she is comfortable with me........

I moved to the window to have a glance of her and started looking in direction of her house but she was nowhere to be seen........ And suddenly i heard bird chirping and i looked at the tree and the bird flew in my direction and sat on my window and i dont know whether i am mad or what it looked like she was teasing me........... I stretched my arm and she sat on it as all the animals around are familiar with kabila members and that bird pecked it's beak on my bandage and than started moving her beak in a lovely gesture and i said,

"Usne bhi aise kiya tha...... "

She replied by making loud voice and she than flew towards my face and moved her feather softly and again sat on my arm and i moved towards mirror with the bird still on my arm and i saw my reflection..... Ya..... My face was clean and my hairs were settle unlike the normal mornings........... So she has cleaned my face......... I roamed my other hand from just beneath my eyes to my jawbone and i what was this i blushed......... My cheeks were changing color.......... And i moved my hand in my hairs nodding impossibly and that bird made sound as if wanting attention and she tear a little of bandage and flew i moved behind to catch her but she as if teasing me roam in the whole room and than flew out of window............

And i stood by the window looking at her flying high just like my heart which is right know on cloud nine.......... Her hugging me...... Her coming near to me....... How she pacified me........ How she made me realize that i am not like my dad............. She bandaged my hand........ She touched my face.....she...... Oh god!!!!!!!!! What am i doing............ And i turned around i stretch my arms in such a manner like i am holding her just like last night and than i realized that she is really petite........ She fitted in my arms so well and i started to twirl with hands stretched in same manner and i closed my eyes her smell made me feel is she dancing with me............. And i move back and forth.............. But than chachi came in saying,

"Shiva...... "

And i hold her from waist and started twirling her she said,

"Bhut khush lag raha hai....... "

"Bhut......... "

She cupped my face and we stop dancing and said,

"Itna khush tujhe pehle kabhi nahi dekha............ Bhagwan kare teri iss khushi ki wajah hamesha hamare saath rahe......... "

And i hugged her and she ask me to have a bath and come to have breakfast and she left. I went to do the same.

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RAAVI POV:-

I came to chacha's place and greeted the couple and i said,

"Rahim chacha apse kuch baat karni thi......... "

And he said,

"Haan beta bolo...... "

And i asked,

"Vo.... Main puchna chahti thi ki shiva yahan kab aaye....... "

And he smiled at little that smile was something like he knew that i will come here abd he said in a calm tone,

"Shiva........ Jaisa naam vaisa hi kaam........ 11 saal ka tha vo jab maine pehli baar usse dekha tha........... Khoon se lath path...... Kapde ashe phate huye....... Jagah jagah bhediyon ke katne ke nishan............ Mano jaise sirf jaan hi bachi ho........ Main use wahan jungle se utha kar kabile mein lekar aaya uska ilaaj krwaya......... Ved ne jaean de diya tha ki nahi bachega...... Par yeh maut ke mooh se bachkar bahar aa gya............ Aur yeh Shiva fir se uth gya........... Tab bas hamare saath hi hai........ Pata nahi kahan se aaya.......... Isne kabhi bataya nahi par haan sare kabile ki jaan isme bas gayi........ Sabki madad karna....... Sabki baat manna.......... Bass aise hi yeh hamari jindagi ka hissa ban gya.......... Aur iske naam se uss kabile ko jaana gya......"

And i spoke,

"Ikk aur sawal.... "

And he said,

"Tumhare baki swalon ke jawab shiva khud hai............. "

And he kept his hand on my head and moved towards the dining area............ I stood there looking at him and than i followed him to kitchen........

I went to look at cooking pots meanwhile rorohinu chachi moved out and than chachi came after a certain time and we started serving chacha asked me to bring water and i stood up and went to the shelf to fetch water when shiva entered i looked at him from corner of my eyes and i noticee him looking at me and i looked at him a little and than i took the glass and he spoke,

"Raavi...... Vo.... "

I looked at him and so do chacha and chachi and he rephrased,

"Mujhe bhi pani chahiye....... "

And i brought water for him as well i gave to chacha and move towards him and he hold the glass and spoke in a little voice just aduible to me,

"Thank you kal ke liye...... "

And he ran and st at his position and god those cheeks look so distracting while he was blushing....... And he was eating food so nervously And chacha spoke,

"Aaram se khaa shiva kisi ko jaldi nahi hain...... "

And he came back to reality and i sat in front of him and chachi said,

"Man toh mera bhut hain ki aise hi main , yeh , shiva aur uski biwi saath mein baith kar khana khaye par............ "

And shiva suddenly started coughing and i give water to him he drank not breaking the eye contact and chachi keep on speaking different but right now only what i was able to see was him looking at me and else everything blackout..........

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SHIVA POV:-

I feel like a love sicken person who is blushing ,smiling, turning clumpsy in front of her and more importantly zoning out after watching her.........

And more importantly she was also looking at me her eyes spoke volumes of things......... Her blushibg cheeks were replicating the image of me in the mirror......... She is just me......... Or more appropriate i love to find myself in her.......

But i knew she wanted to talk to me........ Her eyes have a question...... We need to talk too about last night..........

And after finishing the food i said loudly to chachi,

"Chachi vo lakdi katne jaa rha hoon......... Pull ke paas vahan koii nahi hota...... Toh lakdi bhi jyada mil jayegi aur samay bhi........ "

And i looked at raavi and went she looked at me and gave a knowing look...........

I went at the place and started to move in to and fro waiting for her to come............ But it has already been 10 minutes she is not here...... So i startee cutting the wood impatiently

and she was still not here and i thought may be she not going to come............. But suddenly i heard payal sound and my impatient frown turned into a smile and i turned here she stood in front of me and she sat on one of the woods lying and sge spoke,

"Vo..... Apse ku... Kuch puchna tha........ "

I sat Antiparallel to her on the same wood and i nodded and she said,

"Vo..... Vo..... Hath theek hai abb..... "

I replied,

"Haan.... "

I don't know why i am replying in one word before she came i had a huge list of things to talk but now i am all nervous and even stuttering over one word also........

And she asked,

"Shiva kal jo huya main maafi mangna chahti thi.......... "

And i looked at her i fear did she regret last night.

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