A video presenting the love hexagon
Vaalo Jodi baaso sokhi ki dibo go aar
If you love me, o my dear, what can I give you?
Kobiro ridayo ei dibo upohaar
I can only give you my heart as gift!
Eto vaalobasa sokhi kon ride balo dekhi
O dear! So much love can be found nowhere else
Kon ride fute eto vaabero kusumohaar
So beautiful flowers of love blossom in your heart only!
Tahole e ridi dhaame
OK, my dear, then within my heart
tomari tomari name
with your name only
Baajibe madhuro sare maromo binaro taar
A sweet tune will be played forever!
Jaa kichhu gaahibo gaan dhonibe tomari naam
Whatever I will do in my life, only you will be there with me!
Ki ache kobiro balo ki tomare dibo aar
What else do I have to give you? Please accept my love only!
Panchali's love letters to Pandavas:
The Dharma yuddha has been finished. Dharmaraja Yudhishthira was crowned as the Emperor again. Lord Krishna Himself was present at his coronation ceremony & also participated in the ritual by pouring water on Yudhishthira's head from His famous conch Panchajanya. Now it is the time for establishment of the kingdom of Dharma once again! Everybody was happy to see Dharmaraja on the throne of Hastinapur.
But on the next day of coronation, Krishna found Draupadi alone, seating in her room with a gloomy face. She was lost in deep thoughts. Krishna entered & called, "Sakhi Krishnaa! What happened to you? Are you not happy even after being the Empress?"
Draupadi looked at Krishna, sighed, "Happy! How can I be happy, Govinda! My five sense organs are totally unhappy! Did you not notice yesterday how sad their faces were even during the festive mood of coronation? The celebration done by common people could not touch them! There was no single sign of pleasure on their faces! Will anybody believe after looking at them that they have won the war & got the kingdom finally?"
Krishna: Hmm, serious problem indeed! But sakhi, you should understand their condition too! Definately they have won but they had to go through many sacrifices which cannot be forgotten so easily. Give them some time, they will become normal again.
Draupadi: No Govinda! I can't see them in this painful condition! Yes I know they have lost almost all dear ones in this war but they still have you with them as the best friend as well as well-wisher! Have they forgotten that it's their duty to establish the kingdom of Dharma again? Have they forgotten that your aim has not been fulfilled yet? You wanted their victory & helped them to win, but why Govinda? It was certainly not for your love for us but for regaining of Dharma, isn't it? Now if your beloved Pandavas always live within this personal sadness then how will they perform their duty? How will Dharma then, rule the Aryavarta?
Krishna: Yes sakhi, you are right! You must do something to make them normal again!
Draupadi stood up, said eagerly, "I was thinking the same, Govinda! But could not come into a conclusion. I need your help regarding this!"
Krishna: I have an idea! They love you very much! You are even dearer to them than themselves! If you can arrange something special for them, that can reduce their extreme pain & make them normal.
Draupadi [Thinking]: Something special for them? But Govinda, what should I arrange?
Krishna [With a naughty smile]: I don't know, sakhi, it's your duty to them, & only you have to do this. I will not help you! You know your lords very well. You know exactly what will give them maximum pleasure. I just gave you the idea. Now it's up to you.
Krishna left. Draupadi thought the whole day, & finally got a solution.
On the next morning, the Pandavas found one letter each in their respective rooms, addressed to each of them, attached with beautiful blue lotuses. They became very much surprised & opened them. Those letters were written by their beloved Panchali only.
My respected Dharmaraja,
May this letter make you smile after more than thirteen years! I want to see that kind & loving smile on your lips, which has been lost from the very day of first dice game! Now the war is also over, so that chapter should also be closed now. Why will that memory come again as such a barrier between us? Please, my lord, don't keep such a distance from me out of guilt! Bring your injured heart near me & let me wash all of your deep wounds with my love!
Do you think that I am still angry with you? No, my lord, no! I am not so heartless not to realize your silent pain! Let me say that I have forgiven you completely! O incarnation of forgiveness! If I can't forgive you then I can never claim myself as your soul mate! Now it's your turn to forgive yourself! Please bring my loving & caring husband back! I miss him!
You don't know how much I respect you from the very day of our marriage! My Govinda assured me that all of you would keep me very happy always, but I was still under a tension about my future married life. It was your very first sentence to me which made me relived! You took an oath that you will remain surrendered to me forever! After hearing this, I looked up & found your eyes, those eyes by staring at which anybody will feel soothed, so merciful, and so affectionate they were! Then I could feel that I was very lucky indeed to get you as my lord!
You are Dharma personified, Govinda already had told me. Very soon I got attracted by your unfathomable knowledge of Dharma, & I started to respect you from the core! I became proud of you! You have enlightened me several times by your ardent knowledge of Dharma, to tell the truth, my lord, I learned the proper definition of Dharma from you only! Govinda is my God, & you are my Guru! You showed me the right path of Dharma which finally leads to my Govinda only!
You too, treated me as your disciple. You loved me as husband but cared me like a Guru. Whenever I failed to understand any theory of Dharma, or started to argue with you, you never got impatient or irritated. Then you smiled so affectionately such as I was a little child so it was very natural for me not to understand so much Spiritual discussions! With more care you tried again to convince me! Do you remember, in most of the cases I got fed up with your most favorite Kshamaa Dharma? I could not agree with you that forgiveness is the power. I was always very rigid to my own concept that a true kshatriya must possess anger & wrath which I never found within you. You did never become angry with me even after such arguments. You smiled gently & said in a calm voice, "Panchali, forgiveness is my power! It is the best weapon I ever know! Please don't make me weaponless!" Then I had nothing to do other than looking down & losing my words in front of such a personality! Then you appeared to me as the forgiveness personified!
Your love for me is more like affection. Whenever I felt depressed you used to take my hands on your palm, & uttered very tenderly, "Panchali, what happened?" I looked at your eyes & forgot all sorrow at once! Once Govinda told me that even a single touch of Dharma can remove all impurities from human mind! Is it the reason, Dharmaraja, for which I always feel so pure in your presence?
I don't know whether I could be able to become a proper Dharmapatni of Dharmaraja! But you often told me that I am the inspirational power behind your Dharma! My lord! You never lie! So if I am really the power behind your Dharma, then it's too your credit only! It's your pure love for me which helped me to become your perfect soul mate!
My beloved Emperor! Don't feel guilty by hurting comments of common people who blame you for this fatal war! They can only criticize & mark you as a gambler but they have no ability to understand your Dharma! You are far beyond their understanding capability! Moreover, who else can know you more than me? The whole world may blame you but none except your Panchali will understand your heart! O purity personified! My humble salutations to you!
-The Empress of your heart
Panchali
My dear Vrikodara,
I know that only the very sight of my handwriting is enough to give you Heavenly pleasure! I can imagine the loving smile on your lips just after seeing the first word written by me! Blessed I am to get such a loving husband like you! For you, your Panchali is on one side, & the rest of this world on the other!
As Dharmaraja places his Dharma, as Gaandivdhaari places his Gaandiva, you place me above all! You love me only for love's sake, seeking nothing in return from my side! Your love is complete in itself! Throughout the whole life you only gave me, & I took everything without giving anything in return! What else could I give you other than my heart, lord? But my heart too, is very small compared with yours! Still, let me write my heart out today, however small it is!
You always protected me under your loving shelter. I am not a good cook. During our golden days in Indraprastha, you often used to enter into the kitchen just to help me in cooking! Others did not know this, & used to consider me as a great cook! I felt uneasy & wanted to tell them that it was your credit only. But you always stopped me by giving indication through your eyes not to open my lips so that everybody can praise me! Thus you left no option for me other than being overwhelmed with your love!
Also during exile, you always performed almost all household works to give me some relief. Whenever I tried to protest by claiming them as my duties as a wife, you just replied, "Is it not a husband's duty to reduce the burden of his wife? Panchali, my queen, you are too delicate to perform these household works! I can never see you working so hard!" Then I bowed down to you, being defeated by your love! O my unconquerable warrior! You have won Panchali!
I can still remember the day after Keechaka vadh when I went to the kitchen of King Virata's palace to thank you for saving me. When I said, "My heartfelt thanks to my Gandharva lord who killed Keechaka", you stopped me & said, "Sairandhri, the pleasure in your eyes is more than enough for your Gandharva lord, no need to express thanks by words!" all servants present there became surprised & looked at you, I was feeling very shy to see their expressions but you cared nothing around you! How could you pay attention to others when I was present in front of you? I know, my lord, only my presence is enough to make everything else vanished from your eyesight, as you always say, "Panchali, you are the most precious person of my life!" Only I don't know, lord, whether I really deserve so much selfless love & care from you!
What have you not done for me! You have even attempted to cross Dharmaraja, who is not only your father-like eldest brother but also your Guru, only for my sake! On that fateful day all of your brothers were busy to protect their respective Dharmas but you, my beloved Gadadhaari, only you remembered your Pati Dharma, your duty as a husband! By taking those oaths you saved me! If you did not take those oaths then I'm sure my humiliation went even further worse! I believe that my Govinda appeared there even much before I call Him. He arrived within you when you protested by breaking the silence of that hall!
My beloved prince! Did you feel surprised to see my tears that day on which you killed Dushshashan & washed my hair with his blood? No, I did not weep for him; I can never be so merciful to that evil person! My tears were only for you! After this, most of people may mark you as the cruelest & most unkind Pandava, they may call you heartless, and they may treat you as a man-eater rakshasha! But you did not care for these things, only to fulfill the oath taken for me! Everybody see only your external hardness but none will understand how soft your inner heart is! I know this, so I could see only your love even in that utter violence! You had to perform such a violent act only to give justice to me!
After my God, my Govinda, you are the only person on whom I can depend the maximum! I have heard from Govinda about my past birth, now I can realize that I was seriously very firm in my penance otherwise I could not get you as my lord! May Govinda bless every woman of this earth with a husband like you! O love personified! My earnest salutations to you!
-Your beloved
Panchali
My beloved Dhananjaya,
If my dear sister Subhadra is around you & you are busy in talking with her then just fold & keep this letter aside! After all, the beloved sister of Govinda is the first preference for you!
Please don't be embarrassed or angry with me, my lord, I was just kidding you! I know very well that none but I am your first love, o greatest archer of Aryavarta! None can snatch this glory from me, not even your favorite Gaandiva. I had entered into your life much before it!
You love me from the core but you can never express it publicly. Well, you need not to do so; I can always realize the silent emotions of your heart from every single blink of your eyes! You know what, my lord, where words are not sufficient, eyes speak volumes! Sometimes feelings become too unfathomable to be expressed through words but eyes can say that heart is full! Throughout the whole life, whenever you gave your opinion, or took any new step, you did not utter a single word for me but never forgot to give me a loving eye lock always which used to ask, "Are you happy with this, Krishnaa?" I too, replied through my eyes only, & you never failed to understand my wordless replies.
My beloved Gaandivdhaari! Do you remember how many times have I tried to learn archery from you during our Indraprastha days? When I first expressed my desire to learn it, you became surprised. "Why archery, Krishnaa?" you asked, as I never showed any interest to learn singing or dancing from you! I replied, "To become the perfect soul mate of the greatest archer, nothing else!" Being very happy with my answer you smiled lovingly! With great care you tried to teach me, but I failed always! It needs full concentration & that was my most serious problem! Whenever you are with me, I can concentrate on nothing but your beautiful face! So how could I learn archery? My dream to become an archer went in vain. Gradually I understood that my presence was nothing but a disturbance in your practice as you too, could not concentrate on the target when I was with you! Then I left the effort entirely.
My Govinda is the knower of everyone's heart! Only He knows that I love you the most! In my swayamvar, you did not only hit the eye of fish, but also hit arrow of God of love to my heart! Through you were in disguise of a Brahmin, my sixth sense was telling me again & again that you are the same warrior about whose valor & politeness I learned so much from my father & my Govinda! At that first sight, I offered my heart to you! How happy I was when you won the contest! Did you notice the sign of extreme pleasure on my face, lord?
From that very day you took a special place in my heart! My love & care is equal to all of you, but let me confess today that you always have a unique place in my world where none of your brothers can enter! I love all of you, that is my Patni Dharma, but I can't resist myself from offering you the most romantic portion of my heart---& that is my passion for you! You know, my lord, passion forgets every rule of Dharma! My Govinda may mark this as my moha', my attachment, but I have to reply helplessly, "Yes, I am attached to my Dhananjaya!" Perhaps I will not be able to enter Heaven for this attachment, but lord, is the pleasure of Heaven even greater than the pleasure of loving you? No, certainly not! If I get chance to love you then I don't want Heaven! If I get chance to be your wife in each of my next births then I don't want salvation!
Moreover, why will Govinda call this feeling moha'? He Himself loves you the most among all Pandavas! My beloved God, my Savior Govinda Himself always mentions you as His eternal friend Nara'. Whenever He talks about you, never forgets to say, "Whoever loves Arjuna loves me too indeed, as we are inseparable!" If Lord Narayana Himself can't stop loving you the most, then how can I, a simple woman of flesh & blood, a mere devotee of Lord Krishna, resist myself from doing the same?
Getting this letter wet with my tears, please don't think that I am sad! I could not control my emotions while expressing my heart out to you! These are my tears of joy; these are the drops of the nectar of love which is specially kept inside my heart only for you! O greatness personified! Please accept this love & my earnest salutations at your feet!
-Yours ever
Krishnaa
My sweet Nakula,
I am sure that you are in front of a mirror now as usual! But you have to turn your face from it to read this letter; it's the order of the Empress! Also, however & whatever you try to increase your beauty by standing for hours in front of mirror, you will never be able to beat me!
It is very hard for me to be serious while talking to you, my lord, as we always use to remain in playful & joyous mood, aren't we? We never even get tried teasing each other about our looks! Our argument often covers many different matters including your horses but we almost start quarreling on our most important topic that who is more beautiful, you or me! But almost always it's you who give up first! Suddenly you become very serious & keep your eyes fixed on mine! Before I understand the reason of your sudden silence you say lovingly, "Panchali, your eyes are the best mirrors I have ever seen! I can see my best reflection in them!" These sweet words always make me blush but I can never look down as you will lose your mirrors then! Thus our naughty & friendly quarrel turns into a totally silent loving eye lock!
My charming horseman! Whenever you ride on a horse with the open sword in your hand, I can find the prince of my dream in you! There was a time in our Indraprastha when I wanted to ride on horses. You became very happy to know this & tried to teach me how to ride on a horse. I learned it very soon but used to pretend that I would not be able to ride on horse without your help! You became afraid to see this & used to catch me before I fall. Then with your support finally I rode on horse! Can those sweet memories be ever forgotten?
Do you remember how much interested I was to learn sword-fighting from you? Among all the weapons used by all of you I liked sword the most! I could not try with spear or mace, they were nor for me at all. I failed to concentrate in archery. But yes, I could learn the use of sword, & became able to use it nicely. This credit entirely goes to you only! I still remember that during our Indraprastha days we used o practice sword-fighting together. But I had to leave it, as I gradually found that my presence was always a disturbance for your practice. You were more careful to protect me even from a single wound rather than your own work!
Your love is always covered by your extreme sweetness, & carries the fragrance of your everlasting funny mood. That pure love of you, washed with innocent laughter, has the ability to remove all of my pains. You did not stop joking & laughing even during our unhappy exile as you knew that will be medicine for my pain. You are not only my husband but also my dear friend who can make me laugh at my sad moments when I even don't want to smile!
Well, before going back to the mirror, please listen to my final statement! You claim yourself as the most beautiful person of Aryavarta, & according to you I can carry your image within both of my eyes, right? So there is no doubt that I am more beautiful than you as my small eyes are enough to contain your entire beauty! Now there is no further chance left for you to win this beauty-battle, OK?
Jokes apart, o beauty personified! My earnest salutations to you!
-Your beauty queen
Panchali
My dear Sahadeva,
Certainly you knew much before that I am going to send a letter to you, as you have the gift of prophecy! So it is not a surprise for you at all. Still I want a sweet smile on your lips after getting this!
Though you remain very silent always in fear of exposing of your any knowledge about future, you could never suppress your love & care for me! I always found you very happy before any good & special event of my life. Whenever you came to know that something excellent was going to occur in my life, you became so pleased that all the expressions of your eyes started to narrate the extreme happiness of your heart! Without uttering a single word you made me aware of the future.
I can remember that even before the first dice game you tried to make me aware of the upcoming danger. I found serious worry & fear in your eyes much before the invitation came to us. I knew that it was not a good signal for our family but could not understand exactly what kind of danger could occur with us. Now I can realize, my lord, what a pain you had to suffer those days! You knew everything but could not express! Is this power of prophecy a boon to you, or a curse?
But your prophecy saved me from the hands of Jayadrath. You gave its indication to your brothers & made my rescue possible. Let's count our blessings today, not only the troubles we faced. Even by expressing everything much before you could never change the destiny! None can change the wish of God! So please stop feeling guilty for not telling us the future of dice hall.
Your silent love always overwhelms me! Mainly for you I had nothing to do during our exile. You did almost everything as a servant only to keep me comfortable like a queen always! You performed all hard work without uttering a single word, but never allowed me to help you!
I can never forget the day on which my Govinda was going to Hastinapur as the messenger of peace. On that day, all of your brothers agreed for peace but only you wanted war! Normally you talk very rarely, but on that day there was the totally opposite picture where all of your brothers were helplessly silent & you only spoke! You told Govinda, "Brother Vaasudeva, whatever the kauravas have done with Panchali is unforgivable sin! The extreme anguish suffered by her can only be pacified by Duryodhana's death; there is no other way to get justice! Even if none of my brothers want to fight this war then I will fight alone! I have no fear. Panchali will be my inspiring power! I will certainly win, brother Vaasudeva, if you bless me & Panchali gives me her best wishes!"
My dear prince! I became so much overwhelmed with these words that I could not resist my tears of joy! When all Pandavas were thinking about the extreme violence of the blood-shedding war, it was you, only you, who thought for your Panchali! You were ready to fight alone against the large kaurava army only to take revenge of my humiliation! I am seriously in debt of your silent but selfless love, my lord!
Despite of being a stupid woman I feel really blessed when you, the most intelligent & wise person of Aryavarta, treat me as the power of your wisdom! O intelligence personified! My earnest salutations to you!
-Your beloved
Panchali
Credit:Urmila
Shiv Shakti
