First of all, welcome @Jenny to this thread... I hope that you'll enjoy reading the fantastic posts as much as I did, when I first joined this thread...It is such a great place for people like us, to discuss our thoughts and express our views... I have participated and witnessed in so many amazing conversations/discussions...
It is a pity that due to the summer break coming to an end, most of the members have stepped away from this thread to take care of their families... I hope that I will be able to read their analyses soon...
And, for the hundredth time, the credit of the success of this thread goes to its moderators, @DQ and @Sam and the amazing contributors and writers of this thread...
Like some others, while I continue to be a regular visitor to this thread, I feel that my days of writing analyses has more or less come to an end...
Due to some unfortunate incidents in the past couple of weeks, I no longer feel comfortable expressing myself... In some ways, I feel guilty for possibly being one of the factors for the thread to lose some of its most brilliant writers, like @Shaavi...
This post was supposed to be more of an one liner post where I just want to tell everyone that I enjoyed today's episode and I am definitely going to download it, so that I can watch it again...
As well as welcome @Jenny to this thread... But, like I said earlier, I don't have the control of the words or the direction that my posts will end up taking...
Since, my post (probably in Week 22/23) where I had used words like "hollow" and "meaningless" and the ensuing upheaval and how my rash behaviour where my anger got the better of me...
I feel that my actions might have been one of the reasons why some members no longer wish to remain part of this thread... And, probably, this is why I no longer had any kind of desire to post anything on this thread...
I feel that my words have hurt the feelings of some of the thread's most amazing writers and I feel so guilty for my actions...
Probably, I am over-thinking it but I don't know the timing of my post with @Shaavi's going on a hiatus and then, the subsequent lack of activity on this thread just doesn't make me sit comfortably...
There was a time when my each moment was used to be spent reading or thinking about the scintillating posts of this thread but now whenever, I come to this thread and see literally no such post (barring a few, here and there), I feel like I am walking in a barren desert...
There was a time when the writers of this thread made my love for the characters of this show even deeper and look at the story with new, refreshed and optimistic eyes...
In one of my earliest posts on this thread, I told everyone that I watch this show because of two reasons:
1. The journey of Dev and Sonakshi
2. The moments that the show is able to create that just leaves me spellbound
And, while I have been mostly enjoying the episodes that have been aired on this show, since Devakshi's reunion, the slight disappointment and the lack of excitement on this thread makes me feel awkward and conscious of my thoughts...
There have been a couple of instances where I had started a post, with an intention to express my delight or my interpretation of a certain moment or conversation or try to present a sort of... a character sketch...
But, then, after reading some of the posts, I begin to doubt myself and end up deleting the post...
In the good, old days, I used to write whatever comes to my mind, because I used to feel that my views, no matter how different, would be accepted... But, now after the aforementioned fiasco, a sense of uncertainty has enveloped me...
I had posted some more posts in the previous week's thread (Week 24) but I don't know, I always have this feeling that something is amiss... I always used to get so excited when someone used to write anything in relation with my post (whether good or bad), but now, I don't know what I feel or the dread that fills my heart when I post anything...
Unlike most of you, I am just a guy of 22 years... I have never been any kind of relationships... Before this show, I have neither participated in any kind of forums nor was such an avid fan/viewer of an Indian daily soap...
Most of my views are based on my experiences (which is fairly limited) and my observations from watching other married couples (like my parents or other family members) or reading/listening to books/articles/people...
Unlike others, neither I feel disappointed after watching the lack of physical intimacy with respect to Devakshi nor I find Dev's or Sona's behaviour to be uncharacteristic...
While I admit, I do find Dev's apologies to be a little bit odd, but I can still relate to him and unlike, some others, I don't cringe when he says 'sorry' to someone... I neither find him to be 'weak' nor I find him to be a 'puppet' in the hands of anyone..
I don't find Sona's love for Dev to be 'fake' or 'just a facade' nor I find her 'manipulative' or 'cold' towards Dev... She might not seek forgiveness through her words (like Dev) but I still feel how she is trying to apologise to Dev through her actions...
Yes.. Both of them have some defects in their character... But, I feel that this is what makes them so special... Somehow, I feel that it is their defects that makes them perfect for each other... I absolutely love how both of them combine their strengths and weaknesses to become better as individuals and as partners...
I absolutely adore them and I am absolutely loving how they are coming together as one... I have waited so long for Dev and Sona to become 'Devakshi'... That now, when my wish has, more or less, come true... I simply want to enjoy seeing them...
So, in the end... I would like to apologise to everyone whom I have hurt with my words or actions... And, I thank you for welcoming me and making me feel so comfortable on this thread...
-Suyash.
Edited by Harryfan011 - 8 years ago
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