No matter what their contract said, they definitely had fallen close to each other in these three months, though none of them could tell their feelings, but their relationship had become something beyond words, which cannot be clearly described, it was a beautiful phase. It was very difficult for them to understand that their time together had ended in spite of knowing it. It was his last day with her, and tomorrow everything's going to end. And he would leave her to pursue his dream of becoming a topmost choreographer, and no wonder she would be the first one to be happy if he could do so, but something was stopping her to be. That only thought of getting separated from each other was eating them up.
He rested back on the bed with the support of the headboard sipping to his coffee and observing what she was doing with a smile. Another beautiful morning with her it was, though last. A reel of the loving moments he spent with her played in his mind in a fast-forward motion as he closed his eyes, and as it ended it made a lone tear escape out from his eye. Though he had accepted this separation which was the end, but something in him was still stopping him from doing so. He never knew of her feelings for him, all of it was one-sided, he thought and so did she. Their moments were never to come again.
Dheere se kheencho
Tum inn pardon ko, ungli na phanse
Thoda sambhal ke, taala lagaana
Jo niklo ghar se
He walked towards her who was sitting by the window lost deep in her thoughts, and snapped his fingers in front of her eyes to bring her out of the trance.
Kya soch rahi hain...??!"he asked with an elated smile.
She nodded her head negatively and plastered a fake smile on her face, killing her emotions while he smiled and wrapped his arm around her taking her into a hug, and she clutched to his T-shirt tightly, and her tears again went unnoticed by him.
Tu sachme jaa raha hain kabir...mujhe chod ke?" she managed to ask and he could not answer it, and just nodded his head.
You can call me...jab bhi meri yaad aaye...I am always there!"He then said immediately, while she looked at him with a gloomy smile.
Keh paaunga main, ab se na tumse ye kabhi
Samjhaunga main, kaisa jaane kaise khud ko bhi
fursat jo mile khud se, tu apni khabar lena
Fursat jo mile khud se, ho..
Though he said that he was leaving her, but only he knew how he had been as the day was nearing, he had been punishing himself for falling for her. He had tried really hard to go away from her but whenever he tried; it was a failed attempt as all of it would end with him and her closer. He sat beside her, snaking his arm around her waist, while she noticed a smirk in his eyes. He pulled her closer and at an instant she giggled at it.
Agar tu meri ye saari harkatein miss karne waali hain to mere paas bohot achcha idea hain..."he said pulling her more onto him, and she hit him playfully on his chest.
Aur uske baad jo tu mujhse thappad khaayega na...wo bhi tu bohot miss karne waala hain.."she said glaring at him, and right away as she said that, both of them burst out laughing. She slightly elevated herself with the support of his arm, and placed a kiss on his cheek, making a smile appear on his face and he looked up at her with utmost love. She sat back at her place, and ruffled his hair with a bright smile. She stood up from her place to leave, when he held her hand firmly, and she turned towards him and looked at him with questioning eyes.
Ek aakhri baar apne is K ke saath baahar chalegi...??"he asked.
And she without any further delay just nodded her head, and he smiled looking up at her.
hasrat ke hatheli pe, mere do pal rakh lena
Fursat ke usi pal mein, kabhi kabhi ye keh dena
As she came out dressed in a beautiful knee-length dress, and he, who was waiting for her in the living area, was mesmerized on seeing her beauty and how he wished that she could only be his the whole life, how he wished to make her his without anymore hindrances in their life and how he wished she loved him too.
He walked towards her who stood in front of him with a shy smile looking at him. He stood in front of her and he carefully tugged the hair which was falling on her face behind her ears,
To chalee..???" he asked sweetly, while she nodded.
They walked up to the car, and as they settled comfortably in their seats, he drove it towards a lake in the outskirts of the town, far from the crowd, far from the noise, as he parked the car, they got out of it and walked hand-in-hand alongside the lake, none of them were talking, it was just their feelings for each other which screamed from within their hearts but they ignored, though they heard it.
They sat beneath a tree leaning to it, and observed keenly how the nature worked, the cute little kids who played with the water, were making the scenery more exquisite and the cloudy weather which warned them of bursting anytime had its own charm, they peacefully sat there closing their eyes, feeling each other's existence for one last time.
Ice-cream khaayegi...??"he asked looking at her, while she nodded her head like a kid.
He brought two ice-creams, and sat besides her again handing her one of them. And as he gave her the ice cream, she barged onto it like a hungry kid, and he giggled seeing her and seeing him giggle, she glared at him and pushed the ice-cream he had in his hand away, and it fell direct on the ground. He was astonished at first but later his lustful eyes fell on her ice-cream and he snatched it from her, and she tried really hard to get her ice-cream back from him and between these attempts, she never noticed when some of that ice-cream got on her cheek, and it only came into notice when he told her, she tried wiping it off but couldn't. He simply bent towards her and nibbled off the ice-cream from her cheek, sending down shivers through her body, and when he realized what he did he sat back looking down due to embarrassment and awkwardness, his love and desires were giving up the control slowly.
Wo...I am sorry..!"he mumbled looking down, while she was still in a complete bewilderedness.
He felt guilty for not being able to control himself, when he felt some weight on his shoulder, and found her leaning on his shoulder wrapping her hands around his hand and she had a smile plastered on her face. He smiled and tilted his head on the top of her head and securely wrapped his arm around her pulling her more into his embrace, thinking it to be their last moment. He wanted to enjoy this moment to the fullest as they were never going to meet again, they closed their eyes and yet again the silence between them spoke. Soon, the heavy, dark clouds burst out into small droplets of water making the moment lighter and they sat in the shade of that tree with just their feet drenching in the rain, and a few drops escaping and touching them and its coolness touching their souls. And soon as the rain halted, they went back home with several new desires and emotions within them.
Heyaa, hey are you feeling okay?
Heyaa, hey are you feeling okay?
I am going to pack my bags!"he said as they entered the house, breaking her within.
But however, she nodded her head and smiled, okay! I will be helping you with it!...you start doing it...I am coming..."she said which shattered him as he never expected her to be so cool about it, but however he managed to accept this fact too.
He went into the room while she walked dubiously into the kitchen making an excuse of some work. As he entered the room, he fell on the floor holding his head, crying out, as he never thought this separation to be so hard for him. Those tears didn't dare to stop; he had been so dominating on them all the while, but now the control was not with him. He tried to stop them, but the more he tried, the more he would lose his control.
The same was her situation, she was sitting by the lower kitchen cabinets crossing and hugging her legs, deep lost in the devastating future which was soon going to arrive. She was in no mood to talk to him as she would be broken after he's gone and nor she wants to come in between him and his dreams. She just sat there shattered within herself; no emotions could describe her state of being right now, though the tears had already flown out of her eyes. she didn't know how he would react if she tells him about her feelings, but she wished to just tell him whatever his reaction is. She just never wanted him to leave, but she would be coming between his dreams if she stops him, but her heart was saying something else, she just has to stop him.
Aani jaani, haan ye kahani, ho na jaaye
Kho na jaaun, main kahin tu, kho na jaaye
sang mere hongi, teri meri, meri teri yaadein
Khud se kar lunga, teri bas teri sau baatein
She walked into their room, and saw him near the window folding his hands and looking out and lost somewhere; she walked up to him slowly and placed her hand on his shoulder, and he turned towards her wiping his tears and faked a smile. His swollen and red eyes had told her that he had been crying. On seeing her ogling at him, he asked,
Aise kya ghoor rahi hain...?? Kuch bolna hain...!! Haan...aur agar help karne aayi hain to wo dekh chair me kapde rakhe hain...please fold karne me help karde..i am really tired.."he blabbered continuously trying to control himself. He walked up to the chair and took his shirt in his hand and started folding it, when she came from behind and hugged him tightly, and cried as she finally broke down. She kept saying,
Please kabirr...mujhe chod ke mat jaa...i can't live without you..."
Fursat jo mile khud se, tu apni khabar lena
Fursat jo mile khud se, kabhi kabhi ye keh dena
He turned towards him and cupped her face, making her look at him while she cried. And seeing her cry, he took her into a hug calming her; he stroked his hand against her back, while she hugged him tightly.
I love you kabir...i love you...don't leave me alone..."she said, while he broke the hug and looked at her. And he with utmost love fondled his thumb on her cheek and said,
Shh...stop crying...I won't leave you...ever...I love you too...!"
He bent towards her and placed a kiss on her forehead cupping her face, while she kept her hands on his hands, and closed her eyes.
You promise me?"she asked.
Yeahh...! Look at me...do you think I am lying?"he asked while she nodded her head negatively. She walked a little more towards him and stood up on his feet, elevating herself enough to reach up to his height and kissed him wrapping her hands around him, which became an utter shock for him though he reciprocated to it with all his love.
Heya, hey are you feeling okay?
Heya, hey are you feeling okay?
He started placing wet open mouthed kisses alongside her face and neck, making her stumble back. She blushed as he kept kissing her to the oblivion and a moment came when he stopped and looked at her as if asking for permission, she looked into his eyes in total confusion while he had an awkward smile on his face which made her understand what he meant. She just looked down and gripped his T-shirt more tightly while blushing, which meant a complete approval from her side.
Heya, hey are you feeling okay?
Heya, hey are you feeling okay?
he walked ahead, making her walk back and when she finally hit her back to the wall behind, he kept his hands on either side of her waist, while she cuddled more into him, he kept kissing her hungrily leaving no place left as his inner desires for her were arising out with a great force and energy. He had been striving a lot to get her love and this was their moment. He slowly picked her up and placed her on their bed, which no more had the pillow walls in between. He laid down beside her placing trails of kisses firmly on her body, and loving her till both of them were satisfied of each other. Only he knew how he had wished to love her and only she knew how she had yearned to be his, in his arms. With their wishes being fulfilled, their new life began all with love and care.
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Book Talk
Aami Daakini
