Ok so I am here with another update..which was suppose to happen 1 months ago 🥲🥲
But I am so glad that you guys didn’t give up on and on this story 😭 but at one point I almost did because the show was giving me no motivation 🤢
Anyway enjoy this chappie! It’s the second last one!
PS: both Shiva and Raavi will show extreme dobiness in the chapter so be warned! 😌
CHAPTER 4b
When Shiva enters Raavi’s room he is all his excited and happy mood flies out if the window when he watches her sitting on the edge of bed and crying her eyes out. When she sees Shiva she immediately runs to him and hugs him tightly, bawling her eyes out in shirt.
All this is scares Shiva shitless
‘Abhi 10 minute pahle to theek thi..ab kya hi gaya isse?’
“Raavi kya hua tu ro kyu rahi hain?” Shiva asks A’s he gently tries to pull away from her so that they can talk about what is bothering her but instead she hold him even tightly and her condition just gets worse.
“Raavi dekh mera dil baitha ja raha hai! Bol na kya hua?” He asks, feeling hot tears forming in his own eyes.
“Shiva wo abhi TV par aa rah tha ki me jis bus se wapas ane wali thi na wo landslide ki wajah se pahad se neeche gir gayi. A-aur sabhi ko bahut zayad chote ayi hai. Wo to ye bhi keh rahe the ki shayad kisi ek ki j-jaan bhi chali gayi hai..,” Shiva feels Raavi shiver in his arms.
“Shiva me bahut dar gayi thi. Mujhe laga me Maasima, Mausapa ya tujhe kabhi nahi dekh paungi,” Raavi tightens her arms around Shiva waist as if it is what keeping her together.
Shiva feels his white shirt getting wet by Raavi’s tears but he doesn’t mind a bit. He tightens his arms around her and pull her as close as possible, wanting to absorb all her tears.
“Ye chipkali tu theek hai na. Bas itna hi kaafi hai mere liye. Aur tune kaise soch liya ki tu mujhe fir se nahi dekh payigi? Jabse paida hui hai tab se zindagi bhar mere ser par tandav karne ka contract sign kiya hai tune. Aise kaise kuch ho jata tujhe?” She feels his own vision getting blurry at even the thought of something bad happening to Raavi but he immediately wipe the tears away. He can’t let himself be weak right now. Raavi needs him.
Raavi pulls back and Shiva immediately misses the warmth her body gave. He is such a sucker for any sort of touch by Raavi. He would literally drive 500kms everyday if that means he will get a hug by his chipkali.
Shiva brings his hands to Raavi’s cheeks and gently wipes the wetness away by the pad of his thumbs. When his thumb reaches the corner of her lips he lets them wander there, dangerously close and unnecessarily long.
‘Ye chipkali ke paas ate hi mere haath khud ba khud kaise chalne lagte hai. Control Shiva. Wo abhi bhi jo hua usse traumatised hai’
Shiva was about to pull his hands back when he feels Raavi slowly running her hands up his torso, over to the angle of his neck. Her soft hands crafted a spell over his body and whatever control Shiva had is thrown out of the window when Raavi balls his shirt over his shoulder, moves closer and brushes her lips against his.
That horny secondary brain in his hands takes control over his primary sane brain and Shiva tightens his hold around Raavi and smashes his lips against hers.
The kiss ignites the fire in him he never knew he had. He brings his hands from her waist up to her face and cups it, her cheeks feeling wet and sticky against his palm. His tongue flicks against her lower lip and he feels a shiver running down her body, and almost lets out a moan when he feels Raavi’s fingers which he had no clue when got tangled in his hair, fists and tugs them back to get a better accesses to the his lips.
Raavi kisses him back with the intensity of thousands of sun, sucking and nibbling on his lips, just begging him to deepen the kiss.
From inside, Shiva wants to explode with happiness like an overinflated balloon! What a lucky bsatard he is! Finally he has the girls of him dreams, in his arm, kissing him.
He realises he needs to run his hands across her skin right now! More than the oxygen he needs to breath, so he drags his hands down slowly from her face, to her neck, then to the sides of her torso and finally back again on her waist and snake them inside her tank top, not stopping to kiss her even for a second.
But before he can bury his hands deeper under her top Raavi suddenly pulls back and before Shiva could even complain or realise what’s going on she pushes him back and he falls on the bed behind them with a thud.
“Raavi-“
He couldn’t even complete his sentence, when Raavi climbs on top of him, her knees flexed on the sides of his thighs and her hands on either side of his face, and gives him that innocent smile. The smiles which holds so much power over him that he can destroy his own life and anyone else’s without giving a second thought just to see her smile like that once.
Without wasting a single second she crashes her lips against his and grinds her pubic against his, making Shiva groan loudly.
‘His chipkali is such a minx,’
He thinks to himself with a smirk. But good for him right?
He decides he has enough and grabs her by her ass, flips her so that he is hovering over her now and pushes his tongue inside her, exploring her sweet mouth.
Shiva is in heaven. If lightening strikes him now out of nowhere and he dies, he will die the happiest man on earth.
He is about to pull down the straps of her neck tank top when all of sudden Raavi’s phone rings.
“RAMYA DIDI CALLING..RAMYA DID CALLING..” her ring tune, which she had customised for all the close friends and family members goes, bringing Raavi back to her senses.
She suddenly pushes Shiva back like he was plagued and gets off from the bed frantically, confusing Shiva.
‘Pakka Ramya ka phone aane ki wajah se sharma gayi hogi. Dobi kahinki’ Shiva thinks to himself with a smile.
Raavi quickly starts fixing her dress, looking pale as a ghost. The phone which was ringing has stopped now.
“Y-ye sab nahi hona chahiye tha,” she finally says meekly, avoiding his gaze which has turned from playful to that of utter confusion, as she stands near one corner of the room, twisting the ends of her tank top between her finger.
Shiva feels air leave his lungs.
“K-Kya?” He feels like choking, like someone has stabbed him on chest multiple times, puncturing his lungs and now he can’t breath now matter how hard he tries.
“Tu chala ja yahan se Shiva,” Raavi says, staring at the old brown carpet on the floor.
“Tu ye Kya keh rahi hai Raavi? Kya nahi hona chahte tha?” Shiva wish he was dead now. He very well knew the answer to the question. Their lips were still red and swollen from kiss, there is now way she is talking about anything else but he still wants to know. Wants her to say the words.
Because if destroying him is what she wants then she should leave no pieces intact.
“Yahi jo abhi hua…ye theek nahi tha Shiva,”Raavi finally mutters, her face as red as afternoon Sun and Shiva starts feeling tear forming in his eye.
That fear of rejection that was in the pit of his stomach overwhelms him again. He should have never listened to that Karan!
“Raa-“ he tries to say, wanting desperately to ask where he went wrong and apologise.
“Shiva tujhe ek baar me samajh nahi ata kya? bas ja yahan se abhi!” She explodes, her own eyes red and watery. And looking at so much hate and anger in her eyes that it ignites the fire of pure rage in him too.
Why is she even getting so mad? Wasn’t she the one to climb on top of him and kiss him? She does this everytime when she gets overwhelmed, take out all her frustration on him without giving him the chance to even say anything and leaves him in pieces with nothing but tears.
But this time Shiva has enough. With his own eyes, red as a furious bull ready to attack, he get up from the bed and sprints towrds her in two long steps.
“Theek hai Raavi. Tune 8 mahine pahle bhi apne hi man ki sun kar har cheez kari thi aur aaj bhi apne hi man ki kar rahi hai. Bas ye yaad rakhna, ki iss baar me wapas nahi ane wala!” He growls before storming out of the room, slamming the door shut behind him.
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Her weak legs no longer being able to support her body, Raavi falls on the floor. She sits down with her back against the foot of the bed and face resting on her flexed knees.
She hurt Shiva she knows. This is probably the end of them, she knows that too. But she knew that kiss was nothing but a moment of weakness and a sign of pity from Shiva because she was feeling so broken about the news of her friends being in hospital.
Still kiss was the best things that had ever happened to her. And if she could, she would go back in time relive that moment a million times but she also knew that the kiss wasn’t hers. It was only a consolation prize. When Ramya didi called, she was brought back from her fever dream to the real world.
She was still not clear on Shiva and Ramya’s equations then how can she complicate their years friendship together due to mare moment of weakness?
She simply couldn’t do that.
Of course she knew she could have done all that without shouting at Shiva and having a conversation like mature adults but when she saw him with devilish hair, ruffled cloths and swollen lips after their make out session, her self control was hanging by a thin thread. One more minute with him in the room and she would have jumped at him again like a hormonal monkey.
That’s why she has to shout at him.
And now she hated herself. For falling in love with Shiva and now hurting him.
“RAMYA DID CALLING..RAMYA DIDI CALLING..” her phone rings again. She wipes her tears, gulps her saliva to compose herself and accepts the call
“Hello Raavi? Tu phone kyu mahi utha rahi thi?” Ramya asks, sounding worried.
‘Kissing your boyfriend..’
Raavi is drowning in guilt right now.
“Wo didi me washroom me thi,” Raavi lies.
“Oh achcha..waise tum log theek se Dehradun pahunch gaye na?” She asks.
“Haan pahunch gaye. Hotel me bhi check in Kar liya…k-kal nikalna hai,” Raavi manages to say, her voice in the verge of cracking.
“Raavi kya hua? To theek to hai na?” Ramya’s anxiety grows.
Raavi quickly wipes her tears and sniffs.
“Haan haan..bas thoda sa cold hai s-shayad,” Raavi says.
“Ohh chal koi baat nahi. Tu yahan aaja me tujhe roz haldi wala dudh dungi aur teri sardi ye 2-3 din me hi chali jayegi.” Ramya giggles on the other side of the phone.
Raavi wants to jump off some random cliff right now. How can she do her sister so bad? Her sister who loves her so much?
“Achcha ye Shiva phone nahi utha raha hai mera..wo theek to haina? Matlab hi uski tabiyat to theek hai na?” Ramaya asks general concern.
Ramya’s innocent concern for Shiva acts as the last nail in the coffin for Raavi and she starts bawling her eyes out.
“R-Raavi tu to kyu rahi hai? Kya hua hai? Bol na? Meri jaan nikali jaa rahi hai!” Ramya asks frantically.
“I-I am really sorry di..me bilkul bhi achchi bahen nahi hu. Mene aapke saath bahut galat kiya hai,” Raavi manages to say between her cries.
She knew Ramya is gonna hate her for ever when she will get to know what happened between her and Shiva, but she will accept everything. All the hate, all the punishments.
“Par Raavi hua kya hai?”
“Di I am really sorry but please don’t hate me...,” Raavi cries harder.
“Raavi bol na please..mujhe bahut dar lag tha hai,”
“Di wo mene aur Shiva me..hume..we kissed,” Raavi says meekly and close her eyes tightly, hoping that would also block away what was happening with her right now.
But just because you are closing your eyes doesn’t mean it’s night, right?
But when Ramya starts giggling from the other side, Raavi is startled. Did she traumatised her own sister so much that she had lost her mind? And is laughing instead of yelling at her?
“Arre dobi tu isme itna to kyu rahi hai? Kiss achchi nahi thi kya?” Ramya laughs even harder.
“Di par..?” To say that Raavi is perplexed would be an understatement. She feels like a freaking Salvatore Dali’s painting!
“Aisa hota hai Raavi! Aksar kisses ko jaise novels ke deikhate hai real life me waisa kuch nahi hota. Par to chinta mat kar..practice makes you prefect right?” Ramya says mischievously and Raavi could feel her smirking from the other side of the call.
So Ramya di really had no problem with her kissing Shiva?
There was really nothing going on between them?
“Aapko sach me koi problem nahi hai? Mere aur Shiva ke kiss karne se?” She asks.
“Arre mujhe kya problem hogi? But haan abhi sirf kiss tak rakhna ok!..Lekin on the other hand tum dono kon se abhi bachche reh gaye ho…but ek baat yaad rakhna Raavi, always use protection ok! Boys says shit like there pull out game is good and all but you be smart ok?” Ramya says sternly.
Wow..
Raavi feels her cheeks getting warm at what her sister just said. Ramya di who she thought was dating her Shiva is actually giving her sex advice right now!
“Matlab ki aapke aur Shiva ke beech me kuch nahi hai?” Raavi blurts out.
There was a silence on the call for few seconds which sucked the life out of Raavi’s body harder than a Dyson vaccum cleaner.
And then there was a loud sigh.
“Dekh Raavi..jab tune puch hi liya hai to me jhoot nahi bolungi tujhe. Mere aur Shiva ke beech me kuch nahi hai aur nahi hi kabhi tha. Lekin..”
“Lekin?” Raavi bites her nails.
Ramya sighs loudly again.
“Lekin ek time tha jab me Shiva ko bahut pasand karti hai-“ she lets out a humour less chuckle. “Man karta tha ki har wakt usi ke saath rahu. Har wakt usi ke baare me sochti rehati thi. Aur ek din jab raha nahi gaya to use apne dil ki baat bhi bata di….but Shiva meri kismat me kabhi likha hi nahi tha. Usne mujhe kaha, wo pahle se hi kisi se bahut pyaar karta hai aur uske alawa kisi aur ke baar me soch bhi nahi sakta. Aur bas, mene apni feelings usi din khatam kar li,” Ramya says in a sad tone. But she isn’t sad. She is at peace, she had her closure.
“Kon hai wo ladki di?” Raavi asks, her heart jumping in her rib cage like a crazy ball.
“Are you really asking me that Raavi? Tu hi bata..Shiva kya kabhi bina feelings ke kisi bhi ladki ko kiss karega?”
‘Fcuk me entire freaking life!!!’
But Raavi is in while differ dimension and was feeling stupid at a while new level now. Dumber than a rock!
How the hell can she be sooo dense!!!
She should burn all her certificates! Tear them in shreds and flush them down in toilet!
She is feeling like pulling out all her hairs! And then slamming her head against all the walls in tha multi floor hotel. She was getting so stressed about something from past 8 months, that did even exist?!
She was crying for something that she already had the entire freaking time but was just too blind to see?
Shiva kissed her because he likes her! Not because of a moment of weakness! And she hurt him so bad!
His last words before leaving rings in her head.
*Bas ye yaad rakhna, ki iss baar me wapas nahi ane wala!*
Fcuk! What has she done??
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Ok so here was the just awaited 4b. And don’t worry all the misunderstandings will solve now…only one more chapter to go! 😆 I hope it wasn’t an absolute fail and was upto your expectation!
Please let me know in the comments!
Edited by StarLord_Owen - 3 years ago
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