Diksha, hats off to you for narrating their mindset so beautifully. Yes, Jo had that final composure on her face which said a lot about her final decision. That was the reason she didn't had those tears in her hers when h uttered those words to her. He was a bit optimistic when he took her back to her room and talked Ruqu even by cutting Maham's words about his promse Jodha on keeping her religion and her place in Agra etc. But the moment he told Ruqu that she is in her level to fight (Begum) her and evict her which will lower Ruqu's dignity, she felt that ting of hurt and when she assured Ruqu that he will never ever step into that room, she realised that she is no part of his life. It was as good as died for him. That was te exact reason, she didn't say anything even when he said those words, as she knew there was no point in leadiung a life of dead woman.Originally posted by: sweet_diksha
so very rightly said , Mansi... waste of time episode... I can't even call it filler.. there was nothing to fill anything...
and still there were so many things to say...
So now AK is planning more and more... and well, his Oh so clever mother doesn't even doubt abt anything.. neither her son plotting against Jallad nor abt the ever precious gift she herself presented to the to be Gr8 Shehenshah... Both MA and AK r now worth nothing to say about...
same goes with Ruku... the so-called ruler of shehenshah's brain , time and again proves herself to be brainless.. (what else to expect from Jallad , then?) her insecurity has reached to heights , anybody or anything can shake her to core now... and here is Jo, and well even if Ruku is not accepting openly, she knows Jo's worth and and that Jo's values r enough to change the devil into human... and so no doubt her insecurity abt Jallad is increasing every second... but yes, somewhere she trusts Jallad's mere words, and controls herself and is again back to her dreamland...
Jo yest surprised me with her calmness... she openly showed Jallad that she was hurt with his decision abt changing her room and when he takes her back to her room she goes with him without a single word, listens everything that goes btw Jallad and Ruku silently, even when he says those final parting words , she is sad but not shocked at his words abt never entering in her room again... why? does it means she too has taken final decision to finish her life to save him, knowing it's the only way left now? Yest Jo was , way to calm... while watching that scene i felt there is some fulfillness in her. that she knows nobody trusts her, not even him, no support for her, and so has she planned her final and dignified exit from his life? and if that's the case, no doubt his words make her upset but doesn't shatter her like before.. coz may be she knows, his
wedding day will be her last day in his life and so there will be no way for him to say her face again... and so she is ready all the way to prove his words right in her own way...the way he always keeps saying that he can't love anybody, and even yest when he said she holds no importance in his life, she didn't say a word as if she is accepting that she will never get the love from him she wants and she doesn't want so called importance without love... and so she meets his eyes calmly... only if he knew behind her calmness there is the strength that has made her take the ultimate decision of her life : that she can live whith letting her love (Jalal) die or she can give her love a chance to live by sacrificing her own life... and so though she is upset that she has hurt him and he now hates her (atleast he says so, even if it's not true), she is not shattered by his words, coz in her heart she has that contentment of her decision ... (is it more phylosophical? can't help... Jo's stance yest, after he takes her back to room and after his final words, was this way, i felt to be)
only if she knows , when she finally will take that drastic step, her love won't be the one to give up so easily... only if she knows , he too is the other side of the coin like she is one... only if she knows he is hurting her coz he himself is fighting the battle with that unknown feeling towards her, which he is not ready to accept with the fear of one more rejection from her...
both r ready to hurt eachother now to the point of breaking the other to the last thread... and the fact that it will be Jalal who will break first when Jo will faint due to poison... following with the uncertain emptiness he is about to face seeing her unconcious in his arms... the feeling that it was him who drove her to take that step... the guilt and defeat he is about to face, will be breaking him , shattering him to core only to give him the ultimate strength to fight for his love, before she goes away forever...and I hope Jalal is ready to face that...coz Jo has already reached there ...
guys, i had said twi days back, that the lowest point is yet to come... for me it was yest , with Jallad saying those dreadful words and Jo maintaining her dignity and calmness has drawn the line, and now from there it's a journey for both of them to new horizon ...whether the marriage
happens or not, the journey still will continue...
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