It has been about one month now. Or 30 days. Or 720 hours. Or 43200 minutes. Or 2592000 seconds. . Plus one now. Okay, This sounds better.
These large numbers made Sonakshi feel so much more stronger, that she managed to sail through such a big set of numbers, without Dev.
That day, he just came to her house at 1 AM. She thought it was yet another chapter of her midnight love story. . He had other plans.
He declared how he would give up the world for his mother, and before she could register what he was trying to say, Dev declared he is giving up on his love, their love.
Sonakshi could never imagine herself actually bearing all this pain. She thought she would die the very next day. But, she was doing okay now.
Quite well actually. All thanks to her family.
Had a job in the prestigious office of Mr. Khurana, as the official nutritionist of their company.
Except the regular or untimed events where she burst into tears, everything was under control.
While she was lost in how she was having everything in control. . The lift opened. . And He came in, clad in his boring blue-gray suit.
It was a lie, Not everything. . It was everything but Dev.
He walked in. . into the lift. Sharp at 7.13 pm.
Sonakshi cursed her fate yet again under her lips and could not help but give a sideways glance at him. She moved towards the extreme corner of the lift, as if he was going to burn her with his touch.
This has been her routine for the past 10 days now.
He comes into the lift, they share a sideway glance at each other. . But their eyes never meeting, and without saying a word they move out from the lift, As if they don't even exist for each other. The reality was that the world around them held no importance when they were together. They were good at faking the I-dont-care look.
But She knew, it was no coincidence that he had some 'work' daily in the same building where her office was. And it was no coincidence that he always entered the lift when she was there. .whether she was going up, in the office or coming down.
A matter of seconds or a minute, maybe. Yet they knew this minute overwhelmed them both so much that their hearts could explode any moment.
Anger, disappointment, craving, Love. . Filled her heart. .
While his heart beat with guilt, self-loath but predominantly Love.
Still, they never spoke a word.
Sonakshi wanted Dev to speak first while he could not break the promise he made to his mother. But, more importantly He didn't know what to say.
How was he supposed to talk to the only woman he loved all his life and apologize for making her go through hell? For destroying her fairy-tale? He could not put her in status quo situation just because his mother had problems with his happiness.
"This man has the audacity to walk in every day like he never loved me with all his heart. . Yet he times each and every visit of his in a way that we get to see each other every day. . " Sonakshi thought.
He takes a sideways step closer to her. . She moves away one step. Sonakshi could see the tear drop forming at the sides of eyes.
He still had the calm expressionless look on his face but his eyes said it all. They looked red and tired.
Sona just wanted to hug him tightly, to tell him that no matter what, she still loved him. Nothing will change that.
But she successfully held herself back. She could not do this. Dev needed to realise that he can't always please everyone. And though Sonakshi never wanted to compete with his relationships. . He owes her some respect too. She wanted to be a priority in his life too. Is that too much to ask for? To love and be loved?
Dev stood there, his mind and heart going in all the different directions. Had it been his heart taking the decisions of his mind, he would have pulled Sonakshi to himself then and there. . And crashed himself to her. Hugged her tightly and never let go. Cry his heart out infront of her, Not holding the tears welling up in his eyes, Be sorry for what he did, Promise protecting her from all evils. . Even if it was his own mom's insecurities. It was his heart that made him stalk her even now, he knew where she was every second of the day. He could not see her but he was assured that He is there to take care of her from a distance.
But alas! It was not his heart but his mind which was taking the decisions of his heart.
The lift opened again. . And yet another day where he just walked out without saying anything. Sonakshi followed just as blank-faced as him.
Another untitled page in their book of love.
Shiv Shakti
