
Part 3
"Are you fine?" Di asked me and I nodded.
"I am fine Di... It's just that, maybe, I shouldn't have proposed her...I wouldn't have hurt both of us..." Di patted my shoulder and I closed my eyes to hide my pain.
"You don't need to continue..."She said.
"I need to continue..." I said and smiled sadly.
"After that, we rarely met... jo bhi kaam tha, kisi aur se karwate the... she didn't want to be around me, and I didn't want to hurt her... Our exams ended and Jwala came to me, with a book in her hand.
"Kabir, do one favor na...Hydraulic Brakes ke constructions ke four photocopies nikaal laao naa...please... I have to rush yaar... please... It's on page six..." She handed me the book and before I could speak, she ran outside the school.
"Oof! Yeh ladki..." I said and I went to the library to get the photocopies done. I opened the book to page six and a paper fell out of it. I was about to place it back there when I read my name.
"Dear Kabir,
Well, "Dear" word will do nothing good, but hurt you...lekin aaj shaayad waqt aa gaya hai to tell you the truth... I Love You Kabir... From the days you were stealing my glances or much before that... I was running away from my feelings, but I realize its useless now...I didn't want to break your heart, but tell me...jo insaan khud toota hua hai, woh kisiko kya behtar banayegi...It's said Love looks beyond imperfections, but I am not perfect for you Kabir...I was 15 then when I realized how fragile my heart is...You call me selfish or insensitive, but I can't let my heart, myself to go through that trauma again...I am sorry Kabir...Goodbye...Once again...
Nisha"
I handed Di the letter as tears collected in my eyes. She looked at me in shock.
"Kabir.." she spoke in shock, but I interrupted her, not wanting to fall weak now.
"Next day, Dolly came to speak to me when I was completing my Chemistry journal
"Kabir?"
I looked at her. She looked nervous and uncertain.
"Can we talk?" She asked.
I nodded and stood up. We went to the Biology Lab. Silence enveloped both of us. I remembered Nisha's words and closed my eyes, trying to hide my tears.
"That's what she does.." Dolly said, breaking the silence.
I looked at her in confusion as she continued, "hide her real self from others..."
She looked at me.
"She was 15 then ,hum summer camp ke liye Jodhpur gaye the, all the classmates, when one of our classmates, Ritesh proposed her. She rejected his proposal and walked off. We thought things would get normal, but things got worse. Ek raat, jab Nisha apne room se hostel garden aa rahi thi tab..." She stopped speaking and looked at the steps in silence as I understood what had happened. Anger surged in me, as I looked at the tears in Dolly's eyes.
"She is scared since then Kabir, woh darti hai, k kahin woh sab phir naa ho jaaye. I can't promise you anything Kabir, but you have to promise me, that you will always be there for her, maybe I am just thinking of her, and not you, but I know, you truly love her, even without knowing her, and once you get to know the real her, she'll definitely realize what a gem of a person you are, and think about her feelings again, give her some time, please..."
I nodded my head, as I couldn't really think of a reply. She walked away."
"Di, I am waiting for her since then."
"It's been 8 months Kabir..."
"I now, and I'll keep waiting for her," di hugged me and I cried. As I closed my eyes, I saw Nisha's smiling face. I opened my eyes and broke the hug.
"I want to make her realize how perfect she is for me Di, I'll be able to do it na?" I asked her. She nodded in a yes and smiled.
"Since Dolly told me her past, I started talking to her, as a friend, and I realized how true Dolly was. She isn't the Nisha she portrays herself to be. She isn't bookworm or tomboyish, she is just like other girls, who has a soft corner for even an injured puppy. But she doesn't reveal this side of hers. I want her to reveal that side of hers to me; I want to tell her how amazing she is, I want to tell her how much I Love her..." I said and Di held my hand. I felt better and smiled.
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Phew! That ended! Hope it was worth a read.
Edited by ...Shibu... - 8 years ago