This part is dedicated to my bro and di.....today is their first wedding Anniversary.....love you alots 😳
For You I Stay
Next morning:
I woke up about to get ready when I realized what day it was. I didn't want to see any of it, the confession to some guy she'll make
They say that best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart..though I have seen it and felt it...but will I ever be able touch it.....
It has to be that Ran vijay guy, the way he looks at her. Trying to get her attention, and always gets it.
What if they started dating?
Will there be any reason left to come to school or to live?
Though Behind my smile is a hurting heart.. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.Look closely at me and you will see, the guy I am...isn't me.because I don't have her.
I sighed and walked out of my room. Thinking about the my life without her....I desire to live with her and ready to die for her but still she is not mine....
Afternoon:
I walked around the area, I stopped and leaned against the concrete wall.
I won't stop going.
Even if she does go out with someone.
I still want to see her. Even if I can never have her.
I love her that much, that I'm just glad to see her.
I chuckled, when did I become like this.
I was never the type to hang out with friends, I would keep to myself and stay silent.
When I came to this college though, she was different that those that I was used seeing.
I had to admit, she looked like an angel.
She might be, I smile and sometimes laugh when I think of her. I can't do it around her, we're never alone.
Sometimes I want us to be, but what would I do then.
Arpitha...I can't call her that. Even though it suits her.
I walked down the hallway, I turned the corner and hit somebody.
"Watch where you're go-" I stopped, I looked down at her, Arpitha looked up at me. "You alright?" I asked, I knew I sounded worried. I can't help it around her.
"I'm fine." She said, I gestured my hand towards her. She held on as I pulled her up. I noticed she looked down, my hand was still holding hers. I let go quickly.
"Hello." She said, I furrowed my eyebrows at her.
"Hello." I muttered, I put my hands in my pockets and walked away. I heard her footsteps.
"Yes?" I asked without turning around.
"Um...I..." She said, 'No answer.'
"Why are you following me?" I asked.
"I was...um...why didn't you come to school today?" I stopped.
Why does she want to know?
She noticed I was gone...
Maybe it was the fact I didn't go to that class.
That was almost as rare.
"I didn't feel like going." I said, no feeling in my voice.
"Why?" She asked.
"Why do you want to know?"
"Uh..well-I was...nnnn." I raised my eyebrow, I didn't face her so she didn't see.
Does she really want to know?
"It's because it was Valentine's day." I said.
"You don't like it?"
"The girls get annoying, so I just left."
"Oh...okay." I started walking, I still heard her footsteps..
"Why are you still following me?" Her footsteps stopped.
"Oh I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-"
"You don't have to say sorry." I kept walking.
I didn't want her to say sorry.
It doesn't matter where she goes, I can't tell her where to go.
Why does she keep following me?
I don't mind, I want her around.
Soon we passed through the park, near the lake.
"Um, Avdhesh." She said, I stopped and looked back at her.
I can feel my heart pounding a little harder.
The way she said my name, I never heard her say it.
I only want her too.
Her eyes widen, realizing what she did.
"I'm sorry, I can't call you that-"
"It's alright...I don't mind you calling me that." I muttered.
"Oh, okay. I know you don't like girls doing this but-" She was about to pull something out of her bag when the fence she was leaning on split in two. Her body started to fall, I moved forward and grabbed her before she fell in. By pulling her, her body was under me. I looked up into her eyes.
A soft black, a small shine in her eye. I coughed realizing what I was doing, I got up. She looked down as she got up, brushing the dirt from her clothes.
"Thank you." She said, I nodded.
"What were you saying?" I asked remembering what she was doing right before, a small blush on her cheeks.
"Um, here." She took out something from her purse and gestered it towards me. Her hands extended, her bangs covering her eyes as she looked down on the ground. "You don't have to take it. If you don't like choco-" I took out the bar out her hands, she looked up. It was a candy bar, I took off the wrapper and broke off a piece, I tossed it in my mouth.
"Thanks." I said.
"You don't have to eat it if you don't like it." She said.
She really doesn't know.
"I like chocolate." I said, I broke off another piece. "And yours taste good."
I tried to understand why I said that, it is the truth though.
"I'm glad you like it." She said. I stared at her, studying her.
She's glad?
Why would it matter.
Does my opinion really count?
"I was hoping to give it to you earlier today. But since you didn't come...I..."
"Why do you want to give it to me?" I asked.
She wanted to give to me, she could've given it to someone else.
"I-I want to give it to-to you. Because I-I."
I watched as she fidgeted with her hands, pulling a strand of hair behind her ears.
I restrained myself from wanting to hold her.
From wanting to protect her.
To know more about her. To know everything.
I want to stay beside her.
To kiss her, whenever I wanted to.
When did I become so much in love with you?
"Arpitha." I said.
I need to.
"Yes?" She asked.
"I'm sorry." She furrowed her eyebrows.
"Wha-" I stopped her. I did what I always dreamt of doing, the thing I always thought about it during those classes.
I kissed her. I felt her shoulders tense, her hands over my chest.
Was she going to push me away?
Instead, her arms went around my neck.
I felt her move more closer to me, I held her around her waist.
Her lips moved along with mine. I kissed her more passionate.
She didn't stop me.
I wanted to kiss her.
I need to kiss her.
I need her.
How did in one day, instead of imagining her kiss, I'm living this reality.
I pulled away needing air, she panted lightly. I looked straight into her eyes.
I haven't looked into her eyes this much, or this long.
Those eyes convinced me.
I need to tell her.
"You are the reason for everything."
I'm actually saying this.
"The reason I go to the first class is because you're there. I didn't see the point of going when you weren't in my other classes."
I want to see you in every class. Everyday.
"Then when Chulbul started that rumor, I wasn't even sure if I should come."
He told everyone my reason, I thought of not going.
I can't.
"I didn't come today...I didn't want to see you to confess to some guy..."
It hurt to think of you with someone else, I know you aren't mine. I can't help thinking this way.
"You are different from the other girls, something about you attracted me."
It isn't something, everything about you attracted me.
"I need to tell you today, even though you don't feel the same way."
How can you? You can have any guy you want, someone better than me.
"There's no else in my heart besides you."
No one was in my heart.
Yet somehow, you resided.
"I love you Arpitha."
I said it.
The words that haunted me.
The very words I wanted to say to her.
I love you.
I can never hear them from her.
She doesn't feel anything like that about me.
Even though I love her... how can I expect her to love me back?
"I had to tell you." I muttered, running my fingers through my hair. I walked away.
"Wait!" She screamed. I stopped and looked at her, her eyes fixed upon mine.
"You didn't give me a chance to tell you..." She said.
"I don't need to know what guy stole your heart." I said. I don't need to hear another name come from you, if I do know.
I can't handle it.
Her eyes lowered slightly.
"Even if its you." She said, I froze.
Did she say-
"Me?" I asked. She nodded.
"I love you Avdhesh." She said.
Those words began to reveal their true meaning.
She said them, those words.
I placed my hands around her shoulders, holding her closer to me.
"Are you sure?" I asked. She raised her eyebrow.
"You don't think I-"
"It's not that. I just never expected that." I rested my head on her shoulder.
I didn't.
If I knew this was going to happen.
I would've confessed earlier.
"So does that mean we're..." She started to asked, she blushed as I looked up at her. That look on her face.
I never did this in front of everyone, I never showed feeling.
With her, I want to be different.
I wanted to smile... and I did.
She looked at me, a small smile on her lips.
"You get nervous easy don't you." I said, my hand on her right shoulders, my forehead touching his.
"I-I was just asking if we-" I nodded.
Her smile grew wider.
"You're glad?" I asked, she nodded, I chuckled. She hugged me tightly.
"I never thought you would say that to me." She said. I lifted her chin and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
"I didn't think you would say that either." I said, she rested her head on my shoulder.
"Do you mind...if I do this everyday?" She nodded.
"You would?" She asked.
"I do weird things I don't usually do because of you. And I waited two years, I won't wait any longer." She giggled.
"You can." She said, closing her eyes.
There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved.... here I love her and being loved by her
The next day I walked her to school, learning a few things about her.
The school went wide-eyed at us, I had my arm around her waist.
I smiled, I laughed, I talked more than I usually do, only around her.
Her friends went crazy, that Chulbul smiled with a knowing look in his eyes.
The whole college began new rumors. I didn't care what they said.
The guys that adored Arpitha cried, Arpitha didn't understand why.
I did another thing that surprised everyone.
I attended every class.
For my love Arpitha i will always stay...
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Edited by yoga23priya - 14 years ago