Part 3 (last)
So now its over and it didnt turn out to be what i thought as m sane mind is on vacation n m terrible at this time... may be u people have to wait for a long time before i update destined together or epilogue pf LBLD... sorry for doing this...
NISHAS POV
it's been a week since i have done that scandal of my life and so it's been a week since i have smiled or not cry. Its seems i have an ocean back in my tear glands which never dries up. Each time i think that i can't cry more... that very minute a new memory of his will came haunting me and my eyes would welled up. M tired... m so tired of all this.
"why are u torturing urself nisha... m here for u" his husky voice and his mint breath fanning on my neck sent shivers down my spine.
I spun on my heels to look at his divine face. "kabir... u here... how?" the same hoarse voice rang in my ears.
"tu yaad kare ur mai na aau... not possible... jaan" he leaned on the grill with that heart stopping smile.
"maine kab yaad kia" yes m stubborn...
"tu apni har saans m mjhe yaad karti h... maan chahe na maan" oh that smirk on his face and glint in his eyes... how can i not fall for him.
"i luv u nisha..." he whispered.
"kabir..." i stepped towards him but he was gone, vanished in thin air.
"nishu... tu fir yha kya kar rhi h... chal niche tjhe ek good news deni h" kirti was pulling me by my hand because as usual m here on the terrace crying my eyes out and snapped me out of my daze.
"kya h kirti... pareshan mat kar... bol kya bolna h..." i m in no mood to cheer myself up.
"offo... achha thik h... aaj vo aane wla h jiske khayalo m tu 1 hafte se khoi hui h..." her words echoed in the sunlit morning.
"matlab... k...kaun aane wala h" i can hear my heart racing and thudding loudly... may be kirti can hear it too.
"stop being dumb nishu... kabir ur uski family ur kaun..." she rolled her eyes at me.
"oh!" wow what a reply nisha...
"aaj shaam ko 6 bje... u better be ready... ur ha ab niche aaja... yha khadi rhegi to tan ho jaegi" dramatic she is but watever she left after that.
"kabir ne abhi tk apne gharwalo ko kuch btaya kyu nhi... phone p bhi mana kar sakta tha vo... par shayad vo bhi family pressure m hoga... shayad aaj mai use aakhri baar dekhu... kyuki aaj sab khatam ho jaega" a tear again made his way through my eyes followed by another stream of tears...
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KABIR'S POV
"kabir be ready aaj shaam ko hum gangwals k ghar jaa rhe ..." that was my mother and that was the news which has me in a complete dilemma.
from past one week... m tormenting myself for whatever has happened... and it dont make me feel any better... my heart is aching for her... to hear her melodious voice to experience her shaky touch... she gave my heartbeat a meaning that day and today.. i just had lost all of it m... m empty again... i can't do this anymore... i can't forget her like she didn't mean anything... she means my world to me and i know somewhere she feels it too...
i can't let go of her at least not without a fight.. i can't live without her... and i know she is torturing herself too... i know her too well... this is my last chance to get her back if not today then i know i won't be able to face her for my entire life. today my destiny will decide whether i will see her every morning or for the last time.
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NISHA'S POV
"nishu start getting ready... they will be coming any minute.." my mom is tickling like a bomb since morning
"chachi... m here na she will be ready on time" kirti beamed at her as she put i don't know what on my face.
"ok mom... pls go" now this is me a person u can say high on something... n i know on what m high... it is that charming man who held my life upside down.
"nishu... u r almost ready... kitni sunder lag rhi h... chal mai neeche ja rhi hu thodi der m tjhe lne aaungi.. ur pls rona mat... saara make up kharab karegi nhi to... aww m so happy for u" she hugged me and left like a chirpy bird.
kash mai bhi itni khush ho paati... why m so pathetic. Take a deep breath nisha... deep breath.
this is it... the time has come when i will again face that incredibly handsome man of my life, who had made me feel things i thought i won't feel ever. but what have i done to him, i broke his heart when he was there right in front of me confessing his feelings and i... i ruined every possibility of us being together.
n here i ' m sitting in front of this mirror getting ready to experience another rejection of my life. a deep sigh and i pick the kajal to put on and hide that puffiness due to all the crying. a look in mirror and i froze.
"kabir..." he is standing right behind me... how can he be here in my room... oh right m hallucinating again like last time... this boy is getting on my nerves now... i can feel anger surging through my veins... no m ready to blast off...
"why are u here again kabir... didn't have i asked u to not come to me... didn't have i told u i cant marry u kabir.. then why why on earth u r here again... i hate u kabir i hate u... i hate u to make me feel so wonderful in only those few hours... i hate u to make me feel beautiful with ur gaze i hate u for being so sweet to me... caring for me this much i... i hate u kabir i hate u for making me feel loved... feel wanted..." i screamed at his silhouette.
" m such an idiot kabir... m a fool no m a disaster m horrendous i punished u years back without any of ur mistake... because i... i was weak... insecure... i was at fault not u n now again... again after years m punishing u for no mistake of urs... tab bhi meri hi galti thi aaj bhi meri galti h... saza tab bhi tmhe hi mili ur shayad aaj bhi tumhe hi mil rhi h... m sorry kabir... m so sorry..." i looked up in his eyes with tear stained face, he was still there standing right behind me.
"tmhe pta h... itne saal mai yehi sochti rhi ki maine us din jo bhi kia vo sahi tha par nhi... mai galat thi... mjhe ese bhagna nhi chahie tha... mai tmhe pasand karti thi par iska matlab ye nhi ki tum bhi mjhe pasand karo... par mai seh nhi pae... ur shayad aaj bhi nhi seh paungi jab tum... tum mna kar doge is rishte k lie... mjhe pta h vo bhi meri hi wajah se hoga par.. par mai nhi kar paungi ye..." the mascara n eyeliner kirti has just put on my eyes are ruined and i don't care.
"u should hate me kabir... yes u should hate me... m worlds most pathetic person... u should give up on me... i don't worth it... m not worthy of u... pls do hate me... and... and move on... hate me pls... punish me... insult me... i deserve that but i don't deserve ur love... mai tmhari nafrat bardasht kar lungi par... mere lie tmhara pyaar tmhara tadapna bardasht nhi kar paungi..." m so exhausted... i feel like i will pass out any minute but i need to finish it...
"go away kabir...go away... leave me alone... do u hear me... leave me alone... i want to be alone... i want to be left alone... go away... i dont need u... i don't need anyone... just leave me alone..." i screamed on the top of my voice before it started darkening in front of my eyes and i can feel my tears still running down my cheeks... why m i such a cry baby... i thought that silhouette moved closer to me.
"don't leave me pls... just don't leave me... i can't live without u..i... love... u" that's it.. it's over... everything is dark and my every sense is closed. I feel so light... i think it's end of me and my not so happening life. Becoz if this is not then kirti is surely going to kill me for ruining her fav mascara n makeup. I will be dead anyways... n i must say m happy... but i should say this once more.. it sounds so good.. I LUV U KABIR...
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KABIR'S POV
"nisha..." i shouted when she trembled in that chair after her outburst but she didn't hear and was rambling over before she completely knock out. I quickly picked her up in my arms before she hit the floor and laid her on her bed. She looked so fragile and worn out, it seems she hasn't eaten for days. Her skin was so pale while her eyes swollen... i don't have words to describe the pain shooting in my nerves. "i luv u kabir" she mumbled against my chest. "i luv u too nisha..." i kissed her eyes softly and took a look at her face which was looking kinda funny due to all her split makeup. Had i called her before or pressured her some more... she won't be in such condition.. another of my grave mistake. "nisha..." i don't know if my croaked voice reached to her or not.
"what happened..." dolly and kirti... if m not wrong these are the names to the owner of those scared voices... who shoot up at us. "i think she is too weak therefore passed out.. i was just here to talk to her... but" i trailed off. "its ok... kirti call chachi" dolly sat by my angels side. "no need... she will be fine ur waise bhi sab pareshan ho jaenge... she will be ok..." kirti made her drink some water and i saw her fluttering her eyelashes. "i should be going n pls dont tell her i was here... she will freak out" i requested them and they nodded. I passed a last look at her as kirti wiped her face and started caking up her face again and left for where the elders were sitting.
"hate me pls..."
"i don't deserve u.."
"leave me alone..."
"i luv u kabir..."
"pls dont leave me"
"i can't live without u"
Her voice rang in my head like a broken record... again n again. She love me... she love me damn it... oh god... m sooo happy... i feel like embracing her close to my heart and kiss her senseless listening to these words again n again... this feels heavenly... it feels magical... oh god m short of phrases to describe such indescribable feeling.
"kabir... kabir" someone jerked me out of my happy daze. Oh bhaiya...
"hmmm" was my meek reply
"kha khoye hue h aap... yha sab aapse baat kar rhe h ur aap h ki pta nhi kaunsi dunia m h..." did i saw him smirking. yes i did, what's up with him.
His eyes flickered to stairs and i can feel her coming.
"ouch..." i let out a small unheard yelp as i turned my neck too quickly to look at my angel. She look beautiful in spite of that tired and worried look on her pretty face. oh man i luv her sooo much. This feeling is engulfing me and m happy with it.
She sat down in front of me, as my mother talked to her. She not even for once looked at me. I know she is still in her stupid guilt... why is she doing it. But i will take her out of that clumsy shell of hers and will shower my love on her in every possible way i can. I sound so cheesy but i don't care.
"kabir..." this time he shook me up. I think i zoned out again. He looked at me with are u ok wala look while i gave him a sheepish smile. "to kabir... btao bhai aakhir tumhara faisla kya h..." her dadaji asked.
Oh i think they already asked maa n bhai n waiting for my answer. My eyes flickered to that enchanting beauty sitting across me, she was fidgeting her fingers biting her lips... her eyes were pretty much closed i think. I know what she is thinking and i know what she want but won't say. "yes dadaji... it will be my honour to marry nisha and have her as my better half" i heard her audible gasp and smirked. She was looking at me with her eyes widen and in complete utter shock. I couldn't help but chuckle at her innocent face and winked at her. She blushed profusely and looked down. "nisha... tumhara kya khayal h" she looked at me with so many questions while i looked at her with a hope and i think she read my expression quite well. "yes from my side too" she whispered almost inaudibly but i can hear it too well. My happiness know no bounds today oh i will go crazy with such news... she just said yes... oh my god she is ready to be mine... i...
"kabir... stop zoning out and stop ogling at her" bhaiya hit the back of my head. But that can't stop me from grinning like a kid.
But there are lots of questions which should be answered both by me and her. "uh... umm... dadaji kya mai nisha se akele m baat kar sakta hu..." i looked at her strict dadaji with a pleading look. The 2 min of his silence was enough to give me a heart attack. "thik h kabir... jaisa tum chaho..." i grinned like a 5 yr old hearing it and nodded to move towards the terrace of this huge house passing the line of her cousins... i should make a list to remember their names.
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Nisha stepped on the stairs which leads to the terrace with her heart in her mouth. "what he wanted to talk..." was the only question she has right now. Her breathing was so uneven when she finally reached to the terrace and looked at the leaning figure of her life. He turned around sensing her presence and gave a breathtaking smile. His already heartwarming presence was making her mesmerised and the serene sunset was adding an extra effect to the magic. She walked towards him almost in a daze and stood right in front.
"nisha..." he placed his palm on her cheek rubbing her soft skin as she leaned for his warmth. A gush of cold wind made her come near to him as she stared into his hypnotising orbs. "mna kyu nhi kia kabir... ha kyu kh dia..." she asked still feeling his touch and amazed at herself for finding her voice. "kyuki tu esa chahti h..." he replied making some unknown pattern at her cheek bone. She furrowed her eyebrows as he chuckled at her. "mjhe nhi pta tha u daydream about me.." he whispered in a husky low tone, goosebumps arise on her skin. she looked at him confused while he gave her a knowing smirk. "matlab... matlab... tum" she gawked at him with wide eyes as reality dawned upon her. "ha matlab mai hi tha wha jab tu..." his expression changed from amused to painful. "esa kyu kia nisha... khud ko itni takleef kyu di... sach kyu nhi kha mjhse... kyu nhi bola ki..." his voice hitched as a whole new tornado of emotions arise in his throat and he cupped her face. "ki mai tjhse pyaar karti hu kabir..." she inched the distance between them which was painfully distant but dangerously close. her words make him smile wide "sach...?" he asked. "itna kuch sunne k baad bhi shaq h?" she giggled while kabir let out a sigh. "nhi... koi shaq nhi h bus khud ki kismat pe vishwas nhi hota... tne mjhe maaf kar dia?" he asked as she shook her head at him. "kabir jab teri galti hi nhi to maaf karne na karne ka kya matlab h... tune kuch galat to nhi kia tha... tu mjhe apna dost manta tha... mai hi bus samaj nhi payi ki mai tere lie teri dost thi par tu mere lie usse kuch jyada tha... jab ye samj aaya tab tere saamne aane ki himmat hi nhi hui ur mai kayro ki tarah wha se bhaag gyi... ek hafte pehle jab tu phir mere saamne aaya tab maine jana ki tu mere lie kya h... phir sab kuch itna jaldi hua... tne aake mjhse apne dil ki baat khi ur tab mjhe samaj aaya ki mai kitni galat thi... kitni chot pahochai maine tjhe... kitna guilt feel karaya jabki teri koi galti nhi thi... phir bhi tu mjhse maafi maang rha tha ur... ur mai khud ko itna chhota mehsus kar rhi thi... tune kbhi meri galti nhi dekhi bus... bus mjhse pyaar kia bina shart ka pyaar bina mjhe dekhe mjhe jane bus pyaar kiya... par mai chah k bhi ha nhi keh payi... my soul didnt let me say yes... because i know i dont deserve u or ur love. I m not worthy n i know it... thats why i told u to let go of me kabir... to give up on me... u should have listened to me... u should.." her words stuck in her throat as his breath fanned at her lips."shhh... kitna bolti h nisha... kisne kha tu mere layak nhi... tere jaisa mere lie koi nhi h... samjhi" he whispered in his raw raspy voice leaving her for wanting more of it. "hmmm..." was her meek reply. "i luv u nisha" his lips brushed to hers lightly leaving hers to tingle more. "say it.."he demanded moving more close. "i luv u kabir" the movement of her lips caused them to brush again.
"kabir..." now she inched closer to him leaving an unimaginable, torturously less distance between them. Her desires clouding her senses betraying the sanity. He was creating a havoc in her senses shooting the fireworks already.
"shhh... nisha... u know what u doing... dont say anything... u dont want ur cousins to hear us, when u will moan my name loud... do u?" his voice was making her go weak on her knees and made her breath hitched with passion and excitement but that didnt stopped her from moving close, their eyes lock in an intense gaze that held her from so long. "nisha stop..." he whispered planting his lips on her forehead desperately and shut his eyes tightly "go... otherwise we will be very late" his lips moved on her forehead and she giggled but nodded and turned to walk back.
Tenu itna main pyaar karaan
Ek pal vich sau baar karaan
Tu jaave je mainu chhad ke
Maut da intezaar karaan
She reached the door while kabir turned towards the other side watching the stars and thanking them for giving nisha to him.
Ke tere liye duniya chhod di hai
Tujhpe hi saans aake ruke
Main tujhko kitna chahti hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
He was busy in his thanksgiving when nisha came running and back hugged him taking him by surprise. "i luv u kabir... more than u can ever imagine" she tighten her grip on him while he held her hands from front.
Kuch bhi nahi hai ye jahaan
Tu hai toh hai isme zindagi
Ab mujhko jaana hai kahaan
Ke tu hi safar hai aakhiri
"n i luv u more than i can ever imagine" he whispered back and turned clasping her hand in his.
Ke tere bina jeena mumkin nahin
Na dena kabhi mujhko tu faasley
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
"let's go..." they returned to the corridor when her cousins took her away but her eyes were on him all the time never leaving the loving daze.
Aankhon ki hai yeh khwahishein
Ki chehre se teri na hatein
Neendon mein meri bas tere
Khwabon ne li hai karwatein
Kabir gave her an eager smile and mouthed a come soon to her. She blushed and nodded before disappearing in one of the rooms.
Ki teri ore mujhko leke chalein
Ye duniya bhar ke sab raaste
Main tujhko kitna chahti hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
Nisha looked at kabir who was sitting with elders thinking how after all her attempts she still is going to end up with him and shook her head as he asked her why she is smiling so much.
Tere liye duniya chhod di hai
Tujhpe hi saans aake ruke
Main tujhe kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
kabir and nisha never broke their eye contact as they exchanged the white gold bands marking each other as theirs. Elders showered them with the blessings while cousins congratulated them. As the others became busy in talking, kabir took the oppurtunity and kissed the band on her ring finger and then her cheek taking her by surprise.
"ur mine..." he whispered.
"all urs..." she replied.
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2 MONTHS LATER
"nisha wake up..." she smiled in her sleep hearing his mrng sexy voice but turned to other side pulling the comforter over her head. He chuckled at his cute wifeys adorable antics and pulled the comforter down. "wake up sleeping princess..." he whispered again but this time she closed his mouth with her palm. "nhi uthna..." she whined like a 4 yr old girl making kabir go awe over her.
"utho..."
"nhi..."
"nisha.."
"kabir..."
Kabir rolled his eyes at her and licked her palm which was still on his mouth with his tongue. "yuck... kabirrr..." she shouted and hit him on his chest still lying with eyes closed. "nisha... last time ha... uth ja nhi to..." he warned her with an evil smirk. "nhi uthungi... jo karna h kar" she mumbled and turned again. Kabir eyed his wifey and rushed somewhere. Nisha opened an eye and looked for him but he was gone so she again slept with a cute smile on her face.
She was still asleep when she felt moved but didnt mind as he engulfed her in his warmth and she snuggled closer to his chest. Kabir placed a feathery kiss at her forehead and carried her in his arms. She was making herself comfortable when he left her in mid air and she landed straight in luked warm water. "what the hell kabir" she screamed with her eyes wide open and found herself in the big bathtub of their honeymoon suite and looked at kabir who was laughing rolling on the bathroom floor. "kabir k bachhe... stupid idiot duffer ullu..." she started throwing things at him and when nothing left she started splattering water on him. Kabir stood up with great dificulty and stumbled inside it on her still laughing. "u moron... u r laughing after destroying my sleep... i will kill u" she started beating him up when he grasped her tiny hands in his large ones. "tune hi to kha tha jo man m aaye kar... to ab kyu gussa ho rhi h..." he pouted. She looked at that irresisteble pout and her anger flew away but then averted her gaze pretending to be still angry. "nisha..." he whined again and make her look into his eyes "sorry wifey" he did that pouting stunt again knowing she cant resist it. She chuckled and kissed his lips softly for a nanosec. "fine... but next time u did something like this... i will kill u" she warned. "ok promise... but what now" he asked with a sly smile on his pretty handsome face. "go out and let me bath..." she said suspecting his intentions. "but i also have to bath..." he said innocently. "so what..." she asked eyeing him. He grinned evily closing the distance between their drenched features pushing her inside the bathtub as his hands supported her neck out of the water "lets save water..." he winked and captured her lips in a hungry kiss and nisha knew where they are heading to as she smiled against his lips and gave up. "greedy hubby..." she whispered as he moved to her neck nibbing all over. "u dont have any idea about it..." he replied before attacking her again making her giggle and sigh in satisfaction at the same time.
Love is the desire to be loved and being loved is nothing less then a blessing but being loved back by the person u love is a miracle. Finding ur love and keeping it with u is the most easiest and the hardest thing in the world.
Anupamaa
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
