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Episode-255
Not Khushi, but Anjali kept her hand on Shyam's shoulder. Shyam keeps the paper hastily in his pocket saying her that it's about his work. Anjali becomes sullen as he didn't come for the poja and now thinking about his work. Khushi also comes there right then, who looks at Shyam with resentment. They all go for the aarti.
In front of shiv's idle Khushi only prays for her Arnavji's safety, but nothing else. She does not even pray for herself. She prays him to tell Arnav to come soon. Cause she is ...she can't utter the words what she tethered in the subconscious realm of her mind and that is she is missing him like crazy and can't live without him. Her heart convulses with pain remembering him. She also requests the god not to tell DM that she is praying to him. DM may get angry on her as she is her bestest buddy.
Her childlike mind reflects in her pray.
Khushi is in consternation about the lost papers. She is whirling in her muddle thought, if shyam doesn't have the paper, then where is it? Shyam must've removed those papers from the briefcase; he must have anticipated khushi's suspicion. She is very much aware of his knavery and avidity. She is precarious as well, whether she lost the papers some where else or not. Without this papers she won't be able to prove her innocence.
In AR's London office, the stuffs are worried for ASR, how a punctilious man like ASR missed such important meeting. A guy from the hotel lets them know that ASR even didn't check in the hotel room. All became more panicked for him.
Khushi is by the eternal heaven of Arnav, the pool side, still infused in Arnav's thought. She is sullen cause he didn't call her. she thinks, he at least should call di. She reprimands her, why she is expecting from him? After all he doesn't care anybody. "Arnav singh Raizadase berukhi ki ilawa aur kya umeed kar sakte hai."...khushi is trying to assuage her tumultuous mind.
She again sees the message in her phone. But she contemplates the matter, why did he message her? He never did such thing before. Or moreover when he left he was mad at her.
Mami is incredulous about Babli's staccato behavior. Masala mama also tells her that he saw a chotise, nuttysi, chubbysi girl was running around in the temple and some red color was smeared on her hand. Mami is in bafflement, if this girl was Babli then what she was doing! Manoroma band with her assistant masala will invhastigate this matter for sure.
To mollify her disquiet mind, khushi starts to make jalebi. She is making jalebi after a long time. Arnav's message is open in front of her. her mind is completely occupied with his thought only. She again rebukes her to think about him. He just messaged her, not talked to her. Her heart races in remembrance of their first meeting when she fell on his arm. And then with the ghost of pain gnawing at her heart she recalls his departure in the airport. Their first and last meeting both indelible memories make her heart heavy.
"my dream! Why I'm thinking of him so much? Somewhere something is wrong."
She daunts about her dream what she saw last night and senses the peril. Her eyes get turbid with sadness.
She again reprimands her to think positive and concentrate on jalebi. "An empty brain is a devil workshop."...she has to avert her formidable thought from her mind.
Khushi brings pile of jalebis on the table. Nani jeers, if whole day she eats jalebi, still she won't be able to finish them. Khushi gets embarrassed and says she just felt and made. Anjali quips, "felt to make or wanted to occupy your mind?"
khushi's moist hazel eyes flickers and reflects her inner turmoil. She knows why she made the jalebis.
Nani feels that there is less sugar in the jalebis. Khushi says, unknowingly she made the jalebis without sugar, as Arnav eats sugar free jalebi. Shyam roils to hear this, he can't see divulge of khushi's love and feelings for Arnav. So he says in a quick repartee, why she had to make sugar free jalebis, where saale sahab is not here? Anjali banters,
"What if, chottey is not here, but she can make it in his remembrance."
Her raw emotion spurts out at anjali's words. she can't remain in the faade of happiness any more. She runs inside her room to thwart a rising wave of emotions. Payal wants to go to comfort her sister, but nani admonishes her. nani knows how much Arnav's memory is torturing her! She thinks it's better to leave her alone.
When everybody was enjoying Khushi's delicious jalebi, babli didn't go unnoticed by masala mama. He remembers, she is that chotisi, chubbysi girl whom he saw in the temple. The red color is still there in her dress. Mami becomes more suspicious. When Babli hears that Akash is telling Payal to iron his shirt, she concocts another ploy against Payal. Mami and masala mama follows her. They have to observe her every moves.
Mami and masala mama are contemplating everything about Babli's suspicious activities. mami got a black board to write and brought the sindoor smeared sweets, Payal's cut pics and the broken phone also. Mami also keeps the binocular as her investigation material.
Khushi comes to her room and locks the door. She needs isolation to abate the clamor of her heart. She completely lost her self control and copious tears streams down from her alabaster cheek. She reminisces the first time she fed him jalebi when he was wilting without sugar.. The first feed from her hand was his life saver. For me that jalebi was her lips and he kissed her lips for the first time on that day.
"why she made sugar free jalebi? Where he is not here!" Her heart constricts with excruciating pain.
While keeping her clothes in the cupboard a pearl string of her dress tears, make the pearls scatter on the floor. The scattered pearls stir her memory and take her on the day when she first met him. that day he tore her pearl dori to snatch away her dignity.
Tu hi bata plays on the BG depicts her inner turmoil.
She remembers, she met him on the road and Arnav gave her money with a derisive smile to fix her scooty.
Since the day she met him, her life took a turn towards an unknown destination. So many times she wanted to move away from his life, but destiny kept throwing them together. And slowly, stealthily and unknowingly she implicated with him so viscerally that it's not possible to breach the relationship. On the other hand the trust between them is like a gossamer fine what breaks in a mere wind. Her despondent mind succumbs in the memories what she cocooned in the sacrosanct place of her heart. In soliloquy she expresses her feelings with constrict voice and with suppressed emotions. From sheesh mahal to airport, she ebbs in the memories of her turbulent journey with him.
kuch rishte ajeeb hi dor mein bandhe hote hai...
some relationships are tied by a strange thread.
takrar se shuru hote hai; nafrat ke saaye mein panapte hai
start with conflict; grow in the shades of loathe
girte hai parte hai lekin kayem rehte hai
they fall, they crash, but they remain
nafrat badti jati hai aur rishte ki gaath aur gheri hoti jaati hai
the hatred keeps on growing and the snarl of relationship becomes even more stronger.
itni. ki ek din nafrat bhi aur barne se sharma jati hai,
so much, that one day even the hate shies away from growing further.
aur woh rishta sirf ek bandhan ban ke reh jati hai.
and that relationship remains only as a bond.
lekin sirf nafrat ka.
But a bond of hatred only.
kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hai jaise nafrat ke iss mahal mein kuch toh hai
sometimes it feels there is something in this air of hate,
jo humse kehta hai ki, iss ansuni, aanjani si, ankahe se ehsaas ko
ek mauqa toh do
that says to me, give a chance to this unheard, unknown, unspoken feelings.
par jis rishte ki niv hi nafrat par rakhi hui ho usse kuchh bhi umeed lagana nadani nahin toh kya hota hai?
it's foolishness, but nothing else to expect something from this relationship whose root is hatred
aur shayad yeh nadani hum kar baithe
and perhaps i did this foolishness.
varna kyu itne nafrat ke bawajud hume aap ki yaad aa rahi hai?
otherwise why in spite of so much loathe, I'm thinking of you?
kyu hum aap se larte hain, jhagarte hain, lekin apke jaane ke baad aap hi ki rah dekhte hain,
I fight and quarrel with you, but why i am longing for your return after you left.
hawao se baatein karte hain
talking with the winds about you.
All the images that imprinted in her mind with heart rending, soul searing clarity, float to her, one by one like rain drops falling on parched earth.
She landed on his arm in the fashion show. His shocking gaze veered from her eyes to her lips with raw passion.
He tore the pearl string of her dress to snatch away her dignity;
He saved her in the guest house when nobody heard her plea, but he did.
He made her traffic control in the rainy night. But warding her also and saved her from a running car. In the heavy rain he lifted her drenched body in his arm and for a while didn't let her go.
On the teez day in the mandir, he also saved her from falling when she fainted and carried her in his arm like a fragile doll.
She called him loose character and in rage he tweaked her towards him made her body crushed against him.
Gradually he became close to her and she also felt a strange pull towards him. She knew her heart beats erratically in front of him, but she couldn't dare to give it a name of love.
And one day he compelled her to marry him for six months. She didn't know the reason, but on that day she was bewildered at the unfairness of her destiny.
On their bali in delhi honeymoon, he danced with her in spite of his abhorrence, but still his eyes were murky with desire for her.
And one day he revealed the reason of his loathe for her, mortified her soul completely. She tried so hard to prove her innocence. But he left without listening her plea. She recollects how he extricated his hand from her grip to go far away.
In the wake of this realization, there raged a tempest in her mind, which impended to throw thoughts, values, morality, emotions and every thing else that stood in it's meander, into a chaos. Only one thought, reigned supreme over the inner conflict ravaged landscape..."I can't live without you."
during Arnav's absence shyam is trying all his dirty tricks to come close to Khushi. When anjali was taking food to Khushi's room,, shyam chides her for not taking her medicine. She sent her to take rest and wanted to go to Khushi's room with food. Anjali agrees, as she is hoodwinked by his guileful words. Anjali tells him to be careful with her as she is upset nowadays.
When shyam comes in the threshold of Khushi's room, she sternly tells him to get out. But the creep gets in forcefully. Her anger pulsates to see his effrontery. Shyam tells her if she doesn't eat, he will also not eat. The rogue wishes to feed her by his hand. Khushi abominates to hear his cagey words. she eats a bit in fulminating anger. She adds lots of pepper in the daal and tells him to eat.
"you have to eat. Plz don't say no."
Shyam eats the whole bowl of pepper mixed daal and wipes his mouth in resentment,
"aapki liye humari chahat ko koi chunoti maat dijiye, aap haar jayegi hamesha ki tarah. Let me go."
Khushi rankles to hear his morbid thought.
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Edited by sohara - 11 years ago
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