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PART 10:
Jai didn't know what had come over him...all he knew was that something inside of him had snapped when bani had said their was no relation between them...that with what rishta would she return to his house....what rishta?....had she forgotten...she was his wife godammit!...
He grabbed her by the arm and pulled her to the front of the mandir where he filled her mang with sindoor and tied her manglesutra around her neck.....This was the relation that existed between them....this was the answer to her question....this would be the reason she returned to that house.....
He felt a sense of satisfaction seeing the sindoor and manglesutra back on bani....he had claimed her....she was his....his?...yes his....he would need to make her understand his feelings....he couldn't just say "I love you"...the words had begun to lose their meaning...to him those words just equated betrayal...he had suffered so much because of those words.....he had never truly understood what love meant......but now....with bani....
She had made him want to be a better person...see the good things in life...she brought him happiness in little things that he had never noticed before....she had turned his house into a home...how could he explain these feelings to bani....Those three little words he knew she wanted to hear...were too difficult for him to say....and would sound hollow.... they wouldn't be able to express the full extent and depth of his feelings....no he would have to find another, more meaningful way to tell her.....
right now though...he needed her to come home with him...to trust him...give him time to tell her the truth about Park Road...
.....
Bani stood looking at Jai in a shocked and dazed way....neither had said one word since Jai had declared her his wife in front of the congregation...both too absorbed in their own thoughts....
"Beti.." It was the pujari
"Beti...?"
"Ji...uh...ji pujariji?"
"Beti...tum yaha apni zindagi ke sahwaalon ke jawaab mangne aayi thi...aur aaj Lord Krishna ne tumhe wohi jawab diya hai...yehi hai tumari manzil...yehi hai tumara raasta....inke saah jao beti...Bhagwan ka ashirvad tum dono ke saath hai...Bhagwan tum dono ko hamesha khush or ek duje ke saath rakhe..."
Both Bani and Jai silently bowed down to Lord Krishna and took the blessings offered to them...When they were about to leave...the Pujari gave Bani a small murti and told her to always keep it with her...it will always provide her with strength...and show her the way whenever she feels lost....it will always keep her relations strong....
....
Jai silently took hold of Bani's arm and led her to the car...Still neither of them spoke...the silence filled with tension...filled with unsaid emotions...what could they say?...what hadn't they already said...what more was there to say....He had claimed her as his....he had made her his....
The journey, although not very long, felt like an eternity for them....Jai felt an overwhelming urge to hold bani in his arms and never let her go...but was it suitable for to do so?...could he do it?...could he make her his physically...again? but this time with their real feelings involved?...would she accept him like that again?....How did she view him?....
Bani sat thinking along similar lines to Jai...she knew that she loved him deeply...but did jai feel that way about her...or was it out of habit having her there that he wanted her back?...did he desire her?...did he think her beautiful...?...will he trust me this time...if i give him time...will he tell me the truth and let me be there for him?....What about Rano?...What will he decide...?
Too many questions were conflicting inside them...yet neither felt courageous enough to ask them out loud afraid of the answers they would receive....
Jai didn't know what had come over him...all he knew was that something inside of him had snapped when bani had said their was no relation between them...that with what rishta would she return to his house....what rishta?....had she forgotten...she was his wife godammit!...
He grabbed her by the arm and pulled her to the front of the mandir where he filled her mang with sindoor and tied her manglesutra around her neck.....This was the relation that existed between them....this was the answer to her question....this would be the reason she returned to that house.....
He felt a sense of satisfaction seeing the sindoor and manglesutra back on bani....he had claimed her....she was his....his?...yes his....he would need to make her understand his feelings....he couldn't just say "I love you"...the words had begun to lose their meaning...to him those words just equated betrayal...he had suffered so much because of those words.....he had never truly understood what love meant......but now....with bani....
She had made him want to be a better person...see the good things in life...she brought him happiness in little things that he had never noticed before....she had turned his house into a home...how could he explain these feelings to bani....Those three little words he knew she wanted to hear...were too difficult for him to say....and would sound hollow.... they wouldn't be able to express the full extent and depth of his feelings....no he would have to find another, more meaningful way to tell her.....
right now though...he needed her to come home with him...to trust him...give him time to tell her the truth about Park Road...
.....
Bani stood looking at Jai in a shocked and dazed way....neither had said one word since Jai had declared her his wife in front of the congregation...both too absorbed in their own thoughts....
"Beti.." It was the pujari
"Beti...?"
"Ji...uh...ji pujariji?"
"Beti...tum yaha apni zindagi ke sahwaalon ke jawaab mangne aayi thi...aur aaj Lord Krishna ne tumhe wohi jawab diya hai...yehi hai tumari manzil...yehi hai tumara raasta....inke saah jao beti...Bhagwan ka ashirvad tum dono ke saath hai...Bhagwan tum dono ko hamesha khush or ek duje ke saath rakhe..."
Both Bani and Jai silently bowed down to Lord Krishna and took the blessings offered to them...When they were about to leave...the Pujari gave Bani a small murti and told her to always keep it with her...it will always provide her with strength...and show her the way whenever she feels lost....it will always keep her relations strong....
....
Jai silently took hold of Bani's arm and led her to the car...Still neither of them spoke...the silence filled with tension...filled with unsaid emotions...what could they say?...what hadn't they already said...what more was there to say....He had claimed her as his....he had made her his....
The journey, although not very long, felt like an eternity for them....Jai felt an overwhelming urge to hold bani in his arms and never let her go...but was it suitable for to do so?...could he do it?...could he make her his physically...again? but this time with their real feelings involved?...would she accept him like that again?....How did she view him?....
Bani sat thinking along similar lines to Jai...she knew that she loved him deeply...but did jai feel that way about her...or was it out of habit having her there that he wanted her back?...did he desire her?...did he think her beautiful...?...will he trust me this time...if i give him time...will he tell me the truth and let me be there for him?....What about Rano?...What will he decide...?
Too many questions were conflicting inside them...yet neither felt courageous enough to ask them out loud afraid of the answers they would receive....
Anupamaa
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
