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hey. writing this with a stuffed nose. i wanted to snarl and growl. but this episode was so phull of those peyes and heyes making all kinds of ooohs and tears at each other. 😍 *sigh* so much for snarling; i think i was doing a pretty credible purr by the end of the show... 🤣 and after three days sleeping with cats -- i know exactly what that means now! 🤣
* photography thing: the scene that starts with heer sitting up in bed in the dar, fading into heer sitting up in bed in the light; chahat turning in her sleep -- that scene was sweetly shot!
actually, there were lots of cute new things they tried in this show. i loved the way they moved from heer to prem and back again during that prem-sleeping-on-the-porch-with-heer-watching-him scene. or the way they used reflectors from below to light up prem's face in one of the beautiful prem-sequences. another thing was -- in the latter part of the show -- the way the camera started on heer's face as she was talking, with her back to prem and the camera moved around her to focus on prem's face to get his reactions to what she was saying. all nice-nice experiments they did with pretty-pretty effects.
so i'll not whine too much about the fake-lightning they used in the show... *grrrrr!*
* background score thing: omg! the entire first segment's background score was ... terrific!!! no, seriously! one of the two things that this show has always irritated me on was too-often hysterical background (bg) scores. man, was the bg-score on this episode totally terrific! from the heer-in-bed scene (with music?) upto the taxi in the rain when heer walks upto prem (in music-silence, with the sound of rain and winds only! bliss!!)
i think they may have messed up in turn on the actor's dialogue audio -- sometimes both hc/ag's voices sounded oddly unlike themselves and flat-ish. but the bg score... oooh. 😍
loved it, loved it, loved it. if that was an experiment -- please continue. puhleeeeaaasse! 😍
* heer thing: 'kay, is it my imagination or does heer look like she was born to be wearing those saris?! gosh, she looks awesome in them! i'm a girl and i noticed the lissome curves of her waist and the beauty of her shoulders. seriously! she makes me wanna try 'em... *sigh -- and no, i'm not gonna explain that sigh.. 😆*
* little thing: poor jeep getting drenched in the rain... 😆
* little thing: heer obsessing 'bout prem wet and sneezing on the porch of her old home. what an odd thing to do! i mean, can you ever imagine stressing 'bout such a thing?? not me! never!
😆
btw, heer's boss looking all concerned at heer being preoccupied -- is that ''jasmeet aunty'' in whose outhouse they're staying?
* prem thing: prem wet and soggy and so tired that he's asleep against the wall -- no wonder heer couldn't do anything but ask him to come in. 😍
* hc-as-prem thing: the entire sequence of his waking, catching sight of heer, sitting stunned for a moment before scrambling to his feet, standing almost at soldier-stiff attention in front of her, waiting for any sign that she will ''let him in'' -- his eyes were pleading for admission into her heart, no? 😍-- looking crushed when she walked past him, and then quivering back to hope when she asked him to come into the house. 😍
er... nicely done, old boy. quite well acted.
🤣
although, that prem-moment had fierce competition with the prem-moment after heer has given him a towel to dry himself with. oooh!!! hc's expressions as prem were as mindblowing in that scene -- maybe even better -- than in the porch scene. but what really killed my second prem-moment was that soft-lighting from below that they had his face bathed in during this second sequence. that reflected light made it look like his eyes were glowing with a happiness, lit up from inside. 😍no? wow... 😍
* prem's hair thing: (ya, i'm getting all the ... uh ... trivia over and done with before i get to the big things. 😆) hc just refuses to wipe his hair, doesn't he?? gee, i wonder why... not!
the rat! he knows just how gorgeous he looks all drenched and spiked, no? *fiercely fighting to keep memories of the episode-that-must-not-be-named prem out of my head -- at least until this bt,lt is written! 😆*
but i must say -- it dries fast. 😆 one minute he's all drenched standing at the window. by the time heer gets him his coffee, it's all shiney and dancing in the winds again... 😍-ing. no, no! 😆-ing!
* big heer thing: aaaaahhhh... heer! you are sooo very good. so very good. so ver good at understanding what prem is all about. so very good at using honesty to your best advantage. but i just can't lose sight of the fact that the one thing you seem to want most is:
for prem to never come to you.
heer said a lot of things today, no? all superb -- all honest -- all heart-wrenching -- all ... fitting for me, a little too well fitting. she said:
funny thing though: this is the heer who has been through the pain of losing prem -- to death no less. the one who said that they would make a whole life in a moment of love. this is the heer who is so fiercely trying to push prem away?
something is not right. maybe i am the only person thinking like this -- but heer's trying too hard to push him away -- and there has to be another reason for this!
just now, i feel like prem knowing that: love is there. life is there. then how can they not spend the rest of their life, spending all that love, making the best love story on earth?
compared to the hip-hop-prem-with-the-hole-in-the-hea[d/rt] times, the roles have been switched: then, prem who chose to spend time away from his heer 'cause he thought that he didn't want her to suffer seeing him die. and heer chased him with all the armament that she had, using them in ways that prem never expected! to make him give in to her, confess to her, stay with her. now? now prem is going to have to fight to think up ways to get heer -- who wants nothing to do with him herself! -- give in to him by herself! *oooh, rubbing hands in glee!*
* prem thing: y'know? after that savage reception that he received from heer when he discovered that they had a daughter -- you'd think that prem would've come prepared to win over heer. and what did our guy land up with?
oh. a whole lot of patience and suffering being wet to entice heer back into his arms. brilliant. just brilliant. he had no plan? no strategy??! man, is heer better at knowing and manipulating him than prem is, or what?? *well, so far, anyway... 😆*
i seriously wanted to bop him on the upside of his head at that whole ''heer, i'm so happy today...'' spiel! argh! i actually covered my eyes and gnashed my teeth when he started on that one! was he even able to see how set her face was through the rosy happy glaze in front of his eyes, just 'cause heer let him into the darned house and gave him a towel! argh! duffer!!! what the heck d'you think she was trying to tell you the last time you were in that house, prem??! that she doesn't want to see you ever again?! which part of ''don't want to see you ever again'' didn't you understand, prem? which??!
prem, you duffer! you! you were the one who first discovered and showed us that being desperately in love didn't mean that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with heer! you demonstrated that during the time that you had been told you had a hole-in-your-hea[d/rt]! why can't you have possibly imagined that heer would take this stand??? why weren't you better prepared for this?
why did you end up, just sitting on that sofa, looking gorgeous all pink and scrubbed and fluffy-haired and delicious and... er.. well, looking nice, first with that happy twinkle in your eyes and a upward curve on your lips. which rapidly went to tear-drenched eyes and that familiar droop of sad prem on your lips?? why did you have to shout at heer to ask her why she still cared for you, why she still worried 'bout you, why she still loved you, prme? why did you have to even bother asking when you knew the answer all along??
and when she yelled back ''yes, yes, yes!!'' to all those questions, why the heck didn't you just pull her to you and kiphph the heck out of her, prem?? why??!
*sigh* why are you such a gentleman, prem? and why is heer such a lady? why are you so old-fashioned and quaint even today? even though your conversations have become so much more real-world and true for me? why are you both such ancient beings?
why do i love you and your lady so much, prem? why? 😕
* little thing: btw, did anyone else smile when they focussed on that close-up shot of prem gently putting his polo-shirt and jacket on the sofa? did anyone else have their heart speed up thinking that we'd finally get to see prem in a long-sleeved shirt without those blessed undershirt thingies??!
*sigh* but it was not to be. *sigh* darnit! you mean prem wears those undershirt thingies even under a polo??! argh! prem! just how cold does it get in can-atta for you??
* big prem-heer-are-one thing: so, 'cause of all these questions ringing in my head -- 'cause of the contradictions in what heer said, 'cause of the impossibility that heer of prem-heer-are-one could be giving up on her promise to build a whole life ona moment of love just 'cause of a nightmistake by prem, 'cause of the fire in prem's eyes even when he said that he would stop coming after heer, even though those eyes were shimmering with tears -- i just knew that prem was not done as he walked away from heer.
'cause we still hadn't heard from boss-prem till then. 😆 and man! did i grin when he finally surfaced -- he was probably just recovering from that much drenching in the rain? 😆
oooh, so heer said that they had love but no resolve to make the relationship work? heer! you soooo asked for it! boss-prem's here! and he's about resolve to the hilt, if nothing else! ha! more than anything, i loved the look on heer's face, as she watched him turn from the door towards her, telling her in no uncertain words, that (he was going to make sure) she was going to come to him! by herself! ''apney dil sey, apney mann sey, apney payron sey, apney chahat kay saath, apney prem kay paas''. *ai haiii, mar jawaaan!*
(and if no-one else got the double-meaning of ''chahat'' when he said that line to heer, before turning fiercely on his heel and marching off, i am soooo booking extra time with my psychiatrist this week! 🤣 'cause i was only thinking prem...heer.. and lots and lots of pent-up desire -- six years worth! -- when i heard prem say ''apney chahat kay saath, apney prem kay paas!'' omg... ☺️😍
if heer should ever come back to prem, with all her heart, her mind, her soul (sole? ) -- then it will have to be with all her desire too, no? ☺️😍 ☺️, here i go ... *oh why bother with just thud!* )
* contemplative-estee thing: so. we all know how heer ''got'' prem when he was being stubborn and hip-hoppy, no? 😆😍 starting with giving him a wedding card -- of her marriage to ratpal. to acting ... um... lusty for hip-hop prem, instead of prem. 😆😆😆 and man, how well that worked. 😍
what - oh what?! - do you think prem will come up with to ''get'' his heer??
which is why - for me - despite the two-two wonderous, gorgeous, delicious prem moments, this was...
highlight of the episode: the look on heer's face when defeated prem -- standing in front of her in the very shirt that she branded him as a cheating husband in! standing tall in that shirt!!! -- became boss-prem! boss-prem with eyes burning with fierce love, and even better a fierce resolve! the resolve that she accused prem-heer-are-one of not having! that boss-prem, standing tall and resolute in his shirt-of-shame and telling her that she is going to come after him. she is going to offer him her heart, her mind, her soul, all her desire ☺️😍 -- everything that so far he has been offering her and she has turned away. that heer will give him herself again.
omg! what a moment. i loved the confusion on her face -- heer who has so far been sooo fierce about never getting back to prem again. confused. i laughed with a fierce thrill of joy just seeing that look on her face. man, heer! i am soooo gonna love watching prem turn the tables on you on this one! oh, man, i hope he's gonna do it like he's done it before. and what makes me happy deepest down in my non-existant heart is that, for the first time in a long time, prem will get to show you just how much you mean to him. like you ought to have been shown before. but the guy just never had the chance -- what with his diseased step-mom and step-sister. now....? go boss-prem! go ''get'' heer! 😆😆😆
i can hardly w&w. 😃 what a lovely episode this was, no? stuffed with lovely-lovely lusty-lovely promises... 🤣
* photography thing: the scene that starts with heer sitting up in bed in the dar, fading into heer sitting up in bed in the light; chahat turning in her sleep -- that scene was sweetly shot!
actually, there were lots of cute new things they tried in this show. i loved the way they moved from heer to prem and back again during that prem-sleeping-on-the-porch-with-heer-watching-him scene. or the way they used reflectors from below to light up prem's face in one of the beautiful prem-sequences. another thing was -- in the latter part of the show -- the way the camera started on heer's face as she was talking, with her back to prem and the camera moved around her to focus on prem's face to get his reactions to what she was saying. all nice-nice experiments they did with pretty-pretty effects.
so i'll not whine too much about the fake-lightning they used in the show... *grrrrr!*
* background score thing: omg! the entire first segment's background score was ... terrific!!! no, seriously! one of the two things that this show has always irritated me on was too-often hysterical background (bg) scores. man, was the bg-score on this episode totally terrific! from the heer-in-bed scene (with music?) upto the taxi in the rain when heer walks upto prem (in music-silence, with the sound of rain and winds only! bliss!!)
i think they may have messed up in turn on the actor's dialogue audio -- sometimes both hc/ag's voices sounded oddly unlike themselves and flat-ish. but the bg score... oooh. 😍
loved it, loved it, loved it. if that was an experiment -- please continue. puhleeeeaaasse! 😍
* heer thing: 'kay, is it my imagination or does heer look like she was born to be wearing those saris?! gosh, she looks awesome in them! i'm a girl and i noticed the lissome curves of her waist and the beauty of her shoulders. seriously! she makes me wanna try 'em... *sigh -- and no, i'm not gonna explain that sigh.. 😆*
* little thing: poor jeep getting drenched in the rain... 😆
* little thing: heer obsessing 'bout prem wet and sneezing on the porch of her old home. what an odd thing to do! i mean, can you ever imagine stressing 'bout such a thing?? not me! never!
😆
btw, heer's boss looking all concerned at heer being preoccupied -- is that ''jasmeet aunty'' in whose outhouse they're staying?
* prem thing: prem wet and soggy and so tired that he's asleep against the wall -- no wonder heer couldn't do anything but ask him to come in. 😍
* hc-as-prem thing: the entire sequence of his waking, catching sight of heer, sitting stunned for a moment before scrambling to his feet, standing almost at soldier-stiff attention in front of her, waiting for any sign that she will ''let him in'' -- his eyes were pleading for admission into her heart, no? 😍-- looking crushed when she walked past him, and then quivering back to hope when she asked him to come into the house. 😍
er... nicely done, old boy. quite well acted.
🤣
although, that prem-moment had fierce competition with the prem-moment after heer has given him a towel to dry himself with. oooh!!! hc's expressions as prem were as mindblowing in that scene -- maybe even better -- than in the porch scene. but what really killed my second prem-moment was that soft-lighting from below that they had his face bathed in during this second sequence. that reflected light made it look like his eyes were glowing with a happiness, lit up from inside. 😍no? wow... 😍
* prem's hair thing: (ya, i'm getting all the ... uh ... trivia over and done with before i get to the big things. 😆) hc just refuses to wipe his hair, doesn't he?? gee, i wonder why... not!
the rat! he knows just how gorgeous he looks all drenched and spiked, no? *fiercely fighting to keep memories of the episode-that-must-not-be-named prem out of my head -- at least until this bt,lt is written! 😆*
but i must say -- it dries fast. 😆 one minute he's all drenched standing at the window. by the time heer gets him his coffee, it's all shiney and dancing in the winds again... 😍-ing. no, no! 😆-ing!
* big heer thing: aaaaahhhh... heer! you are sooo very good. so very good. so ver good at understanding what prem is all about. so very good at using honesty to your best advantage. but i just can't lose sight of the fact that the one thing you seem to want most is:
for prem to never come to you.
heer said a lot of things today, no? all superb -- all honest -- all heart-wrenching -- all ... fitting for me, a little too well fitting. she said:
- please leave me alone. don't follow me. don't come to my house.
- i will allow you full rights to chahat! (!! she will? the guy who she ended the episode calling ''a stranger'' to chahat??) just stay away from me. (so! she only wants prem to stay away from her -- not chahat?)
- i still love you. i will always love you. but with love must come trust. and a resolve to work for the relationship. and i have love. but no trust. and no resolve! (?? no resolve, heer? no resolve? trust is an outcome. love is a feeling. but resolve to make things work -- that's a choice you make, heer. and you are shrugging off the responsibility of choosing not to work on your relationship??! why, heer? what is making you run away from prem, heer? what??!)
- my parents loved each other. your parents never broke their relationship. (hmm! she didn't say that his parents loved each other like her parents did! hmm!)
- i can't offer you anything more than this coffee, this shirt and this towel. (why, heer? why do you choose not to??)
- i came here only for chahat's toys. (you already told him that you cared about him -- why are you making excuses for why you are there now?)
- i don't want to have to lie to her that you are a stranger. (you said that you would happily let prem have rights to chahat -- why should you lie anymore?)
funny thing though: this is the heer who has been through the pain of losing prem -- to death no less. the one who said that they would make a whole life in a moment of love. this is the heer who is so fiercely trying to push prem away?
something is not right. maybe i am the only person thinking like this -- but heer's trying too hard to push him away -- and there has to be another reason for this!
just now, i feel like prem knowing that: love is there. life is there. then how can they not spend the rest of their life, spending all that love, making the best love story on earth?
compared to the hip-hop-prem-with-the-hole-in-the-hea[d/rt] times, the roles have been switched: then, prem who chose to spend time away from his heer 'cause he thought that he didn't want her to suffer seeing him die. and heer chased him with all the armament that she had, using them in ways that prem never expected! to make him give in to her, confess to her, stay with her. now? now prem is going to have to fight to think up ways to get heer -- who wants nothing to do with him herself! -- give in to him by herself! *oooh, rubbing hands in glee!*
* prem thing: y'know? after that savage reception that he received from heer when he discovered that they had a daughter -- you'd think that prem would've come prepared to win over heer. and what did our guy land up with?
oh. a whole lot of patience and suffering being wet to entice heer back into his arms. brilliant. just brilliant. he had no plan? no strategy??! man, is heer better at knowing and manipulating him than prem is, or what?? *well, so far, anyway... 😆*
i seriously wanted to bop him on the upside of his head at that whole ''heer, i'm so happy today...'' spiel! argh! i actually covered my eyes and gnashed my teeth when he started on that one! was he even able to see how set her face was through the rosy happy glaze in front of his eyes, just 'cause heer let him into the darned house and gave him a towel! argh! duffer!!! what the heck d'you think she was trying to tell you the last time you were in that house, prem??! that she doesn't want to see you ever again?! which part of ''don't want to see you ever again'' didn't you understand, prem? which??!
prem, you duffer! you! you were the one who first discovered and showed us that being desperately in love didn't mean that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with heer! you demonstrated that during the time that you had been told you had a hole-in-your-hea[d/rt]! why can't you have possibly imagined that heer would take this stand??? why weren't you better prepared for this?
why did you end up, just sitting on that sofa, looking gorgeous all pink and scrubbed and fluffy-haired and delicious and... er.. well, looking nice, first with that happy twinkle in your eyes and a upward curve on your lips. which rapidly went to tear-drenched eyes and that familiar droop of sad prem on your lips?? why did you have to shout at heer to ask her why she still cared for you, why she still worried 'bout you, why she still loved you, prme? why did you have to even bother asking when you knew the answer all along??
and when she yelled back ''yes, yes, yes!!'' to all those questions, why the heck didn't you just pull her to you and kiphph the heck out of her, prem?? why??!
*sigh* why are you such a gentleman, prem? and why is heer such a lady? why are you so old-fashioned and quaint even today? even though your conversations have become so much more real-world and true for me? why are you both such ancient beings?
why do i love you and your lady so much, prem? why? 😕
* little thing: btw, did anyone else smile when they focussed on that close-up shot of prem gently putting his polo-shirt and jacket on the sofa? did anyone else have their heart speed up thinking that we'd finally get to see prem in a long-sleeved shirt without those blessed undershirt thingies??!
*sigh* but it was not to be. *sigh* darnit! you mean prem wears those undershirt thingies even under a polo??! argh! prem! just how cold does it get in can-atta for you??
* big prem-heer-are-one thing: so, 'cause of all these questions ringing in my head -- 'cause of the contradictions in what heer said, 'cause of the impossibility that heer of prem-heer-are-one could be giving up on her promise to build a whole life ona moment of love just 'cause of a nightmistake by prem, 'cause of the fire in prem's eyes even when he said that he would stop coming after heer, even though those eyes were shimmering with tears -- i just knew that prem was not done as he walked away from heer.
'cause we still hadn't heard from boss-prem till then. 😆 and man! did i grin when he finally surfaced -- he was probably just recovering from that much drenching in the rain? 😆
oooh, so heer said that they had love but no resolve to make the relationship work? heer! you soooo asked for it! boss-prem's here! and he's about resolve to the hilt, if nothing else! ha! more than anything, i loved the look on heer's face, as she watched him turn from the door towards her, telling her in no uncertain words, that (he was going to make sure) she was going to come to him! by herself! ''apney dil sey, apney mann sey, apney payron sey, apney chahat kay saath, apney prem kay paas''. *ai haiii, mar jawaaan!*
(and if no-one else got the double-meaning of ''chahat'' when he said that line to heer, before turning fiercely on his heel and marching off, i am soooo booking extra time with my psychiatrist this week! 🤣 'cause i was only thinking prem...heer.. and lots and lots of pent-up desire -- six years worth! -- when i heard prem say ''apney chahat kay saath, apney prem kay paas!'' omg... ☺️😍
if heer should ever come back to prem, with all her heart, her mind, her soul (sole? ) -- then it will have to be with all her desire too, no? ☺️😍 ☺️, here i go ... *oh why bother with just thud!* )
* contemplative-estee thing: so. we all know how heer ''got'' prem when he was being stubborn and hip-hoppy, no? 😆😍 starting with giving him a wedding card -- of her marriage to ratpal. to acting ... um... lusty for hip-hop prem, instead of prem. 😆😆😆 and man, how well that worked. 😍
what - oh what?! - do you think prem will come up with to ''get'' his heer??
which is why - for me - despite the two-two wonderous, gorgeous, delicious prem moments, this was...
highlight of the episode: the look on heer's face when defeated prem -- standing in front of her in the very shirt that she branded him as a cheating husband in! standing tall in that shirt!!! -- became boss-prem! boss-prem with eyes burning with fierce love, and even better a fierce resolve! the resolve that she accused prem-heer-are-one of not having! that boss-prem, standing tall and resolute in his shirt-of-shame and telling her that she is going to come after him. she is going to offer him her heart, her mind, her soul, all her desire ☺️😍 -- everything that so far he has been offering her and she has turned away. that heer will give him herself again.
omg! what a moment. i loved the confusion on her face -- heer who has so far been sooo fierce about never getting back to prem again. confused. i laughed with a fierce thrill of joy just seeing that look on her face. man, heer! i am soooo gonna love watching prem turn the tables on you on this one! oh, man, i hope he's gonna do it like he's done it before. and what makes me happy deepest down in my non-existant heart is that, for the first time in a long time, prem will get to show you just how much you mean to him. like you ought to have been shown before. but the guy just never had the chance -- what with his diseased step-mom and step-sister. now....? go boss-prem! go ''get'' heer! 😆😆😆
i can hardly w&w. 😃 what a lovely episode this was, no? stuffed with lovely-lovely lusty-lovely promises... 🤣
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