Celebrating the Love of Manik and Nandhini...
I have just written down what I felt during the epic Pool Scenes...here I go...š
Nandhini sees him in the Swimming Pool floating and panics... rushes to him in all panic Mode...
"Manik... Thum theek ho na.. Manik !"
She extends her hand for him to hold and come out of the pool... and make her fear of him being Hurt go away...
He hears the voice which is music to his ears , he feels the care and concern , the love in every syllable of her voice, out he emerges from his trick of Floating... with a cocky smile on his face... and mischievous thoughts running wildly in his mind...
He looked at her... and there she was... all Beautiful , Caring and Worried for him... extending her hand towards him... not even trying to think logically how a Expert swimmer like him can be in trouble in a small Pool like this... Her mind had stepped back... heart taken over... no rationalization worked now... only Love , Care and tender feelings for him overflowing... When it came to him , she took no chances , even the 0.000001 percent of probability of any danger is enough for her Protective Instincts to come running to envelop him in her bubble of Care and Protection.
He took her hand and pulled her in to the Pool forcefully... He always did that... didn't he ... He pulls her into his world forcefully both consciously and sub-consciously... He did that when he pursued her to torture her... he did that when he made her spot.. he did that when he came to her house to take her with him forcefully in her spot days... he did that when he waited at night outside her house and hugged her to make sense of what he was feeling and searching for someone to anchor him... if these were him sub-consciously trying to bring her into his world... once he was aware of his feelings for her... he did it consciously... pursuing her... holding on to her.. never letting her go... for she was the STAR that shined her light in his World of Darkness , loneliness and Cruelty... After having seen the light... how could he now be deprived of it... no it cant be... she has to stay in his world... for him to survive it... for him to have any hope of actually LIVING in it...
And she fell in to the pool making a big splash and immediately going down under the water... wasn't it the same with his World... the moment she stepped in to it she had immediately submerged in its complexity... She desperately flapped her hands trying to surface for air.. the same way that she had desperately tried to keep out of his World...
The Monster smiled he was happy... his plan had worked... she was in his World... wasn't she with no escape whatsoever and now she was in his Pool... just where he wanted her... WITH HIM..
He smiled in amusement at first, then he heard.. her Panic.
"Manik mujhe swimming nahin aathi hain.. Manik ... !"
The smile disappears immediately , he couldn't let her Panic like that... even though there was no danger... With him guarding her like his Own Life...
He reaches out and holds her, pulling her to the surface and trying to make her stand on her feet.
Instead of standing on her feet in the pool and letting go of her fear of water... which I assume was his point all along... the little Girl in her panics and hangs off him , desperately clinging and burrowing into him... And why wouldn't she ...?
She was afraid and the only Person she who she Trusted enough to Protect her was at her Arms length, off course she would hide herself in him, hold on to him like her Life depended on it... He might be the Monster for the World... the Big Bad Wolf.. the one that makes you shudder just by looking at you... but for her he was her Shield... an invincible Shield... protecting her from all the Cruel and terrifying things of the world... As long as He was with her... she would never fear anything or anyone... so off course she will hide in her Shield when fear comes looking for her.
The Monster's smile is back.. the one person he loves most , treasures most in the Whole World is in his arms... but then he sees her... actually feels her Vulnerability and fear... his hands go immediately to hold her in place , to reassure her... she was safe... he was there to protect her... She needn't fear the Pool... Or in fact anything...
"Relax... Thumhe lagtha hain I will let you Drown...? Don't you trust me..? " he asks her...
His questioning her trust in him breaks her bubble of panic and fear, she turns her face that was hidden in his Chest to face him... Reassure him... She Trusts Him... her eyes say it all...
But the Monster is not satisfied by her non-verbal assurance.. he needs to hear it from her Lips... It was the balm to his Hurt... her Words... so He instigates her...
"Right !.. You don't Trust me..." he says coldly... voicing the Hurt hidden inside...
His Hurt rattles her.. makes her helpless... the Girl who couldn't bear even the people who hurt her being hurt... how could she bear the person she loves being HURT... his HURT resonates inside her...
She feels his Pain and Hurt as much as he himself.
"Agar main haan kahoo ...tho will you Believe me... " she asks...
She knows her man, he was not the one who was satisfied with Words.. he believed in Actions... her words would never be sufficient to remove that last Doubt causing him Pain...
"ek friendly advise dhoo.. you shouldn't trust me..." He says in reply to her ...
And with that he breaks free her hold on him... To show that she was never in Danger...
His words are just a faade... his actions the real deal... that was the one thing he wants her to learn...
The problem here between them is that their versions of Trust are different from each other...
He wants her Absolute Trust in him as an Individual... Whereas She has Absolute Trust on his Love for her... Rather than him as an Individual...
It doesn't mean that she doesn't trust him as an Individual... she does Too... but its not as Powerful and Invincible as her trust in his love for her...
Todays lesson the monster wanted to teach his innocent Love was over now... at last... !
It was time for him to celebrate Holi with HER...!
He holds her by her Waist and pulls her Close to himself... turns her and leads her to the Colors... step by step tenderly holding her and she him by their waists... without breaking their gaze on each other...
He Pins her to the Wall... creates a bubble around her with his Body... which is both her sanctuary as well as prison... He brings for her every one of the Colors... he wants to play with the Colors with her... In the Color of her Choice...
She refuses to Play with the colors for some reason which we are not aware of... Something related to her past.. her parents... ?
When she refuses, He picks up his favorite color red' to color the most beautiful face in his World...
He Picks up a handful in his closed fist... and slowly brings his hand closer to her face...
"Manik No.. manik please... Don't touch me... mujhe haath math lagaana... " she says and closes her eyes...pleading... and his Hand stops...
He stopped ... because she asked him to... that was a line he would never ever cross... That Line Made Her Feel Safe with Him... That was the very line that stopped him in New Year Eve Night too...
The Guy who really loves a Girl would invariably always know where that Line is ... after crossing which she would no longer feel safe with him... and if its real love... then the Line will never be Crossed... As was the case with the Monster...
Her asking him to not touch her had stopped him... but it also hit a raw nerve in him... his possessiveness and his need for her intimacy... The intense feelings he was keeping in check barely... came flooding to the surface... She was His... He felt the overpowering need to assert his Right on her... On the face of her refusal... But at the same time he wouldn't cross the line she set for him... To not touch her with his hands...
He went for the middle way... If she wouldn't let him touch her with his hands... he would do it with his face... Some might say that she asked for him to not touch her period, but the point here was she allowed his Face to touch hers ... She had the option of stopping it and backing out... remember the time when he tried to kiss her and she just closed his mouth and pushed his face away... But here it was acceptable to her... Whatever fear resided in her heart about people touching her with colors was limited to the hands... and she couldn't deny her love of his need to touch her... so she let him... in fact she was in awe of it... His intense feelings got a steady hold of her Heartbeat... She was mesmerized by them... his Intensity , his Possessiveness , his love for her...
He felt both sides of her face with his own... Rubbing the color of his face onto hers... and metaphorically his Love for her, his feelings for her... He did it with utmost care and tenderness and not to forget intense passion for her... and while doing so he loses himself to his own feelings... as for a moment in the end he snuggles into her face with his nose... feeling her warmth... breathing in the scent of her body... feeling one with Woman of his Dreams... And all this while she was holding on to him by his Waist... If anyone didn't notice... She too was as lost in the Moment as her Monster himself...
Her letting him in... calmed the volcano inside him... his need and possessiveness were now triumphant with her acceptance of them. The monster saw her beautiful eyes staring at him adoringly , drowned in his Love and intense feelings . That's all he had ever wanted and now that he had it, he smiled at her slightly... an impish naughty smile... Acknowledging what just transpired between them...he says... "Happy Holi... Nandhini..!!!"
Arjun
