Author's Note: First of all I just want to say I am so sorry that I havent updated since September. I didn't know I would be so busy with school and family events. Today I managed to have the time to type and today itself I found out my cousin sister is getting married so I knew this was the only time. I will try to work on Ch. 4 as the days go by and update when I get to a good stopping point. But once again I am so sorry for this who commented nearly everyday waiting for this.
This chapter is for Taahir bhai!
Enjoy!
Chapter 3
It's been 3 days since I saw her. I still cannot believe that she is actually alive. I mean for god sake I killed her with these very hands. I saw the blood seep through her pink shirt that had sequences along the collar of the shirt. I shot her right in the chest. I did not give her a quick death. I gave her a slow death. She betrayed this country and I betrayed her love. For god sake how the hell can she be alive! I reached over to the coffee table to grab the TV remote. After turning off the TV I headed for my room.
Walking into my room I approached my closet. I moved aside my shirts and behind them was a small chest. I opened the chest and took out Priya's necklace. It was the necklace that she was wearing the day I shot her. The day she confessed that she loved me and could not live without me.
*Flashback*
"Sid can we go for picnic somewhere, please?" Priya asked me as I was finishing up a report on her case. She had been in my custody for over a year. I still remember the first time I saw. Damn she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen but unfortunately she wasn't worth love, only torture and hate. She was blinded with a piece of black cloth and tied to a chair. We were sitting in an interrogation room and I had just captured her when my team and I heard news of a terrorist attack that was going to occur at the San Francisco Bridge. My team and I were already headed to the city when one of my spies sent me a picture of one of the potential suicide bombers. That suicide bomber was Priya.
"Sid why are you so lost" Priya asked breaking my train of thought. I closed my laptop and looked up at her. "What did you as me?" I asked her and as I stored away my laptop and got up to go sit next to her.
"I asked if we could go for a picnic for lunch?" she asked again leaning her head on my shoulder. I interlaced her fingers with mine and brought her hand to me lips. I gentley placed a kiss upon it. "Sure" I said as I stood up to walk over to the door. "Do you have a specific place in mind?" I asked as I grabbed my car keys and she grabbed a bag. "Um actually I do" she said tugging back my hand so I would look at her. "And where would that be?" I asked looking at her. She has this twinkle in her eye and I knew that today things were going to happen. Things I didnt want to happen, but I had no control over it. "The Golden Gate bridge" she said pulling me towards her link her hands around my neck. "Where we first met under unfortunate circumstances" she whispered as she brought our lips closer to each other. I could feel her cool breath on my lips and could smell the fresh mint of her toothpaste. She pressed her lips to me and the raked her hands through my hair in order to pull me closer. I dropped my keys on the floor and slipped my hands around her waist. I pulled her flush against my body and so I could feel her one last time. I felt her smile through our kiss. She nibbled on my bottom lip as I nibbled on her top lip but as soon as I felt her pushing for entry into my mouth i pulled away from. I distances myself from her and wiped my mouth with the sleeve of my shirt.
She looked at me with worry in her eyes and I couldn't help but smile in order to ease the hurt that I had just given to her. "Priya I would take you right now, you know that but the bridge is quite a drive if we want to get there for lunch" I said leaning down to pick up my keys. I opened the door and stepped out side waiting for her to follow me. I closed the door behind her and locked it. We headed to the Mercedes and made our way to the Golden Gate bridge.
An hour later we still had about 50 miles still to drive in order to get to the bridge. I looked over at Priya and she was gazing out the window. The smile that was there before was gone when we left the apartment. I looked back at the road and sighed. I turned back to her and reached for her hand. I interlaced our hands together and brought her hand to my lips and kissed her gently.
"Did I ever tell you that I love it when you do that?" she asked me as she continued to look out the window.
"Do what?" i asked confused as to what she was talking about.
"when you kiss the back of my hand" she replied turning to look at me as I kept my eyes on the road.
"No you have not" i replied as I took my hand out hers and brought it to the stirring wheel. "Why don't you sleep a little bit, we will be there in like another hour."
"Yeah I think I will do that" she said reaching for my hand again and placing it in her lap. She rested her head against the back of her seat and closed her eyes.
Shoot what am I getting myself into. I can't believe today is it. The day I thought would never come a year ago and now I wish it didn't. But I do not have a choice. I must do what I am told to do. No choice. This must be done.
After 45 minutes of driving we had finally reached San Francisco. I stopped by Priya's favorite sandwich shop and picked up two vegetarian sandiwiches and 2 cokes. After parking the car at the nearest park I got out and walked over to the otherside of the car. I opened Priya's door and attempted to wake her up. "Priya we are here wake up" I said as reached over for her belt. I unclicked her belt as she turned over to me slightly brushing her lips upon mine. I froze in my spot and just looked at her. A smile unknowing broke out on her face. I gazed upon her lovely face as her eyelids began to flutter open. At the first peek of her dark chocolate eyes I leaned forward and pressed my lips upon hers even harder. We moved our lips in sync as time seemed to freeze. I drew out her moan as I slipped my tongue into her delicious mouth. God being in her was like being in heaven. Wait what? Heaven? I quickly realized what was going on and pulled away abruptly.
"Emm that was good, why did you stop?" She asked me as I opened the back seat and pulled out our lunch.
"Uh I don't do PDA remember" I said as I closed the back door and her door as well. she looped her hand through mine and followed me towards the park. We found an empty table and sat down. I took the food from the bag and the coke and placed in on the table. She sat down across from me and grabbed her sandwich. I grabbed mine and began to eat. After the first couple of bites I realized she wasn't eating.
"Do you not like it?" I asked putting my sandwich down and opening up the coke bottle.
"No its not that. There is something I have to tell you and I just don't know how to tell you" she said getting up from the table. She started walking towards the water as I finished drinking my soda. I let her have a couple of mintues to herself and then I got up and then got up to follow her. As I walked towards I couldb't help but wonder what she could be thinking or what she would have to tell me. I mean it couldnt be such a big thing. At least as not as big as what I had in store for her.
"Sid we have known each other for while" she began as she sat down near the water and began to collect rocks. I knew this was going to be long so I decided to sit down next to her, but not so close. I grabbed a couple of rocks as she continued to talk.
"From the time I was captured to today I have been with you everyday. Never alone." she said as she started throwing the collected rocks in the water and watching the ripples that would form. I did the same thing as her as I listened to her. I mean I had no choice. This would be the last time I ever heard her voice.
"I still remember the first night. It was probably one of the worst nights since meeting you. I can still remember the sting from your belt" she said. I threw a rock in the water and remembered that night. It was as if it had just happened yesterday. "By god that night I could not sleep. My entire body ached so much, you never hurt me internally. I know what I did was wrong, but you have to understand I didn't have a choice. It was the only way to take care of my mother's hospital bill" she said as she turned towards me and looked at me. "Till today you have always cared for me whether it was protecting me from those evil men who tried to rape me multiple times, or if it was after my interrogation when I was bleeding. I guess what I am trying to say is that I forgive you for everything that you have ever done to me" she whispered. That caught my attention like no other. She forgive me. Oh shoot! She forgives for that? What about what is going to happen in a few minutes or hours? Would she forgive me for that?
"God I don't know what I am saying. I know what I want to say, but I don't know how to say it. God this is so hard I have never felt this way" she continued. She reached over and interlaced our hands together and placed it in her lap. I squeezed her hand to encourage her to continue.
"Siddharth Khurana..." she whispered as I squeezed her hand again for her to continue. "I love you!" she whispered again. It took me a while to register what she had told me and when I realized she had convinced i went pale. I pulled my hand from her grasp and quickly got up. "Siddharth I really love you. I think I have loved you a long time, but I didn't realize until recently" she said as she quickly got up and stepped towards me. I put my hands up to stop her from approaching me. She froze in her spot but continued to speak. "Sid the first time you kissed me, I swear I was lost in you" she said. "I can still remember that as if it was just 5 minutes ago because I feel the same everytime you kiss me. God I love the way your lips feel on mine. I love the way you feel in me" she said reaching her hand out to grab mine, but I pulled away and turns toward the water. What the hell was going on. This couldn't be happening. In fact this shouldn't be happening. "Sid the first time we made love was the best day of my life, I know for you it was just another day, but for me it wasn't. God I don't know what else to say but I love you so damn much. I have never wanted anything as much as I have wanted you. Not even my freedom is as worthy as having you by my side" she finished. I continued to stare at the water as her words begin to seep into my very soul. Mother of holiness I was so screwed. I turned towards her and charged towards her. I grabbed her face with both my hands and smashed my lips upon hers. God they were the best thing in th world. God I was going to miss these lips. I was going to miss having her under me. I am going to miss waking up to her draped across my body with her hair spread across my pillow. I pushed my tongue against her teeth and she opened up to me. God I was really go to miss this. As our tongues dueled each other I tasted every corner of her mouth not missing a single inch. This was the last time.
"God baby I love you too, but I can't I am sorry" I whispered as I pecked her lips a couple of times.
"Don't say that! We can work it out" she whispered back as she raked her hands through my hair and pulled my head closer to keep my lips on her.
"I can't not after what you did last week" I said as I pecked her lips one last time before she broke away and looked up at me shocked.
"What do mean?" she asked, but i knew she knew what I was talking about because her eyes looked everywhere else except me.
"Baby I followed you on Wednesday night when you had to go to the gym. You never went to the gym and instead went to go meet Rafiq Khalad" I said pushing myself even farther away from her. "I heard you talk about the next attack" I said turning towards the table and noticing that the entire park was empty except for us. Perfect. "I thought you would come tell me, but you never did. I had no other choice but to report you" I said reaching into the plastic bag and removing my pistol from the bag.
"Sid I was going to tell you, but I never had the chanc..." she sbegan but I caught her off. "Never had the chance..." I couldn't help but laugh that "I gave you every chance you possibly needed, but you never took them" I said as I turned to her. I heard her gasp and knew that she knew what was about to happen. "I really hoped I wouldn't have to do this, but you have left me know choice" I said loading the bullet into the pistol and lockign it into place.
"Siddharth please don't do this! I love you!" she pleaded as I walked towards her. "I'm sorry! I don't have a choice." I replied as she continued to distant herself from me. "But please Sid, you love me just as much as I love you!" she said. "I'm sorry, but I cannot forgive you for what you did. I tried so hard to make sure that nothing got in the way of me you, but you never listened to me. You defied me at every corner, everything I did was to protect you, but now I have no other choice." I lifted the gun up and aimed it it at her. "Sid, please" she pleaded again as tears begin to fall down her cheeks. "I'm sorry, Priya" I whispered as I pulled the trigger.
"Sid" she screamed as the bullet shot out from the pistol and pierced her chest. She stumbled backwards as I dropped the gun and ran to her to catch her from falling to hard. "Priya I'm right here baby. I am not leaving you anywhere I promise" I whispered as I sat with her through the pain. The blood began to seep through her shirt as her breathing began harded and longer.
"Sid" she managed to say and I quickly grabbed her hand and place a kiss on the back of her hand. "I..love.." she attempted to talk but i knew it was to difficult for her. "I know baby you love me and I love you too" I said as I kissed her hand again. She shook her head and coughed up a little blood. I winced at the sight of her in pain and leaned forward to kiss her forehead. "love...when...you...kiss...m...my...hand" she whispered as she broke out into a smile. I couldn't but smile at that and kiss her hand once again. "God i love you for loving that" I said as i brought her flush to my body. "I love you too" she whispered as took her last breathe.
I looked at her limp body that laid in my arms. I grazed my hand all around her body to feel her one last time and stopped at her neck. I unhooked the necklace that I gave her for her birthday and put it in my pocket. I kissed her one last time and placed her on the ground and walked towards the car. I grabbed my phone and called my boss.
"The job is done, pick up the body and do with it what you please. But please do it with respect. I freaking loved her, but I love my country more" I said as I looked at her one last time and got in my car and drove away.
* Flashback End*
I stared at the necklace again remember every lovely moment I ever had with her and kissed it. I placed it back in the box and reached for my pajama bottoms and headed for the shower.
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